A Moment In Time by: gentle-soul © June, 1999

                                             For a brief moment in time, I knew a love that exceeded all my
                                             expectations and my spirits soared and I flourished. I gave
                                             freely of my love, of all I hold dear and cherish, when I was
                                             in your arms, I felt that I could conquer the world. My fears
                                             were all at bay, there was nothing I felt I couldn’t do. Under
                                             the warmth and tenderness of your love I became everything I
                                             knew I could be.

                                             Passion, once I thought I would never experience true
                                             fulfillment but I learned that true love is experienced when
                                             selfishness becomes a word that doesn’t enter the picture. I
                                             was complete, because my desire was to make you happy.
                                             Strange, but I never gave myself a thought, you were the
                                             missing link, the part that completed me...are all adjectives
                                             that I could use to describe my love. But more aptly
                                             fitting...are laughter, sunshine and light, like after a long
                                             bitter winter, we are attracted to the warmth of the summer
                                             sun and heat. I was drawn to you in much the same way, I was
                                             inexplicably warmed beneath the heat of your gaze and the fire
                                             of your eyes. The ice that surrounded my heart was melted
                                             beneath the heat of your lips upon mine.

                                             Days were spent in sweet anticipation of our hours together,
                                             every thought and action, were of pleasing you. Meals were
                                             prepared with such loving attention, baths were drawn with
                                             loving reverence, in the desire to give you all that you
                                             desire. I would ache with loneliness, in your absence, and
                                             count the hours till your return.

                                             Daydreams occupied my afternoons, filled with sweet, erotic
                                             reminiscing of our passion filled nights. Of your tender care,
                                             and strong arms holding me through the night.

                                             Then suddenly, my body jerks awake, I sit tense, listening
                                             intently. Still hovering within the vestiges of my sleep
                                             induced fantasy. Body acutely feeling the emptiness of the
                                             bed, my mind becoming slowly aware of the quiet stillness of
                                             the house around me. Slowly awareness seeps in that I am
                                             quite alone and that the images still in my mind were only
                                             fantasy evoked by a deep routed need, my awake mind would
                                             never acknowledge. But safe within the confines of my
                                             bedroom in the middle of the night safely cloaked by darkness
                                             it's safe to examine my longings and admit to myself that is
                                             what I most crave.

                                             To love unconditionally, to give mind body and soul, and to
                                             have that loved returned with no strings attached. Best friend,
                                             lover, confidante, but most of all nurturing. Someone who
                                             would love me not in spite of my flaws but because of them,
                                             accepting me for who and what I am. To be given shelter and
                                             sanctuary when I need it and allowed to flourish and fly free
                                             when I need to spread my wings but being that constant force
                                             in the background . In return, I will offer my whole being,
                                             to encourage you to follow your dreams as you encourage me
                                             to follow mine, to love you unconditionally and not use
                                             blackmail to achieve what I want. But most importantly to
                                             love you, to share with you, to be your friend and confidante,
                                             and not use that knowledge to hurt you.

                                             Idealistic at best, but I still harbor hope, that one day I
                                             will find you and when I do...the dreams at night will end...to
                                             be replaced by a living dream, which will be my life with you.

One Moment In Time