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previous posts ... small thing, big impact: ... it's friday!!! ... me:
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The feeling of being in a constant state of limbo is beginning to wear me down. My driver's license says i live at one address, but my phone number is at another, and my heart isn't even in the same city. Already i am dreading the end of the weekend when i have to leave Master and return here.
i think i am finally becoming more emotionally prepared for "the big step". i have started looking at myself in the mirror and saying "what are you waiting for janine?" i am going to move. i want to do this. i need to do this. i won't be truly content again until i do. And my cat is already there. And the most important fact, the one i have had trouble digesting ... believing ... Master WANTS me there. He does. i have to believe that i have that much value. That He sees the inside janine, not just the outside. my commen sense knows that He does, my heart is figuring it out finally. That He likes what He sees in me, as much as i like what i see in Him. He isn't the only one who has value in this relationship. i do too. We both do. Together. Saying it out loud makes it more real. i'm listening :) ... shadoe ... November 19/99
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