Effort only fully releases its reward
after a person refuses to quit
i slouch. i try not to, but invariably i can usually be found hunched over my desk, or walking about with a slightly rounded posture. And, i have discovered, most Dominants (well at least the ones i know) don't allow this.
Another thing i have discovered is that Sir doesn't particularly care for underwear. On me i mean. Seems it's okay for Doms to wear what i affectionately call "gitch". But not so for the little subbie.
What's the connection? Well, after yet another weekend of being bare butt and breasted, and hyper conscious of my posture (feeling His hand against my spine, gently pushing, has a way of reminding me) i have come to a conclusion that i am sure He didn't intend. But works in my head anyway.
Without the support of a bra, i find myself pulling back my shoulders in order to "lift" my 40-something breasts (age that is, not size!). And without the coverage of panties, wearing skirts and dresses means i have to be very aware of how i bend, say, to pick something up, and to be very aware of how i am sitting. And walking up a flight of stairs is a entirely new adventure, especially when there are people around. Looking up. Suddenly, tugging at the hem of my skirt, pulling it a bit closer against my bum, seems like a very good idea. Except it has now just occurred to me that it most likely emphasizes the shape. And the wiggle.
Shoot.
i like the vulnerability. i like the decadence of being "naked" under my clothes. i like the arousal it causes me. i like knowing that i don't have a choice anyway, that He has decided this is how He wishes me to be. And i like the idea that my posture is improving. It's even getting easier to admit all this. i guess i am learning more than i realized.
And getting by with much less in laundry chores. Now THAT is a good thing!
:)