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9/18-19/02
Hi this is being writen on the 19th but is about the 18th.
-Did my norm in the day.
-Got new playstation 2. (old one broke, so I exchanged it)
-Me and a friend went to a bible study tonight. it was really fun and interesting. very open to just talk about anything..My friend seems to have made a good new friend, or met some one who she really liked a lot. I had been praying that this would happen, that she would meet a good mature Christaion, that could be a friend and mentor.. I know it was compleatly God b.c I had been praying for this to happen, how ever it dident happen with the person I thought it might be,and even tryed to get it to be. It happened with some one totaly unexspected, and hounestly a person I hadent even thought of, im hoping it truns out to be a really good thing.
-More unsure feelings when I got home....I am praying that I truly am not being rebilous.. maybe I need to comply in a diffrent way.. so im thinking....Probly just that..might it be becouse of someone? I dont know, so im hoping God sees me through this.. im so confused on this matter.. oh well im not going to worrie Its in Gods hands, just like every thing else, and just like the thing that happened tonight. Or sould I say things.. Thanks God bless for today thats all. Truth. Thanks for reading :o)
9/19/02
Good morning:My day begins already. From a conversation with my dad from the night before, I needed to talk to my mom.. which I did. It seems that there was nothing to worry about, all is still the same as was from a conversation I had with her earlier. It was deleing with my being "Rebellious", and I was assured by her that I was not being so.... Then that night I come home and my dad gives me a small talk about how he didnt like my "rebellious" adatude... so I was praying as seeking with all my hart why I was and how I can change. My dad also said how he AND my mother were not liking this adatude... my mind was peeked. I thought she Had just that day told me she didnt see me as being so... So I was confused.. upset.. Maybe it was just because it was so late... maybe it was the HUGE amount of caffeine I had taken in, but I couldnt sleep hardly at all that night, (for more then just this reason) and maybe the devil just was attacking me. so I prayed, and some time around 5ish I finally got some good sleep, till about 9:45. well then I wake up, made a phone call.. (to someone, where I had to replan something, I felt really bad lol) and then I was going to pray and my mom woke up.. so I talked to her, and she reassured me that she wasnt seeing me as being rebellious. So all thoughts consumed, and Im going to keep going about my day. and praying. I think I will probably be receiving a lot of grief from my dad more often now.. but I dont want to make it hard on him either, so ill take it humbly and Give up of my self as much as possible. Thanks God bless you.. (IM GOING SPULNKING ON SATURDAY YEEEHAAAAA)I Just want to add... I LOVE MY DAD AND MOM SOOO MUCH, THEY ARE ENCRIDABLE PEOPLE. WHO LOVE GOD WITH ALL THERE HEARTS, I LOVE HONER RESPECT AND OBAY THEM! I mean nothing agenst any one in these posts.. I love you all so much. And you (my folks) are the most God inspired loving people I know! Love them so much. Were all just a little stressed right now so its all ok. ~Thanks~
9/19/02
God has opend up my prayer life again. even greater now. Its so great. And I think God used my dear friend Rachelle To help, we had a conversation the other night about this all, (prayer and reading the bible stuff) and how it was really hard for me..and her..my dad and I also have talked before about this, and I had even prayed about it,and you know it happens sometimes.. but you know Chell our conversation really helped open me up, so now this morning I was able to really just take time, and not have anything holding me back! Thank you Lord. Thanks for using my friend chell as well, and my Dad. ~Truth~
9/20/02
Went to Work
Home
Feeling like i am........
Just saw a care bare tv add wow there coming back haha awesome! Ill update this more tonight. umm Hi, im kind of scared.. i just miss my friend....so much. im sorry i make this so complex.... sleep it is time for. All in Gods hands, so im glad, just let things,We stay as we are, im glad, God is good. LOVE for Tomrrow a new day for my Lord.
9/21/02
TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF FALL, THIS IS MY FAV. DAY OF THE YEAR!!!
I could have been Splunking today, but now i feel as if im waisting away. This day, its so nice out. One sayes "Theres allways something to do" and indeed there is, im sure i could come up with LOTs of things to do out side, and i shall, but im tired of doing them by my self. I wish i could just be with my friends, couldent make it to wilmore eather (last ditch effert to save day) b.c moms van to full, cant take other car eather. Oh well. im sure something will come up.....im just so board/lownly. Oh well, im sure something will comealong. LOL Bye intill then. HI, guess what? ITS NOW THEN! except its not then its now, just how? b.c then happend then, as now is now, and shall be then there for some thens have to be now! ....or do they? BUWHAHAH. ok So Gods just showing me again and humbling me again, and that i needent get gloomy, Every ugly has a sliver lining!! I love God, And you know, even though i dont deserve it... He blessed me and let me beable to see my friend for a bit. Man i just need to lisent to Him more eh? lol. Anywho God IS good and i allways think so. (think being thought, b.c every thought has to be thinked) lol lol haha ok im leaving. ! love ! God bless you. bye
9/21/09
Hi, Great day, went to church got stock in a trafic jam lol haha so was a little......uuhh yeah late hahaha. Then went out to eat with my pall. And got some mxpx cds (ones a gift to a brother over seas) the other is my first MXPX CD!! (that i bought lol) then just hanging around, wonderful day, very nice out. So God is good. looks like don and some others get to go caving as well!! (im so excited) im just getting so excited thinking about this, im actually getting invalved and making friends in the church, i mean i just....wow!!!! IM SO EXCITED HAQHAHAHAHAHAHAH! OK SO ITS GREAT!!!!!!! IM MAKEN FRIENDS WITH REAL PEOPLE....uhhh!!! AHAHAHAHHA YEEHAAA! lol so ok im out-a here, God belss you see ya. bye
9/23/02
Well today is a great day! Its so nice out side.
I have come to realise in a deeper way how important it is that i work really hard at getting my school work done. God has just been reviling to me things in order so that i would see how badly i need to do as much as i can. So I have a greater deadacation to my school work and learning prossece in such subjects now! Also I juat have been thinking about things, Ill write them in the thoughts page about my self or what ever its called, Who cares. lol. well im going to go skateboard now, God bless you, bye
9/25/02
An awe-inspiring day.
did school and packed and skateboarded like normal at the start of the day, but then Rachelle and i went to the bible study at Collins house. It was so great, i just keep seeing my prayers ancered. I feel like a forener there though, b.c its been so long. I have been stuck in the same position for so long, that its like, i feel some quick form of excitment, then it just goes away as quick as it came, i think its b.c i dont really realise whats going on, and so its like, WOH! lol, But im so super blessed, All you guys up there are so great im so excited, there blessing my life so much, and then a few of us after the study went out to eat at the ancour grill (probly dident spell it right) wow it was really very good!!! Then (HEHE COOL PART COMING UP) Rachelle and i went to walmart (not as cool as this...) But on the way to collins we saw this really awesome little red car for sale! AND AT 1:30 ish in the morning lol, (on our way home) We went and checked it out, WHOA THIS CAR IS AWESOME! lol its got Lundon writen all over it, So Rachelle and i are going to call the person and inquire some info on the vhicle! HEHE!!! Exciting eh! Welp God bless you, bye
9/27/02
I can not put on here what i orignaly put about today, it is something dont want even you to read about. That is all i can say. so i shall just keep praying.. God is good
9/28/02
Frustrated..
Tired..
A thought chrushed my mind.
10/1/02
Hi its been way to long.. im so sorry...
I have had a lot going on, i cant put everything thats happening-all here, just Know that you are dear. Had a lot of fun last satruday night,
-Last saturday night, was the last night we will ever have church in this (407 N. main) house...... It was a spicle night, and im so glad i got to spend it with the people i love so much. Sunday was oh so much fun, a bunch of us from the vine were given the opertonity to witness to a man by the name of Gary at a restrant (he was our waiter) WE ALL planted the seed! Or watered the one that was allready there i should say! I got to go to a place called Jungle jims it was great! Huge store with everything foren there! (most everythign) Also Got to go to a frineds church (Brandon) on sunday night. Then on monday i worked.. but the best thing about that hole day was that i got to go for a long relaxing walk with my best friend Rachelle.. We chilled and just exsicted! *Cant exspress emotions* but it was fun!...*hopes she will not be put off by my saying that, its just true* And today!!! i went to work also, came home and crashed, i have yet to finish my school! haha, and tonight ill be babby sitting my siblings. Big note
-Sunday. Nathan was hurt really really bad on a skateboard! He has a contugent on his Kidney from his fall. Some bleeding. A little scared, so please pray for his safty. Theres a posiblity that he will need a cat scan.
OK, thats all for now.
God bless you, Lots of love to you all.
Aaron
10/28/02
Have these 28 days really gone by. I still cry at why.. I laugh at the fact that i have become what i can not see.. Though im not to be like this forever bound. For even this gets older too. Age through time Brings Comferted change. I guess you can see it how you wish.. I shall just quite my bellie aken. :O)
I have moved. I Guess it was a stressful time.. I shall say i was i guess hit by it. but not till later in the move (its taken the hole mounth) But it all happened so fast I dident really knwo how to think about the hole mesh. But you know as much as it is hard, to sleep with out my dog, Or come home and not be where you have rested the past five years. I know that God is taking me along the path He has made me fore, God made me for a reason, and has made this path for me to take. I guess im not afraide of changing.. Maybe just letting go.. If that makes sence. But even this has its time, and it shall pass. I have had the chance to spend time with friends.. With many thoughts. I have crossed many Paths. I wish i could take the right one. Why dose it seem that im stuck on the one i am.. Though is it me? Or dose He want me too..? Hehe i guess its ok... allaround. God is good, thank you for your friendship thouse who have chosen to read this long.. i would love to read longer of your life story.. As long as it takes :o) I Love b.c He Loves. even though i feel the pain.
11/20/02
Its about a week before thanksgiving. Im going to my small group to have a thanksgiving dinner my little brother is coming and so is rachelle. Time is passing my every breath. what will happen next. Trust not your own understanding, i only understand that things are flying by and sometimes i screem sometimes i cry. But not all sadness and wohes Life is a beutie That i love to kiss. TOday I shall not miss. MY own entiontens are not of me. I read some of Mere Christainity last night, great book, i cut my leg at work the other day with an exacto knife. It dident hurt i just now know what it feels like to cut through cloth and in to clean flesh. A very sick and weard feeling. it was only a small cut, bout half an inch. Monday my sisters friend Anna is coming over, shall be quite the fun. I hope to talk to her about cams a little. Well im off to Salvege someones soul. Or maybe just go to wal-mart. Talk to you later, Christs Love, Aaron
12/01/02
Wow im thinking...its not going to be 2002 any more coming up real soon... I mean another year... what was going on last year, and the one before that.. whats happened? WOW haha good things have come to pass.
So HERES WHATS GONE ON OVER THE PAST week!
-Last sunday we dident go to church bc they dident have it for the service i normaly go to, and i was going to go out with my fam. but that got cancled so i just chiled around the house. I think i went to walmart you know. i mean thats fun stuff right?........haha
-monday: well monday i went to work, it was fun you know. The thoughts of the week to come were passing through my mind. And i saw teusday before it came...Dont think i got any school done that day...uh no inface i havent gotten any done in ...a few weeks, its been so busy right? lol yeah it has..
-Tuesday: Tuesdays morning niped me in me butt, and i woke to a good day of work, well what i consider day. whats that? Well it really consist of me going in to work at 8 am and coming home at 11:30 or 12. Slacker. So yep i am. HAhA But then i chill around the rest of my day.. You should find more productive things to do right? Yeah...you know i think im going to... I wish i could be with my friends more... I know. But you got to see Eric tuesday.. Yep Eric came down for the week bc it was thanksgiving! So that was cool, he got here at like 10:30 or 11 that night. I WAS SO EXCITED!!! Good stuff!!! But one thing that really blessed me that day was that two of my spiclest friends stoped in, Allison and Phillip. I love them so much more than they know. It was such a blessing to me that they actually stoped just for a few just to say hi. It ment the hole week to me.
-Wen: OH the fun of wen. Dident have small group that night with dew understandign. But Eric, Rachelle and I all had the opertonity to spen the day with some friends form cincy. So we all met up at the vine and then went and say "Die a nother day" which i must say i was ashamed at this bond film. well ok most all of them i am ashamed by. But hanging with the folks was fun, we also went bowling! Which i have had a grudge agenst for some time now, but that nite i think cleared it up, i enjoyed the bolwing. I hade a strike the first role! And then it was all down hill. haha. Eric clams that i lost on perpuse.... but i beg to differ. Oh do you, well yes you should know!
Thuresday- THANKSGIVING DAY!!!!! WELL WHAT DO YOU THINK I DID!!! i ATE! but there is a ceatch. our house church/small group peolpe all met at a friends house (time and melliony Adadres) House and had one big thanksgiving dinner, i did so enjoy it. But had many thoughts of complexity running through my mind at the time, so the full emotions of thanks giving couldent take the mind to sink in, sand in my shues i guess. Like that. But you know what it was a great time! OH YEAH! And lots of food, then The Ericmister Rachellers And I all took a leep for home after dinner, and watched a good movie, the devils own. ANd then Just chilled out i guess!
Friday- Friday we had our fun! Dont for get about your turky aaron! OH YEAH well you see, the boss (where i work) Was so kind as to give all the imploies fresh off the farm terkys ours was 23 pounds..... Quite the fun! So we had that friday night for dinner, i aslo went and saw my dog friday day, i missed her so much, and i got to have a quick talk with a friend of mine (they know who they are) That night when we were with my dog, and sort of ...just clear things up .....for me if anything. So it was cool, a good day!
saturday: Oh boy its saturday! Welp we just hung around, actually Eric and i dident wake up untill 12 then we watched some tv. i had quite a bad head ake to be hounest with you, and my neck hurt. then we had church, came home went to dairy queen and talked.
Sunday: Sunday, i woke up sleepy, hoped in the shower, and then stoped at the movie store so Eric chell and I could all watch a move before Eric had to go, we watched that, and then Rachelle and i Took Eric to lex. And droped him off, on the way home i stoped in and saw my dog with Rachelle. That really was a blessing. Then i droped her off and headded for home. A few talkings with my folks and then wal-mart. Dinner. And then PHILLIP AND ALLISON STOPED IN AGAIN!!!!!! YEEEEHAAAA. So that was cool. Just getting to see them for a few! OK so thats it for this section for now! ill ttyl God bless you, see ya. Bye
12/14/02
Its been a few good days so ill start with this week.
-Monday: i decided to compermise school for monday and tuesday and work both days for the hole day so that i could make a little extra money before we leave for new mexico. so monday i worked 8 till 5 then came home and actually took a look at school with my dad.
-Tuesday: Same thing over again, just i dident get to school with my dad that night, im not totaly sure what i was......uhh ok i was talking on line....haha
-Wen. I dident work BUT i did go to the Bible study that Rachelle and I attend. And that let me tell you was an awesome night! One of the best Study times we have taken, at least for me it was. God was really working in my life there that night. One step closer :o)
Thursday- IT WAS PHILLIPS BIRTHDAY!!!! YEEEEEHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! In the early part of the day i read a chapter in my science work. THEN I GOT ALL READY AND WENT TO WILMORE!!!! know why???? BC IT WAS PHILLIPS BIRTHDAY! You think i would miss that? come on!!!!! lol AND MY OTHER TOTALLY AEWSOME FRIEND ERICS BIRTHDAY IS ON THE 17TH YEEHAA!
BUT yeah so i went down and gave phill a good saprise. And hung out with him and allison which is allways fun. Allways! And phill burnd me a cool cd.
-Friday: OHH the fun well i over sleped. by a half an hour. Went to work,(at 8:30 ish) mom came and picked me up at 11 bc we had to be on the rode by 12:00 for winchester KY for the dance shows and all... Right after i got home from work i took a shower then went to walmart to get my check cashed, then made it home and we were out the dore and in the car driving down the what ever you call it, at 12:09! YEHA, then had to turn around at go back bc mom for got the coustums hahahah :o) silly ness, actually she was stressed, then we did the dance thing and i was very happy when my dad showed up. ( he was still home bc he had school stuff he was doing) BUT it went great nathan and betsy were awesome! As was every one else! (but you know i just got to rub off on me bro and sis) hehe. I also had the opertonity to meet some new people that God had cross paths with, and it was a blessing.
And now im sitting here at well over 2 am with 3 alie 8's in my system more suger than any human should have and very little sleep. haha i dont think ill update any more tongiht. SO sleep Good when you do, God bless you, and your family too lol.
~Truth~
(now sinign as)
Noraa'boraa
12/19/02
WEN-Well i saw the two towers. It was great. I loved it! A got to hang with my friends. and chill. Then i went to our bibly study that night. and got home late. Stayed up till 3 helping my dad grade his papers. He has to much work.
Thurs-work up late, went to company dinner with Rachelle.
Friday-hoping to see my dog, work in the morning than hoping i can see rachelle one last time. And then...........im out of here.
Sat through when ever- driving......gone
01/2/03
1:35 Wakes up, its jan first.. Dose nothing all day but the constint playing of video games, and a purches of a S-video cable and a box thing at walmart.
11:35ish wakes up, its the 2 of jan. Gets out of bed, longing for more sleep but knows my body is not willing to take any more on. Plays Marrio Sunshine on Game cube, than writes list of things to do today and what i need from the store. 1:read bible 2:read Cs lweis 3:work out Pfht haah 4: Update blog (done and done!) 4: Practice some drawing stuff, whats needed at the store, Lotion, and Dog bones for carmen as a christmas gift. On that note, i want you to know how much i miss my dog, i cry bc i miss her so much bc i love her so much, i look at here photo, i see her eyes pering in to my own as she allways did, she seemed to allways know what i ment before i even brought it about. She is unexsplainable, i love her, and i miss her. *soul longs for her and crys* But i know this time, and God has brought it to be that she must be else where from me and i her. OK SO ON TO HOW MY TRIP IN NEW MIXCO WENT!!!! OK so over Christmas We went as a family to New Mixco to visit my aunt and uncle, whom i love very much so, It was a great time, a long 30 hours of driving there and then 30 back, yes 60 hours!!! lol. We got there late, the trip there was cool though, seeing Texas for the fist time since i was born was a unexsplainable joy to me, it was flat, and the collors were like watter collors, of Red Gray brown and green, all along side the flat blue horizion. It was splended and flat, you looked out on the land and it never ended. We saw many flocks of birds that must have been in the 1000's no joke! It was like it was right out of the Lord of the rings or something, LOTS of them just Flying in the sky making it black and crasy like watching a tornado of birds fly to and frow, IT WAS SUPER COOL!!!! I got lots of pics the way up, When we were there we did lots of thigns, of corse Christmas day was awesome, lots of gift giving all the way around! lol. We got to see the air force base that we stayed on , my uncle is in the air force. Hes a masters sargent! (hehe just had to say that) There were lots of cool things, like the store on bast thats like a walmart theres no tax for them! HEHE cool eh! We saw there work out Gym thing, and me and my cuzz went to the reck bilding, and nate betsy and i and my cuzz Kenny all played pool and ran a muck! it was cooL! Then we also Got to see the White Sands, which is a national park .....desert.....where the sand is so white that it really looks like snow! how ever it snowed allmost the hole time there for us so.....the sands really were snow hahaha, but i must say i am really quite honerd that i got to play in the snow in the desert and take photos of a small snow man in the desert haha it was cool! we drove up in to the mountains and just had a allround blast! But now i am home, and the prospect of work tomrrow and studdys is beckoning at my dores, and letting me know that i cant leave reality for ever haha. So im back! Well thats that! Gods blessings to you, oh and yeah our trip home was safe, real quick it seemed i think to be honest with you, the trip home probibly took only about 25 hours! Welp Gods blessings to you, See ya
~Me~
1/04/03
Well, another week has gone bye. (am i sad?) i dont know, it was a good week.... of corse.
Tuesday i did not much, lest it was tuesday last i updated.
Friday i worked.. came home, not much was done, but i watched a christmas carol with my dad and sibs. Mom was on pc,
Here it is saturday allready, no not the feeling as if the weeks gone by so fast and here comes the next im diving in feeling, rather the *sigh* another week....*am i waiting for something?* i dono know....But here i am, saturday night, no church tonight bc my mother and brother are sickly feeling. But we saw the Two towers today, this was the second time i saw it, i saw it with my brother sister father and 3 other of my sis's and mutual familly friends. It was quite the time. Then i aproched the rest of the day with the perspective of nothing but gather to do. So i concumed the though of an anime, and i watched one, it was rather silly, as i dident get in to it much, it dident take to my taste so i probibly wont be consuming my self with that one any more for more than one reason (crazy anime people) This worked me up just a little bit, as such things can do, but i realised that It dosent matter. And i sat down to read some of a Great C.S. Lewis book. That consumed time untold as it was time loved. Untill my mind was broke with the sight of some one on AIM that i dident exspect hence forth from then on, i layed my books to rest and took up a hobby of mine, which lasted a good long time as well. And now really here i am, my life as it is. I could easly say im bord, but i told my self i would never do that again, as i realise how thankful for the very seconds of life i breath in and that i should never waist them on my own selfish desires to have attention of such sort to clenze me of bordum. And that i would strive when i feel bord to GIVE all my time to God, no matter what. There for, im happy, so.. Im blessed. Untill we meet again.God bless you,
Love and Truth ~Aaron~
01/06/03
Today: I feel sick.. Flu..? maybe but im not going to let it take that much hold on me that ill find out what it really is..
work really tore me up today, i was feeling so sick, but it was the truck lode, so i dident want to call in, it would have been to much. I feel sick ugh.... Some chicken sup will do the trick... Im going to have to go to the docters on thursday... he has to check out my lower stomic... i have been bleeding again... it was really bad at the end of last week... it just wondent stop.. it might be do to food... i dono, so we have to go to the doc to see whats happening.. (this isent going to be an easy viset) yuck! But oh well.... Rachelle comes back that day as well. I hope i can go see her at the air port...... Well this is my life this week, wend is bible study i hope i can go, and that i wont be sick still.... sigh... Sunday was a good day.... i enjoyed just spending time with the people at the vine. Ok im going to go now..... Forever is just a day away.. ;o) Good bye
God bless.
me
1/8/03
Today: Thursday? Yep you got it... I woke, to find my neck in pain, my throught Hurt. Breathing only produced the uphevil of flem, drowning me in med's. no not really med's, but the rest yes.. WEeeel of corse the mornings gleem wore off. And i had the thought of looking at a 4:30 apointment at the docs for my .......eh viset..... yes... lol i went, and well it all went good, he dident have to do any probing haha.. which is good, he talked to me, check me out in the normal way "blood presure" and so on, he took a blood sample just to make sure i wasent anemic. Which to his word, im very far from it. Very far. lol. Which is good! But dident salve my probiblem of bleeding....so he checked me out for a sec, and everythign looked ok on the out side, annnnnd he said with some one keeping up as well as i am now adays, he said he dident think it was anythign... maybe just hemorides...but he wasent even sure...so he said that it would be best if i went and saw some one on getting a Colonoscopy from some one...which wont be fun...at all. so im praying about it. but hey anywho, my dad said that it might not even be worth seeing some one for that...it looks like it could just be dew to diet... so anyways, thats been my day, my mom is still very sick. and its not fun. so pray for her if you can. Thanks God bless you, untill next time
~Me~
1/13/03
Hello again. Today is monday, But im starting on wen. of last week. :o)
Wen: I started the day, took a trip to walmart, we were all still feeling a little sick. My friend Matt Vall was home from college, and came to the Bible study thats on wen nights. It was really good to get to see him and hang out again. :o) I also found out on wen. that.....one of the best people i have ever worked with was let go, Allan little. It was sad, i was in shock that it happend bc he had worked there for...4 or some or more years now. On Turs. I ....dont think i dident much of anything, just....sat around. Oh yeah. the Docters..uhh i think i allready have this on my blog thoguh so ok on to.... Friday.... i worked.. It was a day of lamenting ;o/ and sort of an odd day at wortk to say the least. And then friday night.....I went with Rachelles mom Mona, to pick her up at the air port from her Long journie. But it was an odd feeling, i dont know......things just....seem diffrent...... *hangs head* I was ...kind of shocked to see her again, as if ied for gotten how wonderful her face is to look on.... i guess i stored some things up inside, that i had forgotten how she looked. I need to learn how to forgive people and my self.. I can say this openlly bc i lovc all my friends and they know this, :o)
Yes im a fool sometimes. but i love the Lord, and all of you. :o) Im sorry i can be ..... :o) But i was really glad i could see her again, even though it was for just a a little bit that night. She has quite a storie to tell. :o)
Saturday was good, had church, lights went out at ed and ems house where we had it and it was fun, bc then we got to have church by an elctric lantern. it was cool. And chell fell asleep haha ;o)
Sunday was by far the best day of this week for my spirit. Church was wonderful, the worship was so great. I liked just being in the main service by my self with out any one else my age around, i felt so close to God. And then after church i got to hang out with a bunch of really cool people. And make prank calls (thanks colleen, and amy) hahaha! TWAS FUN! HAHAHA
Really its the tree bark make you happy drink. paaaaa! anywho lol. ok haha, And then today at work, (monday) we all got the act lode done farely quick. But it was a rather small lode. So i wont be going in untill friday agian, bc they dont need me to so hehe.
well untill next time, Gods blessings to you. Seek His Truth allways ok!
NOrAA
1/21/03
Hey! Its me here. Not much happenin BUTTTTT on monday get this
MY FRIENDS PHILLIP AND ALLISON CAME UP AND HUNG OUT!!!!!!!!!!! it was sooooooo cool, i have just been feeling sooo lownly latlly, and to see them for just a bit kind of, just like. helped me to feel ok with doing things again, its just like, it gets to the point to where, you dont even want to work or study, its like theres just nothing, and its so lownly just being by your self, its like nothign. BUT when you get to hang out with ones you love, even for a bit, its like it makes doing work and studying a lot esayer, and like you can actually do it, bc your minds in a diff place, i guess. i cant really exsplain it, but im glad i got to see them, So.. i guess thats about it, worked past few days, yep thats it, ok Untill next time, God bless ya bye bye
1/31/03
HEY HEY HEY! Today is my birthday!!
YEAAAAH! lol ok yep today is it, im 19 come five oclock. The past few days have been really great. My life is very blessed, dispite the complaning i do (yes i know im a retard lol) But anywho so like get this. My friends Phillip and Allison took me to see this cool show, the main two bands playing: Norma Jean and... mewithoutYou!!!!!!! This was such a great show, that i can really say its the best show i have ever really been at. I thought i loved the band mewithoutYou, but then i heard them live...and now i think there my all time fav band. They were just that awesome, the lead singer (Aaron) was awesome, for one song he dident even sing in to the mic. He ran in to the cround and started to screem the words as the comunial voice of every one else fallowed along. Then at the very dramatic part in the song, he fell flat on his face and proceded to cralw back to the main part of the stage. It was awesome, just awesome, he would spin around and draw on the brick wall behind him, and sing agenst it. Very emotional. Awesome! My KIND OF SHOW! lol Norma Jean... wow....they dident have there singer, as he was sick. But heh we filled in for him, it was so mind blowing to hear the hole of every one sing as a choir to the words of the music they played. It was just awesome, and i met some cool people. ;o) "cool" lol anyways yeah. so it was great then the next day i was blessed by acomponing Phillip in his classes at asbury, and i met a few prof's which was great! I feel very much in the way that I REALLY want to go there. It would be just such a change, I hounestlly want the responciblity, bc then i could at least be on that sean. I dono, its going to be hard i know that. Very hard...working and studying.. and paying bills and all, but God is good and has blessed me more than i could ever diserve. With some awesome friends on top of that!!! (you know who you all are) ;o) lol And phillip and i made a few left standing cd for one of the "cool" that day.. we played some pool, he tore me up the first game, even put away some of my balls, and still took me down! lol the other game i had clean, but he helped haha (again hit some of mine in) we also both hit the 8 ball in haha, i did first though, like on my first turn or something lol wow anyways it was cool, good fun. So ok. welp thats it for now, God bless ya, if you think of it keep the college deal (asbury) for me in your prayers, thanks. :o) ~ Truth ~
02/04/03
Yesterday was hard, i felt so ....belittled to my own spirit.. its tuff sometimes dieing everyday...
Today: much easer, though i failed. Work was easy, gone in a few hours.. I dont have to go back in for a few weeks as were skiping a truck lode... movin to a new supplyer.. i miss allan...
Tomrrow, forever.
By the end of the week... i will have played a role in the part of the new comer at asbury college. To my own fally i am frightned of nothing that is. So im fine, standing in line, hoping to get in. Praying " Dear God please may i go there, please?" My friends are great. Love you all. Good bye
God bless you. Untill next time
~AaRon
2/14/03
WElP Its been a really long time, so im going to start with the day before i visited asbury college.
Ok So day before asbury college viset....
Dont remember
<__>
But i had an AWESOME time for the college viset, heres what i did!
I got to town and hung with my great pall Phillip! Then he and i went to the grill to pick up my stuff, i got my packet filled with college goodies. and look at the room i was assined to stay in. We reasoned that it was a sucky place, so i stayed in a diff place.(after we hung out in the dorms for a bit) me and phill went back to the gril so i could get a photo id. Phill played pool, and took a good long time trying to get that darned 6 ball in (i know i was watching haha) Then! we went back to the dorms played some friken halo! WOO YA BABY! Shot it up some, then i took phill home, and made my way back to the grill lisent to some talkin, and went to the dorms, and eventually hit the sack. The next day i woke right before 8 and i turned the alarm off before it woke my roomie up, since he dident have to be up untill 11. I got cleand up and headed to class. My frist class was media comunacation theroy. It was really good. I then went and picked up phill, it was cool we hung for a bit. Then i headed to lunch, and some more clases. I took Writing for media, and an abnormal psych class. which was realllllly fun! And then I got to her phill and the band playing it was really awesome, i only heard one song, but it was still cool.
Then me and phill got to chill for the rest of that part of the day, we took a trip to comp usa, and best buy, which was fun, ate out. And then got to hang in the girls drom loby with Allison untill bout 1. Im very glad we could. Its allways fun being with them, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! lol ok ok i know im crazy. Anyways. Then i came home, dident have to go to work untill friday, but i talked on line a lot, did school, and its now wensday. My friend Amy is going through something ruff, please pray for her. Her boy friend was in a car reck, and its very bad... PLEASE PRAY FOR HER AND HIM! And his family. thanks yo. I bid on some animes on ebay and got them! And Grave of the fireflys is one of the best movies i have ever seen!!!! Not just animes but MOVIES! lol
I should be makeing an "anime review" page and a "pages that dident work out" page very soon. With in the next day. YEEHAAA! lol The pages that dident work out, that was Phills idea! WOO haha great stuff, AAAAND also i got to play an awesome game called Syiberiea. Uh dident spell it right but it was super awesome, phills stoked about it haha. OK Im out-a here, God bless you. Your buddy ;o)
AarOn
02/13/03
To start off, i realise that last time i updated i thought it was the 14th... I am now awhere that it was the 12th.... and that today is the 13th....so for you and my blog the 14th will come two times, and we screwed over the 12th. Who needs the 12th anyways (unless you have a b-day on the 12th) in which case HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! WOOO!
HAha
OK today:
I dident really do much, i studyed Grammer. And did some grueling math.. I should really mature when it comes to frustration, in my darn school. (haha i just left the pc to her my mom venting about something and i re-read what i said hahaha thats funny "my DARN school" hahaha Frustration! hahah. Ok anyways yeah im sorry, im really needing to just mature up in some ways in my life, im sorry if i display some of my self in a imature way, i guess im not perfect huh. I watched an anime called Beserk today, some guy was naked for a min in it. it was a guy and it wasent reveliing so i wasent put off by it (had it been bad i would have been) BUT my bro was watching at that moment and he WAS put off haha and "gezz what ever man" and just left the room, now i feel really bad, i mean how am i effecting my brother, if im doing things he looks down apon what kind of exsample big brother am i!!!???? gezzzz! So the mature way to handle things is what? Well i guess i can just exsplain to him what was going on and if it had been bad i would have gotin rid of it, which i did do, but dose that make something subjectable like that ok to ones own spirit? Sigh i hope im not being a bad influnce. Anywho just me talking. I played Socom today, it was a clan day, i was hoping some buddys in my clan would shoot it up in a clan room wit me today as planed. But none showed. Oh well iTs cool. :o) I wish i could get a few more ps2s and network them up so i could have me and my bro playing at the same time, It would also be cool if i could get my friend phill one than he and i could also play!! And clan it up!!!! WOO SOCOM!!! WE WOULD RULE ALL!!!! *dreeming of fun is still just as fun as real fun, only shorter lived* lol AND then yeah i watched that anime, Little news, Mike (amys boy friend) His mom and dad took him off life saport.... and he went in for emu surgery. PLEASE PRAY for him!!!! PLEASE!!!! And for Amy. thank you, thank you very much. Tomrrow i have to work, its been so long since i have been in for work, that it feels weird, really weird. I like dayly change, but at the same time, i dont like being gone from work for so long, it makes things seem off. Like it feels like the first day at work all over again, every one knows that feeling, the odd little one you get, where you feel weird looking in to the eyes of the other workers as you dont know there personality yet, this is and i state an insacurity. One which i must over come! lol So it kind of is a little bad for me to be gone so long, as its more emotion that i have to deal with when i come back, but yet again i say, i must over come it! It stems down to controle, i must know that God is in perfict controle.. And that i shouldent worry, that what ever happens its ok and going to be good, all what He wants, and that He will get me thoguht anything. And that its not even about "Getting throgh" The "things" Just Him. Yep so its all good. To all my friends. Love you all. Eric Phillip Allison Meghan Rachelle Matt, Matt, Anna, Amy, EVERy one! If i for got you my sorrys just im me and tell me im a dork! lol God bless you love you all
Aaron
02/1-whatever/03
well not to much as gone on. Valentines day i went and saw my dog. Man i miss her. Im just not going to exsplain again how much i do. Whatever anyways she was sppppaaaztic to see me haha, it was great she was liturally jumping in to my arms and i was holing her, and she was licking my face all over, and going nuts it was awesome. i love her. She is my dog. I am her master. I brought her a nice bone too. The kinds you get at wal-mart in the plastic bags, the ra-hide ones, she loves those so much, i have been bring'in her one every time i see her the past four or five times, its cool. And other than talking to people (probably you) on aim i havent done much. Spent to much time watcing viloent animes, and playing shooting video games. I should go read a book. Seems like a waist to play that long on nothing but viloent trash. Ho hum, anyways lol. Come tomrrow im going to write my sponcer chiled a letter and draw him a picture. He wrote to me again, and collored me a really nice picture.
no more waste.... Stupid things we do, stupid..... i hate it.... Why i am so foolish..
untill then.
God bless you. Good bye
02/02/03
Thursday: Beggening to feel alittle better. But still weary. Being sick is no fun. The past few days have consisted of sleeping, and keeping my self togeather. You know when your sick with the flu.... Its like all the thoughts in your life, come bombarding them selfs into your head untill your pain is eleveated. Almost making you delusional. Yeah i reached it, ugh its not a fun battle haha oh well its pretty much over. WELL ok i just saw how it could be, but i wasent that sick, (thank God) lol, yeah so anyways, thats about it, I guess ill talk to you later. God bless ya. Bye bye
02/26/03
Hi, lets start on the 24th
24: I got my 6 dvd set of studio Ghibli dvds!!! WOO
ok now skip aday on to
Tuesday: I dident go in to work, BUT i went down to wilmore ky and saw Phillip and his band "Lights of evening" Play it was cool seeing them play again, they need to keep practising but it was still fun :o) Then i drove home lol
Wensday: Today... i have been angry sort of... One my day starts out, im at work. Putting away a truck order, all is well. Home by 11, so that could go to the dentistes office by 12 and get my teeth filled. And i did :o) lol. Then i cam home and was going to wal-mart to get my film developed (heres where it starts.....and i start to get.....ANGRY!) haha. I drop off the fillm for 1 hour development.... (never again at walmart will i trust them) OK So i go home. I fall asleep. wake up, by this point i dident want to even go to wal-mart and get my film, i was to tired. And lazy. But, my mom got a phone call, Mona hasent been doing good, and dident have her car (more to this story on the way) but had some medicen at the drug store she needed, So me and my sister were going to go pick it up for her and drop of, and i get my film. Well i kind of made my sister come (i was like "Your going") hahahah we had fun though. So i get to wal-mart first..... And go to pick up my 26 photos... ......gerrr.... They said hey dident come out, only four did. I said ok that happens... and payed a doller something for four photos....it gets worse.... I looked at the photos .....THERE NOT EVEN FREAKING MINE!!!!!!! Ok so i calmly walk back to the counter.... "Umm these arent even my photos...Umm did i get the wrong film...some one elses maybe" OH Yeah guess soem other laides photos got stuck (some how???WHAT??) with your photos, (Thats not saposed to happen, you get all your photos others get theres...) So the laides like.."Let me run them through again" Some how that time, she squezed out four of MY photos, but the rest were still blank....and the other laides negs are still there.....(uhh whatever) By then i was just keeping my self....from going nuts... i was like, look if you put it back in got 4 of MY photos, cant you do it again and get MORE! But instead they just gave me my money back, and 4 free photos..... GERRRR PISSED ME OFF!!!!! I will never use wal-marts amature photo labs again! They Suck! lol, nothing agenst the people, but they just dont know what there doing... or they just dont care... I cant tell which it is.. But anyways, so im like its ok these things happen, im just going to go, and let all be well. So were leaving, and i have some change, i wanted an aile8 hmm change..pop machene.... YEAH! Guess what happens now.. I WAISTE 1.35 IN THE DARN ALE8 MACHENE!!!! I DIDENT GET MY POP!!!!! AT ALL!!!!! it wouldent even give me my change back, yep i was pretty steemed. i mean i could take the photo thing and swallow it, but now.....no 1.35 in my pocket.... no pop......no pictures....and i had spent to much time in walmart, mona needed her medicen.... OH BOY i was fed up.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DARN WAL-MART!!!! DARN YOU *Shakes fists* lol hahaha So i leave with out getting my change back, bc i was running out of time, me and my sis drive to the drug store pick up the goods, get to monas drop them off, go back to the drug store drop of their money, then .....with my little sisters idea of returning to walmart and just buying a 6 pack of ale8..... we return yet again to the store...... ANd i buy my al8'1!! YEHAAAA and the check out person, was a really pretty and cute girl.. hehehe. So that was fine with me. I still dident get my change, but whocares.. LoL SO ok then im sitting here, today...... Rachelle was in florence at media play getting an interview for a job, and on the way home was in a car reck, and is over her now, so were not going to small group tonight. Which was scary for her, shes not hurt, but is shaken up. Ok im going to go for now, Untill next time, God bless.
Aaron
03/02/03
Well I feel like starting with today (Sunday) and moving back.
Today: Today was a fun day, I guess you could say a lot has happened. So ill start from the beginning (and there will be a thought in here too just for today though)
Well I woke up this morning, so I could get ready for church, (the cincy vine) at 8. I did so, and went and picked up Rachelle. We went to church and did the normal thing, I guess it was kind of fun. I dono I think I have been feeling a little bit of a loss of desire for a lot of things. I want to go, but I want to be with those people, and be close, ok truth be met, I like to get close to people, and I feel as if I have just a Sunday and wednesday relationship with those people. Not that were not close and all, but I cant see them and hang out, Rachelle sees them more than I normally, bc of ballet. Anyway so we went to eat after words. Me and chell got toco bell. And ate in this Mexican restaurant with every one else, one of the guys there gave her some of there food free, sort of flirting with her, sort of not. It was nice of him. Then we went back to church and chell took her ballet class with Machelle. I hung around for a few hours, it was cool, I got to go out to an office max or whatever its called, with a guy named Don and some other guy, to get packing peanuts to fill in some ones cubical. It was cool. I had been Messin with chell and her I all day, play fussing back and forth, I think she had fun. It was cool, but you know the hole day I had one thought on my mind, "People" Man you know, people are so weird sometimes, that I wish I could just blow up! No joking, lol.
Its like OK the thoughts of boys and girls, how girls work, and screw around, and how boys work and screw around. I am not going to talk about this, I just realized something. But boys and girls are crazy, and a messy mix. But I think they should still be together. What ever and ways who ever is reading this you probably think Im a nut, sorry I cant get all this thought out on paper, I just cant. So then I drooped chell off at some ones house, Since she has work tomrrow, and no way of getting there other than getting a ride from her friends. Since her car was in a wreck. Which on that note, chell got a job at media play.. Im glad that she did and were very excited. Ok Saturday, our cousins were over, they got here Friday, which ok ill mix the days, Friday me and chell got to hang out, and we had fun chillin, we watched Lain! And then my cousins came over, and we hung out until Saturday, watching lots of anime, (studio ghibli) And then they left, we had church, Phillip called and let me know that Norma jean is playing at ichthus which Im glad to hear!! ITS GOING TO FFFFREAKING ROCK!!!!! YEAAAAAAAH DAWG!!!! And hung with chell! It was cool, then church the next morning. And school. uh school Man there is a lot of crap in my life, I wish I could get away from, stupid CRAZY CRAP!!!!!! Freak. Anyway lol ok Ill ttyl, nuff of me for now. God bless you.
See ya, your pall
Aaron
03/04/03
Hey, well today i d/led the Zao Cd paraed of Chaos, but am still missing one song. Oh well. Live seems strnage. About asbury college. Well, There going to provisonaly inrole me bc by the time i get my act scores back in, most of the aid for money will be gone, and this way i can get more aid, the only deal is that i have to get a good act score...eh... If i dont, they can give me the boot, and i wont get in. So Pray that it all works out for the best. I am deffentlly praying, thats also a nother thing, i have felt my prayer life dwindleing. Gezz im really losing it, i spend to much of my boaring time at this computer. Yeah i need to work harder. AND About the Russia stuff, my folks are trying to get in with campus crusaid for Christ, sort of as a big name record lable haha, so that they are then connected. So thats cool, hopeing it works out, also asbury wont give a missionary discount to any one unless the students mom and dad both graduated form asbury. Which is ok, and understandable, i just have to work harder. So thats ok. I went and saw my dog today, Shes so great, her leash is breaking, and i think if she polls on it hard one more time, it will break, so i am going out tomrrow to get her a new one, and bring it to her. Im also trying to study a lot, My family is doing good. This weekend im going to a 6 band show , Phillips band included!!!! YEHAAA. its going to rock! Good times. Ok memorys returning, thoughts consuming, IM leaving. Ttyl God bless you.
Aaron
o3/0me/o3
Today, wensday:
I dident want to wake up this morning. Not at all, not because i wanted more sleep, but bc i just dident want to face the day, or my respoincablitys, i was scared, saying the word piss over and over, as i would slowly wake up from my sleep, the thoughts of what was needed of me, came rushing in, and ied force my self back under my blankits in an atempt to escape for just a little longer, Finaly at 10:30 ish i got frustraded enough to get up, (i know im a loser) And i did want i was saposed to, i concered it. And then i tryed to scomplish my school work (gezz know what im such a wuss, man...) Anyways, i also went to wal-mart and got carmen a new dog leash, and went out to the farm and made sure she was ok. I gave her a bone and comferted her some, held her, and got all smelly hehe. And now im back home, whence 7 comes ill be on the road to collins for a bible study, i pray the roads dont get icy tonight like my mother says there going to. (Uhh gramer...nah) haha. So thats about it, okie dokie, God bless ya bye bye
03/06/03
Again today, waking up was hard. I cant exspalin.
Good day though, i was the champion and friends caddy for the day. I gave rachelle a ride to work at 1, which was fun :o) then i came home, and my mom is not feeling good, so i took the ballet people from up here in to lex for ballet, and finished up a cs lewis book and read some of another. Its been fun though, and now im home. I have a dentist apointment tomrrow at 2. fun.... two fillings. And then im going to hang with chell for a bit, then saturday go to wilmore and hang with the man, phillip and the girl, allison. and the gang. it will be fun. Good times, ok im out-a here, God bless you ttyl
Aaron
03/06/03
Well, waking up this morning wasent hard, im glad, i dident get to sleep though untill like, 2. *sigh* oh well, but i woek up and just was ok, man whats been my problem, oh well anyways lol, im watching escaflowne right now, its fun. Come two ill be sitting in the dintests office, lol. I should be doing my school, but im not going to beet my self up over it any more, Joy, then at 9:30 ill pick chell up from work, ....i was up so late, last night, thinking...... I leave tomrrow. ttyl God bless ya bye
3/12/3
Hey guys, wow, well my site was messin up on me for a while, and being silly, but God is good and ill be back, im going to up date again later today though but i have to get off for now ill fill ya in later. God bless bye
I finaly can say something, but yet its late and cant lol so ill give a hole two week, or at least since i was in wilmore, update soon, probably tomrrow, depends on the school work and all, ok ttyl God bless you bye
03/13/03
Well, you know, im listengin to parade of chaos by zao. It seems to hold its own. Good song, anyways, ok so, i went to phill to see a show, this was like last friday, all the bands were great, you know what i think i already posted this, well if i dident, it rocked!!! Phills band was super awesome, and every one felt that they had improved 110% know what i think i did post this, eh well i also got hurt on my skate board, i was doing olies off of a few picnic tables with phill, and landed it two times, dident ride away though, but then got hurt, so yeah it was cool, then the past few days have consisted of studying, annnd driving, i have been driving to florence with chell to drop her off at work, but her moms sergury went very well, and shes recovering now, And they should have their car back tomrrow. cool. So studying and driving, and falling, and crawling and getting up, and falling, and yeah. So thats about all i can think of for now, bc i just yeah..... so ill ttyl God bless ya bye
03/18/03
well, not much is going on in my life right now, i am just studying for this act test and praying i can make it... And chillin, i pretty much wake up every morning, take a shower, eat and then get to studying or procrastinating... one way or another, one always leads to the other. lol. The hole thing on war is keeping my intrests perked. And Life is grand with this nice weather, i really hope me and rachelle can do something fun in it soon! :o) I guess lots of things are happening in life, Though i am developing some form of cabin fever my self, i dont like being by my self for hours right now in life, not like i dont like being alown, i do enjoy my salatude, And not like i desire constant attention, i dont, i just am very board haha, and like things at least to be going on. Stuff happening, it was so much a joy to bring rachelle to work most of last week, well simply bc i like hangin with her, but also it took me away from my normaly empty days. like i said, wake up, shower, eat, school. lol haha, but who cares its all good, life is blessed, and the weather is awesome! Im so excited about it getting warm, i like winter but i just want to get out right now haha, Oh chell was over at my house sunday, that was super awesome fun, bc she just stayed and studyed in my room, and i just hung around, i juse like having her around like that, when were just chilled with out any cares in the hole world, we also looked at a shoe sail at some store.. i think bass or i dono some place haha, and ate ice creem at DQ. Good times :o) (super big smile) Thats the kind of fun i live for haha. But also, my mom and dad sent out there apps for camp crusaid just like yesterday i think, which is super exciting! (JOY)!! Im glad, bc one it means the apps are out of the way and now done! And two, that there just that much closer to leaveing! Looks like it might rain out side! untill next time, seek Him always, God bless
~Aaron~
03/18/03
well, not much is going on in my life right now, i am just studying for this act test and praying i can make it... And chillin, i pretty much wake up every morning, take a shower, eat and then get to studying or procrastinating... one way or another, one always leads to the other. lol. The hole thing on war is keeping my intrests perked. And Life is grand with this nice weather, i really hope me and rachelle can do something fun in it soon! :o) I guess lots of things are happening in life, Though i am developing some form of cabin fever my self, i dont like being by my self for hours right now in life, not like i dont like being alown, i do enjoy my salatude, And not like i desire constant attention, i dont, i just am very board haha, and like things at least to be going on. Stuff happening, it was so much a joy to bring rachelle to work most of last week, well simply bc i like hangin with her, but also it took me away from my normaly empty days. like i said, wake up, shower, eat, school. lol haha, but who cares its all good, life is blessed, and the weather is awesome! Im so excited about it getting warm, i like winter but i just want to get out right now haha, Oh chell was over at my house sunday, that was super awesome fun, bc she just stayed and studyed in my room, and i just hung around, i juse like having her around like that, when were just chilled with out any cares in the hole world, we also looked at a shoe sail at some store.. i think bass or i dono some place haha, and ate ice creem at DQ. Good times :o) (super big smile) Thats the kind of fun i live for haha. But also, my mom and dad sent out there apps for camp crusaid just like yesterday i think, which is super exciting! (JOY)!! Im glad, bc one it means the apps are out of the way and now done! And two, that there just that much closer to leaveing! Looks like it might rain out side! untill next time, seek Him always, God bless
~Aaron~
03/25/03
Dang -- WOW its been a long time since i have done an update. I guess i havent felt that i would have much to say but i think i do now.
I have an away messege that goes something like this "well, theres nothing happening today, sometimes just the thought of nothing is to much a consuming something that it becomes harder than lots of things happening, but thats really only when your procrastinating, bc then you HAVE other things to do, but wish you dident so that you could just do what ever you wanted, so then since there is nothing to do instead of your work, you see it as that there is nothing to do at all, and get frustrated. Since you know that you have only your work to do, then the over whelming compalustion of complant and bordum kick in, and seem to make us more aware that we might as well be doing our work, hence forth, im doing (then i would insert what i was doing, school, work and so on.)"
But now, i wish for no more random nothings to consume my self. (Dang it you know what the freeek happned, i had a hole bunch of stuff typed, and it was goood deep stuff, but then i hit this blasted cursed back space key on my key board, and lost it all, and know what i just cant remember all what i typed, im some what agervated now. Ok im going to try and remember the rest.) WEll anyways so what i was saying is what i realise now is that when i say nothigns going on i am simply chosing not to do anything...crap this just isent anywhere close to what i had before, gerr im so mad now. Well im sorry you just got the shaft. all the wonderful great thoughts about whats going on in my life have just been swallowed up in a fit of rage agenst a key on my key board. So when im done cuting off its head, and giving it to the RETARDS who put it right next to the FREAKING arow butten, ill get back to you with some hopfuly gatherd calm intreeging things about my life. MAYBE THEN ill remember all of what i was going to say. lol God bless you bye bye
03/30/03
Im still a little upset over the happenings of the last post, But heres something else instead.
Well you know, stuff is some what dull. BUT tongiht i went to wal-mart with rachelle and really had some fun.
And we had church today that was great, it was an all worship day, and baptisoms. It was sooo awesome! AHHH i loved it, and over the past while, God has been showing me thoguht my strogels that i need to have forgivness again, i thknk i have some what let go of that in my life, and i realised that i have become very controling. and that i need to just be alright with my situations, and trust God, i need to be loosing it to Him, which is harder said than done. But anyway So God is good. Anyway I have had a busy weekend though, but whatever. went to the mall with my folks, there all doing good, just trying to get all russia stuff ready and all. I GOT ACCPTED IN TO ASBURY!!!!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! WOOOOO HEEE YAHHHH!
PRAIS GOD!!! haha i got the letter and phone call a few days ago, actually i dident get the call, my mom did when i was out, and wanted it to be a suprise when i got the letter hehehehe :o)
well tomrrow i have work, then the next day taking chelle to the air port, shes going to FL for spring break. Well im going now, ttyl God bless bye
04/02/03
Hey, wow im planing a lot of stuff for ichthus. Its going to rock! I need to talk to phill though! So life is good i guess, i just droped rachelle off at the lou. air port yesterday with my dad. I miss her. Very much so, shes on the beach right now, putting lotion all over her beutifule slef. *sigh* and im here in my room. Writing about it... yes im a very sad fellow hahahahah. Anyway. I took this test thing youknow and online silly test its called "Which OS are you" And i got Slackware Linux. Lol ill put a pic right below this post with a link on it if you want to take it your self, it was prety fun. So now im just studying maybe ill see a movie or somethign this week, i do miss rachelle though, wish i could hug her right now. Oh well. Folks are trying to get this campus cru. stuff worked out, for russia you know, but like the training stuff is going to cost a lot, but PLEAAASSSE pray it goes works out, that could mean that if i want to i could chouse to stay home, for like two weeks bye my self!!!! WOO HOO! or i could go with them to FL and hang at the beaches!! WOO HOO!! so both ways its awesome!!!! PLEAAASE PRAY IT WORKS OUT!! lol thanks, well and bc i want my folks to be in Russia where they feel called, not just for me. Sorry hope i dont seem self sentered lol. well ttyl God bless ya. Bye bye
04/30/03
wen. Today i woke up and went to work, came home ate something. And then helped take a friend (Josh asher) To his base ball practice. My sis came, nates head hurt, so he stayed home. Today was a good day to all aparences.
Inside, I AM really just getting sick of my self. I just am so made at my own stupid self. I am upset with my self for even posting this. Why? Maybe the out look that then i see i dont really need to be. That im just being silly. Maybe why would i even be. Gezz yes. I know i need to let go of my self. Theres just sometihng inside me not moving on. Nah i dono, who cares life is good no matter, anyways not like this will help, im sure even the reading will be miss placed. I mean not to say in a way that help is granted, or that help is even the state of being im coming from. Meh just growing up. I must learn to be self feeding.
-monday through wen. i worked.
Tuesday- Going to work for a few hours. just to run a truck lode out with some one. THEN home and packing, i think rachelle and alex ..or rachelle at least wanted to do something i dono, i dono if i will or not, with packing and all. Anyways. Yes packing.. were going to FL. Folks have to go to a traning under camp. Crusaids. So that they can be on the missions board, It will be fun, im so blessed, im so stupid. UM SO i wont be on again untill the 11th. LoL LOL (lol) LOL "lol" <lOl> smile. So heres the deal I got my pc back, but windows is still a stupid lode of trash, ok well its really what i have done to the OS. I just manipulated it to much for my programs. So i really just messed my self up, i just need to reformat... yes... YEs..."YeS" no more anger placed apon this dear OS. Well i better go. Pray the trip is safe, miss ya'll. God bless you,
Aaron
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05/01/03
Another day has gone bye.. i went to work this morning, it was good. Im going to start to put in more hours working in the yard, and helping run truck lodes.
My fam is doing good. Just geting ready for tomrrrow... the long drive lol.
IM still freakin battling my self, am i two people? Im so confused with my personality... Right now its like its tring to form two diffrent people... part of the time im this guy whos geting mad at something his pc or what ever, and wants to just curse. Then the other who realises that that person will just end up as a bitter man, and who wants to just live life. Like Job said, we thank God when he blesses us, why should we not thank Him when He takes them away? SIgh i just dont know i dont want the bad me to form... i want to fall in love, and be a good person... im scared i will never really acomplish that. that i will become the normal jerk of a man... whos life is just pointless a .... well you insert your thought. But i know i wont its a normal fear, and one that dosent need to become a complex. and yes i know your probably say "your right aaron" and giving me the "now move on" addatude. Which is exspected.. But sometimes that just makes it all the harder.. bc then some one is exspecing me to be better.. so im already messing up. God is using me every day, so i cant say i wish God would use me. But........i dono.... i guess im still lownly... i think even now though being around lots of people all the time.. wont do anything. What do i know though, im just saying stuff, thats just a side of me like the angry side, that i know must be burned away, i care to much of self imaege... maybe.. but yet i dont really at all... its just that i havent had to worry about it in so long, i remember i never used to care about it... but i havent had to think about it in a long time bc i havent been around people every day to where it would matter....so how do i know i wont react diffrentlly. I could see my self both ways... but no... i dont care..like....to test my self, and find that i fail every day dosent help. Help..whats that... gezz help...im just trying to help my self... another flaw. Foolish, i just....i just nothing.. Oh well.. Good night.
God bless you.
your buddy. (who knows man who knows..)
Aaron
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05/22/03
Wow well its been a long time, mind you i did try to update when i got back from Florda. BUT i ran in to some problims after i had been typing for a good ten min, and lost it all. So being angry and upset that i lost all i typed, and not remembering what i wanted to say, but feeling what i had was really good and to the point, i dident do or want to do an update again, not feeling it would have lived up to what i had. SO i just havent done one untill now. But i guess now I will go fw with what has happened in my life since my last update!
So, Last time i updated i was feelin like i was in pretty crumy shape. I think i was just VERY spiritually dry. Not always will what you read be showing how i am all the time, so please dont take it that, when you read something and i seem upset or imature, its probably something im growing through in my life. Not something i will always be.
Wow man, lots has hapened, ill start right as we were leaving for florda.
It was a normal day, i was kinly sleepy, as i had been working the hole week prior to this trip. My dad how ever had to work the day of our trip... So he was reallly tired. We got out around 3 ish i belive. Or more like 2:30, the trip was starting like any other, frantic with my family membors and my self runing around trying to gather up what was needed for the road, and my mother fussing at my father, and us kids fussing at them both. But the trip got off to a good start, we made good time, ran in to some bad rain and storms, but my but GOd has His hands on my dad and us and we got to FL at the brisk early time of 4:30 am. My mom and dad had there confrence meetings most of the hole time, we got to go out to eat some, and chill, but mostly me and nate and betsy swam, the beaches were awesome, water was great, and we got to meet some cool people :o) us kids got to go ministering on the beach with the people from the confrence, our folks were teemed up with people there so me and nate went with my dad and his partner, like wise for my sister, though with my mom and her partner. It was great, really a lot of fun, some people came to the Lord that day, some people came closer, and some, pushed away. But it was worth it, i think i have a little more of an open view to all kinds of ministry, even if its blunt like that hehe. So yeah that was great! I finished some CS lewis books, I finished the last i had of Meir Christainity, and i read the first book of CS' space triligy. GREAT BOOK!!!!! MAN i just ate it up!!! So that was awesome great coolness. Well we left sunday morning early, drove home, we got in i think around 11. My mom, dad, and my self all had work the next day so we were longing for bed, though i found my self on AIM quicker than you can say sleep. My mom as well with email haha. Then from there, i have just been working, working and church. I went and saw the matrix reloded. Great movie, well, all but the sex seen, which i dident watch! And wont watch, im sad that they have to decay our moral dignaty by puting sex in a film and calling it love. Anyways I also am reading a book called "Every mans battle" ITs a WONDERFul book! If you are a guy and your reading this, Please pick it up and just read it, its a small book, even if your well off with your walk with God, this book is a great reminder of how we as men need to be, for God, our selfs, and our femail friends. I also picked up the other two books in the space triligy, great awesome books, love them, havent got'in in to the other two yet, nate betsy and my mom and dad are doing great, i love my siblings,sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. there awesome! Like wise to my folks. College isent so far off, starting to get a little preped and lol a little fritend, thats how it is though, i had a deem about being in college the last night, it was weird haha, but it was also kind of part of a nother dreem i had being at some college....in the old dreem things were new i think, but this one the card that came out of the thing to open the dore was old...i just wanted a pop too, gosh. And some people were picking on me, haha and i was in wal-mart at one point of the dreem, and on a beach. well anyways. OH i also got midnight club racing 2 for my ps2!! ITS A GREAT GAME! i love it, haha. and now im just chilling. So church was good last night. Oh yeah, two of the Russian Ladys are coming to the states here with us in a few weeks, they get to stay in mine and nates room. lol so me and nathan have been cleaning it lol. So yah, keep them in your prayers if you can. Well i guess thats all for now. Ill talk to you next time. I might update some of the other pages on my site... but ill let you know if i do. lol so Gods blessings be with you.
see ya
Aaron
May 27th 03
Man today is ending out to be a really hard day...
I have worked all day. Wasent bad today though, I just about got the hole truck lode checked in and put away (which is great) It normaly takes me two or three days, there were only 5 pages of stuff though, come pared to the 8 to 12 pages that i normaly have to do. Anyways. I was getting a little frustrated at the end of the day.
Right away -
I try so hard, but fail every stinking day.
gerrrrrrr! Man i try to die to my self. But i just feel more angry, i just get so angy. I cant contain it. Things dont work right, my web page was taking soooooo long, and messing up. Never works! Windows is a PAIN the butt.
Im sick and tired of this crap.
i just want to be good, and worship God.
Its so hard.
I want to searve... SIGH.....man i just feel hit really bad.. I want to curse, and sadly to say it slips out of me sometimes... But i try and remember Job.... God let satan mess with him, and jobs wife even said to him, Curse God and all this crap..(or something along those lines) BUT Job said he would never curse agenst God (something along those lines) And how can we be graitful and prais God when He blesses us, and not be thankfull when He takes the belssings away. We should prais God both ways, not curse Him or the time.... And he never cursed. You know what happened to Job! God blessed HIM!!!!!!!!!! But its sooo hard for me sometimes, i dono i feel like such a creep, gah i know better you know.. So i have been trying to get back in to good deep reading and studying the Word, and reading good books on spiritualy uplifting things.. But it gets hard still, if not harder... Anyways. Sorry. Ok I also got the Zwan CD, its really good, two curse words in it tho :o(. But other than that, good. DANG IT! I need to GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE!!!! AHHHHHHH! Im getting a 120 gig hdd, its going to rock the house! WOOT! YAH! I downloded 8775 nintendo Roms and some emus (yes that is a four diget number) haha WOOT WOOT!!! Good times, every nintendo game ever made but 45 , from every contanent. OH YEAH! lol nice, anyways im going to go now, call me if you want to find out more about whats going on in my life.. bc im board. Or come and see me! WOOT! lol Ok gtg ttyl God belss ya. bye
I let my anger get the best of me, please forgive me.
Aaron
June 6th 2003
Well, I woke up this morning. I woke up and went to work, walked there in the rain. I liked it, it smelled good, Though my ear hurt when I got to work. I had a good time in the morning (after a agervated night before) But the morning was full of worship which really was helping me fight the filth that impales its self apon my mind and soul. (Do my eyes look good?) The worship just set me ina good place, i was READY! I could take the day on, pray what i new would help pray away the agervated pain. It worked! God polled me through, Well... all untill i for got what i was saposed to pray, and i know it sounds dumb, but its not, there is a serten point in me, that was attacked, unless i fought back in that way all (wasent really lost) But open for scratching... and i left work, ok....but a little brused.. Anyways Pam helped me put the truck away! That was a great help! Thanks pam! God is good. I love you. Smelles good out, like the fresh rain, but haha i have to go now, im going to florence, to waste money on junk (another battle) College, responciblity... left behind for a few hours, then hastfuly i pray for it back haha. OK gtg spend some (small ammount) of mouuunie! lol God bless ya
Love.
Aaron
06/20/03
What i did today, dang i should write this on my blog, ok im going to, and also add a link to this site. SO Here is whats been going on, Our (Nathans and the fams) friend Anthony from Ohio is here were all playing and hanging around And video gaming it up. Yesterday i took them to the mall and around florence, i bought my brother a Matrix 2 hat and my self the 3ed dvd of Karekano (His and her circumstances) YEAH! Last fathers day some friends stoped buy our house, and the husbend had just bought a few guitars, I was playing with one (it was actually a bass) And asked him about how much it was and all, and we talked about it for a bit, but he told me that there was this pretty nice bass for about 75 dollers at this one store, used, and the finish was cracked a little bit, but that it played fine. So Today (friday) I went and bought it! HAHA I had been wanting to get one, and it finaly worked out, God blessed me with a super awesome bass that plays realllly good sounds very awesome, and was only 75 dollers, the finish still looks ok, despite the damege, And it dosent effect the sound haha so its cool, Its a Precision Bass. A really nice one too haha. Normal its a 400 doller one. (Around that) So that was cool and now im just chillin, getting ready for college, working, a little board, still cant freaking get my 120 gig hdd installed right really sort of pissin me off, (Ok it is haha) Also MY FREAKING internet! Man i was getting like 100 pop ups a day and lots of them were porn, of corse I NEVER have gone to a porn site, but these pop ups some how have found there way to OUR pc, so i called Zoom town (our provider) And talked to them, they told me about some program, i installed it, and it works great!!!!! NO MORE CASINOS NO MORE PORN!!!!! YEEEEHAAAAA hahah im so glad, (really you have NO IDEA how glad i am haha) So thats over now to. ...now just to get this hdd installed... lol haha ok guess thats all, Gtg God bless ya love. Aaron
I promese i will update more with more interesting fun things! ok lol gtg God bless ya bye
PS: This is a Pic of Maaya, Shes a Jap. Voice actress! And Singer! SHES SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!! AAND REALLY BEUTIFULE!!!! AHHHHHH ok enjoy.
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8-16-03
Its been so long i dont even know what to say, i even for got that i put that picture up there. Well i guess over the past few mounths a lot of things have happened, im about all packed for Asbury now. But we went to a great missions confrence called PFO in NY. It was great i made a lot of good friends. Wonderful people. it was fun. And im here with my family again. I love them so much, it hurts me to say good buy.. Its stupid to say this, but its the only place i can and not feel intimadated by normality. I get so depressed sometimes. And emotionless. over lots of things. And angry. I dono. I try and give it to God. but it just herts more.. I feel like im stupid. And fleeting. I just want to serve God, and He shows me how im faling. And i miss my dog. And everything. I know college is coming up... SIGH eather way. Bah. So its ok. Im stupid. i feel this way bc of my self. no one else. and being that its bc of me and from me i can feel happy and make others happy to, and not fuss so much at people, GAH!!!!! CRAAAAAPPPPPOOOOOOO!!!! OK OK OK OK OK FINE!!!!!! Ill just try harder. Or not try at all then God will interveen. But people want things from me. So ill do them. BUt that MAKeS ME CraZY SometimeS! I have been blessed i cant saythings in anger about them, or ill lose the blessings. BLAH BUT I KNOW THATS NOT TRUE. i feel so bad, i wish i could have been a better example to my brother over the years. I hate my self for that...... wheres the love. i cant feel it for my self bc i just havent helped to be what i know i should be. Darn it. Darn it. DARN IT! Im sorry. i know im going a little crazy. What am i going to do? No idea. just hope its good and Honering to God and my family. In love. memories. A dreem that never goes away. Endless yesterdays. Ill probably not update for a long time. If i ever do again. Bc of college. nah i probaly will just for the close friends who read this. I wont be givin it out much is probably what ill do. Who knows.... maybe tomrrow dose.. Maybe yesterday told him. Sigh. Sorry i just have been frustrated tonight... its a shame to.. little Amy in our church fellowship got baptised today..well... God bless you. See you next time around...
~Aaron~
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