Well, I guess we all go through fases. I look back to the time when i was my brothers age, and look at my self, where i was at and the opsite sex. And where they were at in maturity. I look now at my brother and he is going through the same fases. And The girls are acting the same, and doing things the same way as when i was a boy, annoying little girls who talk to much about the most pointless things, who think eather that boys are pointless or are compleatly obsesed with them, or both haha. And i look at my self now and the inner sturgel i have with the opsite sex, and i guess... its just a fase that there going through, and that i, the face that i am standing out side this fase to the point of seeing and understanding it, so to leave it behind is great! But.... how long will it take any one else (girls) to grow through it, and get to the next point, i guess its unfare to say i feel my self to be a setp beond them or that, because i am not. I am just as much in it and there as they are, as i was when i was 10 or 13 or 15 or 16 or last year. Today. So we are always growing, so why do we have to push eachother off then, i distinktly notice and hate it when it happens, When one person of the opsite sex avoides or pushes off some one else, namely me, by the fact of living state of being, where there mind places them selfs in understnading, WHICH i  at that point see a falt, one: by them and two: By me. One i can at this point miss understand there true motive, one being that they just cant see a way to exspress them selfs any other way, so i should like wise not push off them, two: that they really are of a understanding that is level with what your exspressing, and really wish you not to take hand in there game. So being those its ok right... But we can never say we have reached the level of maturity that we are now living in knlogable persistance of the consuming truth to the point of being beond the "You" of scoiciyt. Because were constantly living something devine that wont come to its climax untill our death, so you or i will never bring our selfs or be taking to a point of greater human know how than maybe the other person. How ever we can be considerblay more mature, but this takes a lot of a person, just to see that you could be standing in a mistake of being wiht comunacating with a person is one that we all pass up, bc think about it, we in our mind know what we see as right, if we dident know that we would be spending all our time of every day to find out how to base our lives, right? So when we are in persute of the opsite sex, and come to a hult in the consumption of comen opasition, to just admite that your no greater, and do not know what is best fot the person (unless you feel God telling you or see direct sin) But that only God knows how this person is really growing and only God knows what this person really needs, and that YOU CAN be used in that, but that your not going to push your self, or them off. I wish we could all just Get togeather and live, and just quite all our wimpering whining and complaning about this and that and be loial and true with eachother. Oh the joys of life. So with this, keep growing, try not to wory about life, and just give a loving humbel hand of understanding to others, and  the opsite sex. Maybe Ill grow past my own stupid thoughts and ways, i mean im sure people see me as a person who "has his thouhgts" and likes to exspose them, "or has his little thoughts on life, and likes to be in them"  I wish i could just be in God. I dont care about anything, forget my thoughts, my blog, all the crap in the world, im not looking for people i work best with, im not looking for my clicks, I have my friends, who i love so much, close friends, but some of them arent even close to thinking the way i do. But some do, infact one of them both of us will just know what the others thinking by looking in to eachothers eyes, and body movment. So there you have it, im not looking to be an out cast, i just want to be me, and be what God wants of me, and love. Nothing more, or else. Dont take this that i am not firm in my belifes, no thats not it at all, this is simply the understanding of human action. and reaction. NOT religion! lol hope thats clear.  Ok ttyl God bless yaaaaaaa bye

 

I feel the impulse of yesterdays shadow clinging to the vanes in my hand. As if the shades of  black arent enough. My vain it cuts. Man I bleed and scream. I find my creed bound to His grace, in the only place I am freed.

I was a day behind when I saw, then how I was blind. Only a day behind, where in the shadow did I hide

I see Im not there now. As being there is how I cant see. But of Crosse if there once, than here is what? If I couldnt see when I was there, and was blinded, than how can I say now I am here, but not blind. Oh and here in lies the thought. The longer you think about this, the more ferther Truth are. You see the thought its self, is its own box. Of Crosse the ideal is "think out side the box", lol ok so I stated I was blinded in my box right? But now that I can see how I was blind I am no longer in that same box. And then I say your just in a new box thinking you are out of the last. But that in its self is yet again its own box. Because your thought is simply on the factors of your own state of being. Thinking about it you will see that only when we completely let go and stop thinking about the box are we set free, its never the standard of where we were and have gone to that frees us. Jesus knows Right where we are. And is taking you where you should be.

Who brought you from one place to the other? It wasnt you, because you didnt know that you were in one place until you had left it and were in the next. So the thought you had when you left it for the other was what? You dont know because your meaning for having it was unbenounced to you. So there for If youed not worry about being in the box, youed then be out. Infact only think about it in prayer as to ask God to take away the things in your life that are taking you down, (mind sets, what ever). Other wise just live each day to His reason. His meaning. Not the meaning of getting out of the box. There is no box ok. The only thing it is, is your way of thinking that keeps you from freeing. Looking to ones self, to do that you have to look in a mirror, there for its backwards right?

So dont look in the mirror Trust God that He will show you what you need to get rid of, taken off you. And if He calls you to look in the mirror than go for it. There are only two ways. One youre the person you are, because your seeking Him and He is making you who you are. Or Two you are seeking your self, and your making you who you are. And yet even then God is molding you to one day come to Him, Funny huh.

This is something I need to work on, I am not perfect, and in no way of my own have or could come to even a form of good. I need to not think every day though, "oh, me, how can I get better today from my evil stature" There is in no way that this thought can or ever will help you or anyone. Instead One should be of the mind set as to say "know what! Today is Gods day, its all cool, I am ready to be me. And let Him lead me, trusting that He will not let my foot slip" If you keep on Him you will be ok, if you foot slips than of your own, so you chose His forgiveness as coming back to His grace. Trust. To many people in these times trust is a foren thing. And with dew recourse, much pain has come from people...people.. but should one not trust people then, and say oh but I trust God.. if you trust God , than Trust Him enough to trust others To trust a human and trust God that He will keep you safe in trusting that human is what! Oh you say.. dont trust humans, but trust God, I say NO, decern what humans are evil, By Him, dont trust there ways as there ways are there own, Give to them the glass of water. But good people, of Him, trust them, Trust God in trusting them.

So.. I think I have gone on one to many tangents for this to even be made in to one sencable paper.. Im sorry. Just remember seek Him and dont worry about tomrrow! He will take you where your to go in your walk with Him, not your figureing it out. :o) its JUST GOD!! ALL GOD! ALL THE TIME!!!!

God bless you.

Ps Now read the very first part again and youll understand more... hopingly at least.. :o)

This also is tied with the pome i wrote and dated to the same day today. About my battle agenst the world and flesh, the worlds ideals in my mind...

~noraa~

I often wish, but i think.......

Sometimes, when im sad or mad or happy or joyful, i seem to ....exspress my self in ways that show that exspression,  i see that when i write something that is exspressing anger, its sometimes bc i feel angry. However what  i see in my self, is, when i exspress my self like that, i just end up dweling on that feeling  than, and thats why.. i dont want to write any more sad poems, or anything displaying MY anger. If its .... something , or an emotion that....isent hounering to God, than i dont need to exspress this in  a way that it will linger on in me.... or anyone.... So i guess it dosent meen ill stop exspressing emotions of sadness or such forth, but, i dont want to ..... leave an exspression of sadness thats of me in someone else, that than will stay with me also. I want to be joyful. How ever.... I still feel sad and so on at times like any one, so im sure that i will by what im doing be exspressing that feeling inside myself..... So if i am to exspress my self in ways like this, i just want to make sure that even in the deepist times of hurt or confustion or sadness, that even if i exspress my self in drawings writings , or anythign in a sad way at that time, that ... it will bring Glory TO GOD! And then, He can show a way to bring light in to it. And thats what people need, a light to see.  You know, hehe just look at God, not the sadness, and what one will exspress..... is what God will show you.

God is good, i love life. i love you.

 

~Noraa~

 

Also in refrence to the text down below this, I my self appologize for all my foolish actions and responces to everythign that i have ever caused hurt for or any other dismay in any of my friends lives. Im sorry for not holding to my own words or what i preach some times. You all Rock! God bless you guys!
See ya. Me

I would like to try and talk about compermise. Cause and effect and the change thats held in that. And how our every day life is effected by this change through the first cause, for the last cause. How it all ties together. I just want to first think about Cause and Effect.. Every action we go through with is of some sore of cause to our selves. It might be a small one to the hole of life, but it is still a cause. This cause if gone through with brings forth an effect.. These are what bring forth Change which can mold what happens to us and others. Change By cause and effect. What I want to ask is if your compromising your self from any bit of Truth for YOUR cause. how many times aday to I compromise my self in a way that effects the truth in mine and or others lives. Compromise comes through even the smallest bit of choice , at least it can. Simply the way we chose to react to a person can bring forth an effect, there for I believe deep beneath our understanding there was a cause. Right? So that it brings forth an effect and change. What did you compromise? Can we have four site before we even see what were doing? Is it compromising to understand how we are compromising? Its just that we can not ever completely know. Thats why we have God, but Im SURE that we can still see our selfs in a way to knowing how were putting our selfs forth, especially to other peoples. Like I said "Simply the way we chose to react to a person can bring forth an effect" So What was the cause? Can we really remove the plank from our selfs before we Evan chose to breath..? I mean EVERY thing is some sort of cause and effect. Look deep at your self, and youll see that yes even something like blowing your nose is a cause and effect, but for that the only thing your compromising is a stuffy nose. So I ask... is there good compromise? Yes of corse, you compromise the demise of your own being everytime you decide to die to your self, and not compromise something God is or could be doing. So just like blowing your nose you compromised having a stuffy nose, With your friends if you compromise not snapping back in a rude way, your compromising having a hurt situation, or if you feel God calling you to do something or die to your self in a way, and you listen your compromising your self of your own control and pleasures. Cause and effect bring change, over Compromise. Its simple to talk about but to really see in to this and live it is something else. Would one call it wisdom or just discernment? Or maybe Just the fact to Frikin understand what the heck were even here for. Im compromising something bc Im sick of the games we play, I want to fight the sin that plages this world. There are enough dammed in this world I dont want to see any more brain washed. So you Im warning. Have an open heart. Feel Gods love. Have and open ear. Listen!!! OK! SEE DONT JUST STOP FOR THE SAME CRAP WE HAVE BEEN EATING SINCE WE WERE CONCEVED! let God give you what your created for. To bring Glory and praise to God. So you can see by the words I chouse to use, that I am perceived to be frustrated, is this a compromise? Yes, I could have compromised my own anger towards this and come forth with a meek humbler adatude. And some one along the way wouldnt see me as a mad person, bc my choice brought forth a diff effect. Bc I compromised my own, for His. So can I have a understanding to say yes im frustrated with this worldly state of being , but I can perceive a compromise if I just let this anger flow. So I see that all things work for the glory of God right? So than I can say that this can be harnessed and God can use this in a way that will bring forth an EFFECT that will CHANGE people to seeing God not my anger. Right? So than can we truly give all to God? all of our selves. EVEN to our very conversations with people? To our choice of even the time of eating? are these things so trivial that we can control them, well remember we are not in control even if we think we are.. all things still work towards the Glory of God. So He brings forth an effect and change in us, compromising our own ways for His right? So what is cause. Bc there is one. hehe think about it ok.. Then When you done.... dont be. Keep going, and dont forget. :o) bc you are beutifule to God.