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06/20/03
I wrote this for a friend a bit ago.
"L's song" -
Here in your arms, i lie to my self, so the feeling i want will be what i am.
Nothign but damed.
Lies of an apple red, im better off dead.
Lies of an apple red, i put in my head.
Hold your hand, holing mine, a love so nice, a love all mine.
This love, i know wont last long.
But i tell my self, i will be alright, bc tonight is all i need. Tonight its just right.
For you to plant the seed of my bitter tomrrow, and rain filled sarrow.
May 27th 03 (A new begining.__)
Plane and simple-
Wishing away my Sin.
Drift wood floting in my dreem. I held it in my hand, floting down this streem.
my soul over flows.
My head feels like cole-burnt to ash.
So i can dreem-And flow down this streem.
My sins commence, and tell me to breath the normality of my being.
Thats not the way to keep things.
Thats not the way i want to be seen.
I will.
change
I will.
Wont you...
Take me with you, so in the time it takes to get there we can for get our old sences,
Come togeather in a seconed.
And take loft in the dreems floting in our memories.
I stabed my self with my own bitter clout.
~To my dear friend Rachelle~
Such a warm hearted girl, Oh what are you gonna do? so much to serve, don't know where to go, always fallowen..the needs at hand. Serven Gods great plain. Somthen you seem to do, you hearts To big for you, so you gave it to be used! You let down your own, so he would make you His home! Taken in their pain, so that He might have there shame, And sit at His Kingdome come in His holy name!
03/30/03
Tast me in the grave where i stay.
You fool-
You let me lay here while you go your way.
-Dreeming of the day when some one will show me the way.
Mercy Play stole the day. (Mercy plays steel the day)
Out of the grave i raise.
(prais the day Jesus came, and washed away all my sin.)
03/27/03
~SCHOOL MARTYR~
Look at my face see me grin, when in side my head spins. Your words go right through me, but so that I can still feel I am what I need to be, down sized the school martyr. You never understood how I am, but just the same for you: I cant seem to pull it through. Its me that mattered to your education. Not your performance. School martyr feed the masses. Teach them my lesions. The ones I never new because I couldnt see them in you. I thought you were confused.
School martyr feed the masses.
School martyr feed the masses.
No argument there Your better than her.
Give my senses your guided stupidness.
You followed the book; Your Higher than them.
Talk me down, flush my face with your frown.
Red faces turn, because you called them out, only to put them back on the shelf.
I LOOK CONFUSED?
When you look like your trying to understand your self, we see your face sitting on the shelf.
When you try to comprehend, it seems to turn moments in to hours.
bleed school martyr dry, and watch him die.
03/27/03
~Pure Virgin~
The predominant lie in every ones eyes.
I look in and see.
Your lips are pure virgin to me, but only to me.
I never new your taste.
Ill lie to my self because she never kissed me
She never kissed.
Pure virgin
Pure virgin.
Your lips are untouched
Only lies we all tell.
I never met you. So how am I to know you never kissed.
Since your lips I never new
Sure -- Your virgin pure to me.
Lies so I can have my own sexual demise.
03/13/03
~Softly whispers~
Whisper of the wind, whisper in my ear and tell me I'm your friend. Whisper to my heart tell me so softly that here, you and I are near.
Whisper of the wind take my hand...
Lead me to that land: where force and love arent delt with evil hands..
03/12/03
Gezz another stupid love pome, good greff aaron, yeah sorry guys lol ill try and stop the silly angered love pomes, haha maybe...... so here ya go
*No name yet*
-Spit in your eye as you kiss me good bye.
And Profusely you call out my name.
-You spit in my eye when I kissed you good bye, I called you with out shame.
-Our love doesnt matter its just you that got shattered.
-My love was broke because it was you that I took.
03/12/03
~Watch me~
Im Just me, here ready to give you a fairy tail love, build my life around you. I just wish you new.
Im just not a man who knows how.
Raising sun rise new. shine your warmth on us. Please.
Save me from my empty pleas.
X marks my pain, look for me
find what you need, leave once again.
Calling me your friend.
03/12/03
~I dreamed of you just you~
I just wanted to be to you what I saw in me for you, but then I realized you saw me as what you saw me as, (not as I really meant to be) and I really just saw you as I wanted to see you too, so do we really understand each other?
Take cover because Im coming, yeah molding you to what I want fitting for you with me.
Im holding you to what I want for you to be.
I take hold, grip and pull. Dreamed ambitions lustful actions..
Take your haste eat it, and drowned you self in my pool of so called love.
My hand ill make fit to your glove, yes I called it love
But Your actions speak to me, your not what I wanted to you be
Betrayed I wish for the grave, I wish Id never stayed.
(bc I thought id be to you all you wanted from me)
Now I see, I wished for you what I see in me as you, I deemed.
Now I see you see me as only what you wish to see.
Opened now, I feel what you must have felt with me,
Why wont you just understand me, I never really wanted this to happen like it has.
I was just blinded like a dear by night, struck by beautiful car lights.
Now Im hit, something came down. And you left.
03/05/03
~Black~
This life: Failure, and hating her. but why?
Isnt there more than all these lies.....
Life, and I both cry.
Oh when will I die..
Am I already dead?
Lord, raise me like you said..
I have nothing more, no hope, No more but crushed burnt ashes of what once was..
I dont even have a heart beet to give any more. Please God forgive me, dont close your door, your right, I lost sight. (I lost tonight)
I left it all behind, I closed my eyes and let you die. Oh God come back.
Please hell isnt what I thought it would be....
(its ) Just me.....
Dear God, Dear God I didnt see this.
What I thought to be bliss, ....just now, a broken kiss. Redeem me, Oh Lord: hold (help) me. Im yours, cant you see. Please lets just go, you and....me.....
and ......And.......I cant... I just cant....I relent..... save me to.
Save me to....
I will die (TO) for you... please..... save me to, bring me back to life, Im sorry...
Raining days dont stay go away
I cant come out and play, Im gone.
Im singing a different song now,
Im better now. I can live breath and sing.
He is my friend...
03/05/03
~ Ephemeral Trust ~
Youve helped me lose my trust in,
In people living like Him,
I lost my trust to you,
You feel it I know you do.
Im sorry I feel so scared.
But you left me hanging here.
By my side, I new you werent there.
By my side, I held an image of fear.
can I ever trust again,
can I call you my friend.
can I ever trust again?
can I?
I just dont remember how....
The faith in knowing your here, you love me and will never hurt me.
03/02/03
Yes, your right, im just a distand faded figure, my anger means nothing, and dear your near to gone to me.
You i dont want to see. Your walking away, cursing the day,
Do you even remember my name, Fine be that way.
Good for you, you proved your self true, to your own eturnal plea of the idea you clame to be.
Yeah Fine, Dont be like me,
But Truly Dont for get what you ment to be.
Yeah Fine, Do you even remember my name?
You walked a-FREAKING-way.
YOU FREAKING LEFT MY SIDE!
Yeah im sad, yes im even mad, Becouse you just dont care.
Know what? I'm only this way, because I had hope that it was going to be your face.... the one i saw everyday.
But now that i know your true intentions.
(You dont care much about me, but just enough.)
Fine, im gone. Good bye.
I wont bother you any more.....................
03/02/03
This is a work in progress...enjoy
"Im sorry if i was so ....so, close to you.
Im sorry i felt your skin, Screetching deep with in.
I know,
i felt you.
Oh it took place,
i failed...
I know
I feel Your TORN imbrace
I feel torn to.
I know.
i felt you.
I felt you.
You felt me to,
i know i felt (left) you.
Oh rip off my Freaking skin,
i tryed so hard,
Deep with in.
Really!!
i felt you, deep with in,
I failed.
I know i felt you.
I failed
I FAILED
I FELT YOU TO!
I KNOW I .......
failed.......
i .....felt .......you..
You failed to, oh Taken true.
We stood togeather.
Hand in hand, (with that) You said we can.
Glased over by the blinding lights, it hit us
We stood in the light, Holding hands to tight.
Or so we thought, untill our lifes we did drop..
Hit"
02/20/03
~Another by me~
Fight me till I'm down, beet me till I'm brown, bc I'm not leaving any other way.
I cant for get your lovely face, turned into my bitter taste.
( fall out.)
Pity Shout!
Pity Shout!
Drowned your self down in your own emotional beauty.
Pity shout, to your own clout.
And do you feel your own touch.
Clothed in your fingers pain, alown again.
So you can if you want to. But pleas oh pleas, oh hear me to, I just want to be held by you.
02/11/03
~Randsom~ By me
You fed me lies
I ate my eyes,
so truth i could not see.
(You) Oh Your lies
- I feed (to) my self.
I feed them to my ears.
I hoped you were so close
(So i) Called you my dear..
Oh my dear.
Feed my ears
Feed my ears my dear.
Oh my dear.
02/12/03
Pome by me
This sedative ripping through my arm..
Makes me feel so bad, and yet so alarmed.
Are we right to say this way of thought is right today?
Or am i blind by your deciptive display.
02/04/03
~Fonder~ by me
My vanes.
Bleed the thread flowing through my body.
Keep me together.
Rip me apart.
Slowly You stole my heart.
Feel the silk Softly flowing.
My blood slowly glowing.
Drinking me down created a frown,
Stolen crowns, my mind is not set free from your slavery.
Softly speek.
Softly my blood reeks of silk laid grace paved the way for the pain in your face.
My vanes
Your pain
Spindle my thread around your head.
My body, as your thread.
My body fled
My vanes
His blood
His blood
His blood youre my thread.. on you I may rest my tried withered head.
02/02/03
~Yoyo By me~
The yo-yo turns it swings it burns, but the rope it will not break.
The toll it takes, my soul It pays.
My fault,
why can't I escape?
I make.
I make.
But the choice: I make.
That's my mistake.
Yo-Yo to you, your shaded,
Your hated. Roling back up, you cut my fingers off,
they burn.
But its always been my turn.
My fault.
1/17/03
~more by me~
Why do you ask me if I care, when you don't even want to hear.
Shut your eyes close your mouth, Shut your ears, I'm about to shout.
Those are lose threads on which you seem to tread.
You walk along, while I sing this song.
When I'm done, you don't care, what you think is what you wear.
Your not naked your not gone, your just singing your own song.
Fine sing that way, but don't expect to stay and play.
I know it sounds kind of harsh, Why would I blow You off? But I'm not you see.
You left me.
("Return to me" says the Lord of hosts "and I shall return to you", says the Lord of hosts.)
1/17/03
Just a pome i wrote
Why DO i fear the things that can not be changed.
Why do I Change the things i do not really fear.
Why Do i fear the change that i now bear.
Why do i bear the fear i can not chnage.
Why cant i change fear.
1/21/03
~forgive me~ To the wayward soul. God loves you
Your reasons are your own, you stand alown.
dont ask me to cry, to me you allready died.
Forgivness is your name, i
know you not the same.
People Keep on looking
Keep looking in the rong way.
To me you know me not,
bc my hearts so hot.
Its burning fire so cold
i wish i could go home.
But homes where the pain is,
homes where the hurt is...
Forgivness is you name,
why dont i know you the same?
Is it not in me to, Is it bc i trully hate you?
FORGIVNESS IS YOUR NAME
FORGIVNESS IS YOUR NAME
FORGIVNESS IS YOUR NAME
IM just going insane,
I CAN NOT STAY THE SAME
I CAN NOT STAY THE SAME
I CAN NOT STAY THE SAME
To do this i must first let you be me...
To do this you must first forgive me...
Do to that, i must let you forgive me...i must let me forgive me.
1/8/03
A pome, buy me
I see the cup gleeming in frount of my face.
In my mind, i think of its bitter tast.
But in my soul i know i should drink it all.
Give water to me oh Lord.
For give me, for my ways..
May i give watter today to my enamies face, and love the look of them when they say.
Thank you good sir.
01/07/03
~Dialogue~
Lol i hope the point gets through. (though.....mm.....?)
--Some Congressmen hired a few children psychologists to do a study on how video games can alter childrens behavior, to prove that violent video games are influencing our youth in a bad way. --
(Billys age: 7) (The...... Psycho...yes theres a reason, not a miss print.. haha. ) <__>
(sitting close by a tv and in a room made for kids.)
Psycho: Hello Billy do you know why your hear today?
Billy: (with a very childish voice) Yeah.. to play video games right?
Psycho? Yes of corse.. would you mind if I asked you a few questions Billy?
Billy: NO! I want to play video games!
Psycho: You can play as much as youd like Billy, but those men want to know some things about you, bc your so special.. so if you talk to me for a few min you can play the rest of the time ok?
Billy: Ok....
Psycho: How much time every day do you spend playing video games Billy?
Billy: When I get home from school I start to play, till I have to go to sleep.. and on Saturday I play too!
Psycho: Hmm ok... Well Billy, How would you like it if some one made a game where you could drive a car?
Billy: They already have some, there boring....
Psycho: Why's that? Can you say?
Billy: Because you cant kill people in them.
Psycho: Well Billy What if they made a game where you drove a car and you could run people over, and what if also in this game you could get out of your car, and kill normal people just walking on the street with lots of bad guns, oh and bombs, and then what if you could steel some one who is completely harmless car, and kill cops, and run over people with it, and have sex in the game, would you like that Billy?
Billy: OH BOY YEAH!!! DO YOU HAVE IT? WHATS IT CALLED, PLEASE TELL ME!!! I Wont TELL MY MOM AND DAD!!!
Psycho: What if in the game you could play agenst your friends, so you could kill them? Would you like that?
Billy: YEAH!!! thatd be great, I want to kill my friends! ALL OF THEM!
Psycho: Now why would you want to do something like that Billy? Why do you want to kill?
Billy: Because Killing people is fun, and its even more fun to kill people you know!
Psycho: Why do you like to kill people Billy?
Billy: Because Im ANGRY!!!
Psycho: Why are you so angry Billy?
Billy:(sounding very irritable) Because I PLAY VIDEO GAMES! duh..... Gezz
Psycho: Well why do you play video games Billy...?
Billy: Becuase..im ANGRY!
Psycho: Why are you angry Billy?
Billy: Because IM FREAKING ANGRY!!... Look can I just go play now, this isnt any fun..
Psycho: Calm down Billy... I dont think your understanding my question. why are you angry?
Billy:...........Look IM GOING TO KILL YOU UNLESS YOU SHUT UP STUPID MAN!
Psycho: Just tell me why your angry and you can go..
Billy: BECAUSE I PLAY VIDEO GAMES!!!
Psycho: ....ok ..ok...why do video games make you angry Billy?
Billy: Because I want to KILL! DARN YOU LET ME GO NOW!
Psycho: NO NO .....Billy....what is it that is in the game...that makes you want to kill people?
Billy: OH....silly.. because I have guns... or swords ...or chain saws...or knifes....or hamers..or axes....or magic.. every one knows that..Guns Kill and its fun!
Psycho: No! thats just what you kill people with, why do you want to kill to begin with BILLY!!??!!
Billy: (at this point ready to spring off in a berserk rage of anger) BECAUSE I #***!** PLAY THOSE @*# ! VIDEO GAMES......
Psycho: Billy whered you hear those words....?
Billy: The music I listen to...
So this concludes the analysis, which clearly proves that video games ARE NOT the reason for killing or hate and anger in children... Its the Guns that kill people...and chain saws...and ...swards........and knifes...uh..and hammers....and *coughs..... axes... SO its very clear that it can now be proven that video games are safe and are in no way effecting our...uh..your kids... *cough* i dont have any *cough* And that Weapons are the reason for death...
What im trying to say is that both partys are stupid, one cant just slap the sorce of rong dew to the influnce of a game, how ever it dose influnce. I belive that games CAN be bad, evil is evil, no matter what the sorce, just dont slap games with all the balm, it dosent start there. But it dose add an effect. The rest of this topic deals more with the placment of the human soul, and how its being lived, in good or evil, to some one under the "good" Point than a "evil" Game is going to be sean as evil and not played as the "good" person knows that whats bad, can not be good, nore should good take part in bad, bc then it wouldent be good, how ever some one in the "bad" Point sees it as good, and indulges them selfs in it to a depth of there own voice. Which can lead to public abouse, which to the abouser isent going to seem bad, but to normal people it is. SO of corse the game is going to effect this person in a way that will trigger an an action of darkness. Henc forth its not just the game, It can play as a match though.
~Lemanting~ To something of some one. who knows?
A pome.
I don't care any more,
no more to care for.
You stay by my side,
but still you hide.
Leave now be gone,
I'm not playing your song.
I don't need to mess with him,
he's not even friend or kin.
battled thoughts,
confusion rains,
but yet I see the calm still plans.
So I know its just an elution set to make me fall,
So I let go, may I grow tall.
Put on your mask
your credentials you may hide.
But your face shines through,
your durty too.
Am I so shamed that I change
by every drop on every rain?
No I'm still me, as clean as can be,
but only by Him, may I stay within.
I repent my kin, I repent of my foolish sin.
im sorry...
~Hello Something..like a song or pome... by me~
Im sorry of trying
im sorry so im trying.....harder
It means something to you, it meant something to me.
It means something to me, it ment somethign to you.
But now...
is it rong to say i want you to persue me?
To see me mean to you , what i ment to be?
To see you meen to me, what i mean to you?
To see my love for you, to see your love for me?
To set a'side...
your, my?
Set a'side...
To see my your love (for me), your my love (for you)
To set a'side and love you me too.
Yet another song pome thing by me this one has a name though
~Over grown Alown. Lies~
Every body's someone,
somebody whos exspecting something or walks away.
Do you exspect something of these days?
Or will you just walk away....
Did you walk away?
Open your ears, here His voice.
vanishing.
Hes calling you home.
Exspecting something? So is He. dont walk away....
Untitled By Aaron:
Laced with the agony pain and shame, he screams from the grave from whence he came!
Pome Writen by Rachelle Lazarus:
"My heart is heavy with this saddness, but no one can see. Am I as transparent as it seems? I wanna hide from all the evil around, but can I deprive myself from all I could accomplish in this world so dark, and everything in it's bounds? Nothing, no one is how they appear. Everything is fleeting, nothing stable, never clear. What can I stand on? Wheres the security? I stretch out my empty hands for something strong, and attempt to interpret this obscurity. I feel little, but maybe everything else is just as small. My way of thinking is my downfall; my alcohol. When I wanna be alone, I feel the weight of them leaning on me. And when I want roots, Im left free."
Kiss By Aaron:
Walking through this empty bliss, a fallen leafe, a broken kiss
Two Worlds by Aaron:
Two Worlds but of the same, ones of Truth the others lame. Filled with life he crys, and the other he just dies.
Dreeming By Aaron:
"Its just a dream to you.
Wake up to what ever reality you wish.
But just remember.. You crush that dream when you leave it.
Don't crush me.
Don't crush me. Please."
Shifting by Aaron:
In the sand, feel my hand, grasping it, feel my touch, feel the earth fall from your skin, as I pick you up. hold you here, up in the air, oh let the sun shine, off your face, feel this/my warm embrace. take one more look breath one more time, for this is showing how sand and you combine. for here is my glory holding you tight. My love and your feelings, tucked in my hand. so you will be come now, more then a man.
Demoralized Nation by Aaron:
Have i been decencatised, was it just to much this time.
im thinking now i should have just left it all behind.
Its Reeking my mind.
Breaking my spine.
WHY CANT I SEE YOU?
I DONT WANT TO LEAVE THE DEVINE.
ITs just what was mine. i though i was here, now i am
Oh the forests green clasping my hand as if a mother and chiled. Deeply I walk into the ever more apon this forests Shore.
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