For Hope

This is a page for the only happiness I've ever known

My Precious Angel. . . Hope
(The song playing is Precious Angel by Broken)

This is my Precious Angel

Her wings are just hidden

Not a word of meaning on this page has changed at all except the fact that I have moved across the country and Hope has broken up with me and now i'm back in BC. . . But otherwise all the feelings I've had for her and written on this page... well they've only grown stronger. We've been through so so much together, probably more then some people who through in an entire lifetime even. Right now i probalby love hope more then I did when i wrote this... I will always love Hope, even if she doesnt love me back... she was the biggest most important part of my life and i cant just pretend like i dont have feelings for her anymore because I always will. . . "Forever".

That picture was taken July 14th or 15th 2002 while I was visiting her. The first time we ever met was July 5th and right then is when I knew for sure that Hope was the one for me. I knew I loved her before then but I had never ever felt anything like the first time I had her in my arms or our first kiss. I know this sounds pretty sappy, but its true. Hope and I were together for i guess about 8 months it was about from April till November so yeah. I call Hope my Precious Angel for two reasons, one is a song I sent her that fits her perfectly called Precious Angel by a band called Broken (they're on MP3.com), but the bigger reason is because she truly is an Angel. She saved me, i'm not really gonna go in to how or wat she knows what she's done for me. Shes made me happier then I ever thought I could acctually be. Because of me we arent together right now tho... I ruined alot between us, she doesnt like when i say it but its true. Sure maybe some of the fault was hers but the blame falls mainly on me. I wish I could change what I've done, things would be so so different now... Its all over now tho... we still talk and are friends and I guess I can deal with that. She'll always be my Angel tho.

I've never been as happy as i am with Hope

This Is Another Angel

See the Resemblance?

How about a lil bit about Hope! Well shes 18, her birthday is October 25th. She lives in Oshawa, Ont and her full name is Hope Victoria Paul. And i AM in love with her, she is truly my One and Only. As you can see from this page she is beautiful! Shes sweet, kind, funny, caring, worries a lil too much but so do I. OH!! Shes gonna probably wanna kick my ass for putting this in here . . . But she has the CUTIEST bum you have ever seen! haha I'll get a picture on here if I can. Shes perfect for me in everyway possible. I know shes gonna read this so Hope, I'm in love with you, i can never ever say that enough, I will Love you forever no matter what. Dont ever ever forget that ok! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Ok I'm finally gonna put the poem Hope wrote for me up . . . I believe she wrote this just a little before we got together, I didnt even really know she felt this way about me.

Always imagine your gentle touch

If only you knew i felt this much

Not being with you i'm falling apart

Cause I dont know how to get to your heart

If you could only see the love in my eyes

Of all those nights I sat and cried

Just look at me i'm standing here

Just call my name and I'll be there

How long the wait, I dont know

When that day comes I'll let it show

If only you knew my feeling for you

I'll stay hopeful you'll feel the same way too

I got that one she wrote for me in April, after I read it I wrote this back. I love you Hope

You're in my heart now

This happiness unequal to anything before

My Precious Angel with who, in love I fell

Calling for me I saw you there

Holding you close, we'll calm our fears

My feelings for you pure and true

Through I know words will never do

I'll spend my life showing my love for you

My Soulmate Forever

My One and only
My Lover

The last thing I want to say to Hope here is, I Got Socks on! hehe

I was going to erase all this, but this was the only happiness in my life. So i'm just going to leave it as is.

Angel Eyes

The most beautiful and amazing eyes I have ever seen

Really the main way Hope saved me ,became my Angel, she made me smile again when I thought i woudlnt. Then things just started to click with us. I'd call her a lot, we were always talking, our e-mails we wrote DAILY were sometimes over 2 pages long and we still talked on MSN everyday. It was in late April or early May that I fell in love with Hope. One day it just hit me... we were just talking and I just realized... I was in love with her. Then everything started coming together for us. I wanted to come see her, but I had no money at all. Suddenly at work I was told I was going to be on a shift for about a month and a half that would be giving me HUGE overtime. So 3 weeks later I bought my plane ticket. And July 5th I finally got to be with Hope for the first time. I spent two weeks with Hope, and they were the most amazing PERFECT two weeks of my entire life. Now I know I'm sick, Im depressed, but when I was with Hope, no matter what happened, even when I was upset... I was still happier then I have ever been in my life. Hope is my Soulmate, my Precious Angel, Forever.

The tattoo that i drew for Hope and I

Above is the tattoo that I drew for Hope and I. We're not sure if this is exactly what we want yet. We might get that or half and half, if you look at it, it could be cut right down the middle and we could both get half. Or i might draw something else or Hope might and we'll get that. But this is what I drew for an idea for our tattoo.