this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items
that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
the door swung
open and Andrew walked out of the lunatic asylum !
“ and don't come back ” ewk shouted after him !
Andrew kept his eyes on the embankment of clouds glowing in the
dusk and kept w a l k i n g............. :o()
the door swung open and Andrew walked out of the lunatic asylum !
“ and don't come back ” ewk shouted after him !
Andrew kept his eyes on the embankment of clouds glowing in the
dusk and kept w a l k i n g............. :o()
i'd say you have to take
breaks from dexamphetamine !
“ in the article he explains that there are three ways stimulant medications can negatively affect how tall your child grows
first, some patients may experience a loss of appetite, which often results in fewer calories consumed
a second theory suggests that increasing dopamine (which is how stimulants work in the treatment of ADHD patients) can cause the suppression of growth hormone secretion and “ directly affect height development in children ”
finally, some studies cited in the canadian family physician journal article have suggested that stimulants may also slow down the development of cartilage tissue, affecting bone growth
recent studies have concluded that while there is some apparent effect on growth ‑ i.e. adhd children taking stimulants while still growing may experience less growth than their peers ‑ if a child stops taking the stimulant that has affected their height,
they can “catch up” in the growth pace of their peers
this is why some experts recommend patients take “summer breaks” from treatment ”
truthier
writes in reply
to
the whole world is a distortion within a dream, so, don't get your hopes up
my reply
god, what a crap artist !
your problem is you just read Buddhist and zen junk ! :o(
so you don't know what I am talking about do you !?
the world itself is the distortion, there is no distortion within a distortion !
so all that happens is the distortion has to be rectified and if for instance you read some decent chinese literature like the dream of red
mansions , or any of the great poets like wang wei you know what rectification looks like and wouldn't have written what you wrote
but you just plough around in religious voynich.................
plus you are not enlightened but think you are.................
what exactly is your reading if you are brave enough to say !?
I notice all you big zen “heavies” fade like the mist when asked for some real info ! :o(
like what do you actually read in any language, like poets or novels, philosophy, zen whatever, you can read actual chinese I presume from previous posts you have made ?
ed. lol, he faded with the mist and evaded the point by claiming he didn't read much :o)
so the point I am basically making is you need to converse with these great minds of the past by reading and this is in fact what you are doing in the koans and stories of zen that are reasonably ok and not too distorted or voynichy or bland rubbish !
we are this living mirror of distortion, if you believe zen, you just be ignorant get dai kensho and it's all fixed ! :o)
well that's very far from the truth, dai kensho needs some framework and you can only get that by reading these great minds who have already worked out what it's about !
so if you read the bland buddhist bullshit and voynich claiming to be koans then you are going to be vulnerable aren't you !?
people bullshit to themselves for the remainder of their lives on these boards.........................
what's the point, why not do the realwork and get (start !) to get it right ?
what I notice with these boards is people do some meditation, but what happens because they don't read anything useful and to the contrary read junk is they just get further embedded in junk !
rigid behaviorally crippled zombies ! :o(
so there's there two sides of zen, retreats and solitude and the development of the semantically coherent framework................
one without the other is dangerous and on these boards you just get wanking from the regurgitation of the reading of inferior minds and no retreat or solitude ........................!
she is completely without boundaries
or
M
A
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whichever
way
you
want
to
look
at
it
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she is completely without boundaries
or
M
A
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whichever
way
you
want
to
look
at
it
she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it
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she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it !
:o)( ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !..!
she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it !
:o)( ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !..!
she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it :o)( !
she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it :o() !
she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it !
she is completely without boundaries, or mad, whichever way you want to look at it
living in the world is (like!?) living in a constant mirror of distortion, reading the writings of others who can shed some clarity on this is essential !
there's no escape from this need and you can watch the anti-intellectual morons just get sucked down the drain hole into an ignorant idiocy !
most or all zen teachers and students I am afraid :o(
living in the world is living in a constant mirror of distortion, reading the writings of others who can shed some clarity on this is essential !
there's no escape from this need and you can watch the anti-intellectual morons just get sucked down the drain hole into an ignorant idiocy !
most or all zen teachers and students I am afraid :o(
living in the world is living in a constant mirror of distortion, reading the writings of others who can shed some clarity on this is essential !
there's no escape from this need and you can watch the anti-intellectual morons just get sucked down the drain hole into an ignorant idiocy !
a quote by nagarjuna
neither from itself, nor from other
nor from both,
nor without a cause
does anything anywhere, ever arise
my reply
from itself and other
and from both
but
neither
does
everything
everywhere
arise
a
n
d
f
a
l
a quote by nagarjuna
neither from itself, nor from other
nor from both,
nor without a cause
does anything anywhere, ever arise
my reply
from itself and other
and from both
but
neither
does
everything
everywhere
arise
a
n
d
f
a
l
l
:
o
)
a quote by nagarjuna
neither from itself, nor from other
nor from both,
nor without a cause
does anything anywhere, ever arise
my reply
from itself and other
and from both
but
neither
does
everything
everywhere
arise
a
n
d
f
a
l
a quote by nagarjuna
neither from itself, nor from other
nor from both,
nor without a cause
does anything anywhere, ever arise
my reply
from itself and other
and from both
but
neither
does
everything
everywhere
arise
a
n
d
f
a
l
l
:
o
(
“ neither from itself, nor from other
nor from both
nor without a cause
does anything anywhere, ever arise ”
from itself and other
and from both
but
neither
does
everything
everywhere
arise
a
n
d
f
a
l
“ neither from itself, nor from other
nor from both
nor without a cause
does anything anywhere, ever arise ”
from itself and other
and from both
but
neither
does
everything
everywhere
arise
a
n
d
f
a
l
one does see this, occasionally the normal parent child relationship/bonding gets
inverted !
it's very hard to understand and all you can do is try to keep the damage to a minimum, people go their own way and there's just nothing you can do ! :o)
it's slow in coming but as one gets older an understanding of how insane life is at a core level does develop, you might be interested in reading Emily Dickinson for amore “ holistic ” perspective on human insufficiency, and while we never not get surprised i think we do get more phlegmatic to these fundamental ruptures in some notion about what life should be !
often there are underlying health issues like sorta pre-dementia from incipient diabetes or something, just hang on and observe over awhile and it all (may!) becomes much clearer what the underlying dynamics are ! :o)(
education can have disadvantages, sorta one can not (or be slow to) develop street smarts about life :o()
your younger sister could be deliberately exacerbating the problem !
families can get really weird resonances between parents and children ! :o()
if one had advice and really one doesn't, it would to be more neutral about them and keep contact to a minimum which it sounds like you are already doing ! :o)(
when one gets these ruptures in our view of the scheme of things it's basically an invitation to a larger viewpoint ! :o)(
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now ithink about it, i wonder if the mother was upset by the daughter getting heavily into student loan debt while studying what really are a sort of vanity learning subjects at university !
sort of what was called being a “professional student” in my day ! :o()
this is a huge social problem in the USA now, useless and counterproductive university courses “enabled” or too easily made available through student loans which then must be paid back and are not eliminated by bankruptcy !
nansen was some sicko who like to eviscerate cats !
ewk you are too black and white ! it's all a mixed bag, let some of the ancient embankment and haze you
quote sink in ! :o)(
ewk replies
“ too black and white ” sounds fair to me.
either it's fairies and elves or it isn't. if you can't tell that isn't any of my business
my
reply
the really hard part to get and you don't get it, is it is partly fairies and elves !
that's why you don't like hakuin, because he could transverse with ability and facility the fairies and elves (well demons and Japanese whatevers :o) domain !
” when the fiction is true and the true is fiction ” :o)(
ewk replies
you believe in fairies and elves.
i didn't find any in Zhaozhou.
or didn't you bother to study zen before you started teaching it?
my
reply
Zhaozhou is a fairy and elf !
case 63 of the ewk cliff record
“ Zhaozhou ” is a fairy and elf
fetch me my tutu monk :o)
oh yes great master chirped the monk as he happily skipped across to zhaozhou's very sophisticated wardrobe :o)
ewk replies
nope
just some guy that said some crazy stuff that people wrote down
it also turns out that buddhists don't like to talk about him
my
reply
zhaozhou had a vision in which he was transported onto the reddit zen message board in early february 2014 and posted
“ will ewk ever get enlightened? ”
I answered, no, because he thinks he knows it all !
fair enough said Zhaozhou and offered me transmission but I politely turned it down because I already had it from the 6th patriarch, indeed was abit miffed as I was his senior in rank ! :o)
ewk replies
even your jokes are buddhist!
zen is not knowledge or ignorance. so, knowing it all, as you think you know that i think i think, is not related to enlightenment at all
buddhism! it sounds silly when you drag it in here
my
reply
ewk you are too black and
white !
it's all a mixed bag, let some of the ancient embankment and haze you quote sink in ! :o)(
ewk you are too black and white !
it's all a mixed bag, let some of the ancient embankment and haze you quote sink in ! :o)(
“ I've been
there /am there. at a vipassana course, as I was standing next to the forest, all distinctions were blown away and I felt totally unseparate with the trees and everything else, my energy and the trees energy being totally the same
it was stunningly beautiful but I was also super scared, and still am, to be honest ”
it's the mixing of a genuine experience with muddy thinking that is so scary, in your shoes I would scared too !
if you start to think straight it's not scary at all but hugely exciting !
vipassana, zen, it's all so full of bullshit and people get some sort of experience and get wrongly aligned and their lives get screwed up in very destructive ways :o()
I know ! :o(
took me twenty years to untangle zen, yet springwater/toni packer I never had to untangle because it was authentic, it's the crap artists in zen, such smooth flawed operators that were so destructive ! :o()
“ There is nothing but water in the holy pools ”
kabir
there is nothing in water but moldy fools !
that's what I love about the web, very strange people
talking saying strange things to each other :o)(
that's what I love about the web, two very strange people
talking saying strange things to each other :o)(
I think I am no longer wondering if posting on reddit zen is a form of suicidal ideation :o)(
I wonder if posting on reddit is a form of suicidal ideation ? :o(
sepehr g. writes
i think one reason the persian/iranian (same thing) empires were so strong in the past was due to their use of
eunuchs in the court:
I do think being celibate or a eunuch has its benefits, especially in mental clarity. I don't think there are any neuroimaging studies that analyze it though
my reply
yeah i do think eunuchs give a continuity outside the family based power structures/s !?
there certainly has been a lack of foresight/insight/commonsense in the iranian governments over the last 70 years
“ not entering the world
not following conditions
in the emptiness of the pot of ages there's a family tradition
white duckweeds, gentle breeze - evening on an autumn river
an ancient embankment, the boat returns - a single stretch of haze ”
lol, I must be getting old, i'm thinking I have got better things to do than
read this half arsed stuff :o)
estranged from the world
life is a sore thumb..................
:o(
“ gathering white duckweed on the tranquil lake,
the day turns to dusk in the south china spring
on the river dong there’s a returning traveler
he meets an old acquaintance on the suxiang
. ”
ayahuasca how badly does it fuck your brain?
actually i am not at all sure, bit of an open
question .................
not that interesting really imo ! :o)(
that's a much more coherent
post !
I think shinran is espousing the monist position tho with some qualifications and perhaps as you point out a healthy skepticism about the whole business :o)
what's different about him and so very different from almost any other “end of timer” is he could have been a “ great enlightened sage ” if he had been celibate and put the time into going further down that road which is not really open to married with kids and
“suburban life”
he took the “married with kids road” and knew the difference which I think shows greatness of mind !
for income he was obliged to come up with something for his followers to do and voilà “ pure land Buddhism ” !
poisoning may relate to any body or biochemical compartment, not necessarily systemic at all
even what is called systemic poisoning like say a snake venom toxin nixes fairly specific biochemical compartments
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unpasteurized milk can have parasites !
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some of the proteins in dairy are not very digestible
for dairy, mainly only eat cultured cheeses (the microbes break down the lactose and problematic proteins) , however there is a place for the occasional semi - cultured cheese like fetta ! :o)
yogurts are more tricky because the cultures vary........ acidophilus and rhamnosus are good cultures
a good trick is heat the milk to about 89C, wait to it cools to about 62C and mix in a houston afp pep enzyme !
you would find the Houston afp pep, no fenol and zyme prime enzymes useful, they really help with digestion !
I had similar problems and do the BCD diet
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yeah you can get stomach poisoning from drinking too much coffee, i'd cut back to 3 (ed. from 6 to 7!) cups a day max !
it happened to someone I knew years ago who drank too much coffee !
3 prunes a day (cooked). kiwifruit (ripe and pasturized!) and vitamin E help with constipation as does using the squatting position !
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“ I know there are a ton of gimmicks out there about toxins and detoxing, but what foods/supplements boost your immune system? ”
germanium is a good one, vitamins A, D, E, shiitake and button mushrooms, cut back on high iron foods or donate blood
iodine, hydrogen peroxide
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what would work for you is folapro and strontium ! (Supplements)
they will wind you down, I know the feeling ! :o()
I have written up my experiences with getting
sleep. it's what I have found works and is worth your time to read thoroughly !
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well my observation is the gap diet is not helpful !
it's basically a wrongminded mixture of the scd and bed diets !
kapleau wasn't enlightened. toni packer was ! (there's a lot of back story in that !)
re
schizophrenia you have a lot of backstory in the autism/autistic spectrum versus/and schizophrenia paradigm !
it would take you weeks , months and years to pick up the backstory so really I have to just put up the beginning and leave the rest to posterity or eternity :o)
if all you can do is look on bemused ..... great :o)
“ dumb is as dumb does ! ”
“ dumb is as dumb does ! ” :o)
it's common for people like you (ed. kennious on reddit !) with a reading age of 2 and a half ( and that's being insulting to a two and a half year old :o( to think what they can't understand doesn't make sense when it does and to be sucked in by stuff that is in fact nonsense and think that sense : o)
just your common or garden proletarian moron :o)
i don't think the iodine patch test is valid, i think the rate at which it fades is to do with skin chemistry and not deficiency !
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I get migraine and I put iodine tincture on my skin as it thins the blood and helps avoid migraines !
too much
iodine will disrupt sleep, you just stop applying any for a while, but actually it's important to supplement
selenium if you are supplementing anything except tiny quantities of iodine !
with more iodine you sweat more ! that's just the way it is with iodine !
imo, putting iodine tincture in measured amounts on scrubbed thin skin is one of the best ways to supplement iodine !
there's quite abit of
finesse required to get the best results from this sort of thing ! :o)
“ why do you write with extra spaces and no capital letters? why must you make it more difficult for people to read what you're attempting to convey? ”
what I write has a lot of different layers and the way I write it is how I make those layers ! :o)
more than a third of women have hot
flashes 10 years after menopause
illpresence : i am
wondering . why do you still feed a person you do not want around. is this not one of the basic rules of the internet?
andrew : you don't want him around ? why did you post !?
“ the great way is not difficult, just avoid picking and choosing ” !
illpresence : sorry, i don't like this particular kind of game
andrew : lol, you want to avoid looking at what zen is really about then !
“ the great way is difficult when you have to look at what you like and dislike ! ” :o)
“ claiming enlightenment and then calling others stupid. hahah, what a laugh! ”
a koan for you, if nansen was enlightened, why did he slice the cat in half?
“ both legs stretched out ” is an interesting choice of phrase
i think it was yunmen sat like this once blocking a path and dared a monk who wanted to get by to run his legs over with a wheel barrow, which the monk did
my
reply
ewk it's just a story with perhaps some reality like the monk didn't stop in time and made yunmen lame for a month !
if
it
was
yunmen ! ?
you are naïve about the authenticity of what one reads and problems with historical identities, transcriptions, text recording, copying, synthesis, amalgamation, loss of idiomatic meanings and cultural context and translation !
you rest your ideas on a certainty of texts that is fatuous !?
you don't see it , but that makes you fatuous ! : o (
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(ed. ewk
replied , saying at the end “ my sort of people ” )
you mean schizophrenic ?
you don't do , you just talk !
by doing I mean doing what a translator would do which is track down the original documents, look at how authentic they are, and start to craft a reasonable translation doing a lot of research !
you don't necessarily need a good proficiency in the language !
then you will start to understand how much like quicksand what you tout is !
because I am enlightened I can pare the koans you quote in valid parts and invalid, that is I try to get a fit with what it really is talking about and occasionally or even surprisingly often you can see that someone knew what he was talking about before all the transcribing/ recording/ garbelization !
this lack of literal transcription and writing is a weakness of zen whereas we can go back 2500 years and read exactly what Sappho wrote !
I was thinking, all the billions of people that have passed since then and the endless realms and eons of nonsense written/copied and printed and still these poems
I II of her's jump out at one as exceptional, yet it seems so simple, how could that be?
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this i where you go wrong (ed. ewk) , you think the personal can be dissociated from the abstract, but progress in zen/what zen is about is the unity of the personal with the abstract !
you frightened milksop !
:
o
(
read those Sappho links, she has that unity :o)
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you are not enlightened ewk, still you do a service on reddit zen, continue :o)
too lazy to be ambitious
i let the world take care of itself
ten days’ worth of rice in my bag
a bundle of twigs by the fireplace.
why chatter about delusion and enlightenment?
listening to the night rain on my roof,
i sit comfortably, with both legs stretched out.
my
retranslation
too fatigued to have any sort of ambition
i let the world take care of itself
ten days’ worth of rice in my bag
a pile of wood by the fireplace
why prattle about delusion and enlightenment?
listening to the night rain on my roof,
i lounge around - both legs stretched out!
the image presented by zen of ryokan taigu is of a simple bumpkin occasionally spinning a poem off, writing the odd poem, but in fact he was a poet before being a zen priest and has a huge very sophisticated literary output from a lifetime of writing and is extremely allusive to other poets and writing, that is, he was actually a particularly “ literary ” poet
this doesn't fit the cultivated zen bumpkin image of course with the stupid zen arseholes and their anti-intellectual militarist approach !
once you get wise to the level of con in zen and the way wrong minded twits like some who post here on reddit zen promote putrid fantasies of what it about, you (I am!) are astounded !
a fair portion of ryōkan's life he simply travelled around staying in abandoned houses and writing !
a reasonable
book on ryōkan and his poems, but there's plenty of good and wide
ranging info on the web !
though i lie with legs close to the fire embers
the night's chill
cuts
my
stomach
:
o
zakaj writes
the reason i come here is that you're not fake. i'm tired of reading big words ... those big words ... self-nature, essence of mind ... the reason why i like the pure land tradition more than zen, is that some people were really brutally honest with themselves, they were able to assess themselves in a non-bullshit way. especially shinran. he basically admitted on record that the only reason he teaches is he desires fame and profit and that he has not even little compassion for anyone. now this kind of person i can trust. there's something genuine there
i left /r/zen (unsubbed and demodded) because as a moderator i had to read 50 comments by ewk & co daily and it was rotting my brain ... but why do you say i'm so strange? i think i'm hyper-sensitive and a little paranoid too ... things that seem simple to other people are very challenging to me. having a wife actually helps me cope with the world, in many ways, but that's another topic. - i avoid alcohol as much as i can, although i love it. but it's been destructive so i better not touch it
perhaps the pure land is a replacement for something, it's like methadone. it's not that i believe there is a heaven somewhere. it's more like a positive expression of detachment. the follower of the nembutsu repeats "namu-amida-butsu" and thus retracts from all existence. you quoted ippen's students killed themselves. but is that really a counter-argument to pure land? - what do you recommend from buchowski?
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yeah, I think I am getting sick of /r/zen too :o(
I got the hang of ewk after a while and now he doesn't reply to me :o)
but he's damaging to deal with cause he doesn't give a millimeter and that's sorta destructive to one's brain ! :o()
the way I would look at pure land is it has some strengths and weaknesses
shinran's honesty and I guess brutality is a strength, but the notion of pure land itself and the nembutsu chanting are allegorical when there is some reality that it is allegorical of !
so the next step is to investigate what it is allegorical of which is actually mystical contemplation !
there's some good charles bukowski videos on you tube, like you I was initially put off by his “bum and alcoholic” lifestyle, but in fact he did drink less when younger and seems to drink more than he does because he gets so traumatized by public appearances he had to be drunk to cope !
what I noticed about his writing is he is about 70% right ( which is a high percentage seeing how we normally limp along on about 15 to 20 % ) even tho I disagreed with what he said and it could take a while to see that !
a spar or hot bath a remedy for low thyroid function ?
“ a body temperature of 39C will result in a 23 per cent increase in concentration of
thyroxine levels in the blood – temporarily moving into the range seen in patients with hyperthyroidism ”
zakaj, what i would say is you are a lot stranger than you take yourself for and people take you for, like you are really really strange, one in ten billion or something :o)(
out of the box, legal/illegal/conceptual and totally not even of any planet strange :o)
i don't think we are going to get rid of each other tho probably it's healthier for both of us :o)
zakaj writes
it's a waste of time to come here and read your stuff
contemplative mysticism ain't for me
good luck on your journey
my reply
I think you are actually one of the more unusual people I have come across, perhaps the most unusual because you have a metastable brain state !
when you are drunk you are chemically put in “ the enlightened state ” and whether being one phase of this metastability is going to give you any peace I don't know ! :o()
I think not !
you make me think about charles bukowski and imo you could do well
to be come more familiar with his life and his writings :o)(
I may seem a bit negative but actually you have opened my eyes a bit, but it's similar to reddit zen, as an illustration of a reality mode that one personally wants to avoid !
I think you are actually one of the more unusual people I have come across, perhaps the most unusual because you have a metastable brain state !
when you are drunk you are chemically put in “ the enlightened state ” and whether being one phase of this metastability is going to give you any peace I don't know ! :o()
I think not !
you make me think about charles bukowski and imo you could do well
to be come more familiar with his life and his writings :o)(
I may seem a bit negative but actually you have opened my eyes a bit, but it's similar to reddit zen, as an illustration of a reality mode that one personally wants to avoid !
why einstein didn't like quantum physics : !
it's because quantum physics denies the universe is a singularity or rather there is some probability that quantum physics with some degree of probability/indeterminancy is itself the singularity !
einstein was essentially monistic, that is the universe is itself god and singularities are important to sustaining that illusion, but the quantum world is full of likeness without complete or often, even partial identities ! : o ()
why einstein didn't like quantum physics : !
it's because quantum physics denies the universe is a singularity or rather there is some probability that quantum physics with some degree of probability/indeterminancy is itself the singularity !
einstein was essentially monistic, that is the universe is itself god and singularities are important to sustaining that illusion, but the quantum world is full of likeness without complete or often, even partial identities ! : o ()
why einstein didn't like quantum physics : !
it's because quantum physics denies the universe is a singularity or rather there is some probability that quantum physics with some degree of probability/indeterminancy is itself the singularity !
einstein was essentially monistic, that is the universe is itself god and singularities are important to sustaining that illusion, but the quantum world is full of likeness without complete or often, even partial identities ! :o()
why einstein didn't like quantum physics : !
it's because quantum physics denies the universe is a singularity or rather there is some probability that quantum physics with some degree of probability/indeterminancy is itself the singularity !
einstein was essentially monistic, that is the universe is itself god and singularities are important to sustaining that illusion, but the quantum world is full of likeness without complete or often, even partial identities :o()
xyz, are you really my nightmare ? : o( . ^ . * . # )
xyz, are you really my nightmare ? :o( . ^ . * . # )
xyz, are you really my nightmare ? :o(
are you really my nightmare ? :o(
why is the “ emperor's new
clothes ” such apowerful paradigm ?
because it shows how social consensus creates completely fictitious realities,
from nazi and socialism to zen and the quakers/quakerism
zen, lol the idiots spewing voynich thinking they are saying something meaningful,
a coat so poorly threaded it is reality rags :o()
“ thinking he'll test the zen guru , the boastful man asked a 'trick' question. (anti-zen)
"if you are so wise, then tell me, do you know why have i come to you?"
"to break you of asking questions that you already are the answer to" ”
my
reply
zakaj you want to have your cake and eat it !
pure land Buddhism is not “ contemplative mystical ” which is what zen and people like john of the cross and sa'di are really about
you want the understanding that comes with contemplative mysticism, but also the “waiting at the end of time” mindset (ie twiddling your thumbs :o) that goes with pure land Buddhism !
contemplative mysticism is really hard grinding work !
that's why I say it's really only for celibates ! :o()
the reality is you are waiting at the end of time and I guess a part of that is not to be realistic where you do and don't put your efforts
, so are blind to getting the contemplative aspect very very wrong and confidently post complete nonsense !
“ apart from the name, we ourselves completely lack any capability
i believe our existence to be wholly deception and delusion
consider all that is said apart from the nembutsu to be but gibberish ”
the above quote by ippen shōnin
“ after ippen's
death many of his disciples appear to have committed suicide, throwing themselves into the sea in the hope of being born in the pure land ”
fuckwits following afuck wit !
“ after ippen's
death many of his disciples appear to have committed suicide, throwing themselves into the sea in the hope of being born in the pure land ”
fuckwits following afuck wit !
what happens if you don't
assume that there is an underlying sense to the koan but it's just the garbled nonsense of schizophrenics in the zen madhouse !?
do you yourselves look idiots or mad ?
both I am afraid :o()
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“ the emperor has no clothes ”
what happens if you don't
assume that there is an underlying sense to the koan but it's just the garbled nonsense of schizophrenics in the zen madhouse !?
do you yourselves look idiots or mad ?
what happens if you don't
assume that there is an underlying sense to the koan but it's just the garbled nonsense of schizophrenics in the zen madhouse !?
do you yourselves look idiots or mad ?
what happens if you don't
assume that there is an underlying sense to the koan but it's just the garbled nonsense of schizophrenics in the zen madhouse !?
do you yourselves look idiots or mad ?
“ testosterone suppresses immunoglobulin production, serum levels of IgA, IgG, and IgM in those receiving exogenous testosterone are at the low end of normal ! (ed. ie below par !)
it also increases the killer T cell count ! ”
I can't find a study on it but high levels of IgG, IgA, and IgM are used to indicate yeast infection !
so that is a very strong indicator that these antibodies are an important part of the immune response against candida !
but we know there is some degree of suppression of the immunoglobulins !
testosterone seems to modulate the immune resistance in a way that reduces candida/yeast resistance !
what I am saying is the aspects of the immune system that testosterone suppresses don't suit you and your candida problems whereas enhanced killer t-cell production may be ok with AIDS patients (ed. TRT - testosterone replacement therapy - is given to AIDS patients with muscle wasting !) !
I had looked at getting testosterone myself and it seemed too problematic!
I have only looked briefly but this aspect of TRT seems not to have any studies on it so you need to make informed inferences and try your options like stopping the testosterone treatment and see what happens !
I think your (ed. BlindMidget ) whole approach is too medical for an area that medicine doesn't deal well with !
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the paradigm that's seems to be current is that oestrogen dominance (women !) biases towards enhanced humoral and cell mediated immunity while as a negative consequence of that, it also predisposes to autoimmunity issues
androgen dominance works a reverse of oestrogen dominance and since both the humoral and cell mediated immunity response will be weakened then you would expect an increased propensity to candida/fungal infections with more testosterone!
so that's from reading a few papers and other accounts on the net and is a summary !
the main research interest in this is the use of androgens and TRT as a potential treatment for autoimmunity problems !
to specifically differentiate candida/fungal infections as potentiated one has to infer and this
page , while not research says the the IgM response (humoral) is indicative of candida !
if you aren't on any other medications and the oral thrush occurred within a week after starting testosterone then in your shoes I would be viewing the TRT as responsible !
do you take any supplements ?
my interest in this is as one who has considered testosterone therapy and not done it as too problematic and I feel your experience confirms my caution !
you could drop your TRT dose to 1/2 or 1/4 and see how that goes ?
the climate here in Australia is sunny and one can take advantage of the sun for a fair portion of the year to get direct rays on the testicles which have photoreceptor genes in the cells and this exposure does seem to somewhat increase testosterone imo ! :o)
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interestingly there does appear to be an argument over
whether testosterone is immune
suppressive or immune
redistributive !
my feeling is it both suppressive and redistributive which doesn't exclude specific compartmental enhancements like killer T cells in an overall contex of suppression and decreased fungal and candida resistance may be one of these suppressed compartments !
testosterone may not act directly to produce this immune suppression/redistribution
but
co-factor with corticosterone !
Lilies of the field, it really is an essay in human futility and pointlessness :o()
reddit zen is dockweeds of the field :o() ? !
Lilies of the field, it really is an essay in human futility and pointlessness :o()
makes you realize how
crazy the samurai ethic is ! :o () ( )(
makes you realize how
crazy the samurai ethic is ! :o ()
makes you realize how
crazy the samurai ethic is ! :o )(
“ could this composite
electrode efficiently spur the chemical reaction that rearranges hydrogen and oxygen atoms in water? [...]
chemistry is all about where electrons want to go, and catalysis is about getting those electrons to move to make and break chemical bonds ”
“ chemistry is all about where electrons want to go, and catalysis is about getting those electrons to move to make and break chemical bonds ”
interestingly the eastern orthodox christianities, (perhaps because of the middle eastern/gnostic/islamic? influence) are replete in the abstract philosophical aspect that is characteristic of zen...............!
so Russian cinema has this to a surprising extent....!
the best would be Andrei
tarkovsky ..............
one lion said , as it tucked into the haunches “ this wildebeest is pretty sweet ” to another lion who was tucking into the guts !
the wildebeest which was still alive (being eaten alive !) and was abit of a philosopher said “ talk about a difference in perspective ! ” : o (
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so what i am saying, is/does sweet / sweet have this dual face, the other side is always pain if we care to flip it over and look at it !?
i wish i could say that pain has a dual face, and often it does, but it doesn't always :o(
one lion said , as it tucked into the haunches “ this wildebeest is pretty sweet ” to another lion who was tucking into the guts !
the wildebeest which was still alive (being eaten alive !) and was abit of a philosopher said “ talk about a difference in perspective ! ” : o (
“ i had a dream once that all my soul-mates were up on a cliff playing,
not paying attention and having fun.
under the cliff was this big ol field of rye.
sometimes they would fall, and it would be my job to catch them ”
it's such a well known quote that it's reasonable to expect people to recognize it
without attribution !
“ i had a dream once that all my soul-mates were up on a cliff playing,
not paying attention and having fun
under the cliff was this big ol field of rye
sometimes they would fall, and it would be my job to catch them ”
it took me a l o n g time to get this !?
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a gentle
insight into gay subculture
kogen writes
cheri huber said you can't break precepts, you are precepts...
my reply
you rely on externals too much ! :o(
you have adequate internal resources, don't diss them, try a retreat without interviews !
Branches bloom white plum blossoms
Five pins hold these fragile robes
Die! Die! Die! Die! Die!
my
reply
white plum blossoms are the fragile robes
live
live
I love my reddit negative karma (ed. -212) and was disappointed to find that there are people with -10,000 or more ! : o)
we are the enemies of the
hive mind !
“ no.. but if you view anything as a waste of life you still don't know anything ”
yeah there are a lot of things that are a waste of a life ! :o(
give it a few years ! :o()
( ed. the quote was by a 19 year old young man ! : o )
“ no.. but if you view anything as a waste of life you still don't know anything ”
yeah there are a lot of things that are a waste of a life ! :o(
give it a few years ! :o()
( ed. the quote was by a 19 year old young man ! )
“ no.. but if you view anything as a waste of life you still don't know anything ”
yeah there are a lot of things that are a waste of a life ! :o(
I had a similar
problem tho not as bad many years ago when I took a wheatgerm oil based vitamin E !
the problem was phytoestrogens in the wheatgerm oil !
so I would look at sources of phytoestrogens in your diet ! :o)
this is just a speculation, you may in fact be developmentally sensitized at the stem cell level by BPA exposure to estrogen and phytoestrogens, not good news actually as it makes for higher prostate cancer risk !
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“ my husband too, had a similar problem, though not as severe - just on one side, but very sensitive
we cut out soy products, beer, etc. and it was gone within a week
you can google ‘estrogen foods list’ for more info ”
interesting the
sentimental overlay of the photographers thoughts which doesn't/won't match the animals anxiety !
you have
probably become sensitized to allergens released by the mold
a bit of
zinc might help ?
you can wipe down mold with bleach
you may have to shift ! ?
jennifer lawrence (ed. the actress) is strongly autistic and one of the ways she copes is to present herself warts and all so she gets the feedback and in itself it's abit dissembling !
successful actors and actresses are not necessarily good actors/actresses, but they have this autistic charisma...............
long experience has taught me that it's the charismatic zen teachers which is the most destructive, there's something in the energy put into charisma that takes away from a productive and functional understanding in life..............
jim jones, chögyam trungpa ............. at the mild or more functional end of the spectrum, john loori, joshu sasaki, richard baker ..........
lol, one of the things I liked about toni packer is she was totally non charismatic, bit of a middle class german/swiss bitch/hausfrau actually ;o()
half jewish and angsted all her life by the social displacement that jews experienced under hitler and the nazis, like how could middle class existance lie :o)
benoît mandlebrot's comment on what happened to the jews in warsaw (his parents resettled in france in 1936) was that those who remained couldn't bear to leave their china sets and quality piano's, so what was coming must have been obvious, just disbelieved as too discordant to their perception of reality and life ! :o()
of course from the Nazi's point of view how can you destroy a country's middle class and win a war !
more of proletarian stupidity than soviet Russia !
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jennifer lawrence like charles bukowski is self medicating with pot and alcohol, the trouble is that actors and actresses are so lame brained in terms of
supplements and
diet that she is likely doomed, tho it may take a while, the facade/body cracks eventually................
lindsay lohan for example lol, not so eventually :o)(
why is jennifer lawrence zen and the people on zen reddit not !?
can you see it, that transparency about herself and her life !
you know who she is and what she's like, not the manicured, disguised and self-dissembled self images you get in zen
she's not afraid and zen (in general!)! is composed of nothing but milksops frightened of shadows, mirrors and unflattering pictures of themselves
which is why they wallow in bullshit/self/false abstraction !!!!!!!!!!!!
:
o
(
why is jennifer lawrence zen and the people on zen reddit not !?
an eihei dogen quote
“ there are ten thousand things I don't understand about buddhadharma, but there's one thing I do...correct faith ”
my reply
there's always something I don't understand about the Buddha dharma and that in itself is enlightenment ! :o)
reddit zen, two months i have been on, two months of craziness ! :o)(
reddit zen, two months i have been on, two months of craziness ! :o()
normal people are in a stable reality space !
abnormal people are in a metastable reality space ! ! ! ¡ ! ! ¡
in/within that metastable space you
can be garbled or coherent .
everybody is a mxture of both coherent and incoherent
but mostly people/ people mostly are garbled
and coherent is
very very rare !
you sound like one of the endless neo advaita
nits than dan
satirizes !
lol, our ear canals are in fact
retasked air breathing tubes used by fish who were the
ancestors of the first land animals !
some biblical figures did exist, rather fascinatingly jeremiah is very historical, new archeological research is showing his accounts to be true !
hardly glamorous of course, him trying to get the local rulers to see sense and surrender to the invading babylonians and those rulers trying to kill him by putting him a well !
the really spiritual books in the bible are not the ones commonly regarded as such, jeremiah is one , the wisdom of jesus son of sirach (in the apocrypha) is another !
also the great christian mystics john of the cross, Catherine of sienna and Teresa of avila are really no different from zen seen from the viewpoint of enlightenment :o)(
these mystics seem much more emotional than zen, but that's simply because in these Asian countries historically there were strong social prohibitions against that sort of personal honesty, hence zen appears falsely abstract which suit the endless morons who inhabit message boards like this, disguising their real lives so they can just pretend to be doing something real when in actuality it's literal masturbation ! !
this
site is a bit aggressive but basically argues the main points as to the lack of historical existance of jesus effectively !
i'm not actually anti-christian and it's disappointing that the churches are failing to modify their doctrines to allow for this !
in actual fact the anglican church about 1900 was at the point of being open to this, but that was lost in the two world wars and it has taken until now for this issue
to start resurging again!
it's weird to see the catholic church throttle off mother teresa's chance of getting a sainthood, when she as a very ambiguous atheist provides a road out for them !
it is proved that jesus never existed historically !
Buddha and muhammad are fairy tales as well !
what zen is about subsumes atheism !
in actual fact once you understand zen and get enlightened it's obvious that the Buddha stories are daytime tv !
mujushinkyo writes
If you were really Enlightened, andrew, craving, hatred anxiety and fear wouldn't be back
my
reply
I always though you were crazy ! stupid and insane is a bad combination ! :o(
smash 'em so hard they reach for the nurse call, but are too weak to press the button :o)
a particularly rubbishy/voynich quote by daoxin
there is nothing lacking in you, and you yourself are no different from the buddha. there is no way of achieving buddhahood other than letting your mind be free to be itself. you should not contemplate nor should you purify your mind. let there be no craving and hatred, and have no anxiety or fear. be boundless and absolutely free from all conditions. be free to go in any direction you like. do not act to do good, nor to pursue evil. whether you walk or stay, sit or lie down, and whatever you see happen to.you, all are the wonderful activity of the great enlightened one. it is all joy, free from anxiety ‑ it is called buddha.
my reply/reinterpretation or introducing abit of sanity :o)
you are the universe !
buddhahood may not be grasped, it arrives and we have to take the time to be with it !
craving, hatred anxiety and fear
skittle like frightened deer ! :o)(
walking through a glade
when
you
least
expect
it
they
are
back
:
o
)
a particularly rubbishy/voynich quote by daoxin
there is nothing lacking in you, and you yourself are no different from the buddha. there is no way of achieving buddhahood other than letting your mind be free to be itself. you should not contemplate nor should you purify your mind. let there be no craving and hatred, and have no anxiety or fear. be boundless and absolutely free from all conditions. be free to go in any direction you like. do not act to do good, nor to pursue evil. whether you walk or stay, sit or lie down, and whatever you see happen to.you, all are the wonderful activity of the great enlightened one. it is all joy, free from anxiety ‑ it is called buddha
my reply/reinterpretation or introducing abit of sanity :o)
you are the universe !
buddhahood may not be grasped, it arrives and we have to take the time to be with it !
craving, hatred anxiety and fear
skittle like frightened deer ! :o)(
walking through a glade
when
you
least
expect
it
they
are
back
before it was contradictory it was
voynich !
if you want to be free why do you chain yourself to retarded nonsense ? !
before it was contradictory it was nonsense !
dear s. and h. (ed. sisters)
i was surprised and shocked to hear of your brother richard's death, i will always remember those wonderful sundays visiting your family from wanganui collegiate with gratitude !
from this age it seems such a distant dream, cecilie's beautiful neat house and garden, murray beating me at tennis and yourselves and richard tearing around the place !
regards
usual
pretty “spiritual” retard !
reincarnation is just a pretend notion to distract from the fact we only have one life and in terms of (the!) “spiritual search” it matters if you consistently get things wrong and have no interest in straightening that out which most people seem to do ! :o()
it's a form of escapism !
:
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reincarnation is just a pretend notion to distract from the fact we only have one life and in terms of (the!) “spiritual search” it matters if you consistently get things wrong and have no interest in straightening that out which most people seem to do ! :o()
reincarnation is just a pretend notion to distract from the fact we only have one life and in terms of (the!) “ spiritual search ” it matters if you consistently get things wrong and have no interest in straightening that out which most people seem to do ! :o()
yeah that's a good
post !
helps break the fake “ scriptural ” mindset that reddit zen so suffers from !
that there is a retreat oriented zen with an intrinsic calmness and solemnity totally alien to the reddit prattle !
the plus side of
anger is it gives intense focus and can be quite productive !
I think the secret is to be angry without appearing to be angry ! :o()
i'm not sure what the negative side is :o()
the plus side of anger is it gives intense focus and can be quite productive !
I think the secret is to be angry without appearing to be angry ! :o()
Exactly.
thomas cleary, the book of
serenity ? dragon howling in a dead tree, number 28 in dogen's 300 koan collection ? ewk mish mash ?
a monk asked xiangyan, “ what is the path? ”
xiangyan said, “ a dragon howling in a dead tree. ”
the monk said, “ i don't understand ”
xiangyan said, “ eyeballs in a dry skull ”
later a monk asked shishuang, “ what is a dragon howling inside a dead tree? ”
shishuang said, “ still having joy. ”
the monk said, “ what are eyeballs in a dry skull? ”
shishuang said, “ still having consciousness. ”
also a monk asked caoshan, and caoshan expressed in verse:
the dragon howling in a dead tree really sees the path;
when consciousness is exhausted in the skull, the eye are finally clear.
when joy and consciousness are exhausted, happenings end;
how can that person distinguish the pure within the clouded?
the monk asked again, “ what is a dragon howling in a dead tree? ”
caoshan said, “ the bloodline is not cut off. ”
the monk asked, “ what are eyeballs in a dry skull? ”
caoshan said, ” not entirely dry ”
my replies !
unconciousness in dry eyeballs !
conciousness in dry eyeballs !
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the howling dragon embodies the path
conciousness never gets exhausted but can move from similitude :o)(
the
pure
is
within
the
clouded
:
o
unconciousness in dry eyeballs !
one of socrates problems was he mixed philosophy with politics !
and
actually
plato
did
one of socrates problems was he mixed philosophy with politics !
one of socrates problems was he mixed philosophy and politics !
fess up !
you are another nursing home
retardee retiree !
why are reddit zen and the hardcore zen blog posters so at sea?
is it because their backgound is drugs or Christianity and they don't understand the difference in terms of what zen is about and also the necessity of retreat !?
none of them have done what is really the core of practice which is the week long silent retreat called “ sesshin ” which when you have done several with at least a half way competent teacher
gives some self awareness and . ⎽ ⎽ .
what you have is these mentally retarted retirees
posting endless scriptual bullshit while simultaneously purporting to have an understanding of “ What is beyond scriptures and words ” and attempting to enforce their implied claims to “ enlightenment ” with grindingly stupid repartee and replies ⎽ .
ewk , mujushinkyo , mudandwater . ⎽ ⎽
yeah downvote this you fake bloody idiots ! ! !
⎽ ⎽ ⎽ ⎽ .
you expect by reading a few books and picking up a few conventional attitudes you understand what zen is about
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why are reddit zen and the hardcore zen blog posters so at sea?
is it because their backgound is drugs or Christianity and they don't understand the difference in terms of what zen is about and also the necessity of retreat !?
none of them have done what is really the core of practice which is the week long silent retreat called “ sesshin ” which when you have done several with at least a half way competent teacher
gives some self awareness and . ⎽ ⎽ .
what you have is these mentally retarted retirees
posting endless scriptual bullshit while simultaneously purporting to have an understanding of “ What is beyond scriptures and words ” and attemtping to enforce their implied claims to “ enlightenment ” with grindingly stupid repartee and replies ⎽ .
ewk , mujushinkyo , mudandwater . ⎽ ⎽
yeah downvote this you fake bloody idiots ! ! !
⎽ ⎽ ⎽ ⎽ .
you expect by reading a few books and picking up a few conventional attitudes you understand what zen is about
is physical inactivity an essential part of retreat ?
“ [...] many of the neurons in the brains of the sedentary rats had sprouted far more new tentacle-like arms known as branches. branches connect healthy neurons into the nervous system. but these neurons now had more branches than normal neurons would have, making them more sensitive to stimuli and apt to zap scattershot messages into the nervous system ”
the induction of greater neuronal branching activity ?
with recursion the basis of “ dia kensho ” ?
that “ scattershot ” effect ?
“ i work in tv news at a 24 hour network, and only recently my schedule started changing a bit. last week i went from working 9am-5pm to 1am-8am. converting to the overnight was the easy part (i stayed up the whole night the day before so i could fall asleep at 1pm) but now that i'm on a 9am-5pm schedule again, i go to sleep at 10pm and wake up at 4am. when i wake, i'm lucid, salivating, and no matter how hard i try, i cannot fall back asleep.
last night when i went to bed, i took an advil pm, and i still woke up at 4am. i don't want to become dependant on sleep aids, but is there anything i can take to help me get back to sleeping through the night? is there a vitamin i should take more of?
i'll be 9am-5pm for a few weeks and 1am-8am for a week, and then back to 9am-5pm. it doesn't happen that often, but this being the first time, i'm having a hard time adjusting. i've never had trouble sleeping before in my life ”
my
reply
it takes about a week to adjust to the new schedule so really the way that switches makes it impossible for you !
that's a dangerous stupid schedule, the company is away with the fairies !
it will screw up your health, just not worth it !
the brain synchronizes the circadian rhythm off blue or white light and dark, oddly red looks the same as dark to the brain, so if you are able to work under red light at the right times you can use that to help transit the rhythm a bit............
Ekchart tolle making some
sense !
by all means marry
if you get a good wife, you'll be happy
if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher
one of your best dan !
interestingly “ i am that ” is really not very literally recorded but reflects huge biases of the transcribers and language incompetencies !
before the
BCD people said i smelt sour and at school i was teased for having “ B.O. ”
i think it was
this , an activated immune respone against biofilm/microbiome toxins !
sorta reads like a sordid gossip mag :o)
self assured past the point of stupidity
: o ( . . .)
that's
me
at
self assured past the point of stupidity
:o( . . .)
that's
me
at
self assured past the point of stupidity
self assured past the point of stupidity :o()
self assured past the point of stupidity
look the world is full of farts like you, utterly self assured in the depths of abysmal ignorance !
:
o
)
look the world is full of farts like you, utterly self assured in the depths of abysmal ignorance !
:o()
look the world is full of farts like you, utterly self assured in the depths of abysmal ignorance !
mudandwater writes/replies !
aaaaand you're back being a smug douche
my
reply
i write effectively, you write
moronic trash so you always try and spoil what i write !
the
world
is
full
of
you
mudandwater writes/replies !
aaaaand you're back being a smug douche
my
reply
i write effectively, you write
moronic trash so you always try and spoil what i write !
the
world
is
full
of
you
slimes !
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fess up !
you are another nursing home retardee retiree !
it's obvious the only thing you know of zen is bad reading !
you never been on a retreat, never been to dokusan never done anything actually :o()
like ewk and mujushinkyo, you will puke forever on reddit zen !
i write effectively, you write moronic trash so you always try and spoil what i write !
the
world
is
full
of
you
a contemporary rendering by stephen walton of epictetus's
enchiridion
what I have figured with reddit downvotes is it means that the comment is actually being read and engaged with, most are not read !
my writing comes from a deconstructive space which people necessarily find traumatic, but you can't problem solve effectively or develop a real understanding in any other way !
what I have figured with reddit downvotes is it means that it is actually being read and engaged with, most comments are not read !
my writing comes from a deconstructive space which people necessarily find traumatic, but you can't problem solve effectively or develop a real understanding in any other way !
what I have figured with reddit downvotes is it means that the comment is actually being read and engaged with, most are not read !
what I have figured with reddit downvotes is it means that it is actually being read, most comments are not read !
“ is the BCD diet site yours? this is the 2nd time today I've seen you link it ”
yeah, I started with the SCD diet and because Elaine gottschall died there was no-one to update it so I have continued the tradition !
all volunteer and takes too much time actually :o(
it's a complex approach and not popular because of that, but it's all that works !
ewk writes
nothing from the first doesn't bother about claims
my
reply
something from the last bothers about claims !
ewk writes
nothing from the first doesn't bother about claims
my
reply
something from the last bothers about claims !
koun
franz is not an idiot !
question
why are dogen’s writings so often described as hard or difficult to understand for practitioners? do you find reading him challenging?
koun franz replies
i find his writing very challenging.
my feeling has always been that the voice of dogen’s most poetic language comes from a nondual place, as opposed to describing that nondual place from the outside.
he had a particular genius for that. but it places a huge burden on the reader — instead of explaining it to us, dogen invites us to step in and see it through that same lens
my
comment
that in fact is enlightenment, to come from that non dual place, you have to constantly drop who you are and emerge with a new face to maintain that presence !
this is why the reddit zen spilling of hashed and rehashed garbage doesn't work, you don't drop yourselves, just get nasty and cling tighter when challenged/stressed !
you have to be constantly climbing and falling (jumping!) off the 100 foot pole,
something not possible short of celibacy !
“ does somebody know if this is translated correctly? ‘ chop wood, carry water ’ grammatically implies agency - as in ‘ you chop wood ’
was this there in the original as well or would it be more correct to say ‘ wood is chopped, water is carried ’ ? ”
wood is water, water is wood, chop the water, water the wood !
the wood won't burn, the water is lost
this
is
zen
without
ripost !
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wood is water, water is wood, chop the water, water the wood !
the wood won't burn, the water is lost
this
is
zen
with all
its
well it could be
rosacea , an anti candida approach like the BCD
diet seems to be effective
you are taking an anti candida approach by removing sugar !
they may just give you a cream and suggest going on the contraceptive pill if you are not already on it !
I don't know what age you are but you could be facing declining hormone levels
i'm not saying this relates to you, just something I
picked up off the net
“ my rosacea came roaring in at 48 and became absolutely debilitating by 52.
my rosacea was related to estrogen withdrawal. i read that that pituitary sends chemical messages to the ovaries asking for more estrogen as the ovaries slowly fail, and those chemical messengers are vasodilators. which would explain a lot
now, at 55, it looks like i've finally menopaused and my terrible rosacea is clearly receding. so for me, the hot flashes of peri-menopause turned into terrible facial flushing that progressed rapidly until i was literally housebound because i always needed strong air conditioning
there are ways you can alleviate those hot flashes that wreak havoc.
you can take Clonidine and or Remeron and you can use an estrogen patch to lessen the hot flashes and flushing. i've also had tons of IPL and now V Beam, which has removed most of the visible redness from my poor face ”
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lol !
(ed. “ she ” was a male in his twenties : o )
try a nappy rash zinc cream on it?
you really need to look at your diet imo, this sort of thing is not something medicine works well for :o(
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seborrhoeic dermatitis is a yeast caused condition !
sugars we digest go to the skin !
health issues are not forgiving of getting it wrong and I don't think you have the dietary aspect right !
the BCD is a complex approach and people flick off it because of that, but really to be effective you have to take the bull of complexity by the horns, work through it and not proxy the health problem nightmare that today is to doctors or naturopaths ! : o)(
be very wary of naturopaths btw, a fair portion are plain crazy :o()
as i said, and in all sincerity, get help while you still can
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what would the fake know of sincerity ?
mujushinkyo replies
what would the insane know of the sane?
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yeah you are full of non sequitur symmetries !
you really don't understand, you just don't get that do you?
there's a good twenty or thirty years of real work between us !
mujushinkyo replies
you have a long way to go before you can even start working on zen.
if i had to guess the number of lifetimes, i'd say about one hundred thousand and thirty five.
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you have only one life and you are just pissing it away
you
and
a million
others
:
o
(
mujushinkyo replies
yes, and you are superior. I get it
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what I am saying is you only live once, why not do the real work, you are full of grief about yourself and that indulgence acts like a barrier !
mujushinkyo replies
once again, drop all your thinking and wake up!
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once again pick up all your thinking and go to
sleep !
51 is not
twenty , you have to be careful not to damage the joints !
an interesting yunmen koan
a monk asked, “ what is the roar of the earthen ox on top of the snow ridge? ”
yunmen replied, “ heaven and earth darkened red ”
my comment
the snow makes them cold and they don't see the bleeding ! :o()
a monk asked , “ what is the roar of the earthen ox on top of the snow ridge? ”
yunmen replied
, “ heaven and earth darkened red ”
great master yunmen said,
‘ within heaven and earth,
in space and time,
there is a jewel,
hidden in the mountain of form ’
holding up the lamp, heading into the buddha shrine,
bringing the triple gate on the lamp
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heaven and earth
are
space
and
time
a
formless
jewel
within
form !
heaven and earth
are
space and
time
a
formless
jewel
within form !
“ I
follow an 80/20 diet, which means I eat very lean and clean 80% of the time and live life the other 20% of the time ”
what is claimed to be healthy is usually not !
the notion of 80/20 is a disaster !
i'm not saying it is, but what you describe does somewhat sound like an appendix and microbiome (bad gut flora!) problem
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CT
scans have a destructive amount of radiation, you really wants to avoid those ! (ed. she had two CT head scans which showed no problems !)
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unfortunately the 20 feeds bad biofilm/microbiome and actually the 80 is usually done wrong too !
I have never seen anyone do well on these sorts of dietary approaches !
takes me
back to my days with kwan um zen !
(ed. beomeosa “ temple of the nirvana fish ” )
how can people waste their time so in doing something that is moving in an anti-direction to what it's about
reddit zen, the various zen centers everywhere, religion !..........
misguided, mentally retarded teachers..........
one only comes across the authentic so very very occasionally
hard to get used to !!...
lol, the
oddness of the net, here in tasmania it is going to be another very hot fine dry day, all that blue sky, pink and white roses in full bloom...............
picking raspberries and little black gooseberries ;o)
see how you (ed. mujushinkyo) can't
handle the notion you are not enlightened and in fact are sorta
anti-enlightened
you have walked down the wrong road way too far, so there's no hope :o(
mujushinkyo replies
if there's no hope, there's no problem, is there? and if there's no problem, there's no worry. so i'll just go on being miraculous, won't i? sounds good!
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well the problem is you are an A+ crap artist !
guys like you are all over the net and net and real life zen (and any religious !) scene, you just don't reality test and are in some sort of (self scripted!) fantasy!
boring, clichéd and anti-creative !
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you are mentally ill :o(
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no, I have told you that you are mentally ill !
stuck in a schizophrenic phantasy !
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what would the fake know of sincerity ?
ok, you are
noticing that you are burning out!
that's important, there's something wrong !
new research is showing that the brain physically gets damaged when we don't get enough sleep !
(ed. 5 hours between work, school and family !)
health problems put a different perspective on goals I am afraid :o()
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you need at least an extra hour's sleep or things get too risky in terms of falling apart !
if the pill size is 500mg, you could cut the tablet down to 1/10 which would be about 50mg, a far more reasonable dose !
so one pill would last 5 or more days !
the recommended dietary allowance for a male adult of vitamin C is 90 mg
the 500 mg is a mega dose, there's not much sense in a lot of supplements !
just experiment with cutting down the tablet and see how it goes !
singing exercises to
strengthen the palate and throat muscles to help prevent snoring !
so hakuin taught sitting meditation ( he wrote “the song of zazen” ) and hara strengthening, and he was enlightened. right? good to know
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as you are not enlightened you will never understand where both hakuin ekaku and myself are coming from will you?
barking like some stupid/my neighbours Staffordshire bull terrier seeking to amuse itself and establish dominance ! ?
provided you don't overheat nonstick coatings , it is the best choice as it is totally inert and non toxic to the food !
one of the base materials (
PFOA ) used in the manufacturing process to make it is toxic, but once made it is safe and only starts to pyrolyse if heated above 200C/392F
stainless steel is very sticky and hard to clean !
non-infused (ordinary) anodized alumnium cookware is still porous and the more expensive infused types like the calphalon one nonstick actually have a non stick coating combined into the anodizing !
i really do not know whether the nembutsu may be the cause for my birth in the pure land, or the act that shall condemn me to hell. but i have nothing to regret, even if i should have been deceived by my teacher, and, saying the nembutsu, fall into hell
the reason is that if i were capable of realizing buddhahood by other religious practices and yet fell into hell for saying the nembutsu i might have dire regrets for having been deceived
but since I am absolutely incapable of any religious practice, hell is my only home
kakaj zakaj :o)(
, I guess
shinran was an
end of timer , despite the six kids he had :o)(
or because of :o)
I understand your viewpoint
, you are at least being honest about it ! :o)
kakaj, I guess
shinran was an
end of timer , despite the six kids he had :o)(
or because of :o)
I understand your viewpoint
, you are at least being honest about it ! :o)
yrs :o)(
yourecidivistswine ! :o)(
yrs :o)(
y. r. s. :o)(
y.r.s. :o)(
you. recidivist. swine. !
y.r.s. :o)(
you are sorta
stuck like in a troop level in a battle ! you want to think like a general !
please reread and try to understand what the comment I made was about, all the points you make are addressed in it !
that quote you pulled shows intelligence, why not go the steps further out of your need for some explicable constrained form ! ? :o)(
songhill (reddit!) quotes me and comments
“ hakuin ekaku was enlightened, Thomas cleary is not, that's his problem ”
it depends. it was in his early 40s when he became profoundly awakened reading the lotus sutra and hearing the churr of a cricket. his writings before that time are obviously off
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no-one becomes enlightened from hearing the churr of a cricket, that's just more fake zen crap !
or from reading any sutra for that matter !
