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audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !

yikes, not much blood flow in an old brain

“ new studies suggest blood from young mice has rejuvenating effects on older mice, and may lead to new therapeutic approaches to age-related diseases in humans

this particular growth factor found in young mice's blood, known as GDF11, helps to regulate the aging process in brain and muscle tissue

the studies were based on procedures in which one young and old mouse are joined together by a single circulatory system ”

magical realism, lars von trier, the opening sequence to melancholia

the music is by william emmanual bevan (stage name burial) which is different from the original soundtrack and having listened to both, i would say is much better ! :o)

freedom of expression does not extend to covert threats

my real life experience of this sort of thing is it stinks of drug culture and use

god that can be violent

work can be a bummer for overly narrowing focus

its a big mistake to get too wrapped up in work , learnt that one the hard way

actually i’ll ever get it right

there’s too much protein and iron in the paleo diet

interestingly with the diet, the microbiome is altered to produce twice the amount of trimethylamine-n-oxide (associated with heart disease) compared to normal

complete vegan is a little unusual, imo people do it to reduce their iron intake

all the monasteries and zen centers I visited were vegetarian except for a tibetan place which actually had the best health of any of the places i visited

I used to be anti vegetarian but the joke was on me because I definitely do better with less iron in my diet but I get my iron down by donating blood

I think the poor diet combined with a lot of pre-existing health conditions in the people at zen centers broke the center/monastic system down, it's still there, but sorta limps along...........

vegetarianism used to be done much more intelligently
but now they just pile in the wheat flour

what zen is about is something you have to see through yourself, you are saying that's not so and all one has to do is repeat religious nonsense (buddhist in your case)

it's a lifetime's work and very very hard, you just want a shortcut

when you are enlightened you can talk from your own experience and know the sutras and all that nonsense for the crap they are promulgated by mean minded halfwits

soylent is basically trying to simulate natural food in an insufficient and foreign way to what our biochemistry has been designed for and feeds malign biofilm/microbiome

its a disaster

contrary to what you might think, when people juice and drink uncooked vegetables are damaging their guts

“ anyone who knows dementia knows they sound utterly reasonable for 10 minutes ! ”

what you love

you

have

to

let

go

what you love

you have to let go

what you love you have to let go

one thing to ask about meditation since it makes for so many narrow minded looneys , is “ why doesn’t it necessarily work ? ”

meditation is recursive, basically you need a strong sense of other and to read quality and widely for it not to become a destructive inward spiral

for most, it becomes another drug

you need to read great minds , not medicocre minds

i am getting more thoughtful in my old age, and maybe saying less

getting more thoughtful in my old age , and maybe saying less

r1p1

getting more thoughtful in my old age , and maybe saying less

r1

the world has four corners

where do you fit ?

two viewpoints of what zen is

one is that its relatively accessible and with “practice” a good understanding is attainable by anyone, and you can sort of muddle on in a satisfactory way by conforming to practice and listening to the teacher/roshi etc

the other is that a true understanding is so extremely rare that its more like one person in a generation who “ gets it ” , like 99.99% of the teachers and students would be better to improve their golf handicaps than murder what zen is really about the way they do

so when we look at the great masters of old like joshu and yunmen we are looking at people isolated in their time, the only ones with a good understanding berating the world for its stupidity which is pretty much how it comes across

that sort of understanding only comes from a degree of dysfunctionality and disengagement from life and the common human motivations that is not really available to “ married with kids ” and suburban zen

extended periods of celibacy and I would say a lifetime childlessness are needed to get that sort of focus

if you are celibate and really interested in what its about you'll sort it out, wrong minded teachers etc will throw you for a while but you will veer back

if you are living the suburban life and “ married with kids ” however you'll never veer back because the dynamic is quite different and you will never go into the very strange spaces and states necessary because they are too personally destructive to you and your family

so this meiji zen that is current in the west is totally the wrong approach for most people who with their living situation need to take an observational viewpoint to be gaining a much better understanding of life and themselves in a very functional way

that it helps your life not hinders it whereas dysfunctional celibacy which is truer but more insane and very unsafe leads to falling into deep potholes and barely escaping

staying at centers

the main things are food, health, getting a decent nights sleep and avoiding predatory members of the opposite gender

sit on a vertical cushion or seiza and not lotus if you can

don't assume the teacher/s know what they are on about

maybe you have low thyroid function if you are feeling fatigued

you can check your thyroid function by putting a couple of drops of topical iodine tincture on the underside of the wrist and seeing what that does to how you feel and your energy levels !

I use the gold cross iodine tincture, not all pharmacies have it !

povidine also has a fair whack of iodine in !

just be cautious, it is a poison

also you want to test your reaction with a very small amount just in case you have an autoimmunity problem and go a bit hyper :o) !

i used to take a 1000 iu of vitamin D a day and I think I needed it, but have been donating blood for last couple of years to get my iron levels down

so you lose iron out of the liver, when this happens it really reduces your need for vitamin D, high iron levels in the liver oxidize the vitamin D !

so 1000iu sorta makes me a bit dopey and I now take a couple of drops (250iu?) out of those blackmores capsules a day !

I must say I don't think vitamin D gives more energy, sorta can be the opposite actually !

I take the blackmore's 1000iu, easily the best one on the market imo !

what I found with the others is that the vitamin D degrades because it doesn't have a preservative in which the blackmores does !

Daily vitamin D is the best way to take it !

I know it's quite fragile and really it needs a preservative and if the supplement doesn't have a preservative then degradation is something you might reasonably expect !

it may not even be as simple as a reduced amount, but toxic analogs formed

basically I have tried a lot of different D3 supplements and the blackmore's is the only one that has cut the ice to date, but that's my judgment and not any blood test !

and actually blood tests doesn't tell you any thing about wether there are any toxisterols or isomer issues !

it's an interesting molecule with very large gaps in knowledge about it

I have actually been able to make huge amounts of vitamin D2 by irridating shiitake mushrooms with a UVB lamp I built

you can ingest 100's of thousands of iu (a guess) by eating the mushrooms and man does that knock you flat

I do find that the blackmores in combination with strong sun (summer) and maybe some irridated mushroom vit D occasionally and also my homemade UVB lamp works best

nada te turbe

nada te espante

the waves of the sea of life

rolling and crashing

i am not perturbed

i am not disturbed

at least that’s what i tell myself

nada te turbe

nada te espante

the waves of the sea of life

rolling and crashing

i

am not

perturbed

i

am not

disturbed

nada te turbe

nada te espante

the waves of the sea of life

rolling and crashing

i

am not

the waves of the sea

rolling and crashing

i

am not

perturbed

i

am not

disturbed

nada te turbe

nada te espante

the waves of the sea

rolling and crashing

i

am not

health matters need results and medicine is very good for some things like surgery and infectious diseases and very poor at other things like bowel conditions !

why medicine is so poor at the dietary side of things is it is too time intensive to get right, it just doesn't fit the medical time/cost structure !

simple dietary concepts take weeks and months of work to implement, if you were doing that on a medical charging basis you would be up hundreds of thousands of dollars just to start !

medicine is about money I am afraid ! :o(

you can't pretend with health............. viewpoints, doctrine..................anything............. imagination ! ................

nothing matters except what works and the USA is a good example of money and proxying creating some of the worst health in the world !

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another problem with medicine and bowel conditions is it is still stuck in the 1960's !

people who take the medical route eventually end up with rather nasty operations
and are in a downward spiral !

hypnotically sinister !

buddhism, zen or psychosis ?

or

all

three

Pregnancy on Ulcerative Colitis medications

I'm am a 25 year old female with Ulcerative Colitis. I was diagnosied in Fall of 2012. I am currently taking Colazal (Balsalazide) Three pills, three times daily

My husband and I recently started to discuss having a family. My questions are.... Is it safe to take this medication while pregnant? If I take this medication while pregnant; will it harm the baby? What would happen to my colon/me if I did not take the medication while pregnant? Could I still breastfeed? Are there any other women out there who have gone through a pregnancy with this condition that could shed some insight to me...?

I know you're thinking... “ Talk to your doctor! ” I already did speak with my GI doctor, but I would like to hear opinions and experiences from others
Thanks for taking the time to read this

my

I think the underlying condition is also a significant factor !

Anecdotal evidence like this is distressing to read !:o(

“ This is going to be a bit long but please bare with me.....I am in dire need of some help/answers. I am the mother of 3 young boys and 3 months after my 2nd son was born I was diagnosed with UC, at the time only 10 cm of my colon was in involved, 3 months later, I found out that I was pregnant with my 3rd son who will soon be 2 (Aug 6th). Before I knew that I was pregnant I was taking Colazal to keep my UC under control. I was very sick off and on during my pregnancy, at one time I was in the hospital for a couple of days to stop my labor from being so dehydrated. I continued to take the Colazal off and on throughout my pregnancy so that I wouldn't have early labor.

3 months after delivering my 3rd son, I went to see a new doctor, when he scoped me, he found that the UC had spread like wildfire throughout my entire colon, I was hospitalized and started treatment to get into remission. I tell you all of that to get to my question.......my son was born with a dimple just above his rectum (they thought that he may have Spina Bifida, after a MRI, we found that the dimple was closed), 2 months later he was hospitalized for a week with RSV, 2 months later we found out that he had trachia mylasia (which is a narrowing in the esophogus), which later corrected itself and he outgrew that. We have had multiple ear infections and our lastest discovery is that he has a develpmental delay, which is going to lead to years of therapy and a hard road ahead for us. Is there anyone else that took this drug while they were pregnant and if so have you had any medical issues at all with your child???

I have 2 perfectly heathly and very smart boys prior to my last pregnancy and I can't help but think that me taking this drug has contributed to some of the issues. I don't tell any of the women that are pregnant and taking this med to scare you, I am just in need of some answers and if I can prevent any mother from going thru what I have been thru, that is my goal ”

i had a grade three acromioclavicular joint separation from splitting firewood and what i did was completely avoid any use of the joint to the extent possible !

i also took 1000iu of vitamin d3 a day for quite a quite which helped,
maybe it reduced the inflammation?

it was pretty improved in six months and eight years later its not really a problem, except i am careful

i even built a homemade uvb lamp which i think helped

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for a 20 year old there may be some hope, but i had a grade three injury with the “ bump ” and i was in my early fifties when it happened !

recovery really depends of the degree of injury, that is, is the joint permanently destabilized in which case the outcome will be like i have described since the joint moves in a different way as a result of the injury !

so i can't use the joint for any sort of heavy work basically !

but there's no pain and pretty well a full range of movement except its not a good idea to use the arm above the shoulder much at all, but i do arm movements for exercise

the three treasures

buddha ‑ a con

dharma ‑ a con

the colman barks rumi translations are

satori is another dream of the deluded

these snakes can’t write/say anything without spitting their venom everywhere

when you are enlightened the sickness of the endless twits and arseholes trying to put it over becomes very apparent

the code of hammurabi

the

what is the observation that best fits with “ reality ”

how do things actually occur ?

tornadoflame quotes me and asks

“ to abide in absolute awakening with no modification is suicidal ! ”

what is your take on this

what does he mean by no modification?

my

in the end enlightenment is “ literal death ” so you are seeking the escape clauses !

that's what's meant by modification !

good question ! :o)(

tornadoflame quotes me and asks

“ to abide in absolute awakening with no modification is suicidal ! ”

what is your take on this

what does he mean by no modification?

my

in the end enlightenment is “ literal death ” so you are seeking the escape clauses !

that's what's meant by modification !

if you look at the ch'an stories, they seem very like a pope and acolytes ! : o )

there's nothing wrong with that !

if you look at the ch'an stories, they seem very like a pope and acolytes ! :o)

there's nothing wrong with that !

“ THAT ” is some sort of dream of the deluded !

zen is basically about enlightenment and you are not enlightened or you would understand this

“ on your lump of red flesh is a true man without rank

who is always going in and out of the face of every one of you

those who have not yet proved him, look, look! ”

( ed. from linji yixuan's discourse III )

so

what

are

you

zen is basically about enlightenment and you are not enlightened or you would understand this

“ on your lump of red flesh is a true man without rank

who is always going in and out of the face of every one of you

those who have not yet proved him, look, look! ”

so

what

are

you

zen is basically about enlightenment and you are not enlightened or you would understand this

“ on your lump of red flesh is a true man without rank

who is always going in and out of the face of every one of you

those who have not yet proved him, look, look! ”

so

what

are

you

rather neat, the replacement of a hard disk actuator arm without a special tool !

my updated mumon's zen warnings

to obey the rules and regulations is to tie yourself without a rope

to act freely and without restraint is heresy and self destructive !

to be aware of the mind, making it pure and quiet, is the heresy of silent illumination

to not test your understanding is to fall into a hole you can't climb out of !

to abide in absolute awakening with no modification is suicidal !

moralizing on good and evil is being demonic !

to weight voynich over the sensible and intelligent
is to be imprisoned beneath two iron mountains

living in the moment is delusion

well basically what zen is about is self taught and you are always on your on !

99.9% of what claims to be zen is bullshit ! : o (

well basically what zen is about is self taught and you are always on your on !

99.9% of what claims to be zen is bullshit ! :o(

the thing about zen , is each “teacher” is his own “pope” so to speak,
it's where the buck starts and stops

actually neo-advaita , non duality is the same except being female dominated,
the cattery is usually behind the scenes ! :o)

this is actually a strength because there is no overall governing body
with the imposition of some stupid dogma !

“ mu ” so to speak ! ? : o ) (

the thing about zen , is each “teacher” is his own “pope” so to speak,
it's where the buck starts and stops

actually neo-advaita , non duality is the same except being female dominated,
the cattery is usually behind the scenes ! :o)

this is actually a strength because there is no overall governing body
with the imposition of some stupid dogma !

“ mu ” so to speak !? :o)(

the thing about zen , is each “teacher” is his own “pope” so to speak,
it's where the buck starts and stops

actually neo-advaita , non duality is the same except being female dominated,
the cattery is usually behind the scenes ! :o)

this is actually a strength because there is no overall governing body
with the imposition of some stupid dogma !

“ mu ” so to speak !?

the true principle is a gate without existence !

ed. the above is my translation of the first two lines of the preface to the mumonkan !

animal-asteroid replies

“ the true principle is a gate without existence ” is only the second half right?

also, the question of how to pass through it is in the next line ;)

my

well in fact imo you can't translate the lines separately

so what I have written is the best capture I can do of the entire sense, making allowance for cultural difference, like western culture has no notion of Buddhism !

I write a bit of poetry and that is one of the best things I have written, so thanx for posting your translation challenge ! :o)

i also used this for a source !

well you can play zen or be real zen...................

why does zen attract so much pysch ward material?

well if you do nothing but play computer games

a ngeative pap test doesn't mean you don't have hpv !

it only detects precancerous cell changes as a result of one or more HPV types !

the true principle is a gate without existence !

how

do

you

pass

through

ed. the above is my translation of the first two lines of the preface to the mumonkan !

to the fuckwit selling jed mckenna on reddit zen

mckenna is in fact richard bach

it's just someone playing a pretend game, they manufacture a fake enlightenment experience (I am enlightened so I can tell you his is fake, very fake very very fake !)

you con artists just love the bullshit and love to sell it don't you ! :o(

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god you're stupid aren't you !

didn't I tell you I am enlightened and know fake experiences from the real !

being enlightened I also know who jed mckenna really is !

go back and read my first reply , it toasts jed mckenna and his crap, you can't understand it but don't accept that's it you who are at fault !

since I know who jed is i'm all for people buying his books, he has several divorces to pay for and needs the money and he has quite a bit of insight

but all the same it's only bullshit and actually what he regarded as his real enlightenment experience is different from the one he made up for the jed mckenna identity,
but even that was just makyo in zen terms !

to be fair there was something to his original enlightenment experience

“ the unreal has no being

the real never ceases to be ”

jed mackenna is another useless bullshit artist

the unreal has being

the real ever ceases to be

that's enlightenment not mckenna’s bullshit

religion is always a screwball event, you have to untangle it

death is an illusion, but so is life

death is an illusion

but

then

so

is

yet you focus on me , why?

(ed. the serial pest, emergdoc )

I am disruptive to your worship of the false god of medicine

what you do is just a job, there is some absence of sanity or some sense of larger view of things in the rest of your life

humans are just some sort of ratshit species, when they go and they will, the world will be a better place

thank you for a sensible reply , so rare on reddit zen ! :o)

franz koun is an apologist

in my travels the kwan um zen school was the one i liked most, relatively easy going and lacking the anal stupidity of the japanese lineages

however the teachers were limited and the only people I found with a good understanding were toni packer of the springwater center and george bowman

that is the rest is pretty much stupidity and fraud

what can I say ?

reddit is full of idiots trying to put this fraud over into the emptiness of cyberspace

why they waste their lives like this, i do not know

as you recognize, moving out of one's comfort zone is so instrumental to what this about, you might be interested in john moriarty , who despite some catholic floridity had a very good understanding

zen is a long tradition of suicidal depressives without the courage to doff themselves

people who work in an emergency departments get a very limited view of health problems, normal people are concerned to avoid problems rather than end up there

“ but a single CT scan subjects the human body to between 150 and 1,100 times the radiation of a conventional x-ray, or around a year's worth of exposure to radiation from both natural and artificial sources in the environment ”

“ low doses of radiation equivalent to three CT scans, which are considered safe, give cancer-capable cells a competitive advantage over normal cells in healthy tissue ”

when taking more than one medication, the side effects can combine to give “ out of the normal ” side effect problems

when you take a lot of medications, the side effects will combine to give “ out of the normal ” side effect problems

my reply to the sandokai

when the relative is the absolute

the sixth patriarch

transmitted to the 7th patriarch

east to west

and west to east

humans are fools

without wisdom

no way, no patriarchs

midnight is bright and the tributary streams shine

things themselves are attachment

enlightenment is the illusion

subjective and objective internally nest

and infinitely regress and outgress

.

when you walk the way it walks on you

if you meditate without talking to the great minds of the past you get very damaged mentally, you can see it here on reddit, but it's pretty much the same in real life zen,
zen centers and any religion !

some of the zen stories are also this talking to which ever zen master, I was thinking in fact that really the better stories or transcriptions have a truly poetic density, that is in fact they are poetry................

it's all the same problem, people grossly underestimate the difficulty of zen and will not extend themselves into areas and writing they do not understand !

“ so what is the most ergonomic posture for zazen? ”

a lot depends on your weight, muscle type, body firmness etc !

also you're trying to keep the knees as unbent as possible
so there's circulation through them !

also zazen has different contexts like if you are sitting in a group or at a sesshin which puts some limits on what you can get away with !

basically I am fairly light built , but strong so putting a cushion vertically and sitting on it worked well for me making the leg bending angle acceptable !

all the places I sat, you could sit on a chair if you felt the need (which included the monastery at mt. tremper) , some people make up their own seiza benches with comfy little padded cushions :o) .................

once you are freed of a restrictive social context then really you are better to just lie down or slouch in a chair, there's absolutely no point in doing anything hard on the joints or restricting the circulation unnecessarily ! :o)

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you really have to pay attention to your circulation and that imo precludes any sort of lotus or cross legged posture

also another thing is not to sit first thing in the morning because you have just had a night of quiescent circulation, much better just to lie in bed for half an hour !

I got a big shock when I was starting out in zen and someone I knew of, still quite young (mid 40's?) , but with a reputation as sitting a lot had a stroke and died !

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the one rule I take now is how does it impact my health in the long term ?

a person of sense would explore and persevere out of his confusion

long term sitters (ed. zazen) get back, hip and knee problems and their brains are cardboard mush cause they never moved on from what should be a phase that does not last more than five or six years at the outside

it should really be only be three years before you see that it has nothing more to offer you

reddit zen is full of ex addicts and otherwise schizophrenic zombies, they like alan watts’ cast of mind

socially to conquer an addiction seems a laudable thing, but a new monster has been created, you can’t go back to how you were before

basically the microvasculature starts to get suboptimal i think

so the “ retinal fractal dimension ” is a measure of the energy efficiency of the retinal microvasculature network, which seem to mirror the state of affairs in the kidney somewhat

my own retina is like nothing in these photos

today's sexual scene, from reddit medical (ed. 24/4/14)

exchanged oral sex with girl last friday

lips have been burning

did she give me herpes?

so i met a girl last friday

ended up back at my place, started kissing, and that let to us exchanging oral sex

about 2 days ago i woke up and my lips were burning

it's at both edges of my upper lip

at first i figured it was sunburnt or something but now i'm starting to get worried

no pain in my tongue or lower lip

it now looks like both edges of my upper might be starting to blister
(but not enough to take a picture to help diagnose)

what gives?

did she give me herpes?

world uvb maps , and the winners are peru, chile and tibet surprisingly !

“ for countries in the southern hemisphere, such as new zealand, the uvb radiation is up to fifty percent higher than in the countries in the northern hemisphere, such as germany ”

“ how many people in this world believe they are doing good ? ! ”

my

very few don't and they are the only honest ones !

: o )( : o()

“ how many people in this world believe they are doing good ? ! ”

my

very few don't and they are the only honest ones !

in actual fact historical writings are generally superior to the current because of the very much wider net they cast in terms of informed people who know what they are talking about !?

however, it's (ed. zen/mysticism) also “ about ” something and if you lose sight of the “ about ” then you are like some servant working for a master when you don't have to, rather one is the master !

with translation there's always a gap you are trying to jump, the more you know about what it's trying the say, the better you can jump that gap ! :o)(

if you'd ask me what zen is about I would say that the first version of my reply I had to scrap as unsatisfactory and I think this second version is satisfactory, first time we often get things wrong and the actual fact of the correction of that is in large part what zen is about ! :o)(

so you need to see yourself and work on that for corrections,
so you can't get away from that ! :o()

i have been around a while in zen and seen the mistakes made, really 99% might as well play golf for all the progress they make, so certain of themselves and their being on the right track !

when you have insight, you can take a ball lobbed from any direction, it's usually a bit disconcerting to see the zero rate of return catches, but that is just as it is ! :o(

reality and life is fundamentally insane, zen inside the boundaries is that fundamental insanity and the perennial mystical matter which is zen outside the boundaries and universal, is not ! :o)(

now I read it again , it's quite well done, what it does is contrast two different types of fake zen, retrogressive/quietism versus a sort of phony rambunctiousness !

both zen and Confucianism are boundaries, what is without boundaries ?

you have to come from that spot to make sense of stuff,
you can't approach it through systems !

you are really in quite the wrong space though I am sure you will not listen to me, but basho, wang wei and sa'di are on the button in a way most of zen is not !

i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts !

: o) . ^. } . . {

i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts !

: o). ^.}.{

i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts !

i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts

it's great to see people understand and use the term voynich , understanding this notion of bullshit crafted to look like it's profound and makes sense was totally necessary for me to walk out of the schizophrenic aspect of zen I SO picked up in my years of real life zen and john loori !

the winds of time blow indignation into the rubbish heap where it belongs

the winds of time blow indignation into the rubbish heap where it belongs !

the winds of time blow indignation into the rubbish heap where it belongs ! :o)(

melanoma/s can itch !

melanoma can itch !

never listened to nirvana before, there's something to kurt cobain !

unplugged in new york

where did you sleep last night

jesus doesn't want me for a sunbeam

maezumi roshi drowned drunk in the bath !

drinking, endless affairs , (and drugs !) are not the way of the sages I am afraid !

abstinence is !

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there's ikkyu, Dylan Thomas and charles bukowski,
but us less talented types have a different road to walk !

maezumi roshi drowned drunk in the bath !

drinking, endless affairs , (and drugs !) are not the way of the sages I am afraid !

abstinence is !

“ retrogression is to go against our religion ” quote by mumon

yeah he's highlighting the heresy of retrogression
which is actually ewk and his clone dumb2nub's position

completely minimalist and ineffectually deconstructive,
and actually it's also the error of soto zen ! ..................

zen is actually built around a true dai kensho experience
and then it takes 30 years to sort that out

there's no shortcuts ! :o)(

I find it fascinating that these heresies talked about one thousand years ago occur in exactly the same way today, the root cause of course is just sheer mental laziness ! :o(

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I think that's a particularly good translation though I doubt we are seeing the full richness of his intended meaning !

salvador dali and gala in dalis paris studio in 1934

an interesting read !

i had looked at the photo, something half clicked but it wasn't until later in the article that it actually clicked !

“ [...] cécile's mother gala, who left eluard to marry salvador dalí
and was also a muse to such figures as louis aragon and andré breton?

‘ after she met dalí in 1929, she was not interested in me any more ’
cécile was only eleven when gala abandoned both husband and daughter ”

this sort of stuff makes you weep, she was a childhood friend of marina tsvetaeva !

“ so I am going to cut my cat in half as an expression of ultimate truth, this is zen right? ”

what the story is about is ch'an was celibate which is an exercise in detachment, yet here were the monks in these two dorms all bonding with the monastery cat !

you get the same in prisons, an animal is a big deal to the human breeding mind
deprived of it's natural breeding paradigm, but it's not the sort of detachment that what zen is about needs !

“suburban zen” is caught and gored on the horns of this dilemma ! :o()

an exact description of dai kensho !

this is the whole point that just about everybody stops on, you need to go into what you don't understand or what even at first seems wrong to you

if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together you might let some light in !

if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together some light might get in !

you're (ed. dota2nub on reddit zen) the worst sort of religious scumbag, very anti anything creative or artistic because that shows your threadbare copying plagiarism and plastering of some sort of claimed secret know ledge that you can't express UP

creativity can express it which is why you react so strongly to anything real,
the rubbish of course you quite like...............

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you are like ewk, you are claiming some secret inexpressible knowledge..............

but the reality is you are just an upyourself idiot without any creative expressive talent ! ?

i don't seek you, but you seek me, does that try and tell you something?

if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together some light might get in !

satori doesn't really exist , it's a nonsense term !

satori doesn't really exist, it's a nonsense term !

you love the image, that's all you love and will never abandon it ! : o (

you love the image, that's all you love and will never abandon it ! :o(

you love the image, that's all you love and will never abandon it !

you love the image, that's all you love and will never abandon it

never monopolize a delicious dish, but give a portion of it to another

yeah I liked that

never monopolize a delicious dish, but give a portion of it to another

yeah I liked that

well like for this reply I went through your posts a bit to see what you are asking.............

you can go through mine to see what I am saying ....................

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there you are, a post from 2 days ago, an exact description of dai kensho !

truth is behind you

step back through thinking

to

what

is

there

!

:o)

well like for this reply I went through your posts a bit to see what you are asking.............

you can go through mine to see what I am saying ....................

a poem by eileen

OLD LOVE

casual

but intense

relaxed

but exciting

a man of his word

who listens to mine

the possible

and the impossible

all in one

why do I dream

at this age

maybe that's all

there is

my

old love

is

not

young

love

a faded dream

between the breaks

nothing

of

worth

can

solokuhhiro asks

can zazen help overcoming addictions?

basically pc and everything about it ( for example porn/games/occupation with intellecutal/philosophical/spiritual topics ) that substitute social life

my

well zen had a lot of hermits so “social life” is not an issue per se !

in fact solitude is really where zen is at !

so the problem is not substituting games and porn for social life per se,
but they are toxic activities that demean you and crimp your life !

zazen causes joint damage, but getting an hour a day in quiet contemplation will really pay dividends !

also keep a diary or do writing of some sort, get that reflection !

you are a savant !

I can see what you are complaining about, there's some recent research on how “ forgetting ” is an important part of brain function !

I think you are going to have to exclude as much of the unwanted contact/information as is practical !

that is, become somewhat solitary !

I find keeping files and making notes and writing is a big help to re-emphasizing the stuff that needs reemphasizing and working through !

dersteppenwolf2 writes

based on a passage from dogen's shobogenzo :

the fish in his sea

knows the same infinity

the bird finds in sky

my

the fish in his pee

knows the same sort of dimwittidty

as the

feathered brained

dersteppenwolf2 replies

do you have anything to say for yourself besides criticizing other people?

my

what sort of world do you live in where you expect to be complimented for writing wrong minded crap ?

the stories of the old masters are all about their criticism of the sort of vapid/twisted/disgusting nonsense of the type you write !

get real man !

dersteppenwolf2 replies again

can there be a master you don't agree with?

I could go around criticizing people I disagree with all day, if I were so inclined

but do you have anything to offer besides criticism?

my

dogen wasn't enlightened until his last years of life,
all the phonies fall for his bullshit....................

zen is sharpening by criticism, don't ask for quarter
because that's not the way one progresses !

dersteppenwolf2 writes

based on a passage from dogen's shobogenzo :

the fish in his sea

knows the same infinity

the bird finds in sky

my

the fish in his pee

knows the same sort of dimwittidty

as the

feathered brained

flarpydarp writes

wise is the man who

knowing much about the world

thinks he knows nothing

my

stupid is the man

hubric to the nth degree

flarpydarp replies

using this meter

everything sounds pretentious

get off ma back yo!

my

if you write clap trap, what do you expect ?

you are too defensive, don't you want to write better..........?

step away from the clichés !

flarpydarp writes

wise is the man who

knowing much about the world

thinks he knows nothing

my

stupid is the man

hubric to the nth degree

erisianbuddhist writes

truth is before you

if you say, “ I think... ” , it's gone

thoughts are only ghosts

my

truth is behind you

step back through thinking

to

what

is

there

!

erisianbuddhist writes

truth is before you

if you say, “ I think... ” , it's gone

thoughts are only ghosts

my

truth is behind you

step back through thinking

to

what

is

there

I've done a vipassna retreat and quite liked it, but they are a bit dumb, dumber than zen which is saying something ! : o ) . .^. (

they are much more easy going, zen is so anal ! : o (

I've done a vipassna retreat and quite liked it, but they are a bit dumb, dumber than zen which is saying something ! :o)(

they are much more easy going, zen is so anal ! :o(

alexisflip writes

wanting to write haiku

not knowing what to write

cars passing by

my

not wanting to write

knowing

what to

write

no

cars

p

a

s

i

n

g

by

!

:

o

( /

alexisflip writes

Wanting to write Haiku

not knowing what to write

cars passing by

my

not wanting to write

knowing

what to

write

no

cars

p

a

s

I

n

g

by

!

:

o

( /

today's just been a carbon copy of all the other days

12:00

if men are “ self-pitying ” after a relationship breakup, i think it's because they are always surprised how how practical and ruthless women can be with an unsatisfactory relationship , this is of course a naïveté on the part of men ! :o)(

if men are “ self-pitying ” after a relationship breakup, i think it's because they are always surprised how how practical and ruthless women can be with an unsatisfactory relationship, this is of course a naïveté on the part of men ! :o)(

life and teachers and zen are all too sharded to make the notion of “having a teacher” have any sense, it's self taught and people have different strengths and weaknesses

this is speaking as one who has visited a lot of teachers......

life and teachers and zen are all too sharded to make the notion of “having a teacher” have any sense, it's self taught and people have different strengths and weaknesses

this is speaking as one who has visited a lot of teachers......

females are not women, but the continuity of an entity that has control over the perpetuation of the human species !

knowledgeable

knowledge on the edge of being able

take my advice (ed. to a reddit askdocs doctor) , treat reddit as discussion and not a surgery interview and it's a lot less grief and way more helpful to the OP, who in the end makes his own judgments! :o)

what I think is also different now is you cannot assume that OP's can afford medical care, so they are forced to be more knowledgeable about their conditions and do some diagnosis themselves

that's the real big change imo !

I find gp's really have very poor diagnostic skills as a consequence of seeing too many dissimilar conditions and it confuses things and leads to a lack of in depth understanding, specialists have a huge advantage !

ah well, life rolls on, i am going to remain celibate , women are a nightmare, easier to do in one's late fifties of course ! :o)

emily dickinson has that complete understanding
of what is the essential “ mystical mystery! ”

it really only comes (with a few exceptions like Dylan Thomas) to those who have lived substantial portions of their life celibate, which is actually the problem of modern/(meiji and post meiji) zen

the suburban “wife and kids” zen is a degenerate schizophrenic fantasy !

in terms of zen one needs to understand that what it is about is “ perennial ” ie occurring with people and quality mysticism through history and is also very rarely understood, Emily Dickenson is one of those....................!

in that context zen is just a mistake like everything else !

søren kierkegaard and regine olsen

basically one needs some daily time to decompress, i usually just slouch in a chair and if the night is fine and not too cold spend sometime also out under the stars................. :o)

“ legs hurt, back hurts, head hurts, everything itches, wanted to give up zazen after 15 minutes ‑ but kept sitting for 15 minutes more ”

if it hurts then you may be damaging your joints and in fact long term sitters usually develop joint problems in the knees and hips if they sit full or half lotus

honestly just slouching in a chair or lying on/in a bed is better

just about all zen centers and organizations will let you sit seiza
or on a vertical cushion.........!

you can call it prayer or contemplation, it's perennial to quality mysticism.................!

now you can understand what I have just written, but you will not understand what I am about to write and will ignore it with the usual disastrous consequences , get turned into some sort of zen equivalent of this .............................

ok the problem is this, when you start to contemplate/decompress whatever, is existing ruts will be dug deeper and you will soak up and imprint from your reading !

the average zen product is an arrogant stupid who is absolutely certain of their rightness while being very wrong...........

this is because they read what they understand which is alan watts, both suzukis and that sort of thing when the problem is their misguided understanding in the first place !

so they imprint with this rubbish....................

it is essential to read and try to work out the spiritual greats like Emily Dickinson or sa'di

my reading list

these people will keep you sane, the vast majority of zen rubbish will only do for you what it does for others, which is make them rigid and stupid and partly insane..............

“ romantic relationships are particularly important components of girl's identities and are, therefore, strongly related to how they feel about themselves ‑ good or bad

as a result, relationships that diverge from what girls envision for themselves are especially damaging to their emotional well-being

a girl's risk of severe depression, thoughts of suicide, and suicide attempt increases the more her relationships diverge from what she had imagined

on the other hand, relationships are not as important to boy's identities

boys may be more likely to build their identities around sports or other extracurricular activities, so this could be why they are not affected by relationship inauthenticity ”

my reply to a reddit questioner who wants confirmation/recognition he is on autistic spectrum

the world is weird, there's no relief from people being stupid arseholes basically !

I think you need some creative outlet to build your self esteem, doing something of quality artistically, like I write and you get an overall look at things that raises you above the stupidity of the masses !

leonardo da vinci, dante and einstein were all on autistic spectrum !

humans are a predatory pack animal that will always turn on outsiders !

Bismuth (ed. in pepto bismol) is extremely toxic, only it is very poorly absorbed !

they used to use mercury in the old days too ! :o)

a good article on the problems

oh god how is it possible

to love one another

so intensely

yet rub each other up the wrong way

no saving us

i want to dissipate into mist

invade your pores

my reply quoting w.b. yeats

and loved your beauty with love false or true

but one man loved the pilgrim soul in you

eileen's reply

RECURSIVE

you morn me

in retrospect

and hurt me

in the present tense

my

NON RECURSIVE

those

that

take

injury

F

E

L

i

n

j

u

r

y

and loved your beauty with love false or true

but one man loved the pilgrim soul in you

by w.b. yeats

practice is what all the idiots who will never get enlightened do, it's because they pretend to be real which of course they call “ practice ”

harm is all to do with the emission strength which is the strength of the source
plus how close to the source

you can calculate or measure with a meter

harm is all to do with the emission strength
which is the strength of the source plus how close to the source

you can calculate or measure with a meter

don't you feel an absolute fool for thinking that Buddhism is anything but a big fairy tale, Buddha never existed historically and neither did jesus !

religion is just one big psych ward ! :o)

don't you feel an absolute fool for thinking that Buddhism is anything but a big fairy tale, Buddha never existed historically and neither did jesus !

buddhism is just one big psych ward ! :o)

don't you feel an absolute fool for thinking that Buddhism is anything but a big fairy tale, Buddha never existed historically and neither did jesus !

just one big psych ward ! :o)

meditation is for idiot children !

life is a sharded mess, it doesn't repair or get remedied ? !

life is a sharded mess, it doesn't get repaired or remedied ? !

v3

life is a sharded mess, it doesn't get repaired or remedied !

v2

life is a sharded mess, it doesn't repair or get remedied

v1

freaky, a pic of the 1989 hillsborough sesshin led by john loori,

top left pic on page 2 with me second from the right end of the bottom row

john loori 3rd from the bottom left

I almost walked out cause it was my first sesshin but actually it was a very comfortable sesshin with superb food cooked by a greek/Russian? orthodox couple !

oh to be young again ! :o)(

the most important thing about meditation is you need to grow out of it
and if you don't do that within three or four years there is a problem !

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i was just thinking that brad warner was a good example
of a person who has never outgrown meditation !

when you get properly enlightened it's got nothing else to teach you !

what zen is about is the classic alice and the red queen problem,
you have to move forward very quickly or else you fall back ! :o)

the most important thing about meditation is you need to grow out of it
and if you don't do that in three or four years there is a problem !

mikbrock asks

my

yes and no

mikbrock replies

is that one dialetheia or answers to both my questions?

my

same answer to both questions but a different meaning in each case !

you can actually say yes to the first one and no to the second as well !

those were intelligent question/s ! : o)..( . .. .(!) . . . . . .

yes and no

“ does the mind have a basic plane of immanence? ”

yes and no

last night past midnight I was watching the evening star !

if i died now, i'd be full of regret for the unseen bush, mountains, hills
and clear clear streams

audio

buddha is a dream, a meteorite flash, a pornographic fantasy ! :o)(

the road takes in you the wrong direction, how long before you find out if ever?

the wrong road takes in you the wrong direction, how long before you find out if ever?

osho was a clever bullshit artist !

you can see it from his talks, just nonsense basically, the sannyasins were just dumbells into a VERY promiscuous life style !

just one bizzare sexual circus with him as a cover, and his rolls royces
and his addiction to laughing gas.....................

read Emily Dickinson or the 7th zen patriarch and see the difference !

repetition

“ I wouldn't mind turning into a vermilion goldfish ”

all that is meant by the last word (ed. in zen) is people's inability to not have the last world as you often seen in the endless very long threads that occur here (ed. reddit zen) !

1350 years and nothing has changed ! :o)(

there's a lot of zen poems expressing the last word, for instance this one of dogens !

repaired my viewsonic VA2226w monitor almost exactly as per this video , amazing
i couldn't have even opened the case without it ! :o)(

it takes a big moron to defend what he hasn't looked at/ is not familiar with !

it takes a big moron to defend what he what he hasn't looked at/ is not familiar with !

pot fucked brain for sure , you are selling bullshit for no commission !

ewk I feel you are right about everyone else being wrong and you being right,
except that I am right and you and everyone else is wrong ! :o)

the stupidity of mediocrities is e n d l e s s

the stupidities of mediocrities are e n d l e s s

lol, the most zen movie where the world turns on matchheads !

all the idiots chasing after milligrams of red phosphor and are arseholes to boot,
one of the biggest characteristics of zen !

what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman ? ! . ! :o( :o) :o( ! .

v4

what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman ? .

v3

what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman ?

v2

what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman ?

what is the point of telling a madman he is mad ?

what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman

v1

creativity is really that communion with infinity !

life is endless noise, what is the noise of living ? .

v3

life is endless noise, what is the noise of living ?

v2

life is endless noise, what is the noise of living

v1

alan wilson watts needs taking with apinch of salt ! : o ()

try and get some time away by yourself in an area of scenic natural beauty !

vertexoflife writes

a translation is not authentic

my

the blue cliff record itself is a compilation, it's a mixed bag, I don't see any hard and fast ground of “ authenticity ” and both brothers worked well together to make a good translation !

“ authentic ” means of undisputed origin and not a copy; genuine

it or its obverse are not meanings that apply to “ translation ”

one speaks in terms of the accuracy or quality or even sympathy
of the translation with the source document

the source document may be called authentic, but really it's a mismatched meaning
when applied to the translation !

you are theorizing about translation without any practical experience and your whole tone is highly hubric and full of simplifications that do not bear out in reality !

you can gain as well as lose with translation !

a good translation can be a literary work in its own right and “ genuine ” in that respect, but again it's the necessity of some practical experience doing some translations to fully garner the dimensions that translations in fact move in !

I think you can say that a translation is authentic in terms of the translator, for instance a certain translation was authentic arthur waley for instance

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a translation is an original work in its own right !

so this is what I am saying, it is creative writing and not a copy, not at the literary level anyway which is the context here !

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the stupidities of mediocrities is e n d l e s s

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the stupidity of mediocrities is e n d l e s s

the stupidities of mediocrities are e n d l e s s

“ I am a 31 year old teacher who has been on paxil/paroxetine for 2 years to treat my panic attacks

I tried to get off paxil 4 times and always experienced horrible side-effects that caused me to go back on my 30 mg daily dose of paxil

after gaining 60 pounds and getting rid of several doctors, I lucked out

I found a great doctor who, working with her psychiatrist friend,
helped me get off paxil in just 9 days

here’s the plan:

days 1-3 : 30 mg paxil/ 10mg prozac

day 4 : 20mg paxil/ 20mg prozac

day 5 : 10mg paxil/ 20mg prozac

days 6-9 : 0mg paxil/ 20mg prozac

I then stopped taking prozac.

I never thought this would work

I thought my doctor was being naive and I’d be back in there in 2 days
telling her to find another plan

I’d tried slow weaning before and was too sick to get out of bed at 25mg a day

I’m not saying this was easy, but it was nothing like I’d gone through any other time I tried quitting

amalgam fillings which are 50% mercury are a problem, but way best left until they become loose enough to come out with hardly any drilling !

there's a lot of mercury released in the removal process so as I say best left and replaced with ceramic or composite when they fall out !

amalgams emit mercury vapour and the placement of new amalgam fillings has been banned in Sweden, Norway and Denmark !

dharmabumzz writes

I define myself as an existentialist, as a progressive, as a psychotherapist, as a humanist, as a realist, as an idealist, as a social democrat, as a christian, as a taoist, as an atheist

why not also as a buddhist?

my

as you get older, you see the desert in everything you do

enlightenment

dharmabumzz replies

desert? or dessert?

my

lol “ dessert ” in your hedonistic dreams !

only when you go to eat it you discover it to be a mirage in the “ desert ” !

as you get older, you see the desert in everything you do

enlightenment

as you get older, you see the desert in everything you do

enlightenment

“ however, by the age of 70 the thymus is just a tenth of the size in adolescents

this has a lot of impacts later in life, when the functionality of the immune system decreases with age and you become more vulnerable to infection and less responsive to vaccines ”

good quote ewk, you can tell a wild fox (mujushinkyo, songhill) they are a wild fox, they just growl back..........................

there is a growing awareness and recognition in the vital role of vitamin K2 mk7 for better calcium utilization and metabolism for bone and heart health

vitamin K2 mk7 is known to activate the bone protein (osteocalcin) and the proteins in vasculature (matrix gla protein) leading to effective deposition of calcium on the bones and it's inhibition in the arteries

thus promoting bone and cardiovascular health

you won't get to new York by walking to los angeles ! :o)(

you won't get to new York by walking to los angeles !

you won't get to new York by walking to los angeles

the only tables to turn on reddit zen are using it to improve one's reasoning skills and understanding, are you doing that or just going in an endless stupid circle ?

reddit zen seems to be anuses in place of an eye ! :o)

"an apparition in the shape of a man having an eye in the place of his anus" by yosa buson from the buson youkai emaki (demon scroll)

reddit zen is like getting in a spin drier, the moment you start to read
you are in for a ride................

the solution is.....................

you are an anti creative moron (ed. of mujushinkyo on reddit zen) , spewing the shtick and trying to trample down the real talent !

zen is just a word in the public domain, you can make it mean anything you want to, but the “ blue cliff record ” translated by the cleary brothers is in the authentic tradition, as is han shan's poetry !

for those who claim “ zen is buddhism ” , there's no ground to stand on, Buddha was a tree shrine god who got morphed into something else by ashoka's need for a unifying religion for his empire !

in fact the archeological evidence suggests that the earliest buddhism was in fact a merchant bank network !

if there's anything that zen is defined by, it's the transmission outside scriptures

you need to have had that transmission to know, you patently haven't since you cling to your imaginary ground of an historically existing Buddha and an endless bunch of rather voynichy bullshit ! ! !

songhill replies and quotes

教外別傳

jiào wài bié zhuàn

a special (separate) transmission outside the teachings

my

without that transmission you cling to quotes regardless of how right they are, I said outside the scriptures because that is correct and conveys the sense better, as for outside the teachings, I just don't like the phase at all !

you are leaning on the words of others because your own experience is just not there, I have the experience and words come complete and to the point as needed !

so it's a transmission “ outside the scriptures ” and that means you don't need to rely on words of others which in this case are such an unholy brew of a vast majority of outright crap with a little original sense that they are counterproductive/worse than useless ! :o(

is writing a form of formaldehyde ?

“ there is something simultaneously fascinating and unsettling about the bottled specimens on display at the harvard museum of natural history, with so many creatures preserved in formaldehyde ”

the marquise of dai