this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here

pending poems  index

chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page

audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed   !

men spend all their time earning money for women to shop

roman emperors, scipio africanus, napoleon, warlords .  .  crime bosses .  .  mr. everyman

men spend all their time earning money for women to shop

women are silly in the same way tigers are playful

looking past the surfaces is always wrenching

looking past the surfaces is usually wrenching

from  r/drugs    I    II

“ I was sold 25i under the guise of LSD

took 3000 ug's and it triggered schizophrenia along with really fucking up my central nervous system

my spine below the neck periodically goes through bursts of pain

I considered him a  friend  ”

there are slugs in this world who want everyone to be as stupid and as slow as themselves so they aren’t shown up

the trouble with BPD  (borderline personality disorder)  is if you scratch their back, they won’t scratch yours

instead they will cut it open

the trouble with BPD  (borderline personality disorder)  is if you scratch their back, they won’t scratch yours

they will cut it open

there’s  no  home  like  nisodo

my reply to a  post  of gesshin greenwood’s complaining about the regimented regime and hard physical labour that will be involved upon returning to the convent  (aichi senmon nisodo in nagoya)  for a stay of several weeks

one of the things not well appreciated about eihei dogen is that he was a very well connected member of the main   ‘ movers and shakers ’  clan in Kyoto  (the minamoto 's) ,  to the extent that he was in training on the path to be a government minster before he ran away to the tendai monastery/temple complex at mt. hiei where he had an uncle !

in his travels and various instructions and recording one can see distinctly he was member of the upper class talking down to the servant class . .

strong class consciousness was very integral to the way medieval and feudal societies worked . . a sort of minimal  “caste-ism”  if you like that spanned across regional, political and country boundaries . . 

he himself is extremely avoidant of doing any physical work at all as far as I can see , though the rate at which he wrote in his later years cannot have left him much time for doing anything else !

soto zen has hagiographed dogen into a brutal and stupid system of physical hardship and outright psychosis that he himself was never party to

actually I was looking at this  video  of the abbess, aoyama roshi, life doesn't look too bad

chachuu (nick)   replies

its hard to not stop

in the red light district

what do nuns know about physical labor anyway ?

my  reply

red light

black light

blue light

high as

a

kite

low as

his bowels

 why does he write such nonsense ?

borderline personality and narcissism are just ways the machine breaks down and still breeds

broken intelligent machines with some sympathy or understanding of the world  (and how it works)  don’t breed

you can’t win against that sort of evolutionary pressure

i think women in general considerably underrate male interpersonal skills and understanding

yes boys and adolescents are very relationally and interpersonally  aggressive  and some never grow out of it

a bit depressing this, looks like his ex girlfriend intends to sell  the caves

i have found  randi kreger  a great help in dealing with reddit zen, narcissism, autism, borderline personality disorder  .  .  you just have to know what you are dealing with

“ if not now, when ? ”

more what happens now is when

carpe diem, quam minimum credula  postero

another difficult to read story from  askreddit  !

i have included this one because the one of other stories was an atrocity in vietman by american soldiers, it went both ways, thich nhat hanh was right, both sides were intransigent and wouldn't negiotiate !

“ My dad was in Vietnam. He was one of those young punks who had to choose between war and prison so he thought he'd choose the easy way (ha!) And went into the marines. He was a seriously fucked up man growing up and probably a sociopath to some degree. That war mentally killed him. He would tell us stories at bedtime when we were still tiny. My Mom had to leave him for all of our safety when I was 5. He spent most of my childhood in San Quentin.

The story that sticks out most to me isn't any of the ones he told me, but the one my grandma told me when I was an adult.

At some point he came back home from 3 years in Vietnam with a full blown addiction and what can only be severe ptsd. He couldn't function above the level of a 5 year old mentally for months. So he stayed with his mom and she took care of him. One night after a particularly bad nightmare he told her about the rural Vietnamese girl he dated there. She had a daughter, his. The vietcong took the baby and quartered her live in front of the mother. The mother brought him the body and he gave her money for a funeral. I can't confirm if this is true or not, but from what my grandma told me, he certainly believed it to be true. i forgave him for a lot of shit after hearing that. Poor fucker.

“ it's about getting the right  balance  of biting and cutting teeth at the front of the mouth with enough of the chewing teeth at the back ”

i don’t deal with people more than i have to

the point of being enlightened is to actually understand what it is about

not cling to self constructed blinkers

the point of being enlightened is to actually understand what it is about

not cling to self constructed blinkers like you do

the guru scene is all scammary without exception, people buy into and apprentice themselves in a very professional system of con artistry

the guru scene in india is just endless con artistry, the sucker devotees are fooling themselves and lack the skill to fool others

the guru scene in india is just endless con artistry, people are fooling themselves and lack the skill to fool others

the guru scene in india is just endless con artistry, you are fooling yourself and lack the skill to fool others

“ criticisms are winds that pass through an empty field  —  what remains when the winds pass ? ”

praises are winds that pass through an empty field  —  what remains when the wind passes ?

“ criticisms are winds that pass through an empty field  —  what remains when the winds pass ? ”

praises are winds that pass through empty fields  —  what remains when the wind passes ?

“ Not  my story ,  but my dad is a doctor  (not military medic)  and he told me a war story that one of his veteran patients told him.  This guy fought in Vietnam, and was pretty messed up from the shit that went on

So this man and his unit were going through the jungle making sure villages were clear.  At this point many villages were outwardly abandoned, but still were occupied by the enemy hiding inside or nearby.  One village they encountered still seemed empty after being searched, and they were about to move on when somebody spotted an unusual tree line overlooking the village.  The trees were in a straight line and too close together to be natural. Upon closer inspection, they found that the trees were concealing the entrance to a cave.  They were sure that they had found a VC hideout

The man and his unit hadn't heard any reaction from whomever was inside, so they still seemed to have the element of surprise.  My dad's patient was the one to roll a grenade in through a crack in the trees, and when it detonated they lit up the cave with gunfire.  When everything settled, the men saw the bodies of the women and children of the village strewn about the cave

This man now has dreams every night of Jesus telling him  “ kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself ”

“ good news: zen teacher thich nhat hanh still stable and his  ‘ hemorrhage has slightly reduced in size ’ ”

christ in his shoes I would want to be gone

money and technology keeps him in some weird lexx state

you know, talking brains with rubber tubes going in and out of them

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typical disciples ,  keeping him alive for their own reasons, no consideration to him at all

the celibate perspective is really really different because you go through failure and come out the other side

battered and bruised to be sure but miraculously reconstructed

suburban living can’t do that and the road is littered with casualties and roadkill

the celibate perspective is really really different because you go into, through and out of failure

battered and bruised to be sure but miraculously reconstructed

suburban living can't do that and the road is littered with casualties and roadkill

the celibate perspective is really really different because you go into and through failure and out the other side. battered and bruised to be sure but miraculously reconstructed

suburban living can't do that and the road is littered with casualties and roadkill

the celibate perspective is really really different because you go into failure, through failure and out the other side. battered and bruised to be sure but miraculously reconstructed

suburban living can't do that and the road is littered with casualties and roadkill !

the celibate perspective is really really different because you go into failure, through failure and come out the other side. battered and bruised to be sure but miraculously reconstructed

suburban living can't do that and the road is littered with casualties and roadkill !

what has this in common with reddit zen ?

the very end of   this

and the whole of  this 

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i'm a Buddhist,  ‘ not zen ’ ,  w h a t e v e r

actually this lexx series is a very advanced zen koan !

what has this in common with reddit zen ?

the very end of   this

and the whole of  this 

the modern diet  :  death by gluten/wheat flour and sugar ?

celibacy is a different country !

celibacy is a different country

“ why is the logo of the zen subreddit so serious, yet the meditation one is smiling ? ”

fake serious, fake smiling, what is common ?

I mean apart from schizophrenia ? !

they definitely have more insight on /r meditation, the problem is they don't do any quality reading and just get screwed by their own brains and those of the writers of the rubbish they read !

reedit zen is way more mental because they neither do any quality reading nor contemplative "practice" which I think is due to its "buji" roots, most people drop in here as a result of getting wanked by alan watts IMO ! :o)

tweaking stims, meth coke

11th to 28th november 2014

“ how permanent are the cognitive impairments that come with methamphetamine use ?

are they reversible with a long enough period of abstinence and genuine effort ?

I wasn't that heavy of a user

last time I used was a couple of months ago.

is it possible to be as smart as you were before amphetamines ?

I fear that I'll be dumb forever ”

you know soto zen is screwed when you   read  this

‘ kodo sawaki engaged in  “longtime cooperation with police officials”  in their work to  “apprehend and imprison anyone suspected of being opposed to the government and its war effort” ,  and that he went into prisons  “in order to convince them to cooperate with the prosecution of the war” ’

in other words sawaki worked with the secret police if not actually a member of them !

the buji zen position is  “ that i myself am enlightened without works or evidence to others ! ”

this of course is a position the slackarses on reddit zen find personally comfortable !

this however is not the way zen works !

it may be simply the process of being open, that is always looking around and going further !

how many do that here?

anders behring breivik was a pale odius, toxic and stupid  shadow  of odd   nerdrum

actions speak louder than words and if i have anything to say it's just wasted words

actions speak

louder than words

and if i have anything to say

it's just wasted words

actions speak louder than words and if i have anything to say it's just wasted breath

actions speak

louder than words

and if i have anything to say

it's just wasted breath

everybody has personas !

everybody has personas

“ but really no thanks would be too much for the contribution you make here ”

humorously ambiguous ! :o)

that sort of ambiguity is sophisticated writing btw, not  “ bad ”

“ but really no thanks would be too much for the contribution you make here ”

humorously ambiguous ! :o)

you can't answer the koan can you ewk !

the masters of old talk about a  ‘ barrier ’

this is your barrier ,  n e v e r  e v e r  w i l l  y o u  p a s s  i t

most people can see what it is about, why can't you, you  referrer  of nan ch'uan to  “ a mental health professional ”

ewk   replies

you have conflated mental health problems with zen

zen masters do not show any sign of schizophrenia or autism, that is ridiculous

I encourage you to talk to a mental health professional

I am not a mental health professional

my

no, like the rest of us here you are half schizophrenic, half autistic and zen has always been like this

can't you bend to accomodate what and who you really are and this nonsense and noise you vainly flare away in ,  (ed.  here on reddit zen)  might subsist ?

chasing voynich pipe dreams, now that is true madness ! :o)(

I guess you are in fact truly schizophrenic, you just can't cross this barrier

there's speed bump on the road, but it's height frightens you !

unbend a tiny bit, leave that tough/hardened ewk persona behind for one post ?

try it ?

my

truthier  replies

you,  the buddha ?  a fictional character ?

my  reply

I see what you are saying, but in reality what I have found is that the whole edifice collapses once you realize buddha and jesus are fictional !

that is there is simply no point, you don't need the vocabulary and in fact poets don't use it !

‘ buddha ’  and  ‘ christ ’  are ersatz schema !

having said that I find the true point to be midway between poetry and religion . .  !

I have thought this over many years, I think poetry is a little idiosyncratic to be completely accessible and religion is too (en)meshed and weighted with voynich, so it's cross referencing between them that will get you some answers !

my basic point is that we need this help because life is too short to figure it  (all)!  out by ourselves !

ed.  the three paragraphs below have been added later !

by idiosyncrasy I mean a certain inaccessibility of personal symbolism, not that interiority of itself is problematically idiosyncratic

the symbolism issue varies with the poet, some are really quite explicable and culture, time and language use differences compound the problem

I think what is unusual about ch'an zen is a fairly common vocabulary or systematic way of looking at things, but in actual fact  I have been surprised to see how closely what is really said matches quality christian and sufi/islamic mysticism

truthier  replies

[. . .]   this is all just that, there's nothing else to figure out but ourselves, and we are the only ones to do it.  but the shortcut is that there is nothing to figure out!

my

yeah that's the buij viewpoint !

case 64 of the blue cliff record is a direct criticism of that

“ nan ch'uan recited the preceding story to question chao

chou chou immediately took off his straw sandals, placed them on his head, and left

nan ch'uan said ,  ‘ if you had been here, you could have saved the cat ’  ”

my

my  reply  to oatgerm/pointing at the moon

your poem as  voynich  is pretty good, tho one might ask w h y ! ? : o()

it's interesting that you write or have a  ‘ cadence ’  style similar to Goethe in his faust books, which is actually a strong compliment  . .  !

it's one of the great works of literature, this is your whole problem, you are trying to discover the wheel by yourself and don't read quality and as result just get bogged in the mud of your own viewpoint

Goethe's book  “  travels  in Italy ”   I loved   !

copper  has a definite neural   effect  !

“ copper is traditionally regarded as a static, tightly bound cofactor in enzymes, but emerging data link more-loosely bound pools to cell signaling

[. . .]   a  role  for copper in the brain as a modulator of spontaneous activity of developing neural circuits ”

through truthfulness and giving

through truthfulness and giving

may

there

be

living

.

.

.

clickstation  asks

“ I don't get poetry, and I really don't get how spacing  ‘ has a poetic point ’  ”

my

clickstation  replies

then I can't understand the words

my

clickstation  asks

“ I don't get poetry, and I really don't get how spacing  ‘ has a poetic point ’  ”

my

clickstation  replies

then I can't understand the words

my

clickstation  asks

“ I don't get poetry, and I really don't get how spacing  ‘ has a poetic point ’  ”

my

just open your mind wide and see it as a whole

clickstation  replies

then I can't understand the words

my

poetry ,  just open your mind wide and see it as a whole

poetry, just open your mind wide and see it as a whole

i avoid talking/dealing with people where i can, however my rl interpersonal skills are good, even verging on being usually liked !

one illusion is as good as another !

one illusion is as good as another

zen means  “ to ruminate ”

“ you act as if zen patriarchs were historical, you loon ”

which ones weren't historical ?

the 6th patriarch is historical btw, just not the full haigograph if you know what I mean ! :o)

bodhidharma, huike, senghan, the 6th patriarch, mazu and no doubt many others were historical from records and memorial plaques, the chinese had a different attitude to these things because of ancestor worship and didn't have the same tendency to be complete fantasists in the way that middle eastern religions do !

also zen not being into gods didn't have the problem with euhemeretic conversion !

as I have personally seen the 6th patriarch I of course know he is real ! :o)

retarded idiots like  yourself  take anime as real then call that zen ! :o)

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why people like you want to spin bullshit and pretend their fantasy worlds are something to do with zen I do not know ?

why waste your time, but that is apparently what you want to do !

the  anime  “ grave of the fireflies ”  is  sentimental  bullshit  !

the anime  “ grave of the fireflies ”  is sentimental  bullshit  !

the modern life and diet has created a situation where we all need to avoid metabolic syndrome and all it's horrors ,  we are on a collision course with something in our forties !

the modern life and diet has created a situation where we all need to avoid metabolic syndrome and all it's horrors, we are on a collision course with something in our forties !

the modern life and diet has created a situation where we all need to avoid metabolic syndrome and all it's horrors, as we are on a collision course with something in our forties !

the modern life and diet has created a situation where we all need to avoid metabolic syndrome and all it's horrors, or you are on a collision course with something in your forties !

you also  need  to avoid metabolic syndrome and all it's horrors, you are on a collision course with something in your forties !

I can only do a thing well if I go an extra hundred or thousand miles doing it which leaves a lot of things not done very well at all ! ? :o()

clickstation  replies

I usually settle for  “ good enough ”

my

clickstation  replies

bummer

I can only do a thing well if I go an extra hundred or thousand miles doing it which leaves a lot of things not done very well at all ! ? :o()

I can only do a thing well if I go an extra hundred or thousand miles doing it which leaves a lot of things not done very well at all

one grandfather of mine had diabetes and a grandmother had dementia, I am frightened for sure !

another had a stroke relatively young tho she was a chain smoker and the other grandfather died youngish from throat cancer  (pipe smoker)

now I have typed all that out it doesn't look too optimistic does it ! :o()

hopefully the  compendium  and bcd will enable me to escape those !

exactly wrong !  (ed. my reply to a comment made by clickstation)

I honestly can't figure why you guys so consistently waste your time !

i'm reading hakuin and this is what he says

(of a seasoned monk)

he may apply himself single-mindedly to the pursuing the way  [..]

but he only succeeds in clothing himself in cherished ideas of his own making, filthy clinging garments that he will find impossible to strip away  [...]

when he engages them in direct eyeball to eyeball confrontation, he discovers he is unable to respond to their thrust with the easy, spontaneous freedom of a true teacher

do not fight with another's bow and arrow

do not ride another's horse

the above  quote  is from case  45  of the mummonkan

the world where jesus muhammad and Buddha exist as historical people is very different from  ( the ) !  one  where they  are  mythological  !

if you say they are historical then you have falsely incorporated imagination in a toxic way into the real world and this is why notions of faith  which are in fact such incorporations  are such a vomiting spew of idiocy !

once you perceive they are patchwork constructs of god knows what and bear as much relation to the way the world really works as any anime fantasy then you are removed from personal idiocy and get to observe it in others !

: o )

the world where jesus muhammad and Buddha exist as historical people is very different from one where they are mythological !

if you say they are historical then you have falsely incorporated imagination in a toxic way into the real world and this is why notions of faith  which are in fact such incorporations  are such a vomiting spew of idiocy !

once you perceive they are patchwork constructs of god knows what and bear as much relation to the way the world really works as any anime fantasy then you are removed from personal idiocy and get to observe it in others !

: o )

zenthrowaway17   writes

I bought a five liter box of wine on sunday

last night, I cut open the bag inside and dumped it into the sink

my

your incipient alcoholism and response to lithium indicates you are short of GABA (gamma-aminobutryic acid) !

alcohol in moderate quantities promotes GABA !

interestingly low GABA is implicated in alzheimer's, schizophrenia and  diabetes

“ our findings suggest that GABA regulates human β-cell  mass  ”

you can get it as a supplement but it causes more gut issues than it's worth !

in fact the optimum use of alcohol for you is to have less than say 120 ml of red wine a day like I do ,  it freezes to a icy slush and you just spoon out balanced quantities of the icy slush and liquid into some cooking before it cools so one gets a pasteurizing effect !

taken with food this also hugely evens out the blood alcohol !

i'm not an alcoholic tho, much more than 120ml makes me feel not right . .

low dose lithium  decreases  GABA turnover, effectively making more available in the brain, I think that's why you went on that binge of taking a dozen 5mg lithium aspartate capsules, your brain is just seeking what it wants which is more GABA . .

I find I get really good results with 1/6th of a 5mg capsule of  lithium  aspartate daily in synergy with microdose lithium carbonate which I find best mixed with water, tho it can simply be taken as tiny amounts of powder even possibly scrappings off an eskalith tablet !

it's very important to understand the need and importance of using lithium as a trace element rather than psychiatric doses !

in these very small amounts you are getting an equivalent of what would be lithium from the diet and a lithium replete drinking water supply, hence the use of the word trace. . .

so basically it's lithium as nutrition . . .

psychiatric lithium however is used in a therapeutic window of 800 to 1300mg daily which are basically kidney and thyroid destroying amounts, but hey it keeps the crazies pacified y o u  k n o w

the patients are just as dumb and stupid as the psychs in my observation, like cassanova said ,  ‘ to screw the unintelligent is the revenge of nature . . ’

nan-ch'uan must have been manic when he cut the cat in half . .

: o)

zen/ch'an is and always has been insomnia, depression, mania, schizophrenia, dissociation, autism, psychosis, and retardation !

B L I N K ! ! ! ,  DID  I  SAY  REDDIT  ZEN  ?  !  : o  ()

who is winning or why am i losing ?

whose winning or why am i losing ?

who is winning or why am i losing

whose winning or why am i losing

dj's and  “snake whispers”  have to be some use !

a very good  video  of a tiger snake biting, lucky he was wearing loose trousers, probably deliberate as that is protection !

tiger  snakes are listed  here  as envenoming 40 to 60% maybe higher in tasmania as i have never heard of an unenvenomed bite happening here !

anyway i stepped on the tail of a tiger the other day  (18th ? of november)  in the long grass, it moved swiftly away !

tiger snakes can be completely black and not just striped ! :o)(

males are more dangerous in late summer early autumn when they are tracking females and get quite single minded about it ! :o)(

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“ I met a snake  expert  at Healesville Sanctuary who had been bitten several times by various snakes, notably an Inland Taipan, which is the deadliest land snake and 10 times more venemous than an Eastern Brown

He wrapped the bitten limb  (bite was on his hand) ,  but didn't go to the hospital, as he felt no symptoms of having been envenomed. Snakes will often dry bite, and a lot of folks believe that the majority of bites go unnoticed  ( " What was that‑ a stick??? " )

Anyhow, he kept his arm bound for the night, went home, went to sleep, and when he woke up decided he could take the bandages off. Within an hour he was in the ER, almost dead

The moral of this story is that with proper management, you'll be right

The bit about the gaiters, or long pants, is right on. Elapids, which all deadly Aussie snakes are, have short little fangs, and these fangs have far less penetrating power than vipers such as rattlesnakes

Most Aussie snakes can't effectively bite through denim, whereas American snake boots, for example, are made of kevlar, and will deflect a .22 round, as this is the amount of penetrating power a rattlesnake has

On the other hand, rattlesnakes are no where even remotely as poisonous as Tigers, Browns and Taipans, or even Copperheads, not to mention the Inland Taipan ”

some people are very sensitive to any very low level of white light, even moderate moonlight still registers in the brain as a circadian rhythm synchronizing level of light

bright moonlight is suprisingly white and contains blue which would be disrupting of the circadian rhythm

also suprisingly it doesn’t have any red

its best to switch over to red led light  (which the brain/circadian rhythm perceives as dark)  at leats an hour before bed

imo  “ delayed sleep phase syndrome ”  is mythical and in fact is a circadian rhythm problem

bedrooms need to be really dark when asleep as well, you can move your hand over your eyes to see how dark it really is !

mate selection is always the female’s  choice

life’s a lot easier if you understand that, just move one

they are not thinking but emotive machines and actually a huge factor is the major histocompatibility complex  (gene combinations that give the best immune response for future children)  which they can tell  (if they are off the pill)  by your smell

on the other hand men need to be careful they don’t get saddled with a dud, look for other opinions and red flags

the many years of rote learning makes doctors never want to open their minds to anything new

doctors themselves know the problems of their education

reading the great minds and talents of the past straightens one out and keeps one sane

only retarded idiots kowtow to mental health professionals

if you are sleep deprived your brain is crying

stefanobettega  asks

“ [serious]  if I had to write an apologies text to my ex-gf what would be the best timing ?  (e.g.  monday night, sunday evening, early in the morning ?)

you should know that she's engaged with someone else now and my letter is not asking a second-chance or anything

just pure, honest apologies for how I treated her.  I feel guilty about it.  one year after I feel like I should do this.  I've written the text already, just waiting to send it ”

my  reply

send it asap

when you write it there's a sort of synchronicity between when you are finished and the time to send it

she may or may not reply, but she will appreciate it

I can't believe the other  replies  here . .

stefanobettega  replies

they kind of surprised me too !

for zen/mysticism you need daily periods of solitude, in reality it's self taught, no-one is responsible to you and you are responsible to no-one !

if you don't do the solitude, meditation contemplation decompression whatever you want to call it, you are just wasting your time and that's why most people on reddit zen are just wasting their time !

it's a lifelong work and has to be more important to you than anything else in your life, otherwise you just won't get it

most people if they were honest about what was important to them would flag zen, but being hubric twits they approach it like like getting a nice hat or coat to glamorize their appearance putting on tramps clothes and think they are posh

ewk  writes

your authority, as it derived from mystical visions, has nothing to do with what zen masters teach

my  reply

you can’t tell a zen patriarch he is invalid

all springs from me including you and your skepticism

plasticbuddhajesus   writes

merton died by accidental electrocution in a bathtub

no true zen master would end in such a ridiculous manner

my

I have always thought buddha's death from food poisoning was a particularly realistic and unhagiographical detail and probably is also a comment on people donating food that has gone off ! :o)(

bet it wasn't an uncommon occurrence in that climate ! :o)

yeah thomas merton was either very uncareful of life important detail/s or he knocked himself off in a very discreet manner !

“ I agree with u/ewk when he says that buddhism is not zen ”

my

the masters are every clear it's personal enlightenment or  ‘ the transmission outside the scriptures ’  (that is what it is about)  !

the masters are also very clear about how different the enlightened world view is and how devastatingly distinct the transmission is, none of you here have any sense of this radical change, you all know this lack of any distinct experience, yet you persist in your egoic hubric idiocy and just continue to spew quotes that mask/show/amplify your own lack of understanding !

huang po, like Thomas merton was not fully enlightened !

it's a very difficult area the half arse ! :o)

these very uneven and not fully understanding  “ teachers ”  are rather fascinating for the insight they give on ultimate reality and how it impacts on the personality and its insufficiency ! :o)(

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“ one of the strange laws of the contemplative life is that in it you do not sit down and solve problems  :   you bear with them until they somehow solve themselves

or until life itself solves them for you

usually the solution consists in a discovery that they only existed insofar as they were inseparably connected with your own illusory exterior self

the solution of most such problems comes with the dissolution of this false self  ”

healthspin  complains  of my “ an uncanny ability to place words in phrases so as to give the impression that they hold wisdom ”

my

maybe they do hold wisdom, but you are just not open to it !

I read something by foyan recently which I rewrote as  ‘ ring the evening bell at noon ’ 

when I first read it I thought, what bullshit, he's on my  ‘ good master ’  list, maybe I made a mistake

and then later that day/night, just out musing under the stars I started to see what he meant and came up with the rewrite and all downhill from there !

it just takes time, musing and openness . . .

my posting on reddit is effective, that's your objection, you are bundled into the  buji  zen notion of yourself being sufficient without works, whereas my reddit writings are performance art and you can't ever get past this !

in the real world works matter and I have that and it conflicts you and your fakeness in terms of what zen is really about !

interesting, just checked the stats for my web site, 1.5 million requests !

the people who read my creative writing are generally quite friendly and appreciative, it's the health   writings  that cause upset !

bytesafari  writes  a post titled   ‘ I seem to have lost my head ’

I was chatting up this stranger on  OKC  when the strangest thing happens

he reaches out of my monitor and starts pulling himself through !

I'm completely dumbfounded at this point, but wait! There's more!

snickety snap, fast as lightning his blade leaves his sheath, and I'm standing there, head in hands, unable to believe my eyes !

no blood, no gore, no pain at all!

I felt nothing !

it was only an instant, but everything changes

and now I'm left wondering, if this is me, who the fuck was that other guy ?

I mean, his life was a nightmare

I just can't stop laughing! Who knew tragedy could make my sides ache

my

a form of brain damage from lsd that !

your substance taking is who the other guy was !

I find it interesting how drugs open the wrong doors to what zen is really about !

bytesafari   replies

the trick with supplements is not to go for large doses of single supplements for effects, but for additive synergies between small doses of many supplements !

that way you keep the doses low which makes long term use much more sustainable !

a nigella lawson   quote

an alternative to caffeine is nestlé baking cocoa, maybe with warm milk in the morning, it's quite along lasting stimulant !

it does tend to create a crash in the evening when it wears off which can help with sleep !

no.  11  from gary synder's  ‘ riprap and cold mountain poems ’  is below

spring-water in the green creek is clear

moonlight on cold mountain is white

silent knowledge  ‑  the spirit is enlightened of itself

contemplate the void  :  this world exceeds stillness

the clarity of the flowing water

moonlight dusts the hills

this fills

far

exceeding

a han shan poem, no.  22  in gary synder's  ‘ riprap and cold mountain poems ’ 

on top of cold mountain the lone round moon

lights the whole clear cloudless sky

honor this priceless natural treasure

concealed in five shadows, sunk deep in the flesh.

my

late at night the endless moon shines

g o i n g  o n  f o r e v e r

a han shan poem, no.  22  in gary synder's  ‘ riprap and cold mountain poems ’ 

on top of cold mountain the lone round moon

lights the whole clear cloudless sky

honor this priceless natural treasure

concealed in five shadows, sunk deep in the flesh.

my

late at night the endless moon shines

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a han shan poem, no.  22  in gary synder's  ‘ riprap and cold mountain poems ’ 

on top of cold mountain the lone round moon

lights the whole clear cloudless sky

honor this priceless natural treasure

concealed in five shadows, sunk deep in the flesh.

my

late at night the endless moon shines

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perhaps more your ADD? self ?

the journaling provides the mindset and material for the blogs as a literary form, most writing only costs the writer financially anyway, my view is well written blogs are now the predominate literary form, just or more valid than traditional works of fiction like novels, its all r e a l l y  c h a n g e d  . .

“  one day in mino province, I observed a cicada casting its skin in the shade

it managed to get its head free, and then its hands and its feet emerged one after the other

only its left wing remained inside, still caught to the old skin

it didn't look as though it would ever get that wing unstuck

excellent, I thought, now you are free to go on your way

but the wing that I had touched remained shut and would not open

that cicada never was able to fly as it should have

looking at it, I felt ashamed of myself and regretted deeply what I had done

when you think about it,

present-day zen teachers act in much the same way when they guide their students

I've seen and heard how they take young people of exceptional talent  ‑  those destined to become the very pillars and ridge poles of our school  ‑  and with their extremely ill ‑ advised and inopportune methods endup making them into something half baked and un ‑ achieved

this is a direct cause of the decline of our zen school

from a   letter  by hakuin to layman kokan

“  one day in mino province, I observed a cicada casting its skin in the shade

it managed to get its head free, and then its hands and its feet emerged one after the other

only its left wing remained inside, still caught to the old skin

it didn't look as though it would ever get that wing unstuck

excellent, I thought, now you are free to go on your way

but the wing that I had touched remained shut and would not open

that cicada never was able to fly as it should have

looking at it, I felt ashamed of myself and regretted deeply what I had done  ”

a random   question   by kaneckt

how the hell did zen masters live to be so old without modern medicine ?

lately my health has been  “ bad ”  and it just sparked the question

my

that's an interesting question, one of the answers has only been dawning on me recently, but is that zen to be done well actually takes a long time which is where the tradition excels here you have young men/boys becoming monks and a few making it to 80+

it's particularly obvious with dogen who died at 53, he was only "half baked" for most of his life, but slowly developed and it's a great pity he never lived to the 80+

so one answer is that a few of the really great masters simply are that way by the luck of having lived that long . .

another answer is that hagiography I think exaggerated the longevity of most who I suspect never lived beyond 60 - 80 which gets glamorized to 120 ! :o)(

calorie restriction is another factor since some of them seem to have been short of food most of their life, and especially as they got older and were unable to trade labour for food as per how the monastery system worked like with joshu

if not for   this  I doubt I would be well at all, possibly even dead . . .

sengcan had leprosy, it's poor health that draws one to questions about  ‘ the meaning of life ’

the well breed and maybe  ‘successful ’ ,  this  .  b l i n d s  .  t h e m !  . .

foyan says

stezen  asks

does this mean do something unusual ?

my

it means adopt the retreat of evening in the middle of your life/day !

foyan says

foyan says

foyan  says

foyan says

foyan  says

ring the evening bell at noon

foyan says

ring the evening bell at noon

truely  bizarre  !

everytime I look at it, I laugh ! :o)(

beats the dull mice on reddit zen ! :o)(

kuan yin with dildo !

my god she could be crossing the red sea !

[Serious]  Retired soldiers on Reddit  :   What was something that you saw or   experienced   that you never shared with anyone?

The thing that will stick with me forever is this. Back in 2010 north west of Sanguin, Afghanistan I was the Corpsman for my group of 4 Marines, we specialized in JTACs  (guys who call in aircraft)  and were supporting the Georgian Army in creating a new Patrol base.

We get to the area where the base is going to be build  (sand walls FTW)  and camp out in our trucks until the bulldozers finish building the walls and filling up HESCO barriers. Around the second day near noon we hear an explosion and see in the distance a large smoke cloud.

We radio to see if there were any friendly forces near that area but no coalition forces were near us. We then mount up to go check it out and as we near the site we see two adult figures running around a van that hit an IED. As we pull up there is a 6 passenger afghan van that looks like it hit an IED, this van was DEMOLISHED, charred and the engine was on fire.

As we dismount the two make adults run to us  (this freaked us out cuz they might be Insurgents)  but our interpreter was there and told us that they were brothers asking for help cuz one of the brothers had four daughters in the van with them when they hit the IED. We rush to the van and there is still smoke everywhere but we start pulling on the rear driver door and I can hear one of the daughters still screaming inside. As we pry the door open we look inside and I will never forget what I saw.

Inside was all charred, smoke was still coming out of the van and in the seats was what remained of the four daughters. 3 of the daughters were torn apart by the explosion with limbs and body parts everywhere. The fourth was still holding one of her sisters amputated hand while her other hand was pressed on her side. The blast had amputated her lower left leg going up to her pelvis. She was trying to scream but she was already losing too much blood making her lose consciousness.

We pulled her out and I got to work trying to stop her from bleeding out but I could only keep her alive for 15 more min. The father and uncle held her hand as she never woke up from losing consciousness. Me and my Marines started collecting the body parts of the other daughters so the father and brother could bury their remains. Their ages were 4, 4, 5, and 6

“ my father now suffers from war cause PTSD, but the most memorable thing he told me from war were the children who would beg for candy outside the base camp everyday

him and his friends would play with them over the few months he was there

one day he returned to the children slaughtered and decapitated outside the base ”

:o)

that's exactly what zen and any mystical path is ! : o)(

“ mystical divination and merging with infinity ”

:o)

that's exactly what zen and any mystical path is ! : o)(

“ mystical divination and merging with infinity ”

to completely destroy sensitive hard disk data so that a team of scientists working for a year cannot recover the data, take/unscrew the top off the drive, unscrew the platter from the spindle and toss the platter in a fire, doesn't get more secure or quicker than that !

the basic problem is that when you delete a file on a mechanical hard disk, the information is still there until overwritten, all that happens is the location of the file is taken out of the directory and the disk space is there simply until it is needed again for a new file !

so basically all that is needed for a complete   erasure  is for the file to be actually overwritten, one or two passes with random values for which there are utilities !

the real issue with hard disks and ssd's is back-ups, you need at least two and preferably three and at least one with the essential files really current, for me the most current one is my web site  !

disk  “recovery”  needs to be the last port of call !

kubomi   replies

your spelling and grammar could use some work ,  my  “drug fucked”  brain seems more apt in such a regard, interesting eh ?

you might want to do some research into chemistry and biochemistry before you allow big brother to tell you what chemicals are beneficial or not, certainly i want you to be informed though you seem satisfied with drug myths and ad hominem arguments

my

your brain is drug fucked because you just write dull erroneous drivel and despite your illegal use of drugs stick to  “ school marm ”  notions of what is write and wrong in grammar and never read anything outside school age primers !

the real zen finds drugs boring and any person of sense can see they damage the brain . .

self medication like pot for sleep where you are balancing up the toxicity of pot to the brain against less neuronal damage from better sleep is a more complex area, but as the way better road is   this  for such issues, it's no contest !

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zen  “practice”  is a decoy to ensnare fools as a punishment for dull stupidity ! :o)

zensangha  asks

I have low self-esteem.  are there any role models here who I can associate with.  this way I can feel like some one important

my

this sub is full to the brim of hubric crap artists who think that simply by the virtue of being themselves they have a competence in what zen is about . .

why would you want to be like that ?

a different questioner  asks

how do you attain this  “ competence in what zen is about ? ”

my

basically you have to step into  “ the contemplative tableau ”

see, everything i write is from that tableau, it's a fusion of infinity and myself, I couldn't do it o t h e r w i s e . . . ! : o)( !

healthspin  replies

stepping into the  ‘ contemplative tableau ’  could be similar to simply thinking critically about life/things/nothing etc. no ?

or maybe it's to do with the infinite you mention, possibly allowing that essence to influence the expression you're creating ?

correct me if I'm wrong, but to have competence in what zen is about, you just have to start wondering about things?

my

that's very well put !

if we lived 10,000 years that in itself might be sufficient, but since we don't it's very important to be in touch with the great minds of the past who have worked this out, joshu, han shan, foyan, tung-shan, linji and yunmen are such minds, but really zen is semantically isolated from us by voynich recording/transcription and translations and a very different medieval culture and perspective. .

so one needs to look seriously and study the mystical   equivalents

a  question asked  on reddit zen

I have low self-esteem.  are there any role models here who I can associate with.  this way I can feel like some one important

my

this sub is full to the brim of hubric crap artists who think that simply by the virtue of being themselves they have a competence in what zen is about . .

why would you want to be like that ?

a different questioner  asks

how do you attain this  “ competence in what zen is about ? ”

my

basically you have to step into  “ the contemplative tableau ”

see, everything i write is from that tableau, it's a fusion of infinity and myself, I couldn't do it o t h e r w i s e . . . ! : o)( !

a  question asked  on reddit zen

I have low self-esteem.  are there any role models here who I can associate with.  this way I can feel like some one important

my

this sub is full to the brim of hubric crap artists who think that simply by the virtue of being themselves they have a competence in what zen is about . .

why would you want to be like that ?

stezen  asks

can someone please explain this koan for me ?

a monk told joshu ,  “ I have just entered the monastery.  please teach me ”

joshu asked ,  “ have you eaten your rice porridge ? ”

the monk replied ,  “ I have eaten ”

joshu said ,  “ then you had better wash your bowl ”

at that moment the monk was enlightened

yes.  I want enlightenment.  how do I get it, if not by a zen master?

my

you just want the quick easy solution of  “ enlightenment ” ,  but in fact   “ washing your bowl ”  is the work of a lifetime which you won't do !

if you do the contemplative/decompressive/meditative work it will fall into place, if you don't you will be scratching around on the surface forever looking for  “ quick fixes! ”

chachuu  replies

a lifetime

a blink of the eyes

my

“ I want to know if we match.  any enlightened being adores endlessly other saints.  the company of the holy is what we seek ”

we are shouting to each to each other across the empty space of very different roads, what can I say ?

“ this is a nightmare beyond   comprehension  ”

38 : 20

“ instead of a singularity, they found the center of this black hole only held a region of highly curved   spacetime   ”

the complete zen truth !

photo by   ryan  steele mcginnis

“ one day, through some chance event, the iron pill will explode, producing the eyes of zen; then the mountains, rivers, and whole earth are all one vast treasure of light ”

true ,  but the  rest  is a bit garbled !

of the seven paragraphs  (excluding the  "effort and study"  heading) ,  1, 2, 3, and 6 are garbled

“ one day, through some chance event, the iron pill will explode, producing the eyes of zen; then the mountains, rivers, and whole earth are all one vast treasure of light ”

true ,  but the  rest  is a bit garbled !

dj_bigd  asks  in a post titled   ‘ vivid vision during meditation ’

I have started meditating before bed every night recently

then I awoke from my meditation

has anyone had any similar experiences or know what this may mean ?

my

“ does a dog have a buddha-nature ”

joshu's answer  no  meant  ‘ stop pestering me with this voynich crap ! ’

zenthrowaway17  asks

I'm curious, what kind of life were you living before you became interested in zen ?

what kind of change was that?

my

i was brought up on a farm, then became suburban, worked in electronics and was going onto to develop a new load cell technology in weighing, then chucked it all away

the big thing is I was single and had no children ,  there's a lot of freedom in that ! :o)(

toni packer had an adopted son, but I think the lack of a biological child was a strong driver for her, life doesn't have the same meaning if you are biologically childless

the whole  “ no descendants ”  thing in zen

: o ) (

I have been teetotaller all my life, but now in my late fifties I am starting drinking !

the reason is that with the new research around I can do it in a way that is medicinal, that is all health benefit because amounts of less than a  standard glass a day give these benefits, but more goes into the opposite territory !

so I stick to cheaper red wines and add it to a meal so that the wine is pasturized by the heat and it helps with my digestion as well as possible cardiovascular and brain growth factor benefits !

I have learnt that you have to be very careful to know the amount like 75ml . .

that's the medicinal use of something that could be a problem and that's the way to tread. .

no beer btw as that is grain derived and red wine seems to suit best  (cabernet sauvignon !)  and just open a bottle and freeze the liquid, it turns into a mush that can be spooned out, you need to take evenly from the ice and liquid that you get in the frozen mixture tho !

all this takes attention and an ability and inclination to grind through . .

you don't want to do the work basically !

zenthrowaway17   replies

honestly, I'm very much inclined to put myself into an entirely different, highly structured, environment where I'm not going to indulge in all these absurd things.

as much as I might criticize any specific institutions, I get a feeling I'd do much better under someone else's roof than I would independently, at least for some time

my

big mistake, you are trying to proxy in what will be unsympathetic environments

poor health is another reason that zen centers are dying .  .

just start to write things down, that will give the structure, in fact that is what my    compendium   is ,  structure for me . .

keep a text file/diary, what time of day and how much you drink of alcohol and coffee, bedtime, circadian rhythm issues . .

it's all there for you, you just don't want to accept responsibility for yourself to do it !

the golden rule is do it yourself, to rely on others or  “ structured enviroments ”  is to just to fall under the control of sadists  (the mental health system)  and incompetent crazies  (zen centers)

I don't live a normal life, last night I went out and shot 2 wallabies, today I am eating the brains, breast, a thyroid and a kidney, I can tell the difference that makes !

zenthrowaway17  replies

would you say you were undisciplined, apathetic, or lazy beforehand?

my

yeah, all three !

I think my work, which was in part experimental taught me how to eventually get results with persistence !

a couple of months ago I built a cathodic protection system for my rusting galvanized steel water tank  (stainless sheet anode with a very negative potential)  and it works beyond well, even clarifies the water as well as keeping any lead out and stopping any rusting

took a while, but I got there and it's all benefit now for about $10 a year in electricity !

zenthrowaway17 ,  you can work at surviving or you can descend into  dereliction  via a slow process of self destruction, you have already chosen !

you can work at surviving or you can descend into dereliction via a slow process of self destruction, you have already chosen !

lisa cairns has retreats in new forest England and pelion greece  (spring and summer 2015)

this is why zen has gone to the dogs financially and numerically

pelion   sounds nice !

“ join lisa for a 7 day residential of non duality, community living and a beach holiday. there will be three vegetarian meals a day, accommodation, sun, sea, sand and three hours of talk a day ”

the core of retreats is always the distance between the  “ teacher ”  and you, it's the closing of the gap in understanding that is the driving factor and I am sure Greece is an interesting cultural experience !

anyway the import is to keep zen broke as the people that can do these are better off if you look at the prices and why would they look at zen with its bad food, extreme discomfort and general poverty . .

“ teachers ”  no longer need organizations for publicity, the net does that for them . .

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imo it's not a fad but a sea change !

social and technological changes favour independent teachers and not groups/centers/religions like zen any more !

why would you stuff around with all the zen meditation etc ,  be dependent on a teacher who may not give you approval at the end of the day when you can set up for yourself and begin to establish an income ?

personally I think she has quite a way to go, but there's a quality to her that is missing in the current crop of useless zen teachers, this is really what is killing zen, the teachers coming through zen are m o r o n s because the quality has migrated to friendlier shores !

male and female, each is only half of a reproductive equation !

male and female, each is only half of a reproductive equation ! : o )(

male and female, each is only half of a reproductive equation !

male and female, each is only half of a reproductive equation

“ signals  delivered  by  irs‑1  or  irs‑2  regulate the hepatic gene expression that coordinates glucose homeostasis and systemic growth ”

both   chromium  and small amounts of  alcohol  increase irs‑1  !

that would help stave off   d e m e n t i a   which from that study is basically a blood sugar regulation problem at the genetic expression level  !

good   quote ,  I  know   toni packer  was strongly influenced by bankei  !

“ so what do i have to show that is perfect ?

the bigger picture ?

fuck that, i have my scars and patterns and the pain i create to prove that everything is broken, and that is what i accept !

and i have it good, better than a god damn dead ass rhino with her horn cut out

i accept this challenge to be here in the face of my suffering and to embrace it without dignity, without justification and without a bigger picture to fit nicely into ”

that's really great bit of   writing ,  I wonder if herb deer would do an AMA , lol that would be a real ama, not the wanking selfie amas that seem to be pushed on reddit zen ! ?

“ that said, I'm pretty sure that the poor sleep makes me feel a little worse somehow ”

one of the secrets of taking supplements or whatever is to cut down the tablet or whatever, the out of the bottle doses are often way too high !

one of the secrets of taking supplements or whatever is to cut down the tablet or whatever, the out of the bottle doses are often way too high !

:o)(

one of the secrets of taking supplements or whatever is to cut down the tablet or whatever, the out of the bottle doses are often way too high !

one of the secrets of taking supplements is to cut down the tablet or whatever, the out of the bottle doses are often way too high !

my advice to lorianne disabato who is   labouring    under the delusion of the necessity of marking classwork ! :o)(

you could open up a sub reddit or similar  (employer permitting !)  and the class could post their assignments to it and comment on the work of others, heaps more engaging and quite time saving for you I think

after a set period you could go through the posts and mark them  !

and get feedback on the marks  !

basically the education system is getting quite a bit more from you than they are paying for  .  .  you need to get better value for yourself  !

/r/meditation is actually very censorious and ban happy !

i am now putting say half a mil of   iodine   tincture  (total)  every three or four days on the tips of my toes and also on the toe nails, this seems to give the best effect, perhaps because this is the greatest distance the body has from the thyroid so the thyroid gets the last call on the iodine . .

also iodine on the toe nails helps with preventing or curing toe nail fungus !

supercompetence attracts superincompetence ,   possibly even mutually  !

supercompetence attracts superincompetence, possibly even mutually !

supercompetence attracts superincompetence, possibly even mutually

supercompetence attracts superincompetence ,   possibly even mutual  !

supercompetence attracts superincompetence, possibly even mutual  !

supercompetence attracts superincompetence, possibly even mutual !

christmind   writes

my job is 100% zen

I'm a dishwasher

my

nigella lawson, you can see her  addictive  personality tendencies for sure !

her feeling for colour is quite autistic !

john loori's zen monastery at mt. tremper is as slick an operation of brainwashing as you will ever get, it has taken me twenty years to recover ! :o)

john loori's zen monastery at mt. tremper is as slick an operation of brainwashing as you will ever get, it has taken me twenty years to recover ! :o)

john was a superb showman, wasted talent really ! :o)

john loori's zen monastery at mt. tremper is as slick an operation of brainwashing as you will ever get, it has taken me twenty years to recover ! :o)

he was a superb showman, wasted talent really ! :o)

john loori's zen monastery at mt. tremper is as slick an operation of brainwashing as you will ever get, it has taken me twenty years to recover ! :o)

Korean seon is more  “ off the wall autistic ”  and quite a bit less  “ anal retentive ”  than japanese zen and more fun all round !

I think that's because seon is basically celibate whereas japanese zen parted company with real zen when priests were pretty much forced to marry in the 1872 meiji edict !

if you want to see how much of a farce japanese zen has degenerated to look at   this  !

there's only a few teachers in any generation who ever are  “ enlightened ”  the rest are like reddit zen, chasing some rainbow or tilting at the windmills of their own stupidity ! :o)

nigella lawson's faux upper class, food for the proles world ! :o(

can't stop a   hubric idiot   being a  hubric idiot  can i ?

can't stop a  hubric idiot  being a  hubric idiot  can i ?

can't stop a hubric idiot being a hubric idiot can i ?

w h a t  c a n  i  s a y ?

pickledpie  replies

while celibacy has it's virtues, it isn't necessary.  not at all

my

i'd say you have crashed on the misfit between the celibate approach and  “suburban zen”  or sikhism which looks pretty much like  “suburban zen”

they are quite different vehicles and require quite different approaches . .

married with kids needs to focus much more on the  ‘ wisdom ’  aspect of life so they are in an increasing gain situation and not conflicted with providing for their families !

celibates of course can leave everything, including themselves and their lives and this is where the greatest insight is, but of course this is suicidal for  “married with kids ! ”

s e e

the time i put into doing well thought out replies to your half witted prattle is s u i c i d a l , being c e l i b a t e  i  c a n  d o  t h i s, but you c a n ' t

pickledpie  replies

no

what you think you get out of being celibate, I get without that need

the point isn't to run away from the world

the everyday man can be enlightened and society can function fine

that works if we are actually having sex though

nothing missed out on not being celibate

my

w h a t  c a n  i  s a y ?

pickledpie  replies

while celibacy has it's virtues, it isn't necessary.  not at all

my

i'd say you have crashed on the misfit between the celibate approach and  “suburban zen”  or sikhism which looks pretty much like  “suburban zen”

they are quite different vehicles and require quite different approaches . .

married with kids needs to focus much more on the  ‘ wisdom ’  aspect of life so they are in an increasing gain situation and not conflicted with providing for their families !

celibates of course can leave everything, including themselves and their lives and this is where the greatest insight is, but of course this is suicidal for  “married with kids ! ”

s e e

the time i put into doing well thought out replies to your half witted prattle is s u i c i d a l , being c e l i b a t e  i  c a n  d o  t h i s, but you c a n ' t

w h a t  c a n  i  s a y ?

what sucks about the whole reproductive business is you get your   partner's    genes right throughout your supposed offspring ! :o()

what sucks about the whole reproductive business is you get your partner's genes right through your supposed offspring ! :o()

what sucks about the whole reproductive business is you get your husband's genes right throughout your supposed offspring ! :o()

what sucks about the whole reproductive business is you get your husband's genes right through your supposed offspring ! :o()

what sucks about the whole reproductive business is you get your wife's genes right throughout your supposed offspring ! :o()

what sucks about the whole reproductive business is you get your wife's genes right through your supposed offspring ! :o()

the search for meaning in   nonmeaning

that's the lead you can see, there will be heaps of microscopic lead particles throughout the sausage !

this problem is quite a recent discovery from using x-rays to see whether rare raptors were under threat from the use of lead bullets on animals they eat !

it's just amazing, these very fine particles of lead from the bullet go right through the carcass !

the best   explanation   of how the solid bullet made it through the grinding process

they should use solid copper bullets because with lead you get microscopic particles right through all the meat !

chloe  m.

her   voice  not female, not male !

my  comment

chloe  i think that woman did you a favour, she was impressed by you, you have a charisma and she was reacting and saying in effect, i am a real female you are a fake !

she felt she had to say that because your charisma is overpowering . .

in fact you are neither male nor female and both male and female. .  a very special person ! :o)

you find people like you being written about in the gospel of thomas and in zen !

an earlier   video  of her !

dr. gabor maté on stress as a   cause  of illness  !

dr. gabor maté on stress as a   cause  of illness !

if you have a drinking problem, have a little rule like no more than a standard drink a day  !

that's 10 grams of alcohol  !

this same country that takes so much care with   tea  built a nuclear power station on an earthquake fault on a tsunami prone shoreline and stored the spent fuel rods on the   tops  of the nuclear reactor buildings  !

s o m e t h i n g   r e a l l y   c r a z y   i s   g o i n g   o n   i n   t h a t   c u l t u r e  !

wine, women and lsd was his song !

a  p r e t e n d er, but then zen is not short of those ! :o()

alan watts is a drunken lsd freaked out idiot !

a  p r e t e n d er, but then zen is not short of those ! :o()

“ i'm a sagitarrius ”

“ i'm a sagitarrius ”

“ i'm a sagitarrius ”

my  remake  of a   story  in the zu-tang ji   (anthology of the patriarch’s hall)  and zongjing lu   (records of the source-mirror)

the national master laoan succeeded the fifth patriarch hongren

he was a resident of mount song

the monk continued, asking  :   “ what is the meaning of myself ? ”

the master said  :   “ withdraw oneself ! ”

tanran asked further  :   “ what does it mean to withdraw oneself ? ”

the master shut his eyes and opened them again, and the monk was still clueless

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my reply   to

some viruses can make for quite severe depression for a day or two !

copper sebacate, vit k2, iodine, sun on the skull and the dual seleniums really help with depression, tho the seleniums may not be so important in the usa with your high soil selenium in some areas !

the homeless are tougher than you and I, neither of us would last long going that way ! :o()

supplementation  takes several years to fine tune to get right, that's where your attention should be !

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have a good look at   this  and have a think ! :o)(

blood levels of   selenium  follow a U shaped  curve  in reducing depression  !

folate is different from folic acid

folic acid is not found in leafy vegetables at all, it is folate that is !

there are issues with folic acid blocking the folate receptors in the cells, it's not the universal panacea as usually promoted, there are more natural forms of folate now available !

gesshin, your stupidity overwhelms, pushing your head through sand day after day

can't you see your   incompetence ,   making real the fake ?

you're intelligent, but don't penetrate, just use it to go around objects and so define them !

gesshin, your stupidity overwhelms, pushing your head through sand day after day

can't you see your   incompetence ,   making real the fake ?

you're intelligent, but don't penetrate, just use it to go around objects !

gesshin, your stupidity overwhelms, pushing your head through sand day after day

can't you see your   incompetence ,   making real the fake ?

gesshin, your stupidity overwhelms, pushing your head through sand day after day

can't you see your incompetence, making real the fake ?

the only alcohol i have is red wine added to cooking, not much, several dessert spoons or so of frozen, the beauty of red wine is the beneficial polyphenols and the fact it's not grain derived and in addition freezes really well to an alcohol water slush you can spoon out quite easily !

just because they have breasts and a nice looking face doesn't mean they have anything between the ears ! :o)

the thing about porn is the extremely dissociated men and women in it, it's really really toxic !

the medium itself is intrinsically dissociated !

quotes by anthony storr   [  I , II  ]

the sane are madder than we think, the mad saner !

since I was not able wholly to subscribe to any one set of beliefs advanced by any  ‘ guru ’  I had to fall back on my own, however derivative

message boards represent a considerable investment in emotional and intellectual energy !

do you get a return on them ?

how do you get a return on them ?

do they make you a little madder or a little saner ?

does

it

life flashes by

marking papers

writing poems

reading

dogen

in sardina they live to  90 ,   in russia they live to   55  !

what am i saying?

the flaming orange of the sunset

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the flaming orange of a sunset

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from dogen's  ‘ recounting ’  of his conversations with rújìng of mount tiantong  (hokyo-ki)

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it's this active process of  ‘ discovery ’  that underlies/is what   ‘ openness ’  is

rubacavanights  asks

through the eyes of a child ?

my

I think a lot of what zen is about is the recovery of what was lost with childhood, unfortunately without the neurology so everything is more articulated, cranky and heath robinson !

rubacavanights  replies &  asks

hmm.  can you explain this any further ?  what aspect of childhood do you mean, the innocence of not knowing what innocence is ?

my

‘ the human condition ’  /ningen no jōken   trilogy  film   series  from the book by junpei gomikawa and directed by masaki kobayashi

heidegger's main concern with the ending of the war is his Nazi party card membership would no longer give him discounted rail travel !

in his soul of soul's hajime  tanabe  remained committed to ultranationalism ! :o)

his objection , like most japanese was simply that the war was   wrong   because they lost, not that their manic nationalism was flawed, a fault Japanese society with its insanely stupid hierarchies has to this day !

donna williams is accusing barry humphries of sexually  assaulting  her as child, posted on the 11th of october and still up . . .

that's a very autistic trait to put things together after such a long length of time, i notice myself constantly doing that ! :o)(

lol, 150 views,   slow but steady  ! : 0 )

“ when you encounter a real zen master with bodhicitta  (bodaishin jp.)

“ when you encounter a real zen master with bodhicitta  (bodaishin jp.)

“ when you encounter a real zen master with bodhicitta  (bodaishin jp.)

lol

the earlist reference to  ‘ buddhists ’     tentatively    dates to 600 - 200 ?  BC

foyan, yunmen, joshu, tung shan and the sixth and seventh patriarchs combined can't defeat reddit zen  !

it's basically the property of suburban hubric alan watts and lsd influenced drop ins and certain retired/semi-retired gentlemen who use it as a sort of war game  !

read some poetry, you would find it helpful !

emily dickinson is more zen than most of what   passes   for z e n  !  :  o)

emily dickinson is more zen than most of what   passes   for z e n ! : o)

the vast irradiance that permeates the entire universe  !

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the vast irradiance that permeates the entire universe

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the mysterious irradiance permeating the whole universe  !

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the mysterious irradiance permeating the whole universe

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the mysterious irradiance permeating the entire universe  !

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the mysterious irradiance permeating the entire universe

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bit weird, awake at about 5:30am after not getting any sleep from staying out too long in the bright moonlight and getting my circadian rhythm de-synchronized . . . and just spun this sequence off, don't know wether it's any good or not, sometimes what one says in a distressed state can be  . . rather good   ! :o)(

sepehr g.   replies  and   asks

is that  ‘ the mysterious irradiance permeating the entire universe ’  one mind ?

my

the way zen uses  ‘ one mind ’  is  a bit garbled, what I wrote is  ‘ ungarbled ’  ! :o)(

the mysterious irradiance permeating the entire universe

v1.0

bit weird, awake at about 5:30am after not getting any sleep from staying out too long in the bright moonlight and getting my circadian rhythm de-synchronized . . . and just spun this sequence off, don't know wether it's any good or not, sometimes what one says in a distressed state can be  . . rather good   ! :o)(

leo looks a reasonably well  adjusted  family man, is that zen, mightn't be zen at all ! :o()

i   write

abruptly giving up smoking is dangerous ,   it's very important to taper off slowly  !

healthspin  replies

the tapering off method has a lower rate of success than cold-turkey

my

tapering off is more successful long term because the person has learnt to meter

the genetic expression changes are huge, to stop suddenly is to swing a sledgehammer

same for alcoholics !

ewk,  you obviously don't have any research background ,  as a consequence you don't go to the right/necessary level of detail . .

it's gruelling and cruel, but that /it is what is required to make the investigation of what zen is about work for you !

ewk you obviously don't have any research background, as a consequence you don't go to the right/necessary level of detail . .

it's gruelling and cruel, but that /it is what is required to make the investigation of what zen is about work for you !

ewk you obviously don't have any research background, as a consequence you don't go to the right/necessary level of detail . .

it's gruelling and cruel, but it/that is what is required to make the investigation of what zen is about work for you !