this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don’t warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here

pending poems  index

chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page

audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed  !

what zen master couldnʼt defend himself verbally and had to rely on censorship ?

what zen master couldnʼt defend himself verbally and had to rely on censorship ?

what zen master couldnʼt defend himself verbally and had to rely on censorship

the post below got   “ hidden ”  by a mod on reddit zen, sure surprised me !

ed.  turned out to be automoderation of the word  “ autistic ”

dogen was autistic so thereʼs a lot of  “ scripting ”  and  “ plagiarizing ”  in effect

stylistically a lot of dogen is a straight steal from nagarjuna

every writer does this, its a developmental process

however my reading of dogen is his trip to china really occurred and in fact he was authentic and a lot of his writing on zen is authentic

i think ewk is right in where dogen goes off the rails is trying to create a template or religious system that would persist after his death and of course he was successful in this !

to really understand the kyoto mindset that he was so much part of, its well worth while to read donald keeneʼs translation  “ essays in idleness ”  which is the   ‘ tsurezuregusa  of yoshida kenkō ’  which is actually way more famous than anything dogen ever wrote !

its about a 100 years after dogen !

one of the problems with r/zen is people posting completely lack any reading sophistication so off the r/zen board the illusion of their competence collapses and they just look complete bozos !

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so you have hidden my comment, whoever is fucking around like this at least donʼt be a mouse and say why you have hidden two posts and why !

whats the point of doing zen if you behave like some teenage girl ?

“ oh my hair is the wrong colour ”

s h e e s h

 d o g e n had bowel problems !

have i  zinged  ewk ! ?

yes i have ! : o)

why are we waiting !

“ you canʼt just go and end a question with an exclamation mark like that i was willing to look past the space before the end punctuation, but THIS is an outrage! ”

well its sort of james joycean density, the question itself implies a question mark, so whatʼs said sort of folds in on itself !

even through the dimness of transcription and translation you can see joshu has this sort of density !

well  “ language is use ”

“ language is use ”

like most here, you are not receptive to being told what your problem is !

“ what is my problem  ? ”

a lack of quality reading and contemplative time !

i think the lack of  quality reading fucks people up more than a lack of contemplative time

alan watts is a fake, emily dickinson and charles  bukowski  are real !

like most here, you are not receptive to being told what your problem is !

like most here, you are not receptive to being told what your problem is

being a single lone voice in the wilderness is not necessarily wrong, but in your case it is !

ed.  my comment on ewkʼs view that dogen made up his trip to china and the visiting of the monasteries there !

“ once you stop looking at the moon and start looking at the finger ”

the some-one looking is a finger !

spouting cliched rubbish is also a finger !

the wind drops, the clouds scatter, the mist shrouds and unshrouds and i write a poem ?

the wind drops, the clouds scatter, the mist shrouds and unshrouds and i write a poem

the wind drops, the clouds scatter the mist shrouds and unshrouds and i write a poem ?

the wind drops, the clouds scatter the mist shrouds and unshrouds and i write a poem

if only education were a bit more than child minding !

if only education were a bit more than child minding

my parents and sister have been on a catamaran cruise for a week around the tahitian leeward islands and my sister sent some photos and a small video of them swimming with reef sharks and stingrays etc, via facebook chat

“ we were on a cat cruise for a week -  only nine of us -  meant to be  24  -  so very comfy, it was really fantastic

now on bora bora and just saw dad swim by which shows how warm it is !

we were mega comfy ,  had own cabin each, a chef and were waited on and that big living space.  But all the same good bits, swimming off the boat etc.

more diesel fumes of course though  !  (ed.  compared to sailing !)

i just cannot believe modern communications and the ability to talk real time like this !

jason   w r i t e s

sanely insane

insanely sane

my  comment

pathetically inane

jason   w r i t e s

sanely insane

insanely sane

my  comment

 intensely unsane !

jason   w r i t e s

sanely insane

insanely sane

“ what to do if you apologize but canʼt be forgiven ?

iʼm trying to be a good person, but my temper gets the best of me

i recently sent someone some death/rape threats due to my temper

i realize how terrible it is

iʼm on the path to be a good person as iʼm trying to help everyone, etc. i tried apologizing but it wasnʼt accepted

what should i do so i can move on ? ”

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how would you react if sent death/rape threats ?

how can you move on from yourself ?

i can tell from the tone of your post that you are still a heap of hubric trouble !

its not the temper per se that is the issue, but the self centered blindness, the real cure for that is quality reading and some meditative/contemplative time neither of which you will ever do

a broader view of life and oneself is both gentler and more rugged

a broader view of life and oneself is both gentler and more rugged

a broader view of life is both gentler and more rugged

in the beginning was loss, in the end was loss and in the middle was loss and gain

in the beginning was loss, and in the end was loss and in the middle was loss and gain

dr. who gets  metaphysical   [47:10]

music

“ have you ever been in a situation where you thought you were going to  die ? ”

walking along a cliff top near bethells beach, the west coast, auckland, new zealand in sandals, slipped on some gravel and rocketed down a small slope to the cliff edge and a dunno, 60? meter drop onto a sand beach

i thought i was gone for sure, but time moves very slow like that and i saw a little dip just before the edge that i jammed my feet onto and obviously was able to stop !

complete and utter focus !

i had just been on a mediation retreat that day and i am sure it left me somewhat   “ out of it ”  and sandals of course are not suitable for walking where sure footing is required !

always had good reflexes and keeping a cool head in emergencies, but the dip before the edge was fortuitous !

soto zen is still today exactly what hakuin 400 hundred years ago was complaining about ,    “ silent illumination ”  morons who couldnʼt talk their way past a signpost !

women are like something out of dr.who ,  unstable machines bent on your destruction !

or at the least indifferent to causing your demise !

women are like something out of dr.who, unstable machines bent on your destruction !

or at the least indifferent to causing your demise !

women are like something out of dr.who, unstable machines bent on your destruction !

jesus you have been sucked into the zen  bullshit censored cliché  machine for sure !

the enshrinement of polygyny in islam is the  underlying  reason for its violent militancy ?

  study 

when you look at a koan, you are looking at something that is inaccurate and missing a lot of its depth

“ yeah, that kensho thing, it already happened ,  bring  on the koans ”

well i have had several dia kenshos and actually there are overt  (you remember)  and implicit  (you have no memory of)  dia kenshos

i honestly never touched any zen koans beyond dogen and the blue cliff record until decades later i came across reddit zen where occasionally some quality koans were being posted and could make sense of them !

its actually quite a bit of work to go through what are called koans to sort out the bullshit from the misrecording from the outright mischievously deviant to what is actually useful or real . .

i think you are kenshos away from that and need to look more broadly as i have suggested

this is a lifetimeʼs intense work and really suits celibacy, not really possible otherwise imo !

so basically zen is about how do you escape the circle !

this is what i am saying  99.99%  of so called zen never escapes the circle and how bad this problem is, is that a respected teacher like shunryu suzuki never escaped the circle, so bullshit is the norm for zen i am afraid !

hakuin was remarkable in that single handedly he tried to recover zen to some sort of mainstream activity, he was in part a showman and had a horrible time trying to drag people away from pure land buddhism

that was all they wanted to do, mindless chanting

so anything about the koan system is related to the need to occupy people usefully since they are not really interested in enlightenment at all

but in fact koans are so bald and often corrupted and nonsensical that you canʼt make sense of them prior to dia kensho, or in fact many years post that

you are pursuing an illusion of what zen is about having semantic integrity !

this is the primary mistake the unenlightened make !

kikan is supposedly post dia kensho differentiation or what in the western world would be known as wisdom koans

but as no-one ever gets dai kensho, its wasted or rather fetid breath !

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i think what makes a kikan koan kikan is being post dai kensho or not, so its not something that inheres in the koan, but rather in the perspective that comes from dia kensho !

ie.  our approach to it !

so thereʼs really no separate collection of kikan koans per se !

neitzsche, goethe, derrida, the wisdom of jesus son of sirach, joshu, foyan are all kikan and actually our own day to day lives !

 disaster  !

I   II

he  lived  and served a 10 month prison  sentence  !

cocaine btw iʼd say

i donʼt like the word practice, but thereʼs definitely a  “ work ”  so i do the  work

the meditation and people dealing of zen is useful, but my god thereʼs a lot of idiots and bullshit in it !

its a question of objective fact, what good is zazen if you are going to just ingrain nonsense ?

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zazen is really a process of observation of thoughts and the processes which cause them to arise, not good or bad per se, just the observation !

its a lifetime process and not for everyone !

i canʼt think in one language ,  how can i do it in two ?

i canʼt think in one language, how can i do it in two ?

“ perception is reality ”

crap, memory is reality

memory is reality

the final stage of addiction/ recovery is to recognise you canʼt cope with the presence of the addictive substance  (dr. who series nine in my case and also previously verjuice)  and this requires the complete removal of it from oneʼs life and time !

i donʼt think the brain is the same in the addiction as before the addiction, it has been trained to take benefit from the substance or problem behavior !

basically that ʻlearningʼ or ʻtrainingʼ cannot be unwound !

peripheral approaching is permitted but direct imbibition is not !

the final stage of addiction/ recovery is to recognise you canʼt cope with the presence of the addictive substance  (dr. who series nine in my case and also previously verjuice)  and this requires the complete removal of it from oneʼs life and time !

the final stage of addiction/ recovery is to recognise you canʼt cope with the presence of the addictive substance  (dr. who series nine in my case and also previously verjuice)  and require the complete removal of it from oneʼs life and time !

in the end i think qubits and quantum computing are just physical implementations of algorthims in hilbert space !

in the end i think qubits are just a physical implementation of an algorthim in hilbert space !

dr. who  series 9  is the one with the energy !

i have got to hand it to the scriptwriters for plagiarism though, a veritable catalogue of pinched stories and memes from science fiction across the decades !

dr. who is really a sort of  ‘ emmerdale farm ’  in a faux scientific context, all about women really and the men supporting them !

both the lead characters peter capaldi and jenna coleman are interesting, jenna has that quintessential female narcissism in spades and peter capaldi has a dumb damaged edge to him !

the series nine has a personal sophistication well or infinitely ahead of the plot/s !

thereʼs a strong element of sherlock homes in the program which means that dr. who traces its antecedents back to edgar allan poeʼs  “ the murders in the rue morgue ”  and his what might be called  “ science fiction stories ”

edgar allan poe, vincent van gogh, sucky lives that everybody later made very good money out of !

i find that really depressing !

what is science fiction, its a mutation of reality in a particularly abnormal way

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entertainment interferes with the reflective and contemplative process

reflection ingrains the entertainment content into the brain ,  the last thing that is wanted

all these meditators with their music ,  methods ,  audio guidance are just connecting neurons in patterns of contrary utility !

entertainment interferes with the reflective and contemplative process

reflection ingrains the entertainment content into the brain ,  the last thing that is wanted

entertainment interferes with the reflective and contemplative process !

you can weep for a lost life, it doesnʼt come back

what if it wasnʼt there in the first place ?

you can weep for a lost life, it doesnʼt come back

you can weep for a lost life, it donʼt come back

what zen is about frightens people, its really something on nothing, but nothing is what it is really about !

so people spend their time weaving something to cover the imagined emptiness of nothing !

entertainment is a drug, you go into it and never come out again

entertainment is a drug, you go into it and never want to come out again

entertainment is like a drug, you go into it and never want to come out again

entertainment should be like a drug, you go into it and never want to come out again

you think you are somewhere

but

you

are

nowhere

is

this

too insane for

 you ?

you think you are somewhere

but

you

are

nowhere

too insane for

 you ?

you think you are somewhere

but

you

are

nowhere

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life is insufficient ,  life is an image ,  its always in shortfall !

life is insufficient, life is an image, its always in shortfall !

life is insufficient, life is an image, its always in shortfall

ewk  writes

i am sincerely concerned for your mental health, as i would be concerned for anyone claiming to have visions which they believe instill them with religious authority

you really should get some counselling man

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that is of course why you donʼt like hakuin or dogen, but visions are the core of authentic zen or any quality mystical tradition

ewk  tells  me

this  is nothing to do with zen

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lighten up man !

its everything to do with zen since his  life  was a disaster and that really is what zen is about !

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life is insufficient, life is an image, its always in shortfall !

jason  w r i t e s

sorry iʼve noticed i donʼt try to make my writing clear to you and just expect you to get it

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it got fucked by the transmission system, only blind idiots would go through all that nonsense for ten or fifteen years to be certified by clueless teachers

so the problem with zen today is very poor quality teachers and people with some talent got on the advaita/non dual/independent bandwagon which is basically self appointed !

i really only stick with zen because it was helpful to me and the vision with the sixth patriarch, but otherwise i wouldnʼt bother !

plus i think being celibate and the old time zen being celibate is a really good fit !

carcinogens in tattoo inks can take twenty or thirty years to have an effect and colours are very dependent on whatʼs in them, red can have mercury and black is surprisingly amongst the worse being full of polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbon nanoparticles !

you need to get on with the management when staying at centers, i moved out of the most beautiful tibetan center when the  “ owner ”  ie the head honcho came back

wonderful without him, a great pity, got along with everyone, might still be there today if not for him, but thatʼs the way things go, nice places attract stupid arseholes !

it was just amazing, set on a hill in a beautiful valley

he was in a permanent relationship, couples always give everyone else short shrift

the political reality of centers is small minds squabbling over chicken feed !

he was too intrusive ,  my way or the highway sort of guy

  very concious of keeping himself as the top dog too . .

social control is what these people thrive on !

same issue with john loori actually when i went to mt. tremper !

when i was at the cambridge zen center, the kwan um zen school was in the process of removing george bowman from its ranks, bit traumatic for him i think !

centers need censorship to keep going, if you disrupt the ideology you are in big trouble !

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when i was staying at the providence zen center i got along well with the then abbot  (dae kwang)  who was a pretty good sort

its just like day and night, centers are not just places, but places and people and you need to consider how you fit !

who needs extra stress and being treated badly !

30,000iu daily seems to be a  toxically high  dose of vitamin D for children !

“ how often do you meditate ?

just curious to see how many people here on reddit zen meditate ”

“ contemplative silence ”  is how i would put it and at least two hours a day, i suppose iʼm the pro around here ! : o )

what i have noticed over the years is that half an hour doesnʼt work for people, its not enough, they just become inane fools  (well they were probably that anyway but it gets worse !)

zen is celibate, you need that time and intensity otherwise you are better not to  “ drink the pierian spring ”

i was thinking reddit zen is like the  netherworld  ,

images of the dead  ̲    ̲    —

caught in some fragmented kaleidoscopic constructs   –   –   –

r e a l l y  d e a d

i was thinking reddit zen is like the netherworld  ,

images of the dead  ̲    ̲    —

caught in some fragmented kaleidoscopic constructs   –   –   –

i was thinking zen is like the netherworld  ,

images of the dead  ̲    ̲    —

caught in some fragmented kaleidoscopic constructs   –   –   –

i was thinking zen is like the netherworld  ,

images of the dead

caught in some fragmented kaleidoscopic constructs

flatline

a  :  to register on an electronic monitor as having no brain waves or heartbeat

b  :  die

dr who /  in the forest of the night

or heironymous bosch

walk away from dr.  who

the peddler is  you 

why is dogen upsetting ?

heʼs a chimera, had a genuine dia kensho and says its fundamental , but also constructed a religion

he was a son of kyoto which has religion in its very fabric . .

ewk knows heʼs never had it so this is why he dislikes dogen and hakuin, to validate these men leaves him and the rest of buji out on a limb . .

of course the religious people are just as much out on a limb as they argue belief, a sort of  ‘ social normity ’ ,  rituals, statues any sort of proxy . .

proxying takes you in circles . . .

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you  (ed.  ewk)  havenʼt researched either dogen or the historical context yourself, what can i say ?

you donʼt like the idea dogen went to china because of the visions he recounts having while there !

that thereʼs more to what we think goes on than some normative pseudoscientific atheist view of life !

“ also bielefeldt is a pioneer in the study of zen, and has dedicated his entire life to the study.  if bielefeldt doesn't agree, then he's right.  he knows more about the history of zen than 99.99% of living human beings ”

you are obviously an undergraduate !

real scholars argue on the evidence and not the person !

jason  w r i t e s

iʼd be okay being in lisa cairns shoes, traveling, enough money to feel somewhat comfortable, better than where iʼm at !

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your preference for toxic, highly autistic females is the/ one of the most disturbing things about you !

its like a dismasted ship in a storm, you have to cut the rigging  !

its like a dismasted ship in a storm, you have to cut the rigging

its like a dismasted ship, sometimes you just have to cut the rigging away !

its like a dismasted ship, sometimes you just have to cut the rigging away

the press has got really bad, braying fools tasked with producing a lot of material without much thought  !

the press has got really bad, braying fools and idiots tasked with producing a lot of material without much thought  !

the press has got really bad, braying fools, a lot of idiots tasked with producing a lot of material without much thought  !

the press has got really bad, braying fools tasked with producing a lot of material without much thought

the press has got really bad, braying fools and idiots tasked with producing a lot of material without much thought

the press has got really bad, braying fools, a lot of idiots tasked with producing a lot of material without much thought

you must be like me, gullible !

you must be like me, gullible !

: o )

you must be like me, gullible ! :o)

you must be like me, gullible !

you must be like me, gullible

well, iʼm a pessimist, i donʼt think the world is necessarily improved by getting things right !

well, iʼm a pessimist, i donʼt think the world is necessarily improved by getting things right

well, iʼm a pessimist, i donʼt think the world is improved by getting things right !

well, iʼm a pessimist, i donʼt think the world is improved by getting things right

endless the idiots that rise from the deep ,  how can there be so many ?

endless the idiots that rise from the deep ,  how can there be so many

endless the idiots that rise from the deep, how can there be so many ?

endless the idiots that rise from the deep, how can there be so many

lol, between h. and zen you seem to have some sort of kamakaze instinct !

jason   w r i t e s

. . tassajara rakes in money  !

some teachers, like lisa cairns, do as well

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i read one of the teachers at tassajara made a substantial donation to keep the place going, it actually ran out food because it had no money to pay for groceries

lisa cairns’s payoff will come when she marries some idiot wealthy devotee, otherwise she just scrapes by i think !

its not like the old days, i really donʼt see any of them making much, jeff foster might be doing the best, but jesus he looks fatigued !

thereʼs a million housewives setting up  “ non duality ”  shops ,  the markets flooded and with all those husbands supporting their nonsense its too competitive !

you canʼt tell a person to get a brain unfortunately !

you canʼt tell a person to get a brain unfortunately

i know maggots by their wriggly style  !

i know maggots by their wriggly style !

i know maggots by their wriggly style

yeah well stupid schizophrenics are a dime a dozen !

yeah well stupid schizophrenics are a dime a dozen

stupid schizophrenics are a dime a dozen !

stupid schizophrenics are a dime a dozen

thereʼs the intelligent insane and thereʼs the plain dumb !

thereʼs the intelligent insane and thereʼs the plain dumb

phd  =  “ fucked in the head ”

they only learn to validate bullshit

in the arts, literature and philosophy anyway !

head injuries suck !

“ Someone punched me in the head 3+ months ago and a week later I was diagnosed with mTBI

I still experience short term memory loss, I have to search longer for common words I know, and I get confused and overwhelmed at some point almost every day, sometimes I feel sensitive to light and sound and get a headache

I am starting to feel hopeless

 Is there anything I can do to heal or feel better ? ”

he got a reply

“ Hey there, Iʼm not a doctor but I had some pretty severe brain contusions about four years ago so I can sort of relate

However yourʼs seems a little different than what I went through

But I still have memory problems, problems with remembering what iʼm talking about in a conversation  (embarassing!) ,  and I get occasional migraines still

So while your symptoms may stick around, itʼs only been around three months for you.  Your brain was injured, which is a big deal, but it will heal up as much as possible

I would just advise you to write things down, set reminders, and just generally do things to help you remember something if it's important

And make sure you let family and close friends know that youʼre having memory problems right now ”

the science involved isnʼt pretty ,  the   neurons die  from the inside out !

i do think the cultural revolution damaged a lot of zen records and destroyed a continuity of interested people keeping information alive, and now property development in china is deleting a lot of that past as well, especially temples with history, lots has been irretrievably lost !

zen master g.b. ,  no money, poor health, guest at some-one elseʼs center

he got a very poor deal from zen

if thereʼs one thing i have learnt from staying in zen and other centers is that the labour you put in doesnʼt accrue, you move on and some-one else reaps the reward !

any change brings a lot of problems, the end result has to be worth it  !

any change brings a lot of problems, the end result has to be worth it

the internal politics of centers can be pretty murderous and being pushed out is a real possibility  !

the internal politics of centers can be pretty murderous and being pushed out is a real possibility !

the internal politics of centers can be pretty murderous and losing out is a real possibility !

just sitting down

and watching a stream come and go

and myself go

with

aging

thereʼs a lot of things that you intially think work against you, that actually work for you !

thereʼs a lot of things that you intially think work against you, that actually work for you

samuel coleridge was 11 when  this  happened, hence the imagery of the  rime  of the ancient mariner !

alzheimers is  NOT  a  prion  disease !

a quote of ibn ʻarabi i like is to the effect that if you have to go into a lot of detail to give an answer, you are wasting your time

a quote of ibn ʻarabi i like is to the effect that if you have to go into a lot of detail for an answer, you are wasting your time

this  is the poem of  ibn ʻarabi  i like best !

mentally heʼs just a second rate crazy  (ed.  of a reddit zen contact) ,  but these people often have very good life smarts !

mentally heʼs just a second rate crazy, but these people often have very good life smarts !

sepher  writes

i wish my childhood was like  this

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lol, your need for surrogate existances has you reaching for a childhood substitute !

acadamia  literary  cliques

selling themselves

to

themselves

acadamia literary cliques

selling themselves

to

themselves

the university

literary cliques

selling themselves

to

themselves

literary  cliques

selling themselves

to

themselves

literary cliques

selling themselves

to

themselves

one of the interesting things for me is the tendency of damaged people to create surrogate existances

it can be music, harry potter escapism, religion, endless proxy systems of  b e i n g

i think i have lived this way most of my life, you can sorta turn it slightly, i think if thereʼs quality it somehow recursively flips back into real life, edvard munch is a good example of this !

you are generally dealing with people who donʼt turn it and thereʼs a lot of problems

one of the interesting things for me is the way damaged people create surrogate existance/s

it can be music, harry potter escapism, religion, endless proxy systems of  b e i n g

i think i have lived this way most of my life, you can sorta turn it slightly, i think if thereʼs quality it somehow recursively flips back into real life, edvard munch is a good example of this !

one of the interesting things for me is the tendency/way damaged people create surrogate existance/s

it can be music, harry potter escapism, religion, endless proxy systems of  b e i n g

i think i have lived this way most of my life, you can sorta turn it slightly, i think if thereʼs quality it somehow recursively flips back into real life, edvard munch is a good example of this !

you are generally dealing with people who donʼt turn it and thereʼs a lot of problems

zya   w r i t e s

like Bukowski was saying, i donʼt feel bad for a girl who's dumb enough to leave me !

my

r e p l y

basically she needs to do the compendium and bcd and forget the music, she didnʼt like that message cause she knows its true !

fortunately for you she played her hand wrong and showed herself to be a heap of trouble !

she could have fucked you up for five years and given you an std to boot !

sorta like missing a car accident by seconds imo !

its odd to realise that if hitler had followed his generals advice to go directly for moscow while the summer lasted and not deviate into the ukraine and leningrad campaigns he/germany would have defeated russia quickly and all history and human genetics would be quite different !

no wonder winston churchill said hitler was the allies best friend and was elated at the failure of the plot against hitler to kill him !

sepehr  a sk s

what about saadi and ibn arabi then ?

they were muslims, but you considered them enlightened and progressive ?

my

r e p l y

you want to research the lives of saadi and ibn arabi, they are deeply embedded in the culture and historical reality which in saadiʼs case consisted at one time of being a slave building castle walls for the crusaders, then being ransomed by a wealthy man to marry his ugly daughter in what was an unsuccessful marriage !

you are using the notion of  “ enlightened and progressive ”  in a communal historical context and there is no such thing !

i have continually noticed your lack of getting in depth into the necessary historical research on some of your subjects that you find interesting leaves you hamstrung with inappropriate contemporary attitudes

when you do historical research and have seen all the craziness, ups and downs and curious blend of pragmatism coupled with whatever the contemporary beliefs were, you get very sceptical !

i always research the lives in depth and the historical context of people i am interested in

religion is basically a social control structure, it could be christianity, it could be islam, its only in comparatively modern times that one has been able to live without conforming to it, so john of the cross, teresa of avila, saadi and ibn arabi all had this problem of appearing to conform to the semantics, while inwardly being quite different

how al-maʿarri survived i donʼt know, but actually he was aware of a line and didnʼt really step over it and perhaps being blind gave him more leeway  !

my  lithium  advice is at dose levels that correspond to what is naturally in some water supplies, like 1/3000th of what is used medically !

Its the crazily high medical doses that cause thyroid and other damage , not these  “ microdoses ”  !

just be open to any opportunity !

just be open to any opportunity

yeah  xyz  didnʼt like what i had to say in the end and broke off contact

but  99.99%  of people canʼt handle it so it just pays to get along with them !

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basically i am saying zen will never make sense without the genuine dia kensho experience and in fact you donʼt want it since it takes a screwed up and continually screwed up life !

i think he saw the light and decided to move on ,  basically a sensible decision !

well of one hundred ideas only one may work  !

well of one hundred ideas only one may work

of one hundred ideas only one may work  !

of one hundred ideas only one may work

“ how do i become a morning person ?

i am a zombie before my first cup of coffee and usually start functioning properly around 10am ,  i stay in bed until the last possible moment i can in the morning daily, how can i become a morning person ,  so i can be up early, get prepared for the day and be ready to go ”

get blue/white light early in the morning and go onto red light an hour before bed !

islam is like christianity and buddhism, their achilles heel is their founders are mythological or fictional constructs  !

its trying to make sense of something from too conventional a perspective, though obviously  youʼre  not a conventional person !

as joshu says thereʼs no basis, well one can argue that fugue states from infinity are basis, but in terms of the conventional perspective, there is no basis !

see infinity is both sense and nonsense, obviously it must include what its not or it wouldnʼt be infinity . .   .

so truth schemas like non-duality just donʼt cut the ice which is why joshu says  “ no basis ”

if we donʼt proxy and live our lives as ourselves without imposing schemas, thatʻs much more  “ truth ”  and i n f i n i t y !

ewk, the door would be open if you werenʼt so busy slamming it shut !

ewk, the door would be open if you werenʼt so busy slamming it shut

the door would be open if you werenʼt so busy slamming it shut !

the door would be open if you werenʼt so busy slamming it shut

“ Unfortunately thatʼs a misconception that continues to be perpetuated

Like any country, there are the bad areas with higher rates of violence, but overall El Salvadorians are some of the nicest people Iʼve ever met

Walking around in the town or the countryside people are always smiling and saying hello, and willing to help with whatever

Plus itʼs such a beautiful country, especially here in the mountains, with the rain forest everywhere and waterfalls a short walk away

Edit :  I have no idea of your life situation, but if youʼre in a position to do some long term traveling, rent for a large house here is less than $300 a month, and most food is ridiculously inexpensive, especially fruits and vegetables

I can buy usually 25 mangoes for a buck, and same goes for tomatoes

Pineapples, papayas, coconuts, watermelons, are all a dollar each

Bananas, well I get them for free from a friends farm, same for avocados which grow in the tree in the backyard

It really is a paradise here ”

ed.  first of august 16,  reddit reply

sepehr asks

do you agree islam resists secularization ?

if so, then how does one reform societies steeped by the anti-progressiveness of islam ?

my   reply

islam is basically a doctrine of conquest and social control of the new territories

it does that very well, but air power screws it up, where an opposing power can reach deep into controlled territory, social control fails

so its doomed, we are seeing the dying flares though it mightnʼt seem like that !

if you argue that schizophrenia is an inaccurate picture of the world, there is that special case where it is also a more accurate picture than  “ normative reality ”

“ there is more in heaven and earth than is dreamed of ”

if you argue that schizophrenia is an inaccurate picture of the world, there is that special case where it is also a more accurate picture than  “ normative reality ”

a good  animation  of a laser assisted cataract operation !

better to be happy and blind than see things truely and be depressed

better to be happy and blind than see things truely and depressed  !

better to be happy and blind than see things truely and depressed  !

better to be happy and blind than see things truely and depressed

better to be happy and blind

well, not everybody gets given a brain at birth i guess   ! 

well, not everybody gets given a brain at birth i guess !

well, not everybody gets given a brain at birth i guess

well, not everybody gets given a brain at birth

zen has a whole bunch of   “ lamp records ”   and as for contemplation i think you can take retreats, hermitage, meditation and actually travelling those remote valleys and mountains as being that !

zen is interesting because it comes from, at least in its origins a highly illiterate culture, so you donʼt get masters writing their own stuff, it has to be recorded/transcribed which was often a process of centuries later

dogen and hakuin were both literate and writers and reading them they seem more real because you canʼt filter writing

the trouble is the real zen is celibate, like nietzsche for instance, basically the work needs that sort of intensity

and you need to live along time too, its very cumulative !

so if you are not celibate you need a different approach, basically that which makes sense of life productively !

non-celibates do NOT want to go into the area of making sense of life  “ nonproductively ”  which is what a complete understanding takes

so you know, poetry, quality mysticism and reading, some contemplative time . .

honestly you canʼt read or understand what was said to you !

you donʼt know what is true yourself so you always reference others for verity !

you donʼt know what is true yourself so you always reference others for verity !

honestly you canʼt read or understand what was said to you !

a supposed  koan

ed.  the gateless gate case 20

shōgen oshō asked  “ why is that a man of great strength does not lift his leg ? ”  and he also said ,  “ it is not with his tongue that he speaks with ”

my  comment

the problem is thatʼs a bit off target, you are looking at a translation of an oral transcription who knows how well remembered or maybe entirely made up and from a different culture etc !

it could be simply an equivalent of   “ he is voting with his feet ”

this is the almost fundamental mistake of what people perceive with zen, bad and obfuscated translations and recordings taken to actually mean something, but since they donʼt one can project endlessly, a nice way of passing the time perhaps ?

when the perspective is wrong, anything generated from that will be nonsense !

as to correcting the perspective, thatʼs the real mystical work and of course, this being reddit zen one is really in  “ zen for entertainment ”  which of course you do !

the problem is thereʼs many years of hard intense work between where you are now and any real understanding, i canʼt and donʼt want to do it for you !

solitary contemplation and quality reading, its a process unpaptable to the likes of you and you are asking me to bail you ?

the problem is drugs donʼt synthesize and re-sort memory and experience the right way, it simply cannot be done chemically, but takes a lifetimeʼs solitude and contemplation, this has always been the way of mystical authenticity !

what seems crazy to me is for the same effort to stay retarded one could be enlightened !

if you can do math, if you can read, you can do the zen problem solving, i honestly donʼt see where the difficulty is !

what seems crazy to me is for the same effort to stay retarded one could be enlightened !

the energy you are spending defending your position is enough to get you started !

what seems crazy to me is for the same effort to stay retarded one could be enlightened !

look buddha is a fairy tale

the tao is candy floss

 i alone am infinity !

 no drug will tell you that !

look buddha is a fairy tale

the tao is candy floss

 i alone am infinity !

the problem is drugs are the wrong road, donʼt give the right sort of insight

thatʼs even allowing no brain damage occurs which i think is not the case !

that  quote  of joshuʼs is right on the nail, but its beyond you and the real issue is you canʼt admit it !

progressing in zen and cognitive style problems

on the one hand you can go in circles reinforcing your existing views

on the other hand you can ,  investigate, research and contemplation so crafting new vistas

which are you doing ?

basically zen and taoism is poetry for dummies, not a difficult concept is that !

one of the finest zen poets, wang wei is both natively poetic and infused with a mystical understanding

whatʼs wrong with being a dummy, without zen i would never have made the grade !

a good  interview  of joni mitchell, you can see the difference between the bullshit of mediocrity and outstanding compositional and playing ability . .

just day and night, why the morons bother i donʼt know, but they outnumber joni a million to one with their dreary dead monotonies !

charles bukowski made the same complaint about writers !

you can see the  “ mood of infinity ”  in joniʼs paintings and actually she said she would have been painter if she could have afforded to !

she had a lovely rural childhood apart from the blight of polio as far as i can see, one never loses the sense of beauty that gives !

you might call krill oil a nootropic, but its effect is hugely broad so while one aspect might be a nootropic like effect to brain function and memory, in fact it is a  “ base level ”  supplement !

occasional seafood is necessary to provide essential elements and food factors !

reddit zen has changed, alot of the overt hostility has gone

to be replaced by a more sophisticated  “ passive aggression ”

the generational change of

a fatigued and pusillanimous upcoming generation

“ a single continuous road ”

the continuities are only apparent looking backwards !

“ A Single Continuous Road ”

the continuities are only apparent looking backwards !

when people are hubric idiots, mindlessly negative on you or otherwise a complete pissoff ,  thereʼs only one way you can punish them !

have nothing or as little as possible to do with them !

red flags in the evaluation of a relationship partner are

health problems

any addiction history, alcohol or pot or otherwise

addiction problems can be very disguised, similarly for health problems

promiscuity

deceit !!!!

i might add by the way, ancedotally and from reading r/askdocs is the level of concealment of stdʼs and plain dishonesty on the subject is beyond belief !

what sort of friends on facebook do they have, are they the usual copy and paste rah rah or sickly sentimental flakes ?

my god the mentality of these people makes one puke !

the web is so selective for total hubric arseholes, one needs to be s o o  careful !

anyway if the potential relationshipee has a web presence and facebook can be enough, you see quite a bit of their character and the failings will jump out at you, the only problem is you  “ need to believe ”  what you see, something the male mind is not very good at when it comes to women !

because modern social norms constantly place us in the company of people who we know nothing of their background, one has to move very slowly to build up this knowledge, everyone is a past master of concealing their flaws !

everything  interferes  with everything else, but thatʼs what gives rise to   “ the richness of life, the universe and everything ”

i say richness but it quickly gives rise to overburdening complexity and activity

way

too

  high !

the rural japanese are really into food  preparation  !

arthur streeton has that  ‘ lost world ’  feel with his paintings that you could stay lost in forever

caterpillars for brains

some women have !

caterpillars for brains

women !

caterpillars for brains

woman !

caterpillars for brains

the best  blog  on japan is connie naka, gives you a feel for living there that is otherwise hard to get !

if you want to see zen in japan try claire greenwood from the very beginning of her  blog

“ Are there any celibate Zen schools still in Japan or have they all taken on marriage ? ”

well iʼm celibate and i figure that i am about all that is left

zen in japan is basically a funeral parlour business handed on from father to son

there is a celibate convent called nisodo near nagoya

“ Thatʼs sad to hear.  What country would you say authentic Zen is still most alive in today ? ”

even in tang and song china there was very little authentic zen, just once in every couple of generations ,  some-one would understand and thatʼs about it !

others may be useful but basically its self taught and the biggest step in this is quality reading and getting solitary contemplative time !

not easy things if you have a partner !

“ Its all claptrap when you're talking about Zen ”

yeah you are a  “ buji ”  zennist

the problem with zen is its only the celibate tradition thatʼs authentic, people like shunryu suzuki are well intentioned frauds, theirʼs is a non celibate zen that was created by legislation in about 1872 in japan and is what i call  “ meiji zen ”  and actually became a propaganda arm for the japanese war machine !

the real zen is centered around the celibate patriarchs and masters, the records of johsu, foyan, the sixth patriarch, the blue cliff record . .

you are part of the new style of reddit zen posting, previously people just posted claptrap, but things improve and people like you just throw the odd meaningless hook like they understand something ! !

buddha is an  anime  character from the land of maudlin bullshit

jesus is from the land of depressive psychosis

muhammad is a manic rave

 you can tell the toxic con artists by what they push !

 wiping their arses in your face you disgusting creature !

“ lay off the LSD.  are you trying to sound profound, because you donʼt ”

first fish spewing its bullshit !

i donʼt even drink coffee i can see straight through your crap !

buddha and ananda are so busy with fellatio they can only spit what is in their mouths !

“ put your tinfoil hat back on before the aliens come to collect you again.  seriously, you are reminding me of those people with your incoherent rambling of buddha giving ananda a blowjob, lol ”

so buddha is fucking you in the arse and you donʼt want to be  interrupted  ?

“ doesnʼt zen teach that we ourselves are the buddha ?  how can i fuck myself in my own ass ?  lol ”

zen can be anything you want it to, if you speaking of the zen of joshu and the sixth and seventh patriarchs that is a different matter !

  “ you know what zen iʼm speaking of, so why waste time with the silly semantics ? ”

its hard to believe people like you, never read any real zen ,  no real life zen experience and come on here spouting away what they have got completely wrong, a spew of shit claiming to be the perfume of a magnolia !

buddha is an anime character from the land of maudlin bullshit

jesus is from the land of depressive psychosis

muhammad is a manic rave

you can tell the toxic con artists by what they push !

wiping their arses in your face you disgusting creature !

jon   w r i t e s

iʼm a huge contrarian, it doesnʼt matter what kind of opinion it is . . .

sometimes even if i agree with it

thereʼs a huge separation here

anything external or anything that doesnʼt originate from me i oppose

sometimes iʼm very adamant and outspoken but most of the time I just keep quiet

3000 comments and 9 million views in two months and not one  criticism  !

diplomacy requires a more subtle

sense of ego than politicians generally have

“ waves surround us all the time : sound waves in the noise around us, light waves enabling us to see, and according to quantum mechanics, all matter has a wave nature

most of these waves, however, do not resemble the regular train of waves at the shore of the ocean  —  the pattern is much more chaotic

most significantly, the whirls and eddies form  lines  in space called vortices

along these lines, the wave intensity is zero, and natural wave fields  -  light, sound and quantum matter  -  are filled with a dense tangle of these null filaments ”

 the message of zen is too bitter for you !

life is failure

everything we do is failure

 the message of zen is too bitter for you !

life is failure, everything we do is failure

the message of zen is too bitter for you !

why judge yourself  ?

why judge yourself  ?

why judge yourself ?

why judge yourself

my reply to r. h. blythʼs  translation  of the zenrinkushu, "haiku", volume 1, pages 25-33

the raindrops patter on the bamboo leaves

tears of grief

the fast falling stream is many tongues blended

in

the end

we are always

jason answers a query

“ are you psychic ? ”

just observant really 

what is reddit zen ?

drugs  anime and music !

and in one case, toxic amounts of tea !

no wonder its like it is !

the way of the female

is to lay in wait

for

the

male

a trap

sheʼs not concious of it

the maleʼs brain is ready to enwrapt itself !

the maleʼs brain is ready to enwrapt/capture itself !

the maleʼs brain ensnares/snares itself !

the maleʼs brain snares/ensnares itself !

you go forward fruitlessly

when

you should be going backwards

fruitfully

authenticity sticks in dumbarses and idiots throats

authenticity sticks in the dumbarses and idiots throats

to see what life is about one has to be ultra rational about oneself and others

there is no  "great way"  that stands revealed

without that investigative rationality

youʼll spew religious or buji nonsense on reddit zen

f

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v

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r

to see what life is about one has to be ultra rational about oneself and others

there is no  "great way"  that stands revealed

without that investigative rationality

youʼll spew religious or buji nonsense on reddit zen

f

o

r

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v

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to see what life is about one has to be ultra rational about oneself and others

there is no  "great way"  that stands revealed

to see what life is about one has to be ultra rational about oneself and others

celiac versus non celiac wheat  sensitivity

brett ,  wendy  and arkie whiteley ,  ‘ a hundred years of solitude ’  !

brett ,  wendy  and arkie whiteley, a hundred years of solitude !

brett, wendy and arkie whiteley, a hundred years of solitude !

brett, wendy and arkie whiteley, a hundred years of solitude

jon   writes

Look at passing scenery

dream of exploring

Get caught up in thoughts

can no longer see in front of me

Jon   writes

Today

I donʼt want to drink

Smoke up

Or watch porn

Tomorrow

Iʼd like to

Flipping from today to tomorrow

no more pages

The end

my comment

yeah thatʼs better, more observational with a  ‘ bit extra ’

jon   writes

i say life is boring and i get shit

jason says  ‘ it isnʼt as glamorous as we might want it ’  and he gets praised

great work, guys.  awesome stuff

canʼt wait to hear the bullshit reason behind this

“ its more sophisticated and thought out ”

 how much fucking sophistication do you need to get your point across ?

my  r e p l y

“ its more sophisticated and thought out ”

 yeah, basically correct, got that  ‘ bit extra ’

a  huang po  quote

when activity is stopped and there is passivity

this passivity is a state of activity

remaining in movement or quiescence,

how shall you know the one ?

not thoroughly understanding the unity of the way

both  (activity and quiescence)  are failures

my   r e p l y

when infinity opens the mind  y a w n s

surprised

by

the

fatigue of

its

own life

when infinity opens the mind  y a w n s

surprised

by

its

own

fatigue

i went through her facebook last night and she has a lot of problems

maybe irritable bowel syndrome and other  "unknown"  health issues, maybe even an std she is reluctant to discuss

possibly a period as an alcoholic

sheʼs got the autistic gut problems and doing everything wrong

her friends are really dumb and i think she prefers it that way

thereʼs a strong degree of schizophrenia there

the music thing is crazy

i donʼt want to be unsympathetic to her, she has a difficult life but sheʼs not your problem and i really wonder about you singling her out, like you really need to think about picking out the most damaged woman in so many square miles !

“ thanx it feels good to hear your opinion

i agree, her friends are not so smart and sort of toxic

probably an alcoholic as she brought two beers over when she was here

sheʼs schizophrenic, she was talking about ghosts, gave me a tarot card reading

yeah i donʼt know what that means about me, picking someone out like her ”

thanx, i was worried i was being a bit frank !

“ nah iʼm at the point where all criticisms are of benefit

i sent her messages saying how i felt, about STDs ,  schizophrenia, her public performing

she called me right away, she was offended of course, she admitted i was right about her possible std and said she had been considering it lately, that i was right that she wanted electronic accompaniment, she cried a little and even acknowledged the guy problems

offended, in her words "jarred"

even if i never talk to her again iʼm glad i got to speak my mind ”

“ searching for her like going out of my way for her

or searching for her trying to find the best in her ?

anyway isnʼt it sort of rude not to respond to someone ?  sheʼs the type of girl who can be glued to her phone, she said she was picking up a new car today with her family ”

searching as in sorting out what is below the surface !

you escaped, there s a million women in this world, sheʼs just very needy and will drag you down

i think one has to give zakaj and sepehr credit for intelligence in the selection of their wives, they both sound like the wives do the supporting and not the other way around !

h. sounds like a woman charles bukowski could have ended up with, i donʼt think he ever got an std, thatʼs the difference between now and then, honestly hanging out on r/askdocs for a while, the number of young people asking about stds  (lol, with graphic photos)  was just mind blowing . .

theyʼve got eggs spitting into the uterus once a month ,  thatʼs what its all about !

theyʼve got eggs spitting into the uterus once a month ,  thatʼs what its all about

the first of the age related declines is the lower back is a bit problematic, and the second now, developing cataract . .

the invincibility of youth is fleeting . . !

the first of the age related declines is the lower back is a bit problematic, and the second now, developing cataract . .

the invincibility of youth is fleeting . .

the first of the age related declines is the lower back is a bit problematic, and the second now, developing cataract . .

the invincibility of youth is fleeing . . !

the first of the age related declines is the lower back is a bit problematic, and the second now, developing cataract . .

the invincibility of youth is fleeing . .

our psyche comes out of evolution, its focus is breeding, whether intentional or not

all the spiritual brouhau, frenzy and effort is just a mask for this !

our psyche comes out of evolution, its focus is breeding, whether intentional or not

all the spiritual brouhau is just a mask for this !

our psyche comes out of evolution, its focus is breeding, whether intentional or not

sceince fiction staring you right in the face, four genetically  identical  beings !

sceince fiction staring you in the face, four genetically  identical  beings !

“ the euphoria provided by that of high purity cocaine rivals if not exceeds that of mdma  (esp. for those who pair it with late night activities/environments, going out, drinking, etc.)

so if you think MDMA feels amazing and special while coke is just shit tier by comparison, thatʼs a sign you havenʼt actually had good coke

this is coming from someone who has tried cocaine like three times  (at varying levels of quality, one time from a real good source straight from mexico)

i have a moral opposition to supporting the cocaine trade  (plus i think it's still way too expensive for the experience because itʼs the first drug every entitled idiot knows and thinks will give them a shortcut to hard-earned happiness)  but to act like the high of it doesnʼt blow plain amphetamineʼs out of the water like MDMA does is underinformed/ misguided ”

i canʼt believe how sophisticated a  drug user  this guy is ,  it just blows your mind !

ed.  in fairness i canʼt really link to his r/user but its an education to read him !

he uses zen for wallpaper though !

reddit gives one a compressed traverse through the drug use universe and it all seems the same, they become more stupid and rigid !

the path of zen is a contrary road, its bearing with reality and trying to modify it intelligently and not with the destructive escapist footprints of drugs !

homilies  by   jason

thereʼs no way one person can be better than another, we are all incomparable because we are all our own worlds separated by infinite space

life isnʼt as glamorous as we might want it to be

“ know not a person by what they tell you, but by what they donʼt tell you ! ”

from reddit

“ my grandfather kept a meticulous journal from the time he met my grandmother, until the time he got sick and passed away

i never met him, but that journal means a lot to me that I got to know him better than I could from just hearing stories about him ”

“ the best biological marker for estimating a personʼs cumulative exposure to lead is provided by skeletal lead, since blood lead levels reflect only recent exposures, they are not likely to predict the development of age-related diseases such as  cataract ,  which take many years to develop ”

modern technology is making memory too precise, photos, writing, videos . .

tree roots ,  the painting vincent van gogh worked on hours before his death is definitively not the work of a man about to shoot himself !

good  page  of sketches

rio de janerio is in a zika  hotspot ,  its just crazy not to cancel the games !

during the first two weeks of barbarossa the soviet western front suffered 23 thousand  casualties  per day ,  and the south and south-west fronts 16 thousand per day

from the 22nd of june  (the start of operation barbarossa)  to the 3rd of july 1941, 18,000 soviet men a day were being killed  !

table 7

huh, just fixed a stuck pixel on my monitor  (screen on)  by squeezing it directly between finger and thumb, front and back !

be interesting to see how long it lasts !

supplementing  chromium  on a regular basis can tide you over missed meals !

“ we just reservedly kissed

excuse my forwardness with this ”

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 sounds normal to me !

“ i think it went sort of well, she seemed to like me a lot, we went to a lake to swim and then to lunch, i paid, she said she wanted to have a campfire later that night so i invited her over

she stayed until maybe 3am when we were starting to get closer, i felt like i was starting to force things then, and i told her i was a virgin . .  r/theredpill says that was a big mistake when i looked at older posts, i just wanted to be honest

sheʼs had a lot of boyfriends it seems, one she told me was a cocaine addict

she left later that night and gave me a kiss on the cheek and laughed as she walked away ”

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a lot of her life experience is bound up in relationships, sheʼs like a chess master ,  always ten moves ahead of you and you are a novice, this difference in experience base will always be an issue between you !

women will tell you things indirectly rather than directly, she could be saying she has had a period of using cocaine herself

one of things i picked up on reddit askdocs is the number of men and women that do not tell partners or even deliberately withhold information about stds ,  there are some bad attitudes out there !

she could be promiscuous

she has a lot to teach you in my view, the question is how much damage you take along the way, just be cautious of the chess grand master aspect !

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i think that  “ laugh ”  meant something, what it actually is i donʼt know !

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you may have  “ rattled ”  her somehow, indicated a larger horizon to her !

you havenʼt wasted your time with the  “ 7th patriarch ”  this has given you a substantial edge

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“ i had a vision with moving fractals the other night ”

my query  :  pretty ?

  “ yeah lots of colors ”

my comment  :  she is reorganizing your brain !

“ happened while i was with her ”

“ on an intellectual level i have drawn the greatest philosophical understanding by studying the works of the madhyamaka school or perhaps, the madhyamaka-yogacara synthesis.  as far as iʼm concerned nagarjuna and his lineage were the sharpest philosophical minds humanity has produced to date, with the mūlamadhyamakakārikā  (  “ fundamental verses on the middle way ”  )  the supreme text in all of human philosophy, in that when it is understood in its entirely, it buries the need for all philosophizing /intellectualizing altogether ”

nagarjuna is not something that is separate from life ,  that sort of flowing inversion is necessary to look at life correctly

i guess what i am saying is the intellectual work is an ongoing requirement and you can actually see this in the lives of the great masters and patriarchs once you synthesize views of their lives . .

nagarjunaʼs philosophy is not something that is separate from life ,  that sort of flowing inversion is necessary to look at life correctly

nagarjuna is not something that is separate from life ,  that sort of flowing inversion is necessary to look at life correctly

a good account of  a  heroin addiction  !

honestly i donʼt see that withdrawal is any worse than a bad migraine !

the inablity to tolerate that keeping returning one to an unprofitable life course !

“ i have been working out in the sun a lot and noticed a lot of water loss and a weird heartbeat

coconut water often does the trick but i noticed a lack of iodine and started buying salt with it, any other easy electrolyte sources i should know of ? ”

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“ electrolyte loss in sweat and iodine  deficiency  in a hot environment ”

you can also get iodine from the topical application of iodine tincture or a povidine iodine antiseptic !

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“ thank you, you are my hero . . .  i suffer from hypothyroidism and have been wondering why exercising and sweating makes me feel worse the next day ! :-) ”

all i want to do is write homilies

yes i know thatʼs ridiculous

i donʼt even want to write homiles, they just keep coming and i canʼt bear to toss them into the bin of oblivion !

all i want to do is write homilies

yes, thatʼs ridiculous

i donʼt even want to write homiles, they just keep coming and i canʼt bear to toss them into the bin of oblivion !

all i want to do is write homiles

i donʼt even want to write homiles, they just keep coming and i canʼt bear to toss them into the bin of oblivion !

the real is not the ultimate  !

the imaginary is the ultimate  !

the real is not the ultimate  !

the imaginary is the ultimate  !

the real is not the ultimate  !

the imaginary is the ultimate  !

the real is not the ultimate  !

the imaginary is the ultimate

the real is not the ultimate  !

the real is not the ultimate

the lazy route doesnʼt even work for the lazy  !

the lazy route doesnʼt even work for the lazy  !

the lazy route doesnʼt even work for the lazy !

the lazy route doesnʼt even work for the lazy

zakaj   w r i t e s

in  ‘ the  vision  and the riddle ’  he is recounting a vision where he saw a shepherd gagging on a snake in nausea, who then bit off the head of the snake, and spat it out, erupting with laughter

it suddenly dawned upon me that nietzsche/zarathustraʼs vision must be related to what you referred to as  “ going beyond the self-referential ouroboros ” 

while one is still caught in the ouroboros vortex one can only be an  “ end timer ”  like me and perhaps sepehr, and many others i know personally in my life

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you  wrote

“ you need to have been turned inside out by an unconsciously crafted flare of the embers to make sense of /understand what is being said  here  !  ”

i think nietzsche's vision points towards that, towards the moment one finally broke away from that

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its just work and  “ letting things be ”  you canʼt chase these experiences, they visit of their own accord when necessary, thatʼs all

sometimes i go through  “ visionary periods ”  and i am surprised when they occur, when they donʼt which is most of the time, it doesnʼt bother me . .

the visionary aspect cannot be chased ,  i donʼt expect or even want them ,  sometimes i am pleasantly surprised by what turns up but in general visions  =  a lot of previous trauma condensed and replied to and i for one donʼt like trauma !

zakaj   r e p l i e s

i see.  thank you

this description

“ you need to have been turned inside out by an unconsciously crafted flare of the embers to make sense of /understand what is being said here ! ”

infinity is never boring

infinity is never boring  !

infinity is never boring  !

infinity is never boring  !

: o )

infinity is never boring  !

infinity is never boring !

infinity is never boring

its just amazing how a glance can stick with one the remainder of oneʼs life, even if it was only a fraction of a second !

years ago in a supermarket i must have caught a very brief glance from a young woman checkout operator at quite a distance actually, half or more the checkout aisles across, and saw her eye, never saw her again

what was that all about, how could one glance be so meaningful . .  ?

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at a supermarket on long island i was walking into the checkout lane when the girl behind the register locked eyes with me, time stopped for a couple of seconds, iʼm not sure she felt what i did because after she leisurely checked out my groceries

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that is she took her time to extend the contact ! ?

an r/supplements question

my  reply

as the sun rises higher in the sky ,  the ratio of uva to uvb decreases !

for absolute uvb you also have to factor in cloud which can promote or decrement the amount of uvb, very high cloud can increase it by up to  12%  in my observations !

what the selective effect of cloud is on the uva to uvb ratio i donʼt know, never having had a uva meter !

a good  graph  showing effective conversion by uvb of 7-dehydrocholesterol into vitamin D versus time of day and year from this  study

jason   w r i t e s

when youʼre strong

doubt

when youʼre weak

doubt

‘ the three  incestuous  sisters ’  by

audrey niffenegger

conveys  the female  quite well

 the mystery of normal tension glaucoma  solved  !

optic nerve damage occurring with sleep apnea !

svetlana alexievich’s  speech  accepting her nobel prize !

the soviet union as a failed technological/human dream !

brutality and murder is its underpinning !

x y z  writes

yeah i drink yeah i do drugs yeah iʼm blowing my brains out

i donʼt think anything will  scare  me off, buds.  maybe until its too late will i take notice and even then iʼll probably still indulge

i usually drink on days off for like a day/night, no more than two days, then i stop

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   your brain is already going . .

self injury

   why  ?

“ love thy enemies.  but if you canʼt, at least be polite to them ”

“ love thy enemies.  but if you canʼt, at the very least be polite to them ”

“ freaks was a thing i  photographed  a lot.  it was one of the first things i photographed and it had a terrific kind of excitement for me.  i just used to adore them.  i still adore some of them, i don’t quite mean they’re my best friends but they made me feel a mixture of shame and awe

thereʼs a quality of legend about freaks.  like a person in a fairy tale who stops you and demands that you answer a riddle.  most people go through life dreading they’ll have a traumatic experience.  freaks were born with their trauma.  they’ve already passed their test in life.  they’re aristocrats ”

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i donʼt look like a freak, but internally i am . .  like charles bukowski, so far out of this universe its just as well the norms only have some dim perception !

the likes of taylor swift and kim kardashian are smart/intelligent women playing a  sophisticated  publicity game !

the likes of taylor swift and kim kardashian are smart /intelligent women playing a sophisticated publicity game !

a good  post  on foyan qingyuan

“ one cold night as he sat up alone, foyan poked deep in the ashes of a dwindled fire and saw the embers flare up

he suddenly exclaimed ,  ‘ poke deeply and youʼll find it.  our lives are this way ! ’ ”

you need to have been turned inside out by an unconsciously crafted flare of the embers to make sense of  /understand what is being said here !

why the million morons think tossing the excrement laden water of their arrogance on the dying fire is flaring the embers i donʼt know !

self approved idiots !

buji zen says there is no such experience ,  ‘ practice ’  and buddhist zen proxies into ill informed substitutes for dai kensho but the 7th patriarch zen has re-established the dharma of the 6th patriarch zen and the shining obligatoriness of dia kensho !

edith  warton had an interesting  life  !

the  mount

  hyperlexic  for sure  !

james joyce had  syphilis

makes sense with his  "blighted life"  approach and eye problems !

some disease, rampaged for four hundred years, the list of writers is endless . .  katherine mansfield, sir henry neville, john keats, thomas hardy . .

i donʼt think  ‘ vaping ’  tabacco is as safe as is made out  at all  !

the reason i say this is chewing tabacco was notorious for throat and mouth cancers !

sepehr pointed out  (he vaps)  that the vast majority of vaping is with

“ a mix of propylene glycol, vegetable  glycerin ,  and nicotine in different strengths

if i can invest in a better electronic cigarette, i could use liquids with pure vegetable glycerin and no propylene glycol ”

i donʼt why people vap in the first place !

in my view we all modulate the amount of potentially addictive substances anyway and if you are vaping then there is some upper limit your brain has computed so the way out is to modulate down or taper . . .

if you taper down and it seems  physiologically  and neurologically beneficial which it will then you will eventually stop  !

jason  a s k s

why do linda bukowski and others make a big deal of charles bukowski doing TM  ?

did he meditate or was he a pure writer ?

do people just have a different idea of what meditation is ?

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linda was huge help to charles, we owe his later work to her keeping him alive, fuck john martin for his editing of those published posthumously though, hubric idiot !

if you are reading this john, you have very good comments and notes, that is the place for them, to redo a poem to reflect those notes and you own vision is just too plain confusing !

i think charles was probably just doing a sort of instructionless shikantaza, thatʼs the enlightened life, taking the trash of the world like TM and getting something useful out of it . .

charles bukowski is like a strange planet coming into the solar system, there are no rules and how it ever came to exist is a wonder !

jason  a s k s

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have you tried a small amount of folapro in the morning ?

also natural folate in the diet is important

insomnia promoting anti-oxidants in oils ?

you really have to sort this out !

light intensity and colour modulation to create a sleep wake cycle ?

red transparent plastic film over your iphone ?

i have two separate sleeps of 5 and a half hours daily and another one and a half or two hours every day or second day

melatonin isnʼt quite  "right"  biochemically and can upset the gut a bit, remedy of last resort !

vitamin D does help with sleep !

about 5 to 15 ml of cabernet sauvignon  (i add at the end of cooking to the meal so the wine is pasturized)  seems to improve stomach acid !

happy

birthday

oh

ageless

i am developing a cataract in my right eye  (july 2016) ,  the optometrist seemed to think i have a year before an operation is needed, hopefully its longer, but of course its hard to predict !

no glaucoma and eye pressure is normal which is good !

the optometrist said that as cataracts progress the eyeʼs focusing/prescription can change dramatically as it tries to accommodate for best vision !

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as far as i can see glaucoma is defined as damage to the optic nerve which is shown by the cup to disk ratio and thickness of the nerve web over the eye

the best operation for glaucoma from what i read is the same as for cataract, replacing the lens  (in this case being thinner opens up the passages at the front of the eye)

the issue is inadequate flow of the aqueous humor through the trabecular meshwork

optometrists are very good value for eye problems, fundus photography enables comparisons to be made over time and problems quantified or false diagnoses eliminated !

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as part of my research i discovered that too much  selenium  in the eye can create problems with both apotheosis of the trabecular meshwork and creating oxidative damage in the lens  (though i think my cataract problems are from a lot of bright light exposure in new zealand in my younger days)  so i am working on a smaller amount of selenium to take, more in line with an unsupplemented possible daily intake of about 60 micrograms from food, so maybe an extra 50 micrograms of selenomethionine and methylselenocysteine on alternate days !

in the usa where selenium soil levels can be quite high in some areas, i think you have to be very cautious !

eye problems suck, i was expecting a glaucoma diagnosis, i feel like i have escaped a death sentence !

selenium supplementation has a general apotheotic role which is good in terms of removing cancerous and precancerous mutations, but also has a strong negative side of killing too many needed cells so its certainly a doubled edged sword !

with zen there appear to be two quite different modes, those who copy and proxy and those who integrate it into their lives . .

everything is just an ever changing view

  everything is just an ever changing view !

everything is just an ever changing view

  everything is just an ever changing view !

everything is just an ever changing view

  everything is just an ever changing view !

everything is just an ever changing view

jason  wr i t e s

i brought my brother and sister-in-law to meet dave and his girlfriend to see daveʼs property, he has a foundation down to build a new house there and iʼd like to help him with that process so i could learn something

anyway my sister-in-law was saying how my father is handy and how my brother and i arenʼt, well i pointed out that my father has 40 years of experience over me and i use the same logic when i ask you questions because i figure you have at least 35 years of experience over me, even real experience of zen

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some people learn their entire lives, most donʼt

however you are definitely an  "intellectual"  type person, you will always be able to see things that are utterly beyond others !

everything is just an ever changing view

  everything is just an ever changing view !

with zen there appear to be two quite different modes, those who copy and proxy and those who integrate it into their lives . .

some people learn their entire lives, most donʼt

vitamins A? ,  D and E are better in capsules imo, rather than tablets

qandeel baloch  murdered  by her brother for  "honor"

 schizophrenia cloaked in religious bombosity !

  she was attractive, it shocked me more than most things !

this is all me

this is all me

 i am all there is

zakaj farewells the 7th zen patriarch blog after my banning him

skinny ass cracker motherfuckers ,  iʼm out of here

iʼm done with yʼall

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 zakaj, you have chosen the way of specious verbalization, the real way is contemplative solitude . .

sepehr  a s k s

whatʼs your opinion on materialist   zurvanism  !

i actually think itʼs compatible with a lot of your views

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my views arise from discovery which is a process, religion is in the end the feeding of priests and maintenance of whatever social order or disorder  (isis!)  it favours !

why was goethe exposed to  sufi  thought, but no-one in zen today is ?

an  inquiring  mind versus dull blinkered cretins ?

the real johnny  appleseed  !

a swedenborgian, he established orchards ahead of the settlers which he sold or traded to them, the settlers needed the orchards to make apple cider and to meet the requirements of land gifted to them !

an interesting  aspect  to voltaire

sepehr  a s k s

do you think writing literary criticisms  (basically a fancy way of saying  "analyzing themes according to a praxis"  and  "historical context")  also constitutes as good writing ?

i want to make a blog where i analyze fiction and films i like according to zen praxis, such as tarkovskyʼs films and  ‘ the story of the stone ’

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i think one of the problems with  "criticisms"  is you are always constrained to the vision of another, i have noticed this with translation, there is always a huge shortfall in capturing the cognition of another and actually often one does not want to capture the cognition of another ! : o)

damaged women marry damaged men !

damaged women marry damaged men

jason  w r i t e s

itʼs tough to do the right thing when you have nothing to do the right thing for

i think zakaj was basically saying that the 7th zen patriarch  blog  was a public message board and he proved it by ignoring what i was saying and skipping over essential points, that is, offending me and wasting my time and this of course is quite normal for public forums because the moderators wonʼt/cannot enforce conciliatory attention

so since i didnʼt ban him, his theory that the 7th patriarch blog was a public forum held up, but now i have banned his posting there which is an action that moderators of message boards/public forums could   and would   not take i have disproved his theory and proved my theory that it is a private forum with the idiosyncrasies and freedoms of a private blog/message board !

he might have got away with it longer if i hadnʼt seen what happened to brad warner whereby the most atrocious mentally retarded arseholes commandeered the comments section of his blog, that is, they traded on bradʼs reputation and writings for their own benefit

brad had closed the comment section before but re-opened it, but now after being advised by  harriet chino to close it he got the message and has !

that is, those thugs just cost him a lot of reputation and seeing those commenters you really wouldnʼt anything to do with brad, they were that repulsive !

zakaj i feel has got into the same territory and what has sealed his removal is his aquisition of the usual  "spiritual circuit"  jingo, highly mistaken crap and just plain toxic to be anywhere within a million miles of, but of course he claims to agree with me but totally ignores the fact of his disagreement and wonʼt address the questions i ask of him

so the 7th patriarch blog, while it is open to the public to read is essentially private in posting and you are effectively only able to post by invitation only !

iʼm really glad to have brad warners experience under my belt, it makes it all/quite clear

brad is in a sense a competitor, he banned me from that same blog fortunately or i would have advised him to close the comments much earlier, the damage done when he first started his attempt to open a zen center was irreparable, he had a window of success open to him in that endeavour but the shits posting on the blog closed it, you live and learn donʼt you brad, its all too late now and your prospects are fucked, dogen wonʼt save you but he  saved  me ! :o)

i noticed sepehr had a manic spaz on reddit zen  (didnʼt see any down votes btw which says something !) ,  a good idea sepehr because if you do that on the 7th patriarch blog again its certains !

if youʼre right and everyone else is wrong, they are always going to disagree with you, sad isnʼt it !

if youʼre right and everyone else is wrong, they are always going to disagree with you !

if youʼre right and everyone else is wrong, they are always going to disagree with you

one of the disappointing things about  “ the mentally ill ”  i see  on reddit  is how boring, stupid and conformist they are . .

everyone assumes there is some common ground, but actually there is only your experience !

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the post below was in that thread but deleted, i have gone through the posterʼs history, heʼs gay (single) ,  a very competent computer programmer/operations manager and tech fix it and he seems authentic and not prone to make things up, in his late forties and what is written below has some good matches in his history, funny thing is heʼll never know its posted here until his dying day  (actually he nearly died from a stroke/pnemonia in december last year 2015) ,  i have to say all in all he sounds a really nice, perceptive, well adjusted guy !

My mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 6 months old.  They initially thought it was just post-partum depression, but they soon realized it was much worse than that.  She started taking medication for it, responded very well, and for a few years we had a pretty normal life.  The medications made her feel a little sluggish, and made her gain some weight.  (It wasn't horrible, but she had been very slim and wasn't any more.)  She felt so well that she decided she didn't need the medications any more, and she didn't like the side effects, so she stopped taking them when I was 3.  She then became increasingly mentally ill.

The doctors had diagnosed her with paranoid schizophrenia.  I think she also had/has multiple personality disorder, because I noticed she had times when she was relatively well and times when she was more ill, and she used different names at the times.  (Her mother named her Nancy when she was born, but her father always called her Eileen, the name they'd agreed on before the birth. Her sister also called her Eileen. So she legitimately had two names.)  However, her doctors never caught that, so either she doesn't have it or the doctors missed it

I grew up with her, so I didn't realize that the horrible symptoms I was seeing every day were abnormal  -  I just thought that's how people acted, even if I didn't like it.  Eventually, though, she became too abnormal for me to ignore

One day she demanded that we had to go to a store right away to get some hardware.  She bullied me into the car right away, and drove to the nearby hardware store.  When we got there, we took a turn through the parking lot and she drove off, explaining that there was a blue car in the parking lot, and that means if we parked there we would die, so we had to go to another store.  (The two most popular car colors at the time were blue and green.) We tried two other stores, but of course there were blue and green cars in the lot, so she drove home and refused to talk about it.  I still don't know what she wanted

The house was constantly very messy.  She was a hoarder.  She eventually filled the fridge with used margarine containers containing uneaten leftovers which had been there long enough to develop language skills.  (I mean filled  -  there was no room for actual food.)  The freezer she filled with peach pits.  In the living room was a large paper shopping bag full of used plastic utensils, unwashed.  (How we never got ants or vermin, I will never know.)  She would never let me have friends to visit because she feared they'd say something to someone about it, so I was very alone for the 12 years I lived with her.  She would frequently encourage me to invite people over to visit, then at the last minute before they'd leave home to come over she'd announce she had a headache or her stomach wasn't feeling well, and demand I call to cancel the visit.  I eventually figured out this demeaning pattern of behavior and refused to make the call, and demanded she should call herself since she was the one insisting the visit be cancelled. She freaked out and refused, and my friend showed up and we had a nice visit.  After that she never again allowed me to invite anyone

I remember once she walked into the living room, and stood by the thermostat.  I was on the other side of the room.  She silently made a very contorted hand gesture to me, and left.  A few minutes later she came back and threw a screaming fit at me, because I was supposed to somehow just know that her contorted hand gesture meant "I would like you to stand up and walk over to the thermostat I'm standing next to and raise the temperature two degrees."  And apparently she was too stupid to operate the thermostat herself, even though she was standing next to it.  (It wasn't complex)

The straw that broke the camel's back was one weekend we were visiting her sister on the other end of the state, and at the end of the weekend we were in the car for the 3 hour drive home.  Despite that she'd made this drive at least 10 times she handed me a map and demanded I give her directions.  (My father was not present.)  I was 11, and not great with maps, but she demanded I do it anyway.  We were coming up to an intersection with a road that went northeast or southwest - we wanted northeast.  I told her the number of the road and said it would be north or east, the map didn't say which.  She completely freaked out and demanded to know if it was north or east - screaming at me to tell her, although I didn't know.  We were approaching the turn, a Y in the road with an angular building in the middle.  She aimed straight at the building and began to accelerate and scream.  I don't mean screaming anything, just "aaaah!" I eventually had to grab the steering wheel and turn it so we didn't hit the building.  I demanded she pull over and let me out so I could walk back to my aunt's, but she told me to shut up and kept driving.  She never said another word about it, and she didn't actually need any more directions to get home  -  I put the map away and refused to look at it further. 

After that I waited for a weekend day when she went out for a while and spoke with my father as he was weeding the flower bed under my bedroom window.  I told him, more or less, "Mom's crazy, I'm leaving, are you coming with me ?"  To my surprise, he just said "So you've figured it out!" and yes, he was coming with me.  She'd been beating him every night in bed, making sure to only bruise him where clothes would cover it, and he'd been waiting years for me to figure out she was ill because he didn't want to leave me with her

We moved out about a year later, when I was 12, and the divorce took place when I was 13.  She demanded full custody of me  (and I was planning to vanish if she got it), but  (I learned later)  my father bought me from her for $10,000.  I'm not kidding, he bought me.  She took the money and gave up custody of me.  She got visitation rights though  (to me and my dog, oddly), and I had to have visits with her in the ensuing 5 years . . .  and she kept trying to murder me.  Eventually when I was 16 or so I decided I'd had enough of it, and I would meet her somewhere near my home and speak with her, but I refused to get in her car or go anywhere with her, and talked her into giving me her guns.  (I'd stopped bringing my dog because she got her own, and he wasn't friendly to mine, and he smelled bad, she didn't bathe him, so I was worried about fleas.)  She was talking about murdering me, or my father, or my uncle, or her divorce lawyer  (who'd had the unmitigated gall to present her with a bill!), so I didn't want her armed.  I didn't think of the fact that once I had all the guns she could just go get another one and murder my uncle, but that's another story

Before the divorce my father gave her an ultimatum :   get treatment or he'd leave her.  They went to a doctor once, and she refused to ever return.  (She knew if she ever saw a doctor three times he could certify her mentally ill and get her locked up.  She was too ill to recognize that if she started getting treatment and taking her medicine she could stay at home and live in my dad's gravy train.)  During the divorce I had to see the doctor for court-ordered therapy  (they insisted on treating me like a small frightened child even though I was 12), and later also a psychologist.  They wouldn't speak about her specifically  (they'd only met her once each after all), but in general terms they told me someone who'd had untreated schizophrenia for as long as she had, whose was severe as I was reporting, would never be well again  —  treatment could make it stop getting worse, perhaps make it a little better and maybe get the person to the point where they could safely live semi-alone, but they'd never be "normal" again

She lost the $10k my father bought me with.  She put it in a bank somewhere and forgot where.  She lost probably a few hundred thousand dollars that way over the years.  She didn't remember that she'd ever had the money.  My personal theory is that one of her more sane personalities put the money in the bank, and the other less sane personalities were driving the body most of the time and they had no idea what bank the one had put the money in

When I was 18 I went to college and didn't tell her where.  (It was 350 miles away.)  One afternoon she was waiting for me on my doorstep when I came home from class.  She'd asked my aunt who was still speaking with her where I lived, and she just showed up.  I made the mistake of letting her talk me into her car.  I figured it would only be for a minute and a couple blocks to move it to legal parking . . .  I don't know if she was planning a murder/suicide or if she was just so disconnected from reality that she thought it was a good idea to drive on the sidewalk, but I once again had to grab her wheel to save our lives (and those of the people on the sidewalk who she would have mowed down).  She acted like she didn't notice. She then bullied me into letting her into my dorm room, and once in, she announced she'd decided to stay a few days, and sat down in my chair.  (While her car was in a 1 hour parking zone.) I freaked out and made her leave, I was NOT letting her leave her car to get towed on purpose and then try to force her way into my life because of it.  I think she went along with me because it was probably the only time I'd ever freaked out and asserted myself.  I walked her to her car and got her in and when she tried to start an extended conversation with me  (I could tell she was playing for time so she'd be there long enough to get a ticket she couldn't pay so she'd have an excuse to abandon the car and demand to move in with me)  I just told her she had to leave now to avoid a ticket and that I couldn't have anyone staying with me in my dorm, and turned and left

When I was 20 she murdered my uncle.  (I'd warned him, but he didn't believe me that she could actually do it.)  She had bought a new gun (why didn't that ever occur to me?)  and she blew the back of his head off while he was eating his breakfast cereal.  She was caught shortly after carrying a bag of bloody clothes.  (She was on foot, her car had broken down and she had lost all her money to repair it.)  She ended up in a mental hospital for about 20 years.  They tell me they had to use very strong medications to keep her under control, that these affected her heart, that she has a pacemaker now and may not live very long.  (I'm assuming she will live forever just to spite me.)  I haven't spoken with her in about 25 years.  One of my aunts speaks to her a little.  My mother sends smallish amounts of money  (~$150)  once every year or two through this aunt.  (I give the money to charities my mother wouldn't approve of.)  I've learned my mother thinks any day now I'm going to swoop in and whisk her away from her humdrum life and keep her in luxury for the rest of her life with the vast sums of money she has been sending me.  I conclude from this that she is still very delusional, even if he hospital thinks she's safe to allow in public now, and I can't have anything to do with her.  My family and I all agree that if I so much as say "hello" to her, she will interpret it as license to invade my life, and I might find her on my doorstep again.  (I'm not hard to find, I'm sure any competent librarian could find me in 10 minutes if my mother had thought to ask one)

A few years ago my father and I were having lunch in Disney World, and he took a photo as Pooh Bear came by and hugged me.  He explained that my mother would have a birthday in a few weeks, and he thought it would make her happy if he sent her the photo, but he wanted my permission.  I cried, because 25 years after their divorce, my father still cared about her having a nice birthday, even though it wasn't safe for him to contact her directly.  She hadn't seen me in 25 years, so she had no idea what I look like now or where I live of if I'm even alive, but I couldn't tell him no.  It may be the only thing he has ever outright asked of me as an adult, so it was obviously important to him too.  He found a photo from our family trip there in 1979 of me with Pooh Bear, had it copied, and framed the two together.  He gave it to his sister, who has kept in touch with her (his sister is one of maybe 3 people who can safely talk with her, and we all trust her not to reveal any excess information), and she gave it to my mother without telling who it was from.  My mother apparently cried and said it was the best gift she ever received

I want to go to her.  I want to make a quilt to keep her warm.  I want to tell her about my problems and get her advice and her comfort.  I want my mother.  But I know I can never have those things, and I am just waiting for the person who now inhabits my mother's body to die.  Maybe then I can visit the grave.  It isn't much, but it's all I'll ever have

“ healthy human stool contains on average  one hundred billion  bacteria per gram

but it also contains 100 million viruses and archaea per gram

in addition, there are about 10 million colonocytes  (human epithelial cells that help protect the colon)  and a million yeasts and other single-celled fungi per gram ”

an  explanation  of mucus in the colon

“ travelers frequently report experiencing a significantly  slower  jet lag recovery after an eastward versus westward flight ”

traveling east is the same as going from standard to summer time, the sun rises earlier and vice versa of course east to west you wake up later which rolls the body clock forward which is from practical experience a much easier adjustment !

i have had a revelation about reddit/reddit zen, why it/they are such a  “ fight club ”

the upvote and downvote system is of course fighting

now i have realized this, its really put me off posting there !

what has come ?

what has gone ?

what has come ?

what has gone

what has come

what has gone

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empty worlds being spun on nothing

empty worlds spinning on nothing

since i am always on the edge of survival, the problem with relationships and marriage is to support the existance of another imperils my own

the problem with relationships and marriage is since you are always be on the edge of survival, to support the existance of another imperils your own

men are designed to be blind to women, thereʼs no such thing as a female savvy man, your own brain takes you !

men are designed to be blind to women, thereʼs no such thing as a female savvy man, your own brain takes you

the problem with relationships and marriage is since you are always on the edge of survival, to support the existance of another imperils your own

women are always evaluating men, if men had more brains they would always be evaluating women !

women are always evaluating men, if men had more brains they would always be evaluating women

raffinose is digested by alpha-galactosidase

zakaj, didnʼt i tell you gabriel pradiipaka  wasnʼt  enlightened when you first started on that binge ?

youʼre not giving me credit for knowing what i am on about, jason does and doesnʼt re-invent the wheel but moves forward on what he finds useful to himself !

you are disputing me all the time, well thatʼs not the basis for this forum !

i can tell you, you are putting your energy in the wrong place, be smart and pick up more what i say !

be dumb and fight a losing battle for ever !

i can see how the end of life is ,  one is overcome with the weariness of everything

no energy  –  even to die ,  that is taking care of itself  !

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i can see how the end of life is ,  one is overcome with the weariness of everything

no energy  –  even to die ,  that is taking care of itself  !

i can see how the end of life is ,  one is overcome with the weariness of everything

the problem of   “ unmetabolised folic acid ”

supplemental folic acid is artificial and not what we get in foods and according to this  article  doses higher than 200 micrograms start to show as the problematic  “ unmetabolised folic acid ”  in the blood plasma !

“ recent studies have confirmed that UMFA is associated with the reduction of the immune system’s capacity to kill off malignant or pre-malignant cells, as well as the acceleration of cognitive decline and anemia in the elderly with low levels of vitamin B12

high doses of synthetic folic acid result in absorption of unreduced folic acid, which may interfere with folate metabolism for a period of years ”

if youʼve ever taken the L-5-methyltetrahydrofolate form you know thereʼs a  difference  a hundred miles wide !

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this issue has been around for years and has published   research

i really suggest background research on google on the topic, its almost too much for one person to convey in a few posts !

folic acid is not what the body uses or we get in food and there are some problems that go with that !

“ the human gut appears to have a very efficient capacity to convert reduced dietary folates to 5-MTHF but limited ability to reduce folic acid

therefore, large amounts of unmodified folic acid in the portal vein are probably attributable to an extremely limited mucosal cell dihydrofolate reductase capacity that is necessary to produce tetrahydrofolic acid before sequential methylation to 5-MTHF

this process would suggest that humans are reliant on the liver for folic acid reduction even though it has a low and highly variable dihydrofolate reductase activity

therefore, chronic liver exposure to folic acid in humans may induce saturation, which would possibly explain reports of systemic circulation of unmetabolized folic acid ”

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i feel better when iʼm reading quality stuff, like the recent postings on the 7th zen patriarch blog about danteʼs  ‘ inferno ’  and khalil gibran and his writings

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i find this too, its like zakaj picking a fight with you over putting a space before an exclamation mark, the world is quite mad and they are always trying to pull you down with their bullshit, they canʼt help it !

you parents, family ,  friends aquaintances, those you deal with on a daily basis, the net and reddit, they are all just unspeakably obnoxious and  m a d   .  .

mad grasping bunnies with poisoned teeth

the whole thing about enlightenment and those with a true understanding is its only one in ten million so the only way you can get contact with these people is to look across the whole of time and read what they have written

i am appreciating dante much more, heʼs very renaissance with his sticking to semantic religious orthododoxy, but imbuing what he writes with a real understanding of so  m u c h  m o r e

inferno canto  VIII : 82-130  the fallen angels obstruct them

i saw more than a thousand of those angels, that fell from heaven like hail, above the gates, who cried angrily : ‘ who is this, that, without death goes through the kingdom of the dead ? ’

and my wise master made a sign to them, of wishing to speak in private

then they furled their great wings in disdain, and said :  ‘ come on, alone, and let him go, who enters this kingdom with such audacity

let him return, alone, on his foolish road : see if he can : and you, remain, who have escorted him, through so dark a land ’

if youʼre right and everyone else is wrong, they are always going to disagree with you, sad isnʼt it !

on reddit zen everything is open for dispute

but the terms of reference of the 7th partriarch blog are i know what iʼm on about, so not everything is open for dispute !

if you are not interested in what the real authentic zen is, go away

if you donʼt think i know what the real authentic zen is, go away

if you are doing the work personally, thereʼs not going to be much fighting, just inquiry and discussion to what is pertinent for where you are at, going forwards or backwards ! : o )

sounds like you are pissing your time away as usual zakaj !

lifeʼs short why buy fights ?

sounds like you are pissing your time away as usual !

lifeʼs short why buy fights ?

if i can give it, i ought to take it, arenʼt i ? !

if i can give it, i ought to take it, arenʼt i ! ?

if i can give it, i ought to take it, arenʼt i ?

if i can give it, i ought to take it, arenʼt i

if i can give it, i ought to take it, canʼt i ?

if i can give it, i ought to take it, canʼt i

its not the end of the sentence you wish to exclaim but the whole sentence or paragraph, same with question marks, so a space conveys this better !

lots of people object, donʼt know why, merely because its not what they are used to i suppose, this self-appointed intelligent species !

its not the end of the sentence you wish to exclaim but the whole sentence or paragraph, same with question marks, so a space conveys this better !

donna williams ,  author of   ‘ nobody nowhere ’  and  ‘ somebody somewhere ’  had a severely  abusive  unbringing, the sub-context of the books she writes i think ! : o ( )

donna williams ,  author of   ‘ nobody nowhere ’  and  ‘ somebody somewhere ’  had a severely abusive unbringing, the sub-context of the books she writes i think ! : o (

donna williams ,  author of   ‘ nobody nowhere ’  and  ‘ somebody somewhere ’  had a severely abusive unbringing, the implicit context of the books she writes i think ! : o (

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was tending my former wifeʼs mothers grave and we saw a woman walk up to another grave and spit on the headstone

she saw us and did not bat an eye, just a blank look and walked back to her car

we looked into it for some time and decided that he had been her son in law and killed himself and her daughter in a car crash

who really wrote shakespeareʼs works runs like this, shakespeare never wrote shakespeare, he was an underworld  "heavy"  and if he had been the real author would have been imprisoned which he never was since a lot of the works were  "politically sensitive"

that leaves sir henry neville and the earl of oxford, but when you read the earl of oxfordʼs own works and letters heʼs clearly quite a different person, but sir henry neville has a level of mad optimism, sophistication and political and human naivety that matches what we know of both the works and his real life !

iʼm quite enjoying the denial by the university english departments, getting much more mileage out this than i might expect !

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shakespeare versus sir henry neville, are you coming from the point of view of an opinion or substantial research ?

shakespeare versus sir henry neville, are you coming from the point of view of an opinion or research ?

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had some good yogurt this morning from sidehill farm, the yogurt was almost yellow, their jams are good too besides the extra sugar they add in

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watch out for pectin !

i find it problematic which you would expect, it being scd illegal and an indigestible polysaccharide !

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i am a broken puzzle piece that will never fit into the communal paradigm !

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reddit zen is full of broken puzzle pieces that pretend they fit !

even worse they recreate zen into a communal model wherein they fit and actually sit at the apex  !

idiots !

i have never been able to read dante because i didnʼt understand the biographical and cultural ellipsis

however this  article  opened my eyes, the inferno was a political tract set in a very violent environment ,  dante himself was tortured at one point !

suddenly the  inferno  makes sense !

shakespeare is another author i was out of sympathy with, then coming across brenda jamesʼs discovery of sir henry neville as the real author it all opens up !

different times have different points of softness and hardness, todayʼs hardness is other sorts of crucifixion !

but from a zen or mystical point of view its all mutation ?

for cost and size reasons, multivitamins mostly use  "garden fertilizer"  minerals, that is, chemically similar to what is used in garden fertilizer and not bound to proteins which is how the body is designed to take them !

i find that basically you have to supplement individually except i do use a very cut down blackmoreʼs mega B complex tablet as suitable !

mummy  derives from the persian  mûm  (later  mûmiyá )  which translates as pitch or bitumen, because this substance was used in embalming

your longevity and later health has a lot to do with your  maternally  inherited mitochondrial genes !

200 to 250 milllion years ago there was a highly intelligent cephalopod which made  pictures  out of the vertebrae of its prey !

cephalopods see colour by aberratant  chromation  which is a driver for intelligence due to the necessity of the computational requirements of such a vision system !

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walking out of the pizzeria i came up with the poem, i repeated it a couple of times but didnʼt write it down, a year and a half later iʼm still beating myself up over it

jason asks about poems

theyʼre not really coming to me, idk i guess they were a rarity throughout my life so far, i donʼt really want to construct them, you know ?

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i never set out to write them, they just happen when they happen

if they donʼt it doesnʼt bother me

“ i feel really bleary blowy hardly thinksy ”

just some words that dropped in last night, i guess its the joy of words and images actually !

its the expressing and bringing into existance of something of beauty, if not for that, why bother ?

without that sense of infinity, why would you be involved in any of this ?

“ i feel really bleary blowy hardly thinksy ”

just some words that dropped in last night, a bit tired and out of sorts i guess !

“ i feel really bleary blowy hardly thinksy ”

“ i feel really bleary blowsy hardly thinksy ”

just some words that dropped in last night, a bit tired and out of sorts i guess !

“ i feel really bleary blowsy hardly thinksy ”

do you have any references or sources for vitamin K2 being an anti-depressant ?

iʼd like to know more about this aspect of it

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its something very distinct i noticed myself since i take quite a high  (150iu)  "bolus"  dose of vitamin E when i feel a migraine coming on and that seems to make me depressed and vitamin K2/MK-7 counterbalanced that

i have seen the occasional reference to vitamin K having an anti-depressant effect, but i donʼt know of any study, though there are a lot of   studies  on the surprisingly wide ranging effects of it, like as a mitochrondrial  "rescuer"  and its high concentration in parts of the brain, i think if you add those effects together a role for it as an antidepressant is not far fetched !

russian  roulette

very occasionally i /one reads in the news of a group of  (usually)  teenagers or young people having played a game of russian  "roulette"  with a revolver that has somehow been gotten of, and of course since it is the news it has gone wrong with some-one killed or severely injured and one thinks, well what could they have been thinking of  ?

today as i drove down swamp road in early evening to get some veges and eggs from a local farmerʼs self help stall i was coming up to a blind corner and i thought, well you donʼt need a revolver, i could just drive on the wrong side of the road, i could do it now and nothing would happen . .

well i didnʼt and as i came around the corner, there was a white car coming . .

i mightnʼt have been even killed as my vehicle is quite heavy and this car was lighter, the driver would have been more likely to be killed, all in all an awful mess . .

thereʼs hardly any traffic ever on this road, maybe another vehicle every five times i drive on it, only this being about 4:30pm was a mini peak hour i guess, i saw a van a bit later, exceptional !

one time out of six, the bad thing will never happen to me ,  iʼm more understanding of the thinking, its like some sort of cognitive trap humans are prone too !

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thereʼs no reason why you canʼt have the authentic mixed in with the inauthentic  !

of course, the inauthentic seeks to mix itself in all the time  !

thereʼs no reason why you canʼt have the authentic mixed in with the inauthentic

of course, the inauthentic seeks to mix itself in all the time

thereʼs no reason why you canʼt have the authentic mixed in with the inauthentic  !

thereʼs no reason why you canʼt have the authentic mixed in with the inauthentic

 one day rolls after another  roll   roll   roll   .   .   .

one day rolls after another  roll   roll   roll   .   .

one day rolls after another  roll   roll   roll

when i was travelling around australia i made a rule, absolutely no more than 6 hours driving a day and it worked !

there was always interesting walking available too, sea, sand, cliffs, rocks, hills, billabongs, pools, waterholes, streams, rivers, ranges . .

when i was travelling around australia i made a rule, absolutely no more than 6 hours driving a day and it worked !

how  many  of those three/six will be happy in their marriages ?

new research shows that the brain gets damaged with consistent sleep deprivation !

playing games late messes the circadian rhythm with its daylight light !

look at f.lux in darkroom mode !

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lake and  mountains  1928

  ice house ,  coldwell, lake superior 1923

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iʼve been thinking a lot lately, and i donʼt understand how you consider edward snowden a traitor when youʼre solipsistic and there is no communal objectivism.  what is betrayal when one is just solipsistic ?

itʼs just a genuine curiosity . . .  i have been thinking a lot over this.  genuinely confused, considering youʼve proposed all attempts at betterment are insufficient

“ the solipsism of zen implies a limited concern for the welfare of others and total scepticism as regarding any  betterment  of the universe  .  . ”

what is one betraying if there is no communal objectivity and, instead, thereʼs just solipsism ?

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well its the most pragmatic perspective on him, like julian assange/bradley manning they have really caused huge diplomatic and intelligence operational damage purely against the western alliance and in favour of russia and china which makes them hangable traitors !

that is the social stability of the societies we are in have been damaged by it !

of course the iraq war which was really a creation of george bush and karl rove was way more damaging and thereʼs no way either of those two will ever face the death penalty !

assange and snowden are oppositional defiant, semantic pragmatic disordered and on autistic spectrum which is yet another perspective !

you just get shifting perspectives, i just happen to mention one !

i donʼt particularly believe or validate one over another except in context !

and i donʼt completely deny the validity of communal objectivism  .  .

solipsism may be truer but it also doesnʼt survive very well, so you end up juggling the balls of solipsism, communal objectivism and subjectivism  .  .  .

iʼm always sceptical of what i write and think, its just one opinion on its way to another opinion . .

since my views are in a continual process of modification, i am naturally sceptical, that scepticisms inheres in the view and its mutability itself !

if you have a fixed viewpoint that is not open to the process of modification so to speak thatʼs not zen and is stuck !

for instance my view that i am the seventh patriarch i often throw up as being wrong or delusive, yet through the process of being open to modification it has always come back as correct which actually has surprised me, that is it is correct regardless of my own misgivings about it !

sepehr, i think you are engaged in constructing a semantically coherent meta, some rigid about, but you know like jason pursuing his line of  questioning ,  its not some  "meta"  about, but the actual questioning and follow on

thatʼs zen or true inquiry, the metas that arise are mutable and move with the inquiry, thereʼs no point of rest, no proxy, just movement  .  .

‘ enlightenment ’  is making sense of a failed life  !  ?

‘ enlightenment ’  is making sense of a failed life  ?

‘ enlightenment ’  is making sense of a failed life

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iʼm pretty sure its my consumption of porn that gives me these mood swings

i just canʼt stop though

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an englishwoman who had lived on a greek island told me of a hermit monk who lived there and had somehow been discovered to have a huge pile of porn under his bed !

didnʼt do much for his reputation for sure and islands are small places ! : o)

why are things always more complicated than they look when starting  ?

why are things always more complicated than they look when starting ?

why are things always more complicated than they look when starting

and he said ,  “ follow me ,  and you will reach the holy city in a day and a night ”

and i followed him

and we walked many days and many nights ,  yet we did not reach the holy city

and what was to my surprise he became angry with me because he had misled me

a good image/homily by kahlil gibran ,  i canʼt say that most of what else he  writes  makes much sense to me, some of it is sorta ok !

i like his paintings better !

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elon musk, its not all roses

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i find a cut down tablet of copper sebacate good for improving mood, if you are taking zinc you definitely need copper to balance up !

it does boost the immune system !

of course if you drink house water coming through copper piping you do get some copper that way !

not really  there  clichéd, behind the times in terms of music technology, i presume drug brain damaged . .

thereʼs just so much mediocre shit in this world and apparently thatʼs all that pays !

the more mediocre they are the more aggressively they defend their viewpoint or way of doing things

as charles bukowski notes in his poems !

one of the things that defines the future compared to the past is a high degree of uncertainty !

of course the past can be uncertain too !

one of the things that defines the future compared to the past is a high degree of uncertainty !

of course the past can be uncertain too !

 : o ) (

one of the things that defines the future compared to the past is a high degree of uncertainty !

of course the past can be uncertain too !

sepehr  writes

 . . human beings are more like wolves

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 wolves are not too cunning for their own good !

physics is always in a process of  correction   !

basically this is a step in allowing macroscopic quantum effects and hence the physical reality of my vision with the sixth patriarch !

physics is always in a process of correction  !

physics is always in a process of correction

cats are interesting because of the way they mode between feral and domestic, people only see the domestic but feral is more what they are !

when a feral motherʼs litter reaches a certain age  she will test my response to her kittens by placing her most disposable kitten somewhere i can see or locate it . .

sorta fascinating the the dynamics really . .

in the wild they breed rapidly, but they also have a high death rate, very much the darwinian creature !

interestingly  heidegger would have to be the ultimate unsuccessful philosopher, that of one with a very strong body of work and insight but his reputation forever tainted by his card carrying party member nazism and anti-semitism !

good post thanx ! : o )

iʼm with you on cats, i think sepehr is projecting, my experience with the feral family here is that basically they are a rampant breeding agenda, you canʼt see that in a domestic feline situation being neutered and single !

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia  !

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia  !

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia  ! : 0 )

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia  !  : o )

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia !  : o )

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia !

a charles bukowski life, sorta a drunken hyperlexia

some  offensive  reddit hound on supplements

what are you talking about ?  you arenʼt helping anyone with claims that arenʼt backed up.  i just wanted some studies which shouldnʼt be surprising when looking at which sub weʼre in and you became hostile and even insulted me

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yeah its all me doing work for you, canʼt you read or use google ?

take, take take and then bother bother bother !

get it ?

no, i bet !

claims not backed up indeed, only to the intellectually lazy stuck in some dumbarse medically politically correct paradigm !

i remember a woman on r/medical asking about the effect of massive doses of vitamin D and being somewhat uniquely qualified with my experiments on irradiating mushrooms with UVB corroborated her saying it made her sleepy and also telling her of the very negative health consequences of the compounding side effects of the eight pyschiatric meds she was on, her gratitude knew no bounds and she got me banned !

g o d t h e w o r l d i s s o f u l l o f e n t i t l e d a r s e h o l e s

shit he keeps going

“ what work have you done ? one link ? hilarious ”

this has nothing to to with political correctness or whatever you think.  its common sense that the one making the claim delivers the backup for it.  the fact that you donʼt get that speaks volumes

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an hours work to find, nothing to you of course !

you keep saying  "claim"  for what is common knowledge is certain quarters and certainly one hardly ever sees the most outlandish rubbish posted here challenged and research posted never !

do you have attention issues, no wonder you needed me to find the right info for you, you just completely ignore relevancies in what i write !

i donʼt think you have the reading age to search adequately !

i write something, you donʼt seem to get it, what can i say ?

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lol mr.  "can do no wrong !"

pax ! : o )

jason  observes

havenʼt noticed the sunset, too busy staring at the computer screen or the ceiling  !

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and then thereʼs reddit zen, so much wrong minded energy ! : o)

it only takes one person to really disagree with you and all your energy goes into futilely arguing with them, i think thatʼs why its so important that the 7th zen patriarch blog is basically friendly !

my experience is vitamin D needs balancing up with K2 which takes the calcium out of the blood into the bones and has other beneficial effects also being a good anti-depressant

i like the jarrow mk-7, two or three capsules a day, crush the capsules in the mouth  suck the inner fluid out and then spit the capsules out . .

people vary hugely in their genetic efficiency of vitamin D

foyan  qingyuan   s a y s

i tell you, moreover, that there is nothing that is true and nothing that is not true

how can there be truth and untruth in one thing ?

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how can there not be truth and untruth in one thing ?

the notions of supplement  "stacks"  and  "clean"  foods are misguided !

the notions of supplement  "stacks"  and  "clean"  foods are misguided in my view !

the notions of  "stacks"  and  "clean"  are misguided in my view !

the notions of  "stacks"  and  "clean"  are misguided in my view

the problem with alpha lipoic acid  (ALA)  is it is fat soluble, crosses the blood brain barrier and mobilizes heavy metals destructively in the brain !

“ Alpha lipoic acid is a powerful antioxidant that regenerates other antioxidants  (e.g., vitamins E and C, and reduced glutathione)  and has metal-chelating activity.  Both fat and water soluble, it is readily absorbed from the gut and crosses cellular and blood-brain membrane barriers.  Clinical experience is that it must be used carefully as it poses particular risks of  redistribution  of metals ”

“ Chelators have the effect of mobilizing metals from tissues and maintaining the chelate moiety during circulation to the kidneys for excretion in the urine, and to the liver for excretion in the bile.  There are significant concerns related to enterohepatic recirculation and reabsorption in the kidney

Another consideration is solubility of the chelate, in water and in lipids.  Aqueous solubility facilitates transport within the blood and excretion via the kidney, while a lipophilic chelator may exhibit greater penetration of cellular membranes  (including those within the central nervous system)  to chelate intracellular elements ”

ala cuts the trunks with its  "chelated"  mercury

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its all to do with the role of sulphur in the body as the main  "glue"  !

so its pretty powerful stuff and chelators like ALA are actually two sulphur molecules arranged in a claw like fashion, so its the real super glue !

it is particularly adept at picking up mercury and this is where you get the problem, while it has a tight grip of the mercury, its not quite tight enough and so the mercury drops off again and causes more damage and this seems to be particularly so in the brain and kidneys !

the worse way to take ALA is as a large single daily dose which is what some multi supplements provide, dr. andy cutler has a  "frequent dose"  protocol which consists of taking it every couple of hours which he claims gets around this problem by having plenty of ALA in the blood to pick up the mercury when it drops off again !

in my view that doesnʼt work and i have seen so many people with wrecked health from  "chelating"  that its not funny and the worse thing is they hang about on web message boards telling people how wonderful it is !

so thatʼs another thing to be very cautious of on the web, endless  "sickies"  with supplement programs that just rot the brain pushing very hard how wonderful what they do is, it really poisons the net health scene .  . of course the real life supplement scene is just as crazy . .  as is  "medicine"  when it comes to supplements and diet

to reply to you  (ed.  reddit supplements)  will cost me several downvotes which shows those people are here, they just canʼt stand any realism about their getting things very wrong supplement wise

if they were really right then they would be able to handle what i say with counter arguments and well tested experience and not hide in the shadows downvoting what they donʼt like to think about . .

anyway thereʼs this huge extra dimension of sulphur based supplements which include ALA, MSM, NAC, glutathione promoters, cysteine and the degree of heavy metal mobilisation that has to be factored in, some are ok in small quantities  (not the recommended quantities)  like MSM

i really advise against  chelation  but you just have to work things out yourself, basically of the above sulphur compounds i will occasionally take small amount of MSM and thatʼs about it . .

maybe in some contexts like having no mercury fillings and eating only small fish, small doses of ALA are beneficial for blood sugar problems, i donʼt know, but caution is needed is what i am saying !

to me the big issue is that people are taking ALA in supplements, not realizing that they are also doing the large single daily dose chelation protocol !

you need to understand the implications of that . .

NAC while not a chelator also has issues imo because of its  "sulphuriness" !

intellectually lazy and entitled is your generation  !

intellectually lazy and entitled is your generation  !

intellectually lazy and entitled is your generation !

intellectually lazy and entitled is your generation

jason  writes

i had corn chips and ketchup same day you noticed  lanaʼs  diet

i think i bought the ketchup because i pretty much only know how to make stew in the pressure cooker and i wanted to make the food more enjoyable

sustained health problems i find are additive, bit of this, that, all adding the wrong way, when you have a substantial health issue that is not resolving then you have to look again at a lot of things you have taken for granted as being right !

true folate is a co factor for B-12, if you take one then you need to ensure either your diet is adequate for the other or supplement it !

supplement bottle recommended doses and rdaʼs can be quite different, be careful  !

supplement bottle recommended doses and rdaʼs can be quite different, be careful !

supplement bottle recommended doses and rdaʼs can be quite different, be careful

a much better translation of the  ‘ gateless gate ’  is   ‘ gateless barrier ’  !

a much better translation of the  ‘ gateless gate ’  is   ‘ gateless barrier ’

someone asked zen master huanglong huinan

it is said that someone who is uncontrived and unconcerned is still hindered by golden chains  —  what is wrong ?

huanglong replied

when an edict enters the public domain, it canʼt be withdrawn for nine years

my comment

when some-one is promoting that sort of bullshit as valid, its irreversible, a product of a conventional viewpoint and there is no hope, this is the sort of person the concept of reincarnation was invented for ,  n o t   i n   t h i s   l i f e t i m e

thereʼs something happening within the  sun  that is a deep  sinusoid    !

thereʼs something happening within the sun that is a deep sinusoid !

thereʼs something happening within the sun that is a deep sinusoid

my experience with feral cat families is quite different from peopleʼs experience of domestic cats, let me say its all  projection

zakaj writes

i have no doubt  blockchain  technology will one day be mainstream and used by virtually everybody

my reply

yeah for sure, but imo security is always an  issue

look what happened with  ethereum

you are pretending to a knowledge, experience and insight you donʼt have ,  a con artist who has conned himself / themselves

you are pretending to a knowledge  experience and insight you donʼt have ,  a con artist who has conned himself / themselves

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my reply to a reddit askdocs on a short period of loss of sight in the left  eye

“ visual performance of the vertebrate eye requires large amounts of oxygen, and thus the retina is one of the highest oxygen-consuming tissues of the body ”

also from the same study

“ oxygen is supplied to the retina by the hemoglobin of the blood

the degree of vascularization of the retina differs among mammals

in the mouse and most other species  (including  man ) ,  the inner parts are nourished by the central retinal vessels, whereas the outer parts are supplied via the pigment epithelium by capillaries of the choroidal circulation.

blood capillaries do not reach the retinal layers of photoreceptor cells directly. therefore, oxygen delivered by the blood has to diffuse over large distances to reach e.g. the photoreceptor compartments ”  which is a possible explanation for the retention of the pea sized central vision !

lana del rey ,  musical  genius ,  interesting life and approach  !

“ i was lonely but i had this teacher who was my only friend in school.  his name was gene.  he read us  ‘ leaves of grass ’  and we read  ‘ lolita ’  in class ,  and it  changed  my world, which was a really solitary world.  i didnʼt have a connection to anyone in class and when i found these writers, i knew they were my people ”

sepehr  replies

lana del rey a musical genius ?  are you kidding me ?

you have great taste in film and literature, but i wish i could say the same thing about music

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its not about taste, its about penetrating surfaces

there are several good interviews with her on the web, why not research her a bit before coming to an opinion !

musically her output is uneven, from very good to obviously plagiarized . .

this unevenness is so autistic, a savant singer and ex alcoholic and now compulsive smoker, cancer is in her future for sure !

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“ bags of corn chips strewn across the floor.  even her laptop has been doused in tomato ketchup ”

leaky gut and viral  journalists  !

when your competition is doing you a favour, donʼt interrupt them  !

when your competition is doing you a favour, donʼt interrupt them

the better you understand women and the female, the less you will be victimized by your genes !

the more you understand women the less you will be victimized by your genes !

you are being too fragmented by other people  !

you are being too  fragmented  by other people

you are being too fragmented by other people

we are all on a long road to nowhere

thinking we are going somewhere

we are all on a long road to nowhere

zen, a long road to nowhere

zen a long road to nowhere

“ my old psychiatrist told me she had a lot of patients who loved buffy, and we theorized that she is the patron saint of the mad

she has been  ‘ chosen ’  to fight all these demons that nobody else believes in, and if she talks to anyone about it, they’ll just lock her up

but if she stops, well, we’ll all die ”

when you look  closely  at  “ stairway to heaven ”  versus  “ taurus ”  they are too different to be a copyright infringement

stairway is derivative, but actually so different as to be an esthetic improvement perhaps ?

i remember some people on reddit zen a while back attempting to copy my style and post spacing, they just couldnʼt manage the semantic half, and it was easy to satirize them

its interesting that we now have the problem with john martinʼs editorial bowdlerization of charles bukowskiʼs previously unpublished poetry, a great literary crime, john should have stuck to footnotes, its a bummer that such a thing has happened, dulled the sharp edge of charlesʼs wit !

“ the retina IS the brain   —   a little detached piece of brain ”

quote  by lisa renzi-hammond

to live in solitude is to live without comfort or its illusion  !

to live in solitude is to live without comfort  or its illusion  !

to live in solitude is to live without comfort or its illusion  !

to live in solitude is to live without comfort  or its illusion !

to live in solitude is to live without comfort  or its illusion

audio

a waning gibbous almost last quarter moon

an almost clear sky with some faint cloud around and over the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference r ea ll y

a waning gibbous almost third quarter moon

an almost clear sky with some faint cloud around and over the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference r ea ll y

a waning gibbous almost last quarter moon

a clear sky except some faint cloud around and over the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference r ea ll y

a waning gibbous almost third quarter moon

a clear sky except some faint cloud around and over the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference r ea ll y

a waning gibbous almost last quarter moon

a clear sky except some faint cloud around and over the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference really

a waning gibbous almost third quarter moon

a clear sky except some faint cloud around and over the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference really

a gibbous almost half moon

a clear sky except some faint cloud around the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference really

a gibbous almost half moon

a clear sky except some faint cloud around the moon

like brush marks across it

makes no difference r ea lly

the stock in trade of women is the manipulation of men 

jason   w r i t e s

iʼve been playing soccer lately and itʼs been good exercise, iʼve also been avoiding heading the ball like when a corner kick is taken iʼll step out of the box

i was good when i was young and sort stooped down as i got older, i think it was the competitive aspect that was unrelentless week after week so since it's just for fun now i can enjoy it more the running is good, it will be difficult for me to get into long distance running but with soccer itʼs very fun while also getting the running in

iʼd be happier with it if i didnʼt have to be in contact with potentially viral people, could be 22 people in a game

i got a bike helmet too so i can bike to work, about a half hour, thing is i like to relax for a half hour at home before work . .

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everything has a flaw, you can get the benefit without the flaw by just making a change in the way you do things that slips unnoticed through the system, like not doing the head butting as it has been shown to cause traumatic brain injury !

“ if you actually compare the brains of people who have taken lots of  sub-concussive  hits to ones that have taken a single big hit, the sub-concussive brains often look worse ”

also jason, where you are living, being hyper aware of ticks and not getting lymeʼs  !

you can look at a thing as right or wrong or you can pull it apart to get what you want  !

the switch click contacts on my mouse were getting worn so i bought another but unbelievably they had shortened the cord by 12cm compared to the old cord !

so i opened up the mice and was able to swap the old cord into the new mouse and i also removed the wheel spring as i usually do so it spins freely !

erratic or unwanted screen scrolling can be a symptom of fluff masking the wheel optics, you just open the mouse and vacuum the fluff off the wheel !

another trick is to get power supplies with japanese capacitors like the antec neoECO as they are much better quality and the power supplies last way longer with the output standing up better when the power fluctuates !

you can look at a thing as right or wrong or you can pull it apart to get what you want  !

you can look at a thing as right or wrong or you can pull it apart to get what you want

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there is a level of falseness and lack of real world synchronicity to  “ the raft ”  that detracts or rather renders the story false  and lacking depth/shallow   ̱   ̱ .  ! 

sepher  replies

i agree with you that the wreck of the zephyr, maxfield parrishʼs artwork, and the gardens of abdul gasazi did a better job of pointing to a  “ a secret well beyond our normal understanding . . . ,  some resting between the horns of the moon and circumambulation of any number of known and unknown universes with infinities light ”  they do a better job of inducing that sense of   “ magical wonder ”  in children

granted, the raft wasnʼt that bad, and it encouraged children to get solitude in natural scenery and express their experiences through artwork.  the raft is meant to represent the imagination of a child and how it is used as a canvas to draw from their experiences

there is a level of falseness and lack of real world synchronicity to  “ the raft ”  that detracts or rather renders the  story  false  and lacking depth/shallow   ̱   ̱ .  ! 

but actually driving in town with the restricted visibility of rain and fogged side and back windows is quite stressful and without extra care, more dangerous .  ̱   ̱ 

  and getting wet shoes and clothing   ̱   ̱ 

  as it turned it it was wetter in town than up at home . .

  all in all an experience to be avoided  .

i was in east devonport today and got a haircut ,  the hairdresser was a very heavily tattooed young woman and she had  ‘ a tickle in her throat ’  that   ‘ wouldnʼt go away ’ ,  she was coughing and complained/said that nothing worked for it

the reason tattoos last is the body treats the inks as an infection that it canʼt get rid of ,  not a good basis for health !

this young woman also had thick facial skin makeup on, she was attractive and the overall effect was to very much detract from that and i wondered what was going on with her !

it was a good haircut  !

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i think i was looking beyond the surface, she was viral, ocd and on  “ the autistic spectrum ”

the degree of tattooing was extreme, in fact i wondered if the heavy facial makeup was to cover some on her face ?

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the more you understand women the less you will be victimized by your genes !

i think the thing about charles bukowski and women, is they taught him how the world really works . .

“ what is death ? ”

“ what is death ? ”

you asked a question

killed

for

  this