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real
woman
who
does
something
not
the
twisting
turning
fakes
of
snakes
thatcoil
n
t
h
e
m
s
e
l
v
e
s
over the years i have noticed that many people seemed removed from any form of reality of vengeance about injury to themselves or their children, particularly parents of children vaccine injured, never an impolite word to the doctor that was responsible
and these coiling toxic women (and men !) on hello poetry so ready with the fake american emotionality that seems de rigueur to sustain the destructive emotional enviroment of unreal projection over the real that keeps their lives twisted into a malfunctional insanity
here's
to
you
susana
a
real
woman
and
parent !
Did not feel right today.
He really was not himself.
He had change in some way.
O why he thought.
Why can today, not be yesterday
to me he's creating an unecessary burden of himself having to change,
removing himself from the change process
so it's not really happening
He had change in some way.
that's actually a good line cause it gets the dual sense of having changed and having to change
felt
right
today
changed
himself
today = yesterday
knock 'em down and build them up : o )
female
way
of dealing
with
the
male !
female
way
of dealing
with
the
male !
female
way
of dealing
with
the
male !
this
a
poem?
no
it's
not
yes
it
is
no
i
t
s
.
.
.
.
....
quite
different
from
15 years ago !
different
from
15 years ago !
expect
a bit
more
from
poetry
wallowing
in
comforting
emotion
or
you
can
use
it
to
steer
you
through
the
rocky
passage
of
life
and
insight !
description of reality
if you don't think women are capable of writing anything else then look at emily dickinson !
“what alovely and gracious reply ”
these swine
too spewy to have any sort of functional real life
let
loose
the
effluent
here !
egoism
female
egoism
an
endless
blind
to
reality !
misguide another generation?
it
matter
no
.
.
what sorts the sheep from the goats on the “spiritual” path?
it's the ability to tolerate hurt constructively !
only ever met about 2 or 3 people that could handle this !
my reply to
i think love is different for men, not so consuming by along way, and the matter of interest is the continual female expectation of some completion of perfect love though this never seems to occur except in romeo and juliet which is perhaps the strength of sir henry neville's play !
over the years in my writing i have continually made the point that i don't write about men in a critical way or much at all, not because they are perfect, but they are really the “second sex” duller and greyer and not that worth writing about !
evolution invests energy in the male and female in different ways, males are disposable, but they can reach greater heights because of the much wider genetic spread that is part of their evolutionary sexual differentiation !
for those that don't know, sir henry neville really wrote shakespeare
the young female mind is extraordinarily raw which i guess is to be expected from the neural pruning and reorganization of the brain that is occurring, a process some recent research i read said was as substantial a change as the metamorphosis of a butterfly pupae, except the beauty is probably in reverse !
with both sexes openness and a spirit of intellectual inquiry is lost in the later pre puberty neural prunings and especially in puberty of course, and replaced by a very predatory animal !
women
and
girls
writing
about
love
and
love
and
love
what
completion
are
they
seeking
except
an
inroad
to
hell
or
is
it
the
illusion
that
it's
heaven ?
so
thick
it
doesn't
work
the holy time is quiet as a nun
breathless with adoration; the broad sun
is sinking down in its tranquillity;
the gentleness of heaven broods on the sea:
listen! the mighty being is awake
and doth with his eternal motion make
a sound like thunder everlastingly
dear child! dear girl! that walkest with me here,
if thou appear untouched by solemn thought,
thy nature is not therefore less divine:
thou liest in abraham's bosom all the year;
and worshipp'st at the temple's inner shrine,
god being with thee when we know it not.
he returned to visit annette to make arrangements for her and for their child, caroline, who was now a ten-year-old girl. this poem is thought to have originated from a real moment in wordsworth's life, when he walked on the beach with the daughter he had not known for a decade. ”
hard
to
get
to
grips
with
the
endless
schizophrenia
of
this
world
hard
to
get
to
grips
with
the
endless
schizophrenia
of
this
world !
it's
hard
to
get
to
grips
with
the
endless
schizophrenia
of
this
world
to be entirely this crappy species would mean life was completely without redemption !
my
reply
lol you are hard work !
i don't think i have used that exact phrase ever
what i am concerned with is the direct seeing of infinity or god which poetry can occasionally manage
if you
“believe” then you fundamentally disbelieve in this direct contact which is actually the religious position
people's lives in general are too busy and noisy for any sort of real appreciation of this contact or seeing
i am sort of used to it, but really people who have no clues about it blather on endlessly.....................
of
sense
would
know
what
i
am
talking
about !
what i do believe in is the eternal con artistry and stupidity of humans
the point is that there is no absolute truth per say but the process of imagination, investigation and testing, normative reality makes a claim for things being true as a given or belief and one has long since parted company with that : o )
have
been
injured
by
those
that
cared
for
me
and
helped
by
those
who
hated
me !
never
found
rest
in
people
they
are
too
distracting
solitude
is
a
different
matter !
it shows how much of aproblem catholics have with a very obviously gay pope (benedict xvi)
(ed. the deletion of this response on hello poetry !)
long tradition, the jesuits have always been paedophiles
i wasnever aware of it really until i saw a guy holding a boy's hand in the devonport library
i think it's just a brain crossed wiring thing, like gay it's an extreme of men and women who mother children well and this means more successful surviving children
not being judgemental on gay or paedophila tho paedophilia obviously really messes with children's behavior and minds !
does it ever cross anyones mind that dogen just wrote a bunch of crap ?
that it's meaningless stupidity ?
does
zen
make
mice
or
nuts ?
grey
pale
emaciated
mange
ridden
mice?
does
zen
make
mice ?
or
nuts
grey
pale
emaciated
mange
ridden
mice?
well hello poetry is abit of a revelation, not the usual negative twits in 99.99% of life who can't handle anything that makes them think or is disruptive to their views
nouthing, i like that it's a good word, combines nothing and mouthing !
should
suck
you
out
of
yourself
turn
you
inside
out
and
you
back
processed
am i responding too personally each time when it's really just effective writing
look each person is a separate universe and the freshness of a new view is to see into a different universe
that's exciting
what we know well is not
from
religion
it's
like
a
bad
marriage
do
you
ever
leave ?
zen
and
religion
is
not
some
sort
of
an
answer it's
more
of
a
problem !
zen's
not
some
sort
of
an
answer it's
more
of
a
problem !
if you are out in the dark you have to be aware of this panic tendency and look rationally about what can and is actually occurring
never watch horror or any sort of occult movies because they can can fill the fears with looney nonsense
one trick with potential human threat is to look at the amount of light on you and make an evaluation of how far away you can be seen from !
night
is
lovely
sweet
and
dark
pierced
by
starlight
illumed
by
moonlight
one can tread
the
roaring
river
of
the
milky
way !
religion is a nightmare, but so is life : o )
francis bacon with his pope innocent x paintings are interesting
he does look a bit of a shifty shit doesn't he?
martin luther was not the best thing that ever happened to germany, bit of a disaster area actually !
the formation of a distinctly “german” religion as opposed to the european sense of the holy roman empire gave rise to too distinct a sense of national identity !
some children seem to do everything possible to keep themselves dependent on their parents : o )
i think humans have always been pretty murderous, with constant inter-village warfare like in new guinea
is
cruel
but
so
is
life
ed. suzanne foxton being somewhat or infinitely tardy in passing this on her blog
zen has been gutted by advaita, already the ratio of advaita to zen teachers is about 30 to one and they are generally more competent and better quality tho just as misguided in the ultimate analysis as what passes as zen
this just shows how fucked the transmission system is since advaita teachers are generally self appointed and it seems to generate better though far from complete authenticity !
brad warner, thich nhat hanh, genpo, reggie ray, nishijima might as well as play golf they are so far off the target in terms of what it is about !
anyway it's all changed and the limited energy zen had is gone except for the 7th patriarch!!!!!!!!!!
i think zen is particularly hamstrung by the subservience to dogen as he was wrong more often than not and the problems with zazen inducting a semi hypnotic state and thrombosis !
it's a sign of the failure of zen for you personally adam tebbes that you may not permit this post on sweeping zen !
(ed. i have assumed he won't permit it so just put it up here, and in actual fact i don't want the arguments with morons , or wasting my time educating ungrateful twits)
btw don't be browbeaten by idiots like genkaku (genkacku!) who are are part of the grey souless travesty zen has become, authentically inauthentic and only exist by virtue of censorship and suppressed opinion which are an anathema to the the web !
men are “ after the event ” or in a servant role and that is the way our brains are designed and it's hard to defeat it
you are one of the few men i have seen to complain about the situation, most just seem blind breeding servants of various competences in dimensionally different ways !
the
wave
is
seen
from
behind
it
turns
black !
zen
dull
grey
men
sperm
in
their
balls
just
watery
fluid !
a
lot
of
things
you
can
start
off
wrong
but
make
it
right
by
going
the
extra
mile
twice !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
R
3
times !
it's
gruelling
though !
sweeping zen is despicable and always has been, a patsy of everything that is wrong with zen ! transmission, stupid teachers, absolute suck arse, why do you devote your life to it! eat poverties cock adam tebbe, why devote your life to subsidizing crap?
there's abig difference to being broke in a good rather than a bad cause !
actually i think brad hit a nerve with adam tebbe, as brad pointed out some zen teachers are quite commercial and making money and there is the pathetic adam tebbe pissing his life away promoting zen for practically free which these guys garner the financial benefit from !
there's something wrong with you adam, your writing is dark in the sense of being dead like a washed up corpse on the beach !
drug use? i don't know, something vibrant gone and you now pollute the world with this corpse called sweeping zen
adam, this is pretty well the severest criticism i have made of anyone, there may be others as or more deserving but you seem to have copped it, i do think you have a major life issue in a way that is extreme, i have seen plenty of huge ratbages, but you are in the unique class of twits who subsidise the work of nuts, idiots and the malign
volunteering their lives away on supporting the hopeless, hopelessness squared !
anyway i would suggest you contact me for a discussion about what i have written, the door is open, if you don't contact me or reply on the 7th patriarch blog you are the one who has shut it !
i
have
stated
previously
the
7th
zen
patriarch
blog
comments
are
uncensored !
if
there's
no
replies
it's
cause
they
are
too
scared
or
haven't
read
it
so
much
for
these
modern
days
adepts !
reggie ray and genpo and brad warner, all conspicuous by the absence of replies !
me
wrong
but
that is
proof
positive
you
are
not
adepts
not
replying
when
addressed
by
name
too
worried
about
how
you
look
well
what
is
zen
about
male
perspective
is
not
sufficient
the
female
perspective
is
needed
a
s
well !
black !
evening
a
quiet
sea
looking
at
the
waves
from
behind
sweeping
a
quiet
sea
looking
at
the
waves
from
behind
falling
black !
it's much clearer to me what advaita is
it's people like you (ed. suzanne foxton) who are busy and don't really have the time or have never put the time in for reflection or that deep quietude overyears and months that shows an absolute face to eternity that shows the “just as they are ” advaita patois to be nonsense!
like zen really, some false sense of absolute reality is constructed (samadhi in zen's case) and this is the answer and they never do any real work looking across time and the very good quality writings like sa'di's “the rose garden ” which is needed to widen the perspective
congradulations on permitting my posts, every “spiritual board ” or blog bans me at some point because i am authentic and they are not !
this might seem immodest to say but it is the reality !
sir henry neville is agood example of the difference which is really the weeks and over the months i have spent sorting it out that i am 100% certain he wrote those plays and poems, you can't do that but i have the advantage in the certainty and knowing how it is and until you put that work in, you are forever looking from the outside wondering what is true?!
in the end it's priority and your family and life is your first priority and probably rightly, however we are always on the edge of malfunction which renders everything pointless ....
wether you get to the next step of a deeper humility about what you don't know and some realism about the difference between what you actually do and what is needed seems unlikely, tho my advice again is to try and get more in touch with nature, natural scenery, walks etc
advaita is destructive to you
pilate
had
it
right !
is
truth ?
the gospel of thomas
is a better way to read jesus !
more
to
life
than
advaita
quite
a
bit
more
better
be !
t
e
n
d
r
d
r
i
l
l
s
hello poetry actually has quite agood wysiwyg editor !
hearts can be wrong too ! often !
to
see
but
eventually
life
shows
it !
to
see
eventually
life
shows
it !
well if you don't research that matter you might think it wrote itself
again if you research it you realise it's not a mystery anymore
as sir henry neville wrote “as chimney-sweepers, come to dust”
there's work involved in sorting anything out and that includes “being awakened ” and not passing the time writing the usual advaita clichés like “it's all this ” or some other nonsense !
everything may be a manifestation of the divine , but that's along way from being divine!
could you at least show some sign you are understanding what i write and not just flicking it off with pat/tart replies!
oh, i forgot, clichés and tart replies are just as it is
warner
this
is
nothing
personal
and
everything
personal
but
zen
was a
complete
disaster
for
you
hang
up
your
teaching
certificate
and
stop
doing
zazen
you
have
been
deregistered
anyway !
fraught
fraught
into this kind of love
we've reached this
world where there's only two of us
this place that really belongs
to us
where
others have abandoned
and left disappointed
in this faraway world
it's hard not to want
to be held by your beloved
until sleep befalls
to share the same dream with him
into a kind of love
reach this
only two people in the world
this really belongs to us
place
this
others have been disappointed
abandoned land
in this distant world
want to be loved
embrace to fall asleep
with him a dream
變成這樣的愛
到達了這個
只有兩個人的世界
這個真的屬於我們
的地方
這片
別人已失望的
遺棄了的地
在這遙遠的世界
可想被心愛的
擁抱著入睡
與他同一個夢
warner
this
is
nothing
personal
and
everything
personal
but
zen
was a
complete
disaster
for
you
hang
up
your
teaching
certificate
you
have
been
deregistered
anyway !
a poet once went on a journey with his dog;
he had no money either.
my
reply
and the man
starved
and
the
money
starved
for
want
of
being
spent ? !
yeah, when you see the way the stupid rich spend it and the way the talented have to starve !
mills
and
boon
funny how the inbetween bits are not mentioned ; o )
that hyper female focus on courtship and her power to pull the male in !
is
a
reboundarying
of
self
wonder
it's
a
process !
is
a
reboundarying
of
self
no
wonder
it's
a
process !
youth, you fall in love and spend the rest of your life unwinding that error !
it's a reply, were you after a translation of, or phrasing of the original ?
my reply translates as love is the endless pursuit of the unattainable
or
love is the endless pursuit of infinity
a rendering of the chinese you quote or write is
reaching
beyond
this
the
two
of
us
can't
escape
nowhere
really belongs to us
disappointment
abandonment
distance
famishing
love
i
embrace
him
in
a
dream !
by angie c.
have been beyond the like
by angie c
愛情是高不可攀的永無止境的追求
i
don't
know
what
i
was
or
where
i
am
going
to !
which is needed
more wild in the right way
it's actually putting ourselves on paper and we change when that happens
certainty
is
being
right
can
be
insistent
but
not
right
and
that's
not
really
certainty !
a literal vision
of course one can question the validity of the vision
there's definitely another reality is what it says
more real and true than this
no difference from ocean beach at strahan
or my vision of the sixth patriarch as a sprite above the trees just north of tullah
just comes in different ways and moods
it just gives complete certainty, thats all
that what we call reality is not final or the end or even the beginning
hey dogen knows about patriarch to patriarch transmission like i got !
in the chapter called shiso (the certificate of succession) in the shobogenzo he writes
“ buddhas without exception, receive the dharma from buddhas, buddha to buddha, and patriarchs without exception receive the dharma from patriarchs, patriarch to patriarch; this is the experience of the infinite state, this is the one to one transmission and for this reason
it is the supreme state of bodhi ! ”
well well there was an understanding of this special transmission!
patriarch transmission is like a chess, it jumps through time, not like the silly and invalid succession system that i have basically disestablished
the translation is by mike luetchford from the preface (page i) of
i'm really surprised !
that
revelation
for
you
to
work
out
it's
not
the
that ”
or
the
moment
or
samadhi
the
eastern
buddhist, zen and advaita twaddle !
it
is
the
alignment
and
identity
of
sight
and
insight
with
infinity !
reality
is
schizophrenic
so
is
un-normative
if you find some-one
that agrees with you
be
suspicious !
the malnutrition is because you have not looked around enough in quality literature but wasted your time in, shall we say unredeeming films, videos and that sort of thing !
it's so hard to get the spare time for the necessary solitude, you just can't afford to waste it and set yourself back with imbibing rubbish !
also you need to get in touch with nature and natural surroundings, the uk has alot to offer
health is another basic, i have extensive writings on diet and supplementation
fish oil for instance !
it's not that the “ all covers up all ”, but reality is the exclusion of all, that is what the awakening experience shows and you have lost sight of that, perhaps looking for some security, social acceptance or potential income in advaita
it is so hard to make sense of the awakening experience because the information out there and what people say is so wrong and schizophrenic !
it's full of pretenders!
the natural human condition is schizophrenia, you are the one who is sane, why buy and sell yourself into the schizophrenia ?
lol rick archer of batgap!
tess hughes talks about humility, but the trouble is, everyone who talks about humility needs to know
what it is !
the “non dual” or advaita palaver is a good cover but in the end it's just a cover and when it comes off, the malnutrition is revealed !
“ the world is not a better place for there being lesss fraud in it !? ”
maybe it is a better place !
“ the world is not a better place for there being lesss fraud in it ! ? ”
maybe it is a better place !
i think ramana is more on the ball but nisargadatta is not, he's more a failed philosopher !
i worry more about people not close to me and i think i am worrying less now
interesting little twist that
on sir henry neville versus shakespeare
look if you enjoy his writings you want to sort it out, i have spent literally a whole week working on this and rereading his plays, what have you done/ let me guess...
that sir henry neville wrote the plays and poems makes it all much more fun and intelligible
“ can curses pierce the clouds and enter heaven ? ”
it's quite interesting
and has a interesting philosophical viewpoint
you can really see sir henry neville's life in it
well acting is abit of a hopeless business
i mean patsy rodenberg will be expensive and the pupils need huge individual input
cause that's what the video showed, the young woman was not a natural actor and needing a lot of guidance
think
your
poetry
helped
me
appreciate
you
more
run
mention
the
words
damage !
run ?
mention
the
words
damage !
mention
the
words
vaccine
damage !
