that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here

pending poems  index

chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page

audio files are best listened to  with the eyes closed !

the layout is done with the internet explorer text size setting at  largest  and with a zoom of 125%, and my text rendering is done for these settings though they should be somewhat tolerant of a zoom setting or two up or down

that division was essential

for the sanity

   of the absolute : o)

songs

of

the

ocean

are

already

there

for

me

deleting all the comments that showed you up!

wanking osho the con artist

   while the real zen you remove : o)

you never hear anything

cause you are caught up in the dream

of yourselves understanding something

   when you are just wanking : o)

    philip glass's problem actually  : o )

is he is neither authentic

or accepted

which is a sort of

   jumanji stupidity : o)

untold millions on the web and in life,

never done an ounce of real work

of what it's about in their lives

and lacking any

fundamental testing of hypotheses,

they're just schizophrenic !

are so limited

they only read

and respond to

what they like and agree with,

or within certain limits of agreement,

(like i bet he never will reply here)

and spout voynich

thinking they are doing something real,

what good does it do them

except gratify a deluded vanity

hints in his newer post,

you have to go through the holocast

and survive

to see what it about,

suburban living just teaches clichés

like i'm pretty schizophrenic myself,

but there is

aline of truth out of it,

yet retaining

all the same features

which alter

into something sacred

for eric

is for him to be honest

with himself

  and realise he's not there !

i have seen make any money

apart from other sophisticated fraudsters

like osho/rajneesh, maharishi etc.,

there's no money in it,

everyone thinks you are crazy anyway,

this  is basically a description of the enlightenment experience

and sorta parallel to david deutsch's  constructor  theory,

basically a universe is being created

from what is and isn't possible,

but that is all possibility as per constructor theory

and since it is all the real and unreal

then it is infinity

the expansion

of this unique and special universe,

maybe a paper bag

with some drawings on

   that become meaningful when the bag is blown up  : o )

i wasn't sleeping well and the food wasn't any good,

i don't actually think we can experience the full supernovae

and remain physically alive,

so there is some necessary detuning

   or dimming of the full explosion  : o )

you need to pull or  “deform”  the expansion a bit

to get that 100% alignment that doesn't kill you,

which is really what the practical side is about

and where the work is

and when it occurs is utterly unbelievable

and it is a process of 20 years

and more

to work out what has happened

saying they have such an experience

when they have some made up nonsense

or otherwise deluded themselves

at

best

fleeting

fictions !

apparently he prefers the company of  adults  to peers

        a penance for being childless : 0 )

god they take all the day's energy

they are so different from adults

with their hard protective shells

going out to buttons beach

along from the surf club,

i had been further down

out on the point

and just sat listening and watching

what was a quiet sea

then came back to my car after dark

and these poplars by the stream

were rustling and i looked up

and thought that the poplars

were sorta city like

with their branches and leaves,

sorta organic and busy in a way,

    but it was quiet and i was quiet  : o )

even the experience
of being out of the now,
if that were possible,
would be happening now.
now cannot be escaped or avoided.

and because all concepts of past and future,
before and after, yesterday and tomorrow,
then and now,
happen now too,
now knows nothing outside of itself,
no boundary, no opposite, no 'other'.
it is prior to time.
it is the place
where concepts of 'now' dissolve....
into a silent, wordless wow.

down with their bull shit.

in actual fact it's the identity

or alignment of concepts

with what's true,

now  knows something outside itself and boundary,

    whatever.............

        and  after time  and  is time ...............

i don't think jeff asks for uncritical acclaim,

it's a great strength of his

that he looks to improve his understanding

by looking at differing opinions,

you are not taking the right lesson from him : o)

with the rubik cube

of the neo-advaita terminology/vocabulary

but the actual identity and contact with infinity !

god, now, brahma, whatever,

but they don't believe it

and write their own ideas

and the infinite wellspring

of creative thought and action bubbles

away from them as they meander

  through the mirage of water : o)

it is not facility with the rubik cube of the neo-advaita terminology/vocabulary but the actual identity and contact with infinity !

basically people say infinity, god, now, brahma, whatever, but they don't believe it and write their own ideas and the infinite wellspring of creative thought and action bubbles away from them as they meander through the mirage of water : o)

jeff

says

something

i

respond

: o )

i don't think

except

in

pink

and

fluffy

yup

brain

is

truely

duffy

if

you're

reading

this

don't

get

huffy

: o )

but one doesn't have to

so earnestly strive

to be dumb

on jeff fosters facebook page

extremely autistic

and not without sense actually !

keep your minds from dwelling on anything whatsoever:

keep them forever still as the void and utterly pure (without stain):

and thereby spontaneously attain deliverance.

don't be hasty

and look

to both sides

of what occurs

and what is

your true benefit

you just end up like the goldfish

“ vacant ”

it's weird i listened to it beginning to end without interruption !

i hope she also gets the opportunity to play

and compose with a synthesiser !

there is something indefinable

and not boundaryable

about them

  is sorta only a perception of fractals,

in fact they are not

and because of this

      that influences must be infinitely fast  –

or that there exists some process

that has an equivalent effect

when viewed in our spacetime.

the current test couldn't distinguish.

either way, it would mean that the universe

is fundamentally nonlocal,

in the sense that every bit of the universe

can be connected to any other bit anywhere, instantly

that such connections are possible

defies our everyday intuition

and represents another extreme solution,

but arguably preferable

  to faster-than-light communication ”

“ our result gives weight  

to the idea that quantum correlations

somehow arise from outside spacetime,

in the sense that no story

in space and time can describe them ”

the entirety of our or any imagined possible universe

is apoint or vertice on another dimension

which makes everything unimaginabley vast,

which is of course what infinity is,

a multi dimension of fractal expanding

and exploding in very direction

being present, the ocean, the moment, radical, separate,

intimacy, who am i?, “the now”

it's all just an investment in vocabulary

completely devoid of the real creativity

that is and signals true contact

about practically

wether one's up to par or not,

  how far would that go?

those who do not know say

and those who do not know

  don't know : o)

the

maintenance

of

certain

illusions

is

it ?

relationship is dependent

the

maintenance

of

certain

illusions

spinning and digging

the wheel deeper

it's like a stuck car spinning and digging the wheel deeper

which occurs endlessly

as simply illustrating

that the whole notion of teacher

and what is being taught

is a fraud?

  it's all just some endless reproductive voynich?

more  fraud?

actually, i think it's all some sort of artifact

of modern contraception !

prior to this there would have been lots of little sogyals

running around the ashram/temple/center

with different mothers

and they would have all had to keep up apublic front

    in the common interest   : o )

it's all just some endless reproductive voynich? more  fraud?

actually, i think it's all some sort of artifact of modern contraception !

prior to this there would have been lots of little sogyals running around the ashram/temple/center with different mothers and they would have all had to keep up apublic front in the common interest   : o )

the  dual mating  hypothesis

beyond

the

horizon

beyond

the

horizon

tapped

a mirror

with

my

beak

i looked

a

little

closer

and

what

did

i

see

tapped

a mirror

with

my

beak

i looked

a

little

closer

and

what

did

i

see

insanities convinced

just

goes

on

and

on !

we

are

caught

in

infinities

stream

just

goes

on

and

on !

don't

write

for

entertainment

though

i

can

be

entertaining

don't

write

for

entertainment

though

i

can

be

entertaining

  made way worse by incompetent  translations  : o )

a person of suchness expresses the dream within a dream.

a thing beyond suchness expresses the dream within a dream;

a person beyond suchness expresses the dream within a dream.

this understanding has been acknowledged as crystal clear.

what is called,  “ talking all day long about a dream within a dream ”,

is no other than the actual expression of the dream within a dream ”

it just amazes me that people can center their lives

around his endless bullshit,

  made way worse by incompetent  translations  : o )

a person of suchness expresses the dream within a dream.

a thing beyond suchness expresses the dream within a dream;

a person beyond suchness expresses the dream within a dream.

this understanding has been acknowledged as crystal clear.

what is called,  “ talking all day long about a dream within a dream ”,

is no other than the actual expression of the dream within a dream ”

but the dream that is the dream.............

crystal clear waters purling within the brook,

lighting the transient world with it's stillness and clarity

i

am

convinced

i

am

convinced

a

true

parting

there's

no

saying

goodbye

have

already

parted

a

true

parting

there's

no

saying

goodbye

you

have

already

parted

that the humour and absurdity of life pours through -

no need for frankie boyle here  : o )

more mystical bullshit ; o)

to a quote by r.d. laing

you're into plastering easy images aaron,

the real work you are not prepared to do

and get upset when your insufficiency

and lack of creativity is shown ; o )

a challenge, reply in a reasonable manner

and address what i say,

i have made a criticism of your pat little cliché

about the hand not being able to grasp itself

and you have called that bullshit

which is not a reply,

    but your self-disgruntlement  : o )

this work is more important to me than it will be to some-one

who needs to  “pay a ridiculous price”  to hear frankie boyle !

armenia sounds interesting  : o )

the paradigm

is to take something

that sounds good

and repeat it!

that's not what it's about,

it's the opposite of what it's about

which is freedom

and creative expression

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