this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed   !



well life always has heaps of  hassles  : o )
















well life always has heaps of  hassels  : o )
















i love the angry gay pope, had plenty of experience of that  quixote  railing myself :o )
















it's funny how the greatest painters, slavador dali, hieronymus bosch and pieter bruegel the elder have a cartoon-like aspect to their work : o)


telling


a


story


the


painting


is


secondary


to


the


story


or


theme?
















it's funny how the greatest painters, slavador dali, hieronymus bosch and pieter bruegel the elder have a cartoon-like aspect to their work : o)


telling


a


story


the


painting


is


secondary


to


the


story


or


  theme?
















it's funny how the greatest painters,  slavador dali,  hieronymus bosch  and  pieter bruegel  have a cartoon-like aspect to their work : o)
















pieter bruegel the elder


(called the peasant cause he dressed up as one to mix with them for material :o)


the  harvesters


literally going back to live in 16th century flanders/belguim !
















elieen writes


love my mum and she's going

hate feeling she needs me and i'm not there for her

don't disagree with u tho just saying it's really hard

i want to help ease her out

she's been so alone   all her life

anyway just venting sadness

Lol



my reply


aren't we all?  some feel it,  others don't
















schizophrenia, there's


mental hospitals


there's religion


and


there


is


life


in


that

order  : o)



and i am not sure that mental hospitals are not saner than religion and life : o)
















schizophrenia, there's


mental hospitals


there's religion


and


there


is


life


in


that

   order  : o)



and i am not sure that mental hospitals are not saner than religion and life : o)
















schizophrenia, there's


mental hospitals


there's religion


and


there


is


life


in


that

order : o)



:


o


)


(
















in the religious scene, there's alot of schizophrenia, masquerading


as


sanity

:


o


)


(


audio
















old people just cannot change


last flexibility is lost about 30
















what's the point of talking about truth, but being up to your neck


  in bullshit  : 0 )

:


o


)


(
















it's important not to do things, just for the sake of doing something !
















it's important not to do things, just for the sake of doing something


audio
















life is pointless, futile and cruel


readings         one            two
















advaita,  neo-advaita  and  non-duality


what is the point of talking about truth, and being up to your neck in bullshit


audio
















advaita,  neo-advaita,  non-duality  and  zen,


what's the point of talking about truth, and being up to your neck in bullshit


audio
















what's the point of talking about truth, and being up to your neck in bullshit


audio
















writing, i am caught up in something i don't understand,


endless endless reading


correcting


and


decompressing

:


o


)


(
















writing, i'm caught up in something i don't understand,


insatiable endless reading


correcting


and


decompressing


version      three
















writing, i'm caught up in something i don't understand,


insatiable endless endless reading


correcting


and


decompressing


version      two
















writing


i'm caught up


in something


i don't understand,


endless


endless


reading


correcting


and


decompressing


version      one
















writing, i'm caught up in something i don't understand,


endless endless reading


correcting


and


decompressing


version      one
















the world is full of cock,  endless  endless  penises,

 it's  enough  to  make  a   woman  sick !
















the world is full of cock,  endless endless penises,

it's enough to make a woman sick



readings        one        two
















it's just endless, quim,  multitudinous, endless, it's enough to make a man sick


audio
















an  interesting  view of risk !  : o)
















it's


a holiday


for


me


just


not


to


be hasseled

:


o


)


(
















neo-advaita or zen  it doesn't matter,  flakes and fakes  who can only sustain the illusion of their misguided self importance by banning and censoring, well if looking good is what's important to you, then that's what you get ................. :-)


well, well joan has actually asked to be left alone which is a major improvement on others, that's actually a considerable maturity, tho really quite sad, but menopause is not kind to women and i can see abit where she is coming from


why people fluff around preferring the illusory comfort my removal from their sphere gives i do not know, but one just sees it again and again as they rip themselves bloody dancing in the thorn bushes, but hey, so am i :-)


joan you are first person i have come across on the web to be honest about your personal boundaries and limitations (for your information brad warner and jeff foster were not honest at all)


when i look at my life and yours the flesh literally hangs from us with our guts ripped out, i think in respect of that and some basic honesty and skill in your approach i am going to honor your request to be left alone and please feel free to remove my posts, it is you i am talking to and not some imagined audience that i will benefit from : -)
















ramana never censored,

   he could actually handle what was brought to him :-),

   these latter day fakes who pretend to his understanding :-)

and actually if you are honest joan,

you had significant differences of opinion

with tony packer as well

regarding your understanding



i'm not telling you anything new or what you don't know
















ramana never censored, he could actually handle what was brought to him :-), these latter day fakes who pretend to his understanding :-) and actually if you are honest joan, you had significant differences of opinion with tony packer as well regarding your understanding


i'm not telling you anything new or what you don't know
















it's self taught and there should be no sticking with any teacher, being a  “vampire”  is the only way, suck tony parsons dry,      he's good but inadequate....................
















why not look at the fakeness of what you have written?

i think i'd quote hitler before mooji : -)



ed. my reply to yet another of joan tollifson's long advaita/non‑duality brown‑arseing posts

:


o


)


(
















i have no good intentions but like to expose crap : o),

you can censor if you wish

(ed. joan tollison about to ban me from her facebook page)

and it speaks more than all your polite circumlocutary verbiage,

that is you are pretending to an understanding you don't have

like the rest of the advaita/non-duality scene

and can only sustain that illusion by censoring :-),

“wake-up ”  is voynich btw :-)
















i have no good intentions but like to expose crap : o), you can censor if you wish (ed. joan tollison about to ban me from her facebook page) and it speaks more than all your polite circumlocutary verbiage, that is you are pretending to an understanding you don't have like the rest of the advaita/non-duality scene and can only sustain that illusion by censoring :-),  “wake-up ”  is voynich btw :-)
















joan, who is conceptualizing, why waste your childless life spilling the bullshit of others?












































































eileen asks


  how is being out of love more potent ?


my


reply


it's a disenfranchised state

:


o


)


(
















love is a sort of closure !

:


o


)


(
















love is a  closure


  “ ............ meaulnes stumbles upon a tumbledown chateau where a bizarre wedding party has assembled, its guests in lavish historical costume.


there he encounters a beautiful young woman, but afterwards he finds it impossible to locate the strange estate, and the mysterious girl.


before his search comes to an end, a bungled suicide will leave one character disfigured; a brief affair in Paris will lead a young woman to the streets. ”
















being out of love is more opening and potent than being in love

:


o


)


(
















interesting  interview  about warhol he wasn't untalented but his product was commercial with the associated limitations, but who wants to starve except neo‑advaita and non dual teachers :o)


warhol  quotes,   interesting to compare to the dalai lama's bilge and spaced out rumi


my god van gogh's life is a revelation, poisoned by the heavy metals in his paints ! : o(


maybe syphilis as well?
















the advaita cliché of  “everything is exactly as it should be...it couldn't be otherwise”  is actually quite damaged and nutty and a typical misperception, what is misperceived in this case is that  “what occurs is true”,  there is some some fundamental reality underlying that which is very far from the idea that everything is exactly as it should be which is some soppy americanization of islamic and hindu fatalism : o)


advaita, neo-advaita and non-duality is so thick with schizophrenia, nutty spaced out and untested hypotheses and the chucking and catching of toxic balls of nonsense like they were thoughtfully arranged bouquets of flowers rather than the lurid farcical dioxin laced  andy warholism's  they are has made me really question the world i guess, that it occurs is true and so the world is like this, but one personally doesn't have to buy into it or support it like the teaching flakes like jeff foster do !
















humans are sheep

anything that takes them out of the paddock upsets them ! 
















humans are sheep, anything that takes them out of the paddock upsets them!


audio
















two interesting men


philip dormer  stanhope,  4th earl of chesterfield


and henry ward beecher  ( quotes )  who was quite an insightful  hypocrite  : o)


no wonder he was so talented, his sister was  harriet beecher stowe  author of uncle tom's cabin !
















the world is just one big fruit loop : o)
















 when one dies,  but not physically,  that  is the only eternity  : o )/ : o)


the above is my re-translation of the last line of chapter 33 in the  dao  de  jing


ursula le guin has an interesting  take
















when one dies,  but not physically,  that is eternity  ; o)/ : o)
















when one dies,  but not physically,  there is eternity  ; o)/  : o )
















a universal characteristic of advaita and neo-advaita,  non duality and the new age flakes is they are  very intolerant of criticism

:


o


)


(
















 45 years  waste  of time, she might as well have been playing golf !


 schizophrenic from a lack of sun on the skin, living indoors all the time like that !
















 yeah drugs and pills, the american dream !


















the left hand side is arthur waley's translation of chapter 33 of the dao de jing,

the right hand side is my reply : o) !



to understand others is to have knowledge


to understand oneself is to be illumined


to conquer others needs strength


to conquer oneself is harder still


to be content with what one has is to be rich


he that works through violence may get his way


but only what stays in its place


can endure


when one dies one is not lost; there is no other longevity


to understand others is a dream


to understand oneself is impossible


to conquer others cannot be done


to conquer oneself  is voynich !


to be content with what one has is to be blind


he that works with violence gets violence !


what stays in place fades even as we talk of it





when one dies the world is lost


the BCD and  compendium  give longevity !
















the below is a translation of chapter 33 of the dao de jing by arthur waley, my reply follows : o)


to understand others is to have knowledge


to understand oneself is to be illumined


to conquer others needs strength


to conquer oneself is harder still


to be content with what one has is to be rich


he that works through violence may get his way


but only what stays in its place


can endure


when one dies one is not lost; there is no other longevity.


-------------------------------------------------


to understand others is a dream


to understand oneself is impossible


to conquer others cannot be done


to conquer oneself is voynich


to be content with what one has is to be blind


 he that works with violence gets violence !


what stays in place fades even as we talk of it


when one dies the world is lost


 the BCD and  compendium  give longevity !


-----------------


basically the dao de jing is crap !


mediocrities and morons peddle it
















change always comes  : o (
















toxoplasmosis
















 don't be such a depressive joan, muse your own words !


(ed. tollifson)
















here in australia we are restricted to only owning bolt action rifles which restrict the rate of fire to about a round every five seconds practically, you cannot have rifles with a rate of fire of several rounds per second as per  “assault rifles”  and semi -automatics in the hands of the general public  :-)


nothing like doing abit of hunting tho for shaking your ideas about vegetarianism and an oversoft view of life


i notice these mass murderers have never done any hunting, they have never learnt the true context of guns which is hunting for food !  (solid copper bullets tho, lead in bullets contaminates the carcass !)
















  zen meditation makes for zombies :o )


rigid stupids who cannot reason past intractableness
















there's a lot of denial about the dalai lama who was responsible more than anyone else for the china debacle and now passes his time spewing dumb and stupid platitudes !


of course he was just a boy grabbed off a farm so didn't have the political brain necessary, but still...........
















there's a lot of denial about the dalai lama who was responsible more than anyone else for the china debacle and now passes his time spewing dumb and stupid platitudes !  of course he was just a boy grabbed off a farm so didn't have the political brain necessary, but still...........
















women are happy enough to be women


  and their role in the machinery of life !
















women are happy enough to be women


  and their role in the machinery of life !
















women are happy enough to be women and their role in the machinery of life


audio
















these web quotes of rumi are a very good example of extremely poor and spaced out translations or interpretations that bowdlerize his bite


they are candyfloss-izations of what he actually said or just plain made up :-)


rumi's life was a disaster area, his son murdered his best friend, shams al tabrizi, i would rather drink cyanide than take rumi's half baked advice : o)


you were never born so what's all this crap about wings and crawling?


( ed. reply to this platitudinous so called quote by rumi  “you were born with wings, why prefer to crawl through life”  )
















i wonder if the dali lama feels guilty about his mishandling

of relations with china that led to the invasion?

there were alternatives to what happened
















life is but a tire swing.......


“ life is but a tired swing ”  put a tacky picture on it and you are away laughing, any number of morons line up to  like  and say how profound it is
  (themselves being wise sages of course : o)
















a lao tzu quote  “ mastering others is strength, mastering yourself is true power ”  i think it's macho crap which why i replied  “ mastering others is an illusion, mastering yourself is also an illusion ” 
















home made oreos,


   an absolute pig  fest  : o )

too


bad


about


the


flour


and


sugar !


:


o


(

















home made oreos,


   an absolute pig  fest  : o )

too


bad


about


the


flour


and


  sugar !

:


o


(
















death to wheat and sugar  !  : o )
















death to wheat and sugar !
















mastering others is strength,

mastering yourself is true power



lao tzu


my reply


mastering others is an illusion,

   mastering yourself is also an illusion : o)
















  more  kevin bridges !
















  the reality of lions, cheetahs and  life  : o )
















  the reality of lions and  life  : o )
















  the reality of lions and  life  : o)
















  do you think this  place  is a psychiatric outpatient clinic?
















  it's unhappiness that is looking for you like an owl looks for mice : o)

observe your life, what has happened to date,

why do you expect it to be any different ?
















there is no authentic

buddhist canon

because

buddha

like jesus and muhammad

never existed

historically at all,

just fairy tales

     i am afraid ! :o)



you can make up

what you like,

and that's pretty much

the way it has occurred


:


o


)


(
















there is no authentic buddhist canon because buddha like jesus and muhammad never existed historically at all, just fairy tales i am afraid ! :o)


you can make up what you like, and that's pretty much the way it has occurred

:


o


)


(































the first new apocaylpse date is the 6th of january, don't say you weren't warned !


the only hint i can give is i don't think it's going to be a comet :o)


2 + 0 + 1 + 3 = 6  which is the first and last numbers of the beast, so depending wether you are using the english or american day/month convention and transliterating  “nero ”  from latin or greek into hebrew, the apocalypse is going to occur either on the 6th of january or the 1st or the 6th of june
















2 + 0 + 1 + 3 = 6  which is the first and last numbers of the beast, so depending wether you are using the english or american day/month convention and transliterating  “nero”  from latin or greek into hebrew, the apocalypse is going to occur either on the 6th of january or the 1st or the 6th of june, yes facebook is going to go down for a day :o), well maybe something more like this (below) is going to happen : o)


 William Blake; The Number of the Beast is 666


from william blake's  the great red dragon  series 
















mary writes


(ed. in the sungazing facebook comments)


i just upgraded the house plant to a bigger pot and it's name is going to be happiness


thank you for this, a sign that the universe is doing what it needs to do


my


reply


  “a sign that the Universe is doing what it needs to do”  you mean any of the current killing and starvation in africa?  what does self absorbed mean?  if the universe looks after my house plant then it's doing what it needs to do?
















unhappiness and crying misery are closer to god than

 happiness and uncrying unmisery


god


is


an


insane


  notion !


audio
















if   i   can remove  i ,  that's like a dream, but it can be done :o),  but it's momentary and what it gives is not happiness but a tolerance and acceptance of our eternal condition which is unhappiness :o)
















2013 is   old  to 2014 and downright senile to 2050


   written 28th december 2012 : o)
















if they censor, it's not zen, i don't know of an uncensored

   zen site or blog except  this   : o)
















kade,  (ed. facebook reply)  this notion of  i   or self is just a construct within a larger reality so any notions it has are flawed and not reliable, including notions of  “change you want to see in the world”,  you look quite young and no doubt the cynicism of aging has yet to settle : o)
















facebook is so attractive to schizophrenics because you can say anything and post the most fatuous nonsense without too much risk of contradiction

:


o


)


(
















facebook is so attractive to schizophrenics because you can say anything and post the most fatuous nonsense without too much risk of contradiction : o)
















facebook is so attractive to schizophrenics because you can say anything and post the most fatuous nonsense without risk of contradiction : o)
















the new year is a meaningless date and those looking for things to be different are crazy : o)
















i think charles bukowski's view is coloured by his alcoholism a bit, it's not quite true

:


o


(
















you can see things in extremes that you'd never see any other way !
















you can see things in extremes that you'd never see any other way


audio
















i think  charles bukowski's view  is coloured by his alcoholism a bit, it's not quite true


reading    one


two
















i think charles bukowski's view is coloured by his alcoholism a bit, it's not quite true


reading    one


two
















the landlords brother died about three months ago, a particularly gruesome death so they said, his stomach exploded from the meds used for chemo for his pancreatic cancer


can't say i knew him well, just a casual chat occasionally, a very good humoured man


i just realized, he's gone


another death


   it took me a while to remember his name !
















deciding what is best for ourselves is trying to hit

  a moving target i am afraid : o )
















i think although the net has benefits, it's also an intensification of unreal nutcases

:


o


)


(
















i think although the net has benefits, it's also an intensification of unreal nutcases


audio
















the city dumps fill


the junkyards fill


the madhouses fill


the hospitals fill


the graveyards fill


  facebook fills with all of the above : o)


from  alone  with everybody  by charles bukowski with my added last line
















life's a bitch and i suppose i am too :o)
















honestly  sungazing,  who gives a shit about all this  fake happy stuff,  as if you are care or does it matter cause reality will brutalize anyway ! : o)