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or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
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four heads
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warsan shire
four heads
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stuck
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warsan shire
four heads
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warsan shire
conversations about home
(at a deportation centre)
adam tebbe didn't pass the post i made
below on his blog
sweeping zen, extraordinary, pissing his life away for less than peanuts to promote a particularly toxic form of zen denying his own inadequacies in conceptual thinking and life smarts and smarts about women to flounder like a landed fish and all he can croak is praises of the fishermen ! :o)
you absolute bloody fuckwit adam ! : o)
what i have written is friendly and helpful to you, if you look with buddha’s eyes you will see that but stuck in your own egoic view of the universe you only react and deny :o)
later : the above was written in
2013, its now june
2018, in hindsight adam was always crazy, he has become a born again christian fleeing
the demonic forces of buddhism !
i can’t believe these people are prepared to waste ones time the way they do . . a trap i constantly have fallen into with them !
its not zen but
solitude that grows one !
as usual people like isa kocher spit on it and those who have not spent that time alone just don't recognise what it is about !
the endless “spiritual people” on the net spouting endless bullshit, captured in their own misinformation and lies won’t brook any contradiction, the solitude so sadly lacking in their lives .....................
advaita followers : clones of the apocalypse : o)
dr. daniel amen and brain spect scans
i'd be afraid to see mine
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spect scans appear to be much safer than CT scans tho combined spect-CT scanners do still include CT scans at 1/4 the usual dose which is still too high imo !
supposedly the radioctive tracer used in spect scans stays in the blood and doesn't go into tissue, hence its use is for the monitoring of blood flow and activity patterns only !
check out the healthy brain “concentration active” scan
versus the same for the 15 year old mass murderer !
a quote from ralph waldo emerson's essay
nature , chapter 5
“ xenophanes complained in his old age that all things hastened back to unity. he was weary of seeing the same thing in a tedious variety of forms. the fable of proteus has a cordial truth ”
my
reply
that which takes a fable as it's source,
is still mired in voynich and the fable :o)
shades (1:28) of derrida, levi-strauss,
structualism and deconstructionism : o)
you think you have a clear simple understanding
which all collapses
a new clear simple understanding emerges
which collapses again
you think you have a clear simple understanding which all collapses
a new clear simple understanding emerges
which collapses again
you think you have a clear simple understanding which all collapses
a new clear simple understanding emerges which collapses again
you
think
you
have
a
clear
simple
understanding
which
all
collapses
then
anew
simple
clear
understanding
re-emerges
which
colla
pses
you
think
you
have
a
clear
simple
understanding
which
all
collapses
then
anew
simple
clear
understanding
emerges
which
colla
pses
jaques derrida on
prayer (12:00)
evan shaw writing some more voynich
most atheists acknowledge causal patterns and order, but don't know how they came to be. they then proceed to downplay consciousness; by chance they say. hmm
my reply
to be honest that looks like gobbledegook !
conciousness is an advaita/non dual obsession and doesn't come up in the historical western mystical tradition !
what are you talking about?
atheism has the same roots as religion, the glorification of human and species !
mysticism is inherently alienated from human and closer to god (so to speak) who is also alienated from human !
you are sorta propounding a non-dual philosophy which is not mystical !
evan shaw (who claims to be a mystic!)
quotes from bill bryson's walk in the woods
“ the clarity of your vision determines the clarity of your actions. what do you stand to achieve? what dreams from the sandbox do you still cherish? what excites you about the future? define those, chase those, adhere to those. aimlessness won't get you there. see what you want to be, step over stones, and unfold it ”
my reply
since when is positive thinking mysticism?
negative thinking is mysticism......difficulty, lack of clarity, the obfuscation of life, imperfect and contrary to intention outcomes................
“ a horse! a horse!
my kingdom for a horse! ”
“ more detail comes from a burgundian historian jean molinet, who describes richard's horse becoming stuck in a marsh and then
unhorsed and overpowered, the king was hacked to death by welsh soldiers ”
why global warming will lead to
dryer !
“ the introduction of heat-absorbing greenhouse gases leads to a narrowing of the usual temperature difference between different layers of the atmosphere - thus a more stable atmosphere that is less conducive to rain
”
breast cancer tissue has
mixed stiffnesses
“ cancerous tissue is a mix of stiff and soft zones, whereas healthy tissue has uniform stiffness
”
endless nuttiness
against
a
backdrop
of
the human condition
endless nuttiness
against
a
backdrop
of
when you look at things properly, you can only come to one conclusion about groups
: o(
when you look at things properly, you can only come to one conclusion about groups !
when you look at things properly, you can only come to one conclusion about groups
dr. william davis's
book “wheat belly: lose the wheat, lose the weight, and find
your path back to health” is having quite an impact
the comments section makes interesting reading !
456 days in the top 100 ! (4th february 2013)
i am editing some recordings from a year ago
and quite liked the energy of this one : o)
a life looked back on, so much broken craziness frowny smiley
a life looked back on, so much broken craziness smiley frowny
a life looked back on, so much broken craziness !
a life looked back on, so much broken craziness
in spite of virtue and the muse,
nemesis will have her dues,
and all our struggles and our toils
tighter wind the giant coils
the above quote by ralph waldo emerson !
hate and love are
both
voynich
twit
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hate and love are
both
voynich
twit
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the
average
human
just
sits
there
and
says
“ how
can
i
be
wrong ? ”
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the
average
human
just
sits
there
and
says
“ how
can
i
be
wrong ? ”
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evan shaw
writes on his facebook
page
soul - that living essence which defies labels - includes and executes the laws of nature. not only our energy, it has codes ingrained into it, to ensure order and balance. proof: "as you do and think, so you feel."
my
reply
evan, i honestly feel that is nonsense*, wake up man, do you want to end up like the rest of the non dual nut cases ?
*ed. some really schizophrenic blather about "soul", nature and order :o)
read some quality for a start not the second rate like james allen !
you need to engage with the dissonant, not avoid it ! you can simulate and get the adulation of the schizophrenics on the net of which there is an endless supply, but the real comes from somewhere else and that's true contact and the necessary work !
evan's
reply
do you have any reasoning to back up that is nonsense ? the codes, it's living nature, the balance? do explain..
my
reply..............
there's a billion trillion variants of nonsense, why don't you explain it abit and show it's not nonsense instead of of a cryptic over dense reply?
anybody can fling a few words together, something meaningful with impact that actually relates to how life is and the way things occur is a different matter !
"the soul" is code for schizophrenia, the great mass of human moronacy struggling to avoid what it would not grasp ! yes that is it's "nature" so where is "balance" ?
evan's
reply
ok. within the soul are laws that automatically function. in other words, we can observe patterns/laws out in nature, right? (balance: as newton said, "for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.") before i continue, lemme see if we're on the same page..
my
reply..............
so what page would that be? yeah, life has patterns and coherencies, you claim to be a mystic so it's the patterns in life that are of interest and not the laws of physics!
so the next step is the detail of the patterns one of which we are both going through now, looking at what another is saying without wanting to eliminate a different viewpoint which is what sorts what is real from the fake, like jeff foster is a fake because he bans what questions him, but for the moment you are real because against inclination you tolerate what questions you !
evan's
reply
yet the laws of physics are not separate from the other patterns in life, in fact, we benefit from the study of both.
and indeed, so you agree there are patterns in nature and that there is a balance, or compensation, of things - yet you appear to have a problem with the soul. do i understand you correctly?
my
reply..............
yeah there is a compensation, but it is neither entire or satisfactory from the human perspective !
how can anything fit the unfittable except itself ?
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well the laws of physics are separate from what might be called mystical discursion !
this is easy to see in heraclitus, who has a quite erroneous world view from the point of view of physics and causation because two and a half thousand years ago, their view was ignorant
however from the point of view of mystical discursion, he has not been surpassed !
we can make a word like "soul" meaningful or not meaningful depending on the way we use it and context, my issue is with what you claim - "living essence" is voynich !
in the interest of being on the same page, i will give my definition of voynich which is a coining and relates to the voynich manuscript which is a fraud crafted to appear genuine ! it's well worth a read up on !
jeff foster is such an astoundingly good example of voynich, i will yield to temptation and mention him again :o)
evan's
reply
the compensation is certainly entire: what appears unequal is just us not seeing all the causes.
and many quantum physicists have engaged in mystical inquiry, imo the two fields are intimately related. i recommend looking into the unified field, that seems to be the root of their mystical inclinations.
not to put you on the spot, but it will help explain my position, what is 'life'? what pumps your heart? (not what muscle, what moves those muscles?) what "something" is in us, that is not in a dead body?
my
reply..............
electrical signals move the muscles in the heart !
evolution moves the design and genetic coding of the heart.
if you are looking for some sort of life force, it's in the possibility of infinite potentiality to become real !
the best of current physics is in quantum loop gravity, tiling (renate loll ) and the big bounce.
string theory is looking like a non-existant trivial case of physical reality and discredited................
while the above is all interesting and somewhat unified, the goal of a theory of everything or a unified field theory is wrong minded and flies in the face of the quantum nature of the universe which includes uncertainty about it's laws and fine details ad infinitum !
you are confusing mystical discourse with conversations about matter and it's distribution, i refer again to what i said about heraclitus............
emily dickinson didn't give a fig or know a jot about this distribution and theory, yet her poems are the height of mystical discourse
evan's
reply
So electrical signals pump the heart, but where does this electrical energy come from? [Are not these signals essentially information? And not just inert numbers either, but information that travels along neuropathways? My point: do not these signals of information appear to be carried by energy?]
my
reply
yeah they are carried by the energy of coherence, that is they need to work so that the organism can thrive and reproduce which gets back to evolution realizing a specific instance of infinite potentiality.
the real is a subset of real and unreal and it's the superset we are concerned with !
you are stuck in a pre-evolutionary understanding, there's no prior cause for mechanisms like the human heart needed, that can and does arise through evolution, any underlying causes must be abstract and not physical, whereas in the old days prior causes were looked for like god or "energy" !
you don't accept evolution as valid?
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evan, you might be interested in "constructor theory" which (attempts?) to provide an underlying theory of information to physics and it does this by inhabiting this area of unreal and real and defines physics by transformations that can occur or are possible against those which cannot occur or are impossible ! :o)
these zen fakes who believe in the historical existance of jesus are drawing a line in the sand ..............
because once jesus goes, buddha goes ................
when all that is constant is human fuckwitism !
honestly brad warner, whats wrong with your brain?
you don't think, you don't research, you pretend to guide others when all you is and are is stuck up in yourself with the illusion of being a zen master ! get real or die of huntington's man, that's what's happening : o)
( ed. he has some degree of the huntingtin gene imo and needs to pay attention to the implications from a dietary and supplement point of view.................. well he's just the usual stupid, breeding mindsets, a not really spent grass stalk that wastes, an example of some sort of failure, that's all, a good dia kensho wasted, the usual story :o)
lol, the morning's hate session, but i hate reading these arseholes blathering on in a toxic and senile fashion with no redress by by infinity for their crap
well
i
GIVE
THAT
REDRESS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“ none of us seemed to know the nature of the coincidences that bound us together, as I know now, or that junkies and masochists and hookers and those of us who have squandered everything are the ring of brightest angels around heaven ”
above quote by rick moody
yeah well, around heaven is not heaven ! brad you are around but not in ! i don't mean some nice benign place , but the actually of infinity in life and of itself ! : o)
these zen fakes who believe in the historical existance of jesus are drawing a line in the sand ..............
because once jesus goes, buddha goes ................
when all that is constant is
human fuckwitism !
the flesh rots on our bones before we die
the flesh can rot on our bones before we die frowny smiley
the flesh can rot on our bones before we die smiley frowny
the flesh can rot on our bones before we die : o)
the flesh can rot on our bones before we die !
the flesh can rot on our bones before we die
the world is so insane
it
“ ashton kutcher has been hospitalised days before shooting the upcoming steve jobs biopic after adopting the businessman's fruitarian diet to prepare for the role.
the us actor plays the lead in new movie jobs and he did all he could to accurately portray the late apple co-founder, even changing his eating plan to include just fruits, nuts and seeds.
however, kutcher was left "doubled over in pain'' after sticking to the diet, and sought medical advice in hospital.
''(the fruitarian diet) can lead to some serious issues. i ended up in the hospital two days before we started shooting the movie."
"i was like doubled over in pain, and my pancreas levels were completely out of whack, which was completely terrifying, considering everything.'' ”
lol, actors have a certain type of intelligence but not needed others
the art is simulation, not identity : o)
these people would rather die than know what the
biofilm carbohydrate diet has to
say !
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“ a man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life .... it is a process of diverting one's scattered forces into one powerful channel ”
and another james allen quote!
“ all that a man achieves and all that he fails to achieve is the direct result of his own thoughts
”
the problem is that our thoughts are
erroneous and incompetent so the results are
incompetent and erroneous and life's struggle is to test, rectify and steer some sort of path useful to us !
gender blurred, male/female, the voice reflects his autistic intelligence ?
“ if the theory is commutative it is classical - - if not, it has quantum elements
”
the above quote from
it's fascinating to see schrödinger propose commutativity to einstein and einstein reject it !
einstein's very autistic search for simplicity and rejecting the larger view because of it's ungraspable complexity :o)
i think simultaneously both postions are true actually and this is a reflection of different contexts and inevitably, both must fit in/into some larger context ! : o)
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everybody laugh............... let everybody laugh :o)
everybody laugh............... let everybody laugh
what is meaning-full
and
what
is
what is meaning - full
and
what
is
what is meaning - full
and
what
is
what is meaningfull
and
what
is
stalin ,
a
russians ! : o)
:
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stalin ,
a
russians ! : o)
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hi
eric, you don't know me, but i thought that your comments on and to jeff foster were to the point and the reality is he will ban
you ( i am banned !) if you get too close to the bone !
he is narcissistic and mentally ill, unfortunately the anti-depressant medication he is on also fucks the ability to grow and be flexible !
basically he has a heap of health issues but his eating and approach is wrong and when you consign your mental health to the medical profession you can see that's an overwhelming road block for a start !
whatever he says, it's a pill that's the answer and that's the reality so he covers it up ! also he lies, you can't trust what he says !
have more confidence in your self eric, you are what i call a competent depressive, your judgement is sound, don't let it be ovewritten by flakes like jeff who should be doing anything except what he does !
it
is
all
self -
taught !
anything
else
is
coming
back after a year, i think it's a good reading and deserves more views,
but the moronic masses don't like what it says do they?
evan shaw writes
along lines of development we go forth, weaving with intention but letting natural forces work
where you concentrate, things will gather
my reply
i never concentrate, but things gather only to go apart again :o)
man, he's (ed. Joseph Campbell) right about academics, the university literature scene is soooo stupid and blind ! :o)
they do nothing but learn how to like bad literature and dislike what's worthwhile !
“ though you look there’s no one else ”
yeah i find if i think about each of the poems in ‘ the people look like flowers at last ’ they have a simple main point
he had money and married a useful woman who looked after him in his later years which gave him extra years of writing
i am surprised by how much more abstract he was in this last book of his
more collected
well those he mixed with were lots of trouble
ditching those people as he got older made life easier for him i think
yeah, just leeches
batten on anything going and try to take advantage of it
bukowski has agood poem about that called “ the sharks ”
actually charles bukowski says this alot
tho you look there’s no
one else
what is meaningful and what is meaningless ?
what is meaningful and what is meaning less ?
