Poetry Page Part Four




All poetry written by the artist Genie (some collaboration from Annabelle) and inspired by the acting genius of Leonardo DiCaprio.



November, 1999...Annabelle & I love to capture pictures of Leonardo - mostly from The Dream Page, and attach them to our mails to each other. I had just attached “BBDhair.closeup” for Annabelle’s appreciation, and she spontaneously created a beautiful and stirring poem about it.
And so I replied immediately, inspired to pen a new poem of my own. Together, they become more than the sum of their parts....

A little poem to Jim
by Annabelle

You are staring at me from the paper,
your eyes fixed
on something I can’t see.

What were you thinking
when this photograph
was taken?
You look astonished
or maybe just
your best....

Your face
will never cease
to hit me
right between the eyes.
It is the way
you look right
through me,

that will always
come as a surprise.





In response to Annabelle’s Poem to Jim...

by Genie I die a little
every time your image
hits me this hard.

I die into some kind of
disbelief
that a photograph could hit me
so hard

I die into some kind of
recognition
of feelings I would like to
disguise
with bravado, and posturings of
self-assurance -

I don’t know who I am
half the time
because
bits of me die a little
every time your image
hits me this hard.






Poem to ‘That Picture’(All the Leonardos say to each other):

“She’s back!”
“Who?”
“The Other One…”
“Oh, Lord…
are we in the mood for this?
”This silly woman!

This woman who died into her new life
-The life that glows & splatters
Collides
In a ‘high five’ attitude
With each and every being
She surges through you
As intensly as she will…..
Seducing your mood
Into playful conspiracy

“It was ThatPicture!”, she said.

It was ThatPicture
That turned her silly today;
ThatImage pulled back
all the little bits of her
that yesterday she feared
had died and scattered...

It was ‘That Picture...’







Soul Sublime

Soul Sublime
married
Body Beautiful.
Shining Eyes
was born







I saw you at the lake today.

Have I written to you lately?
I don’t think so.
There was that poem I posted,
last November 11th...but apart from that
it feels as if I’ve only written around you somehow;
around and about.

I saw you today at the lake.

The place that pulls me
whenever answers won’t come
and surrender is all I can do;
and surrender is what I fight.
It’s been a year of momentous changes;
of turbulence, passion, joy, heartache
and loss. Lots going on -I’m burned out:
I’m at a crossroads.

I saw you today at the lake.

I had asked for help: so hard to do;
I asked a friend to go and walk with me awhile.
Then we sat near the water
and shared a rare moment
of silence.

Suddenly, our eyes were caught
by a beautiful mallard and his small brown mate
as they floated
just a few feet away from where we sat:
arms wrapped around knees,
blades of weeds dangling from our lips.

“That’s Leonardo....and me”, I said.

I can’t think why I made such an outrageous statement.
But my friend laughed and said, “That’s weird...
it’s exactly what I was thinking”.
The little brown speckled female
playfully bobbed and flitted alongside her lovely male,
who steadily slowed
his pace to stay near her.

He turned his head constantly to look at her,
conveying a sense of protectivenes and pride.
“I want that”, I said.

I saw you at the lake today.



Jan.14, 2000
“Honey in the Morning”

Reading my mails, eating bread, peanut butter & honey;
and I, still warm with Baby-flush;

I feel something
on my hand
warm and sticky -
in one motion with the tip of my tongue
I lick
from wrist to little finger and probe
between two fingers

and
looking down:
I find drops of honey in my lap.


Dec. 28, ‘99
“The Lover’s Arms”

I want The Lover’s arms.
I want The Lover’s arms!

I want life affirming
and surging sex and
I want to be reassured
that I am far
from my own
old
death.




Feb. 16, 2000 On the 6th evening of AnnaBelle’s visit, I wrote the following 4 poems:

I. “His Poster, 1”

Yesterday
I was steeped in Art and Awe,
having been
to an exhibit with AnnaBelle
showing works by Degas to Picasso;
including sculpture by the great masters
Brancussi and Rodin.

Tonight
I am astounded,
saddened
and somewhat ashamed
to discover that your face
affects me more
than any Masterpiece.

II. “His Poster 2”

I circle your photograph with my eyes
and a slow, assessing walk
as I would a sculptor’s work,
studying every contour;
Your picture
having become 3 dimensional
and warm flesh,
in my inner vision.

That vision being dangerous,
for it doesn’t fit reality anymore -
unless - you have become
The Master’s Art -

In which case,
I circle you with my eyes
and a slow, assessing walk...

III. “To Explain to AnyOne”

I hold for you a bowl wherein
lie small squares of mirror and rocks,
some washed, some clean.

Hold up a mirror near your mouth
and another to your eye.
Is your fragmented expression
lighter than the rocks?

I can only have t h i s much
of what I think I want.

I’m still broken.

IV. “In Silence”

My Lover wakes me
just before dawn,
hoping the cats will not notice
a stirring
in their warm bed..




I dropped off the edge of the earth just then.
What is happening to me now?
What is this hunger....
Just when I think I know what I'm about
I spin out -I can taste how bad I want this.....

Did I write this to you or to me?
Does my mind explore the answers it always knew?
But when I write them down, dressing them up
in their brand new shoes
dancing free
they skip away -because I will always ask again:
What is happening to me now?



Moan To Me

I want to hear you moan.
Moan to me in long tunneling probes
of sound.
Moan to me in soft white-sound
content
like a babe at the tit;
Moan over me
in anguished whimpers
for pain too sweet to bear -
Then:
Moan with me in reverent tears,
for you have wed
my soul.



Passion to Communicate

I will string my words together,
- unoriginal offerings -
Certain I have something of worth to say;
- unoriginal desire! -

And I want those bracelets of feelings
( fashioned from my struggle
to communicate),
To fit
on anyone’s arm...




Midnight Poem to...
My Heartache From Great Spirit

Come, let me comfort you.
Don't close up. No one
can love you as I will.
Soft & silky
is the flesh that protects you.
All the sighs and tears you release,
then form anew,
can't discourage me.

You bind me to you as nothing
in my experience has ever done.
I guard you jealously,
My Heartache;
like a lover.




'Hesitation'

I step forward
and back, again.
I can’t get there.

I’m afraid to go there.
I want to wear the fantasy
like a gown;
pull it over my head,
and let it fall down
over my world
and into my joy-

and so:

I take another step
toward the beautiful boy...






4/15/00

"Nail Polish"


I was engrossed
in watching a
TV Profile on
Jack
Kerouac -

and
as I painted my toenails
orange and
my fingernails
poppy

I wondered -
I wondered at my seeming
duality
and decided
that

I seek -
I seek to adorn
my multi-layered
self
in celebration

in celebration ! of opening
and opening up -

and opening up
to even more than I could ever
possibly

have time
to know.


"In Focus"

I’ve got an internal screensaver
Scrolling
like
a magic carpet ride
floating along the dream-layer
of second sight
laid down just behind
my gaze

Can you tell: I only
Appear
To be focused.

No, see:

There’s a wish list
Rolling
like
a ticker-tape parade
A kind of
Celestial To-Do List
Heavenly imprints

Yeah, see:

It’s like
Endlessly evolving
Open-ended ever-changing
Pictures
In perpetual motion
Images of you.


May 12, 2000

"All The Same"


I watched the
candle-fire and
it was lapping in throbbing strokes
it was tempting
the warm wax
to melt and surrender
to itself....

In the curving waves
of the flame, some invisible
current
was driving it to a frenzy
circling, seeking
like the Lover’s tongue
and
it seemed to me that all
in nature
is all the same
That all in nature
is the Lover.






May 15, 2000

"I Already Knew"


He looks like
no one I've ever
seen before
and as such,
something fundamental
in me just
crumbles

and yet...that look
about him brings
a recognizable connection

and as such,
something
in me just
gives way.








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