04 october 1999
11:51pm
love sucks.

today my heart was broken into a million very tiny pieces. and i don't know if i can make it complete again.

can you fix this? it's a broken heart.
it was fine, but it just fell apart.
it was mine but now i give it to you.
you can fix it, you know what to do.
-dar williams

my simple conclusion is this: don't love someone who isn't going to love you back.
or more specifically: don't fall in love with someone who isn't going to fall in love with you. instead, they will fall in love with someone else and tell you all about it.

i am bitter and heartbroken and hurt.

(this doesn't feel good.)

too much emotion for one day. i slept for 4 hours this evening trying to make it all go away, but it didn't. maybe 4 hours isn't long enough. i just want it to go away. either my love or the whole situation.

11:59pm

27 september 1999 06 october 1999
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