03 november 1999
1:15am
friends

...it's really the 4th.

i've been writing much less frequently here than i used to. maybe because i don't seem to find the time. maybe because it's not as much of an outlet as it used to be. i was really excited by an online journal when it began- really excited about who would read it and what they would think. but now, i kind of realize that the people who are possibly looking at this are people i don't know. and they don't tell me what they think. ah well. it's still fun, even if it's just for me, so i can visit and see what i write, and what i've written.

i just watched the end part of a my so-called life episode. the "i call her red" one. so lovely. watching makes me so happy, in the way that i can feel all of angela's emotions, and i want to cry along with her (and often do, even after seeing every episode a million times). i have good associations with watching this show. memories of high school. and i love that sarah and i can watch together and re-live all of these moments, and we can introduce our friends now to this wonderful part of our past. sarah is just marvelous. i'm so happy she lives down the hall from me, and we've become friends.

i spent two hours tonight with neil at paces. it was our first time together "without the kids." as much as i love neil and value our friendship so much, it's amazing that i rarely see him outside of the us-emily-david scenario. and we're always trying to sneak away and gossip, but our friends pull us back in with them. which is fine. the 4 of us are good together. an eclectic group, brought together by aaron spelling and altered states. but i spend time alone with david, and i spend time alone with emily. but never neil. so we decided to go to paces after chorus. and it was just what i wanted. good conversation, gossip. we even made a pinky swear. i love that boy.

well now, there's work to be done before classes tomorrow. the first of which starts in just a bit more than 8 hours. time to get cracking and then go to bed? i think so. especially because tomorrow night is 90210 debauchery night (complete with pub night), so i should rest up for that (seeing as how it's far more important than, say, classes).

1:29am