24 may 1999
11:12pm
lacking photosynthesis

i don't know if i can deal with any more of these nothing-filled days. seriously, i was in my house all day. i went out to the backyard once, but the rest of the day was indoors. this makes me feel sick. i love being out and doing things, being in the sun and photosynthesizing (okay, so i don't really, but it's a nice thought), but i have no means of doing so right now. i hate this.

so, what did i do all day? well, i spent a lot of time trying to get pictures scanned correctly. and, yes, i do have something to show for it: more pictures on this webpage of mine. go ahead, take a look at 'em, tell me what you think:

i talked (? is that the right word? via aol instant messenger, but it sounds weird saying i "typed" or "messaged") with sarah last night, and to corey today. sarah sounds like she's at the same place i'm at: somewhat lounging, watching reruns, reading, and webpage beautifying. dear corey is in a funk, or maybe more of a frenzy, trying to find a job for the summer. his statement to me: "i don't understand why everyone has a good summer job except for us." i agree, although i know far more people this summer who don't know what they're doing than last summer. which makes me feel somewhat better about my situation, but not that much. corey also told me that he is incapable of making any plans with me until he figures out the job issue, which made me laugh. and we decided that if we're both free in august, we're going to hike the john muir trail, north to south.

i can't wait to go down to the outdoor school next week. i wish i could've gone down this week to see rita, but i really do need to stabilize my summer plans. so there's a deadline: i need to have things figured out by this weekend. but oh, to get down to the redwoods and the ocean, and to have fun with kids and my friends at the school- it's just what i want. it really is the simple things in life that are the best.

i want to play tomorrow.

11:37pm