07 september 1999
11:53pm
a discussion of nature and art from many angles

i have been wishing very much tonight that i was andy goldsworthy. he is so amazing. the way he views nature and art as a continuum, no definite line between the two... it's just incredible, and his artwork reflects that. and then there's me, frustrated with trying to take worthy photographs when there is no sunshine, only humidity (so thick today that it was visible). i want to create a meaningful body of work, like andy has. i'm tired of setting up faux studios in my room with my desk lamp, trying to capture something interesting in the shadows. if art is truly and expression of oneself, then what is my art saying about me? my little black and white photos?

so it looks like tomorrow night is going to be my first squ meeting. i told corey i'd go, and sarah's going too, which means we can go together after chorus. i don't know about this. i've never been too interested in being a regular member of squ, though i have been intrigued. maybe this will be my first and last meeting all in one. or maybe not. maybe this is on the list of "things that are good for me". and it's not like none of my friends will be there... heck, almost all of them will be. this definitely could be on the list. i guess i'll just have to wait and see.

i spent most of this afternoon tromping through the woods at tyler arboretum. while i dislike that the class ran 2 hours longer than scheduled, and that this looks like it's going to be a regular occurrance, there is something completely familiar and nostalgic in doing forest field work. reminds me much of alaska and vancouver island, places where roaming the forests with transect tapes and write in the rains were an everyday phenomenon. it was so humid today though, and since it had just poured, everything was very steamy.

tomorrow is yet another day with no classes (except for chorus at 7:15pm, which i'm technically not even enrolled in). what i would really like to do is go to philly, do some thrift store shopping, do some art supplies shopping, and sit in my coffee house and do work (and people watch). but, alas, i have bought no books, there is film to develop, there are professors to talk to, there is dinner with david, which is a wonderful thing and i'm not complaining, it's just another reason why going into the city most likely would not work tomorrow. but friday should be fine, assuming i don't cave in and go to jbj's meeting (although he really wants me to and it may have some fun value). but i need to find some snazzy vintage clothes by saturday, so friday looks like the appropriate day. it should be fun. there are lots of things i want to get, and since roughing it just sent me another random check, i have a bit o' spare change to shop with.

as a note: i have drank way too much coke today.

12:43am