| FREZZER BURN | I HATE |
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| you put on your front to make people think you love you care but dont think your fooling me, your as worthless as me your mind is filled with greed and hate i know your kind i was once just like you filled with the cold fury of your devine demons running your mind stealing your soul you dont even seem to care does it bother you no one loves you? or even cares you exist? call yourself a loner if you want, but i still hate you are you burnout on special solutions? having dilusions that you have a freind other than the ones inside your head? your so cold with your rusted thoughts of death let your dim light shine, and show how confused you really are |
I hate myself today the same hate i've felt everyday before I wish I could figure out myself everything is wrong, and it wont stop birth then death nothing happy in between looking forward to dieing, everything else worthless sitting in the dark so I don't have to see me I wish my life was a dream and I could wake up from the nightmare I cut myself watch the blood flow no one will hear me cry no one cares to see me die vacant eyes, and a lost smile a look in the mirror proves nothing knives in my back hurt running my mind everything hurts everything went wrong all in plain sight Im the screw up everyday |
| SUFFER IN SILENCE | I CONTROL YOU |
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| the rain beats languidly off the window pain as i think of you, and how much you hurt me the pain and denial bottled inside me ready to explode i want to show you the pain you've caused me suffer in painful silence as i do every second of my life concider yourself a victim of the never-ending tick of the clock the relentless nagging at your mind thinking of dieing? how wonderful that would be but i won't let you i want you to suffer as i do |
a deep dark fear penatrateing through your mind a black whole of emptyness that can never be replaced do you think you will miss it? I stole the most presious part of you do you realize its gone? taking over your mind was so easy you dident love yourself enough to notice and now your mine to use at my expence I have the power the control does it scare you? it scares me |
| LUST ME | FEELINGS |
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| You came to me, showed me you cared you said you loved me, I'll shed a tear it's true it was never ment to be but lasting hopes will never destroy me we kept it a "secret" who should know? We kept nothing a secret, there was nothing to hide another one night stand, that lasted one week another broken heart, and more lies from the weak promises, lies, destroying my confused mind you don't love, you lust and you won't win, players never do you can smile, and laugh and talk your way out but deep inside you know theres a doubt HUMAN VS. HEART you know you'll always win sex is cheep, lies and false promises will eat you from within iv'e loved and lost, and still I stand strong you lust & lie and I will stomp you down I have the power, you will get no pity I have the control so stop acting pritty I'll beat you down I'll tear you up revenge is the key when someone you loved is fucked up. |
(Note: This is the first poem I ever wrote) Somthing happened one day when I felt the need to cry to scream to tell everyone my life is a front nothing you see is real my mind is hatered towards all humans in general nothing makes me smile Somthing happened one day when I felt the need to laugh to laugh at how people can make such fools of themselves just to impress other people when other people try just as hard to hide themselves I laugh even harder when I realize I'm one of those people Somthing happened one day when I felt the need to hate to hate everyone but myself for I know myself and what I need to change Somthing happened one day when i felt the need to die.... |
| I STAND ALONE | THE BLANK |
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| i am the night filled with fright you were standing in the light i saw you there,i could not bear to set you free you quickly took a glance at me half my face you couldent see, yet you wouldent leave me be with no sence of reality i do not need you anymore i see you walking towards the door hoping my knees will hit the floor like so many times before the sign says vancent,nobodys inside there's 21 chains their death has purly filled the air there is darkness everywhere people couldent care less about me being free cant they see the dark in me? theres people in this room, looking like they've met their doom prision numbers on there tombs nothing will be coming soon women crying and dieing of thirst this is the place where children go first misery reins,scorching pains please do not let me be just another memory walk on down to the town where lovers meet their faces in the street to keep the heat from being beat i saw a number on his head to keep his blood from turning red for the time being i keep seeing reflections of rooms babys in wombs so what should i do but pack my things and follow you no one else will treat me kind except the cannibal in my mind i saw you love i saw you cry but i ate your dove and watched you die i am a garden of chaos and bliss i see a tree of lonleyness separating you from me that is why i'll never be compleately and totally free. |
I woke up the same as any other day except a voice was in my head I learned I was a liar just like you I feel the hurt surround me please disolve me the lives we live never seem to get us anywhere but dead seal my tomb without my face I'm going to a lonely place words I say never seem to live up to the ones inside my head the day I tryed to live I wallowed in the blood and mud with all the other pigs burn the candles deep inside no I'm not afraid to die whatever I've feared has come to life I heard it in the wind I saw it in the sky I thought it was the end of this cold dark life once asleep but now I stand now in control of my life and where I am reality first it steals your mind then it steals your soul my mother says "that's alright" my mother says "thats life" hello? don't you know me? I'm the dirt beneath your feet My place has always been below you but now I'm high above looking down and grinning I long to taste death that so many people try death through myself away to be further forgotton wishful thinking to be six feet under your so content to drown In your own rancid apathy cannot find comfot in this world |