Me and a Gun 
 
5 am friday morning thursday night far from sleep I'm still up and driving can't go home obviously so I'll just change direction cause they'll soon know where I live and I wanna live got a full tank and some chips it was me and a gun and a man on my back and I sang "holy holy" as he buttoned down his pants me and a gun and a man on my back but I haven't seen BARBADOS so I must get out of this yes I wore a slinky red thing does that mean I should spread for you, your friends your father, Mr Ed and I know what this means me and Jesus a few years back used to hang and he said "it's your choice babe just remember I don't think you'll be back in 3 days time so you choose well" tell me what's right is it my right to be on my stomach of Fred's Seville and do you know CAROLINA where the biscuits are soft and sweet these things go through your head when there's a man on your back and you're pushed flat on your stomach it's not a classic cadillac 
 
"For many years, I shut down that place inside myself that needed to rage, cry, ask questions, and basically just express herself. I made a conscious choice when I put 'Me and a Gun' on the record not to stay a victim anymore..." ~Tori 
"Me and a Gun" is based on a personal experience and I wouldn't talk about it for seven years. I saw Thelma and Louise and it's like a door opened and i began to open than door and free myself from being a victim in my head. You can carry with you for the rest of your life really, and I smashed that." from the LE video

 "I'll never talk about it at this level again, but let me ask you. Why have I survived that kind of night, when other women didn't? How am I alive to tell you this tale when he was ready to slice me up? In the song I say it was 'Me and a Gun' but it wasn't a gun. It was a knife he had. And the idea was to take me to his friends and cut me up, and he kept telling me that, for hours. And if he hadn't needed more drugs I would have been just one more news report, where you see the parents grieving for their daughter. And I was singing hymns, as I say in the song, because he told me to. I sang to stay alive. Yet I survived that torture, which left me urinating all over myself and left me paralyzed for years. That's what that night was all about, mutilation, more than violence through sex. I really do feel as though I was psychologically mutilated that night and that now I'm trying to put the pieces back together again. Through love, not hatred. And through my music. My strength has been to open again, to life, and my victory is the fact that, despite it all, I kept alive my vulnerability." 

"I went to see Thelma & Louise, alone, on a whim, and my life changed. When Susan Sarandon killed the would-be rapist, I breathed for the first time in seven years." (Two hours later she wrote Me and a Gun.) 

 Anyone that has heard 'Me and a Gun' knows that it is Tori's most honest, heart wrenching song to date. More than anything I admire Tori for the strength she has. What amazes me the most of her relationship with her EWF. It was a fan that she was giving a ride home that raped her, and after all that she can still be in the public eye and available for Meet and Greets. She trully is a strong and courages woman.

 Please make sure you visit RAINN, the rape hotline that Tori founded. For more info on RAINN, check out my RAINN page. 
 
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