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yesterday:
previous posts ... small thing, big impact: ... laughing and enjoying watching an adult (i won't mention names *eg*) playing the air guitar ... me: this is actually my webpage, which will need to be worked on as
well, especially since i am making life-changes who invented snow anyway??? *shiver* |
i am finding the time at work passing very slowly now. In order for the new girl to learn, i have to step back and let her do the work "hands on", which means i am mostly watching, guiding and advising. Several times she has gotten upset with me when i have not given her an answer to a problem directly, but had her follow a process to discovering the solution herself. i point her in the direction, then let her walk there by herself.
And as i am describing this right now, i am chuckling as i realize i am applying the same methods Master used with me over the past year. Which means not only is the new girl learning; so am i. i am getting a sense of what Master most likely has felt teaching me. When i started my journey, i used to ask Him; "what do You get from this?" Now i am beginning to understand.
That has always bothered me, that feeling of some unfinished business i was supposed to have addressed and never did. i have always felt there was some "big" thing i was meant to do, but i was always frustrated because i couldn't figure it out. Maybe i have now. Maybe it was just to learn about me. And to understand that (for me at least) it is an on-going process that i can flow with and not be anxious over, so long as i move forward. It doesn't have to be some grand purpose in life. i don't necessarily have to leave my "mark". Because i already have, just by choosing to be myself. And choosing to be that person allows me to be more open and receptive to others.
Well. Aren't i just the little analyst today :)
November 30/99
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