Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, and irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.
I don't know where he is, if he's thinking of me, if he's missing me, I don't know if he's going to call or if he's already tried, I don't know what he's doing or if he cares, I don't know if he realizes there's a girl right here longing for his love and touch and misses him so much
Guys like a challenge. Especially when it comes to girls. They love the chase. They find the girl that is so out of their reach that they know there is no possible way that they will have her, yet they still try. Many times, they're like hamsters on a hamster wheel, going around and around trying to reach something...when there's never actually anything there for them to reach. It's really sad though. They play love like it's just a game of cat and mouse, when love should never be a game. What I don't understand is why those guys never go for the girl that is already there. That girl that sticks beside them and tells them to go for it, when deep down they are crying inside because they love that boy with every part of their existence. And so often that girl gets up the nerve to tell the boy how she feels...only to get a 'that's sweet' or a 'wow, you're making me blush'. Now you may think this girl is fool...but truthfully she has more balls than that guy that just broke her heart. And though she's dying inside, she stays beside him, trying her hardest to make him happy. And that boy just brushes off those words like they were nothing and tries to find another challenge. But you know if I were that girl, I'd challenge him. I'd challenge him to open his eyes and heart and stop acting like an ass and try to see that I did really love him. And that if he kept acting the way he did... I'd challenge him to stop me from walking out of his life. But if that girl really loved him, if I really loved someone that much, I could never say that...Too much doubt in thinking that he might not try to stop me.
I was never good at hiding the way I felt inside. And I'm not the type of person to contradict my emotions. So saying that I need you...that I care...that I love you, Wasn't me trying to please you. It was me putting everything out there for you to have or to throw away. And seeing as you never spoke back. I'll swallow the emptiness in my chest and walk away.
You're everything I've wanted. You're beautiful. You're reckless. And a little sad. You know it's the sadness that got me right from the start. I wanted to make it go away, and for a time I thought I had. It's pretty stupid, huh? You like the sadness. You cling to it, and in the end it will be all you have.
Honestly, Im crazy about him. But that doesn't make me stupid. Ive been hurt enough times to learn my lesson. Its not like he's the only guy who looks at me. And why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't appreciate me, when you and I both know I could do so much better? He knows where to find me if he wants, but my world's not going to stop and wait for him. And if he does come back, whos to say I'll even be here when he does.
Stop. Just stop talking. As much as I love hearing your voice and can never get enough of it, all I want you to do right now is kiss me. Just kiss me
We have a special relationship where you know me better than anyone else ever has and even better than I know myself
My hands feel empty- no one to hold
I hate the way you can push me to my limits with the things you do...And then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall in love all over again. And I forget every little reason I was mad
As I lie here in the midst of the night, I wonder if you're thinking about me. Maybe you've already fallen asleep, or I'm there in your dreams. But I know one thing for sure, I'm always thinking about you, and when I'm asleep, you're always in my dreams
Did you ever notice how you can be sitting in the middle of doing something one day and all of a sudden you will remember the beginning? Like the first time we held hands or the first song we sang in the car together? Maybe the first time we went to the movies or danced? Maybe something smaller like a joke that we laughed at for what seemed like hoursor a day we spent shopping... or a fast food restaurant we ate at? Sometimes I'll be sitting in the middle of doing something and I'll remember... and it makes me think Look how far we have comeLook how long it has been...look how happy we made each other from day one." And that is something so sentimental that it brings tears to my eyes
You know what I want? I want to be someone's reason for waking up, someone's reason for going through another day. Just once, I want to be the one being wished for, I want a guy to say to himself, "I'm so lucky to have her" To put it simply, I want to be someone's everything
And then I did the simplest thing in the world. I leaned down and kissed him. And the world cracked open*
*When he kisses you, he isn't doing anything else. You're his whole universe and the moment is eternal because he doesn't have any plans and isn't going anywhere, just kissing you, and it's overwhelming*
* Love said, 'Lie still and think of me,' Sleep said, 'Close your eyes till break of day'. But Dreams came by, and smilingly gave both to love and sleep their way*
Ive gone through this before... And thats why I dont get why this is so hard for me to deal with... its the simple fact that he just doesnt want me like I want him, I guess, maybe, its so hard because for a while there... He made me feel like he did... maybe thats the difference
Its one thing for people to cause you pain, like the knife to the heart kind of feeling... But its another when they actually start having fun with it, you know, twisting the knife all around... I mean, seriously, how insensitive can some people be?
I am so scared ... scared that I wont ever love anyone like this, that I wont ever find someone who can make me feel so complete yet at the same time be the one who's leaving me feeling lifeless...
And you'll never know how it feels to have the one person who means everything to you -make you feel like nothing
I cant stop crying... I dont understand, and its not the loud, screaming crying... Its just the tears continuously roll down my face, and I can't do anything to stop them
I thought by meeting this new guy, talking to this guy on the phone all night, and looking forward to seeing HIS face everyday... it would make me stop wanting you. That wasn't the case at all, instead, when I talked to this guy, or when I looked at this guy... all I wanted in the whole world was for it to be you
Its this continuous cycle of me falling over and over again... But he always catches me just before I hit the ground... Then takes me to the top, let's me go... and I fall all over again. And you'd think, just once Id say... "You know, maybe I dont feel like going back up there with you", but instead I do the opposite and practically let him blindfold me and take me himself... with no control of my own, I give him everything... and for some reason expect to be okay afterwards