For talking about total control of the body by something that is calling itself God is just as hard as saying that you are the son of God, and that you are Christ and have even said that it might even be Satan that is with in and still people just do not want to try and understand.
[x] For it is not easy to be one who shatters a lot [p8-b7] of people, beliefs, thoughts, and ideals, and there is a lot of things to discuss and work out before one can stand up and tell the world it is time to change.
For one thing that thy son has found out is that it does not really do any good to tell people of things to come, for a lot do not care and if people can change some things then all you can do is tell them of the bad that could come so they might see what is happening and try and change things for people can help God instead of letting God do everything.
For it is not what God is that matters it is what God wants that matters.
For Gods punishment is ever lasting for it is not punishment if I just let a spirit go to hell and then let him go to heaven for that is what life is about a place where you work your way to heaven or hell and if God let a spirit out of hell then people would still believe that they could do something and get away with it.
[x] The lonely crusader #3 for the venture has been hard and rough; and wish the voyage would stop for there is no end and it has taken a heavy toll but how can you go on looking for something that you are not even sure is there any more but yet you know that with out it you are nothing and since you are nothing now and you know if you turn back you still have nothing you should just keep going on for if you stopped now there is so much that would be lost for some how in your adventure you learned something that nobody else knows about and if you found [p28-b7] what you were looking for then there is so much that can be learned
For have heard so many things but to have something to become you and some how together have became one and now that I know that it is possible then how can I ever believe that I am me ever again for no matter what I can never tell for it has changed me from what I used to be for how can I be something that I really do not remember and that I really never even thought of what I was I just was all ways me and now I know that I can be [p33-b7] something else for it was so much better not to know that something else could be me so I will never know if I have a life or not for my life can be something else life and would not let me know if he thought that for some reason it would be better if it was the one who controlled so that I could do nothing to do things that, that would some how hurt what was suppose to be for it has shown me it does not care as long as things goes it's way for it wants me to believe and trust it and yet it has done something to me that it should not, for all the people around here can say that there is no way to tell if it is with in or not and that at least now I try and tell them that I am God so if I say that God is gone and that I'm the son then all any one has to go on is what I say and the way that this thing has made it so no body [p34-b7] can really know nothing then the only reason has to be that some how it thinks that it will help me for what it has done must be so bad that this is the only way people will even respect me.
For there has been so many who have died for God and there has been enough of innocent blood shed for what does it prove that you can kill some one who would not kill you for to kill in defense is justifiable if you are a person of God but you do not kill just because you have done something wrong or if you do not just like some one.
For one thing that I do say is that if you know that you are doing something wrong then what ever your punishment is it is just and just because you did not get caught does not mean that you will not pay so why do anything that will send your spirit to hell, that makes it rough for there are things that God will forgive you for and then there are things that God will not forgive for.
For God is loving, mean, nasty, forgiving, jealous, hating; for God can be everything that man is and even more but God [p40-b7] is the one that lets his laws be known and it is his way that means more then anything for he is the one that can end it all.
For honesty is the best way but some times it can bring hard ships up on some one for some times being dishonest get you out of some kind of hard ship but you are doing something no good for [p43-b7] how does one make examples with the knowledge that there are those who will use it to some how justify them selves so that is way God is the one that makes the decisions on if they come to heaven or not for God knows what was behind something and knows what kind of effect it had on others even though you may not.
For the things that I have forced this man through with out a choice of his own.
[p68-b7] For it does no good for me to be hard on women if the men do not change either for I would let a woman into heaven if she put up with a no good man and send the man to hell just because I said that a woman should be like a slave to a man does not mean that man can let it go to his head and become a jerk for you can look at it like this it is not man place to go through life just to please a woman but to please God and a woman is to please a man and God so that would make women's job harder but to accomplish it would make them more worthy of heaven and if a man treated a woman with love and respect and not treat his wife like a slave then he has set a good example for others and it does not hurt to discuss things with a mate for sometimes it helps for sometimes it helps to get there opinions for there are some women [p69-b7] that are smarter than men or there mate but like man that does not always make it right but what I have seen around this town and the way women are I do not like and I do not like the way some of the young are and I do not like the way that some of the men are but one thing for sure I am going to teach a lessen to some that they are going to wish that there was no God for that is what I have all ready done to this man and have let others talk their shit to others so this man could hear about it some how so his hate has built up for he just lays in wait for the day to come to get them back, vengines is mine say the lord and some need to know that God can wait for a long time to get his revenges and to give people a test of it will let it be known how it is and just because you cover it up with good means nothing to God sometimes.
For those who say that the devil made you do it why blame something that you do not know for something that you did
For life is something that is not to be tampered with and there is no way that one can be cheated out of their spirit for the body is spirit and there is no way that you can make anything human because it would not have a spirit and there is no machine that can replace a human life for there is no way that man can make a machine think for it self for like man it could learn more to help decide what to do and even could react on something if it was in the place to do it but because of feeling it can not make a decision like man so why even think of making a machine that looks just like man why even confuse the people for learn your lessen from this of how it is to wonder if it is man or something else.
For have said it before just because you might be lucky and know God or the son of God does not mean that God is going to grant you any favors.
For a lesson to be learned is just because time has gone by for something that you have done wrong does not mean that you get a way with it.
For God does not like the way that there is so many ways that the bible is written for it has done nothing but confuse people and a lot do not even know what to believe and how do you blame them if all the information came from the same writings then some one did not just write what was there and if just some of the information was used then [p102-b7] there should be a place where people could learn or get what they would like to know or at least have the knowledge all in one place so answers could be figured out and a house built for God and some would be a good place to have it and a computer is good if all religions united and with the help of a son to make the writings in the bible as true as can be and it would take a lot of books to have it all written down but some times to take just parts of something you can lose the meaning because all the information is not there.
[p103-b7] There is a God and there is Satan, there is Jesus and the holy spirit, there is demons and there is angels, there are good spirits and there are bad ones, for in the beginning there was nothing but God and since you know that there are things that you can never explain then you know that you can never explain what God is.
For what a thought if God and Jesus let themselves be known and the world would not listen to what they are trying to let be known that no man has ever walked with God and Jesus in spirit form together for that is something that another son would have the privilege to do but to him only will it really be known what it cost him.
[p115-b7] For there has been two many that has thought that God is nothing but a joke.
There comes a time when I get fed up with the human race and I do not care if they all go to hell for if they think that their way is better than Gods then I do not want them at all for the people around here do not want God and they do not like what I'm going to do and they are trying everything to save their own asses and protect a woman who God say is doing Satins biding for they care more about him and his way than God and son.
Here is some more about us and Stevenson Wa. dated 08/20/1998