The Beautiful Ones
Well, here I am again. And yes, like always, I have a story to tell. There's a man in my life who really loves me and some time ago he proposed. My response Im sure wasnt to his liking since I really didnt take him seiously. Why? Well because we had been to chill wih each other to be thinking so seriously about one another, or so I thought. But thats not to say I had never secretly thought of ever begining a family with him. So some time had passed and he asked me two more times. Well, the last time I was awfully quiet and told him to ask me later, implying that I wasnt ready but that it doesnt sound like something I wouldt be up to. I just wanted to make sure it was right, you know? Later on I get my hands on his "ex-girlfriends" blog and she's happily calling him her husband. I spoke to him about it and he claims that essentially she's got issues that she needs to work out. Ok, I think, maybe so, cause I know I had an admirer who had some crazy issues with me but the thing is, I never let him get out of line. If he ever said something that I disagreed with, then I'd speak to him about it, making sure it didnt happen again. Anyway, what I didnt get was how when I brought up him telling her about our potential marriage he says that he needs to make sure Im not going anywhere first. Im like what?! I admit I usually am the type to just get up and go, but if I were to ever marry him I would obviously sit still or bring his ass wth me where ever I went. But he played HIMSELF out hard as hell by making that comment. To me, He pretty much said he was putting his potential future wife on hold for some broad who came after me, because he doesnt want to hurt HER feelings just incase I change my mind about the situation. So he would rather hurt Mine then to just be truthful to us both. Sometimes I feel like my strengths are being used against me because he knows that Im not a whinner nor do I cry but damn, thats only because I've surpressed them for so long I forget I even have feelings. But shit, the way I feel is like he should be trying to get those feelings out instead of using them for fuked up purposes. Anyway...Ima get outa here but as far as the title to this entry goes...it wasnt meant for one person anyway. (CHEEZE to all my ex-potentials and future potentials alike) Im out. ONE
Posted by adroit_deviant
at 4:45 PM EDT
Updated: Sunday, 25 April 2004 5:12 PM EDT