Suddenly I feel alone...very alone.I dont usually have the feeling of longing for my exboyfriend to be around, not even when we were together. And I hated how I felt when I thought about him not being there when I really needed him.I felt like....I dont know....horrible.A kind of horrible I had never experianced.The kind that makes you want to end it all and take a few people with you before you do.Infact, I think the urge of wanting to kill people was simply my inner will trying to stay strong.Otherwise, I would have given up completely. Im not a very emotional person but if I were, I dont think I'd be able to handle this. I dont think most would.Its a rather nauseating feeling and if I didnt know any better, I'd say I were physically sick. On the bright side, I have to say, Im really quite appriciative that everything's happening before I go away to school, that way I can chalk this all up before hand and go there with a clear mind.I cant say Im looking forward to having to start over, but all in all, I cant complain.I suppose its better to show up empty handed than to show up carrying luggage that's just weighing me down.
Posted by adroit_deviant
at 12:48 AM EST
Updated: Monday, 9 February 2004 2:17 PM EST