Time is lost
Time has been spent
Wishing to turn back the
clock
Useless dreaming of things
being perfect
Wasted hours crying over
you
When you aren’t coming
back
Sick of always thinking of
you
My time with you is gone
– done.
Can’t you just leave
my mind alone?
Let me move on and heal
You left me in a physical
sense
My emotional pain is just
so much more intense
Years later it still feels
strong
I keep asking myself everyday
Why do I hang on?
My heart wants to keep on
loving you
My brain wants to push you
away
Everything I see reminds
me of our time together
All those songs, the toys,
and the pictures
Just sends me into constant
despair
Time has been lost forever
Things will never go back
to the way they were
Its time
to move on and to just forget – just let go.
Untitled
I long to lay my head down
to see the last of day
I wish to end this constant pain
that will forever stay
so
now I find the softest pillow
upon which to lay
I search out all my friends
to say my last goodbye
Softly now
I close my eyes
softly now I die
I am so alone right now
I am so afraid
I don't know where I am
I don't know
what to say
I am so cold
like I'm in the shade
My breaths become shallow
Its hard for me to breathe
I cry out
for my mother
but she can't hear me
Darkness closes in on me
Pushing light away
I see a lone figure
looking
sadly at me
He is swathed all in white
and light surrounds him
He walks to my side
and takes away my pain
He
opens up his arms to me
and gives me a great big hug
He beckons me to follow him
as he walks away
I look back
one final time
at my bed of death
and see my dead form lying there
in a state of peace
I look once more
at
my guide
and I know at once
just who he is.
How to say
I'd like to say "I love you so"
I want to say much more
I can't seem to find the words
it feels like such a chore
You
have done so much for me
to help me carry on
Your words of wisdom
and those talks 'til dawn
have taught me oh
so much
I want to tell you thank you
for everything you've done
so here is what I'll say to you
and this is what
I'll do
I'll be the best that I can be
I'll go as far as I can
and when I've succeeded in everything
I'll search
the world for you
and give you a huge hug
and say
"Thank you for making me
what I am today
I'll cherish all
we did
I'll cherish all you said
you mean the world to me
and I love you very much"
Not A Puppet
I am lost
amoung you fools
trying hard to fit in
I am one thing
and then another
am I your doll
that
you play around with?
Being things at your whim
Why can't I just
be myself?
Who I am
is not what you want me
to be
My personality
is not ment to be contained
I should be out
doing what I want to do
being things
that
I want to be
I'm not your puppet
you can't make me do
what I don't want to do
Why can't you just
leave me
alone?
let me flower, let me grow
to my potential
Stop locking me in
trying to mold me
into something
I'm
just not ment to be.
Boredom
Sitting in class,
looking out the window,
watching the traffic inch along,
looking around,
seeing people sleep
through the lecture,
wishing to be outside feeling
the cool breeze blowing
I close my eyes
and dream of places
I want to go to
I stop by a beach
and listen to the ocean crashing
against the sand
now I am flying
high above
the ground
I am free as a bird
flying around, and then
suddenly falling
the bell rings
and the class is over
I
trudge to my next class
to start the process again.
A New Vision
Wanting to see the world anew
You open your eyes
and look through your heart
frightened of what you may see
you
fearfully trudge on
seeking with in you
for what seems right
you want to hear from a different aspect
you open
your ears
and listen to the words of those around you
hoping to catch a glimpse
of what is being said about you
everything
you see and hear
tells you that everything is ok for now
to open your self up
to recieve the pleasures being offered.
Who's There?
Walking in the denseness of night
looking in the dark corners of my brain
simply thinking.
In the cold I cuddle
deeper
into my coat to find warmth
I lay back on the grass
and look at the stars
searching for some answers
wishing
to know why
you treat me the way you do.
Have I been a bad friend
to make you think the worst kind of thoughts?
Silently
I cry
in my heary and my mind
having thought of you as a true friend.
Wanting to move on and not think
of your
actions.
You never say hi
or even look my way anymore.
going away to my own private world
I sit and I think
about
how my life has changed
since meeting those around me
some make me smile
some make me cry
I wouldn't know where
I
would be
without certain people
those making my life bearable and livable
keeping me away
from those dark
intruding thoughts
from before
always making me laugh and smile
You are all I have right now
are you there for
me?
I'll Be Ok
He is gone
Left to do his duty
We are worried about him
Because where he is
He can be killed
Before he left
He
told us
"I'll be ok
So don't you worry.
I'll miss you both so much."
And so
He marched off
He knows we care
for him
Though more than a friend
And less than a lover
More like a brother.
He called his girlfriend
A little
bit ago to tell her
That he is alive and well
And to ask her to tell us
That he misses us dearly
And that he is
ok
And for us to not worry.
He will be back
In one year
He is fighting for freedom.
And we are proud
Together At Last
A silhouette stands in the distance.
It is a little girl waiting for daddy.
He is away fighting to save all those
people.
She stands there every night looking,
Talking to the wind.
Knowing somehow that her message will be delivered.
She
prays that her daddy will come back home safely.
A man is hidden in a building watching,
He feels a breeze and suddenly
he is reassured
And feels comforted
He thinks of his daughter and wife
He prays that he will get home safely
But
for now he must get back to the war.
A woman is standing in her kitchen cooking dinner.
Tears falling down her face
as she thinks
Of her husband fighting in the war.
Missing him desperately.
She prays that he will come home safely
As
she wipes her tears away.
The little girl and her mother in the kitchen
Hug each other.
The little girl misses daddy
The
mother misses he husband.
A knock at the door
Both run to it
The mother answers it
With the little girl behind
her
She squeals with delight
Daddy is standing outside in uniform
He is safely home
Even if it is only for a little
while
All three hug, happy to be together
For now.
Revelations
Plagued with doubts
and confused thoughts.
Trying to find out
who I really
am.
I look in the sky
that is black as pitch
and dotted with stars.
As many have done
in past centuries.
I
wipe tears away
ones that fell in despair
feeling like I failed
though I don't know how.
A cloud overhead
darkens
the sky for a minute
showing what I feel
dark and oh so gloomy.
suddenly though
the cloud disipates
showing
the brightly shining stars
one star stands out
shining brighter than the rest
than I know what I have been searching
for
I have but to wait
and my time will come
for me to outshine everyone.
A New Beginning
Worrying about things
that never should have bothered you
wishing someone would
appear
someone that likes you.
You see that what you are
is not getting the kind of reaction
that you hoped for.
Deciding
to completely reinvent yourself
into something.
The new you is totally different
noone recognizes you.
You are
getting attention
though this new attention feels odd.
Guys compliment you now.
You sleep with a guy
you think
is the one.
Then ten more, now the entire guy population.
You now have a label
all the guys try to get with you
as
if sleeping with you is some sort of initiation.
You curse popularity
wanting a new name
or to somehow turn back
time
to prevent this from happening
you move to a new school to start all over.
Something is Here
Desperation appears
making you cry
you see a love
that gives you hope
Something
is here
to give you comfort.
Something is here
that makes you happy
when you talk
you constantly smile
something
is here
that gives you faith in life.
Something is here
making your heart heavy
needing to talk, laugh,or cry
something
is near
to help you laugh, talk, or cry.
something is here
it gives you faith, hope, love, and comfort
something
is here
it makes you laugh, cry, love, talk, and smile
Something is here
and that something is Family.
Voice OF Reason
Hate surrounds us
becauses people to fight
they listen but do not hear
the pleas of those around them
makes
them ignore the voice of reason.
Agony waits just around the corner
pain and desperation makes them fear
the problems all around them
the wants and needs they can't
support
causes anger to appear
and makes people fight.
The pointless crusades, wars and battles
creates enemies anew and renews the old ones
the voice of reason calls for an end to these wars
so people
can live in peace and happiness
living the life they dreamed of living
giving their children the world the dream of
creating hope that keeps people living on.
Ignoring the Voice
of Reason
these battles and wars continue
destroying everything that was planned for
leaving anger in
the place of love
disaster prevails killing faith and hope.
Listen to the Voice of Reason
listen
well
for the voice of reason
will keep all the hope alive
while all of our anger will die.
I am
I am who I am,
noone can change me.
I am strong,
I will not be weakened.
I am smart,
I will not be told
otherwise.
I am beautiful,
I will let noone tell me I am ugly.
I am loving,
I will not have anyone wanting me
to hate.
I am loyal,
I will not be swayed.
I am me,
and I love it.
You are my friend,
and you helped me
see me.
Forbidden
A forbidden desire appears
Showing it's nature
Trying to push through the boundries
That you have set.
A
forbidden love is shown to you
Hoping to see the truth of it
You grab and reach for it
But it flits away just out
of reach.
A forbidden hope surrounds you
Surprising you with its strength
needing that strength
you hold on
to it.
A forbidden lover is placed in front of you
beckoning you over to them
knowing you can't have them
makes
you want them more.
A Hidden Love
Wishing and hoping,
Wanting things to go right,
Seeking and praying,
That I can find the right words,
To tell
you what is in my heart.
Watching and dying,
everytime you are near,
Knowing and crying,
that I could never have
you,
as more than just a friend.
Waiting and dreaming,
that you may come my way,
Sleeping and thinking,
I look
into my heart,
Loving you in every way
Secret
Secrets are shared,
anger flares,
You want to be involved,
Hoatred begins,
Feeling left out,
you want in.
The
secret is told,
The hatred consumes,
You start to fear,
That which should have been kept silent,
was told,
The
loss of a friend,
was the Price
Blind Ignorance
Lost in the chaos
everyone worrying only about themselves
deciding to be blind
and ignore everything.
Can't
they see what is going on
in the world around them?
Don't they know that a lot
of the worlds problems
are part
of thier own?
I don't see how a person says they care
when they can't find the time to help.
I can't believe that
with all the people on Earth
the problems triple in comparison.
How can a world so big, be so Blind?
People just
need to look within themselves
to find the compasion and the time
to come up with a solution
for the worlds problems,
not just thier own.
Trust
Hearing the Problems,
of those around me,
entrusted to a deep dark secret,
knowing something that could never
be told,
Helping the people,
who have suck bad problems
listening to them
as they purge their souls
wanting
them to speak
whats on their minds
knowing it helps them
to have someone to trust in,
I just wish
that I had
some one like me
to trust my troubled thoughts
and dark secrets to.
I See
Your eyes stare as we talk,
Gleaming with unshed tears,
As we speak you beg we walk,
The pain is from your fears,
I
See,
You tell me your problems,
I listen,
You ask what you should do,
Requesting my assistance,
Like I
am old and wise,
I see,
Tearfully you watch,
As I think,
Hoping to find a way out of the mess you're in,
Knowing
I am always here for you,
Trusting my judgement,
I See.
Future
People fear instead of having faith,
They are angry rather than happy,
They hate instead of love,
People fight
wars,
That aren't their own,
wanting revenge,
for what pain is caused.
Having faith,
I look for the best in
people,
Wanting happiness,
I do not fight,
Hoping for love,
I love in return.
Wanting a world
That isn't
destroyed,
For the children,
That are yet to come,
I do my best,
to help preserve the future.
Cry Out
Confusion of life,
what to do; who to be; where to go,
many questions do I ask
difficulties ahead gives cause to be
very scared.
Failure is something I may be,
Trying to raise up and not fail,
How I am to survive,
I know not.
Feeling as if sorrow drowns me,
always seeing things in life,
screaming at the anger and pain,
caused by the many deaths of innocents.
I cry at the ending of beautiful lives,
sleeping and dreaming,
of the Lord crying for the endless destruction
of His beauty and His love.
We, who are made in His likeness,
never cease to destroy,
what He has made for us.
He cries in my dreams,
weeping for His beloved children killing
and being killed.
being led away from His love
causing pain and hurt to all involved
love, and be loved,
hate, and He will still love.
