this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items
that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
you take a little bit of truth and wind it into some unmanageable monster !
if not
x y z , you would find something else to build up !
we both have our insane streaks i guess !
you take a little bit of truth and wind it into some unmanageable monster !
you take a little bit of truth and wind it into some unmanageable monster
LuLu
3156 writes
ed. its march
2017, now the mother of a baby girl and living at tassajara compared to november
2013 when this exchange took place . .
If you want to join public discussions on my blog do not call sexually abused women stupid. Ever. Your psychiatric diagnoses of strangers is questionable as well but not grounds for your expulsion.
my
reply
there's no point in doing zen if you don't get some larger frame of life is there ?
not the usual narrow crimped product that gets upset when a larger view of life is proposed to them?
zen is very autistic, perhaps the most autistic of all religions, its greats like ryōkan taigu and eihei dogen are screamingly so !
it's an overall human paradigm, a “ deconstructed condition so to speak ”
why enforce your judgement as to whether those women were stupid, what was their opinion ?
why can't a sexually abused woman be stupid................. we all are stupid and not so stupid by starts and turns...................... I too have been conned by zen and you as well................... it's a very slick machine designed to fool over many many centuries, we can be stupid to fall for things put up by a sophisticated apparatus............... isn't that what life is about, getting cleverer only to fall into another pothole then have the decimation of age creep up on us wiping all before it ?
i have noticed that men can form a sort of club to seduce women, between them they develop very sophisticated skills and have a sort of camaraderie which keeps them identifying with the “club” and remaining unattached............... is zen that sort of club ?
another autistic paradigm ?
why
is
being
conned
and
self
conning
such
an
intrinsic
aspect
or
substrate
of
reality?
in the
context of bone health
tablets
“ some forms of calcium and some forms of magnesium have been breaking down the vitamin K2
what the calcium and magnesium are doing is physically breaking the chain of the molecule
we are not seeing any pattern in the form of the minerals and the source of the minerals. there is no rhyme or reason with the affect on K2 ”
my
comment
i find that
K2 is very helpful for depression, especially if you are taking vitamin e which in larger dose depletes vitamin K, so i am giving this issue of magnesium and calcium breaking the K2 molecule some attention !
first off they are talking in the context of bone health tablets, so the calcium and magnesium are almost certainly mineral and not organic forms !
the compendium does not recommend calcium supplementation, but does promote the douglas labs magnesium taurate which is an organic form, however i think it's still wise to have a reasonable separation between taking the taurate and K2!
the compendium also promotes the possible use of
strontium and vitamin D as a soporific, since strontium is chemically similar to calcium and is also inorganic i would again be cautious of taking it too close to vitamin K !
enlightenment or holiness, nothing ever worked for me
enlightenment , nothing ever worked for me !
enlightenment , nothing ever worked for me !
enlightenment, nothing ever worked for me !
enlightenment, nothing ever worked for me
enlightenment, nothing ever worked for me
you have to survived to /past the third day, pulled the nails out and climbed down off the cross to understand love as an illusion.... :o) ( )
............. the maggots in your flesh shouldn't bother you :o)(
sweet
and
sour
you have to survived to /past the third day, pulled the nails out and climbed down off the cross to understand love as an illusion.... :o)............. the maggots in your flesh shouldn't bother you :o)
you have to survived to /past the third day, pulled the nails out and climbed down off the cross to understand love as an illusion.... :o)............. the maggots in your flesh
shouldn't bother you :o)
sweet
and
sour
there's just endless people come and go on the net, the way to deal with them is counter intuitive to the usual human tendency to “ village life them ” , just flick them off as people and focus on the information aspect they provide to you !
a w_k correspondent posts
Two cases of friends of mine have experienced subtle personality and emotional changes since starting low D3 doses (2000-3000 iu/ ~ 50-80 µg) daily, living at well over 30° latitude, adult male computer workers. I'll try and update if the one I know best tries digestive enzymes
my reply
people vary hugely in how they respond to vitamin D, 3000iu daily would leave me comatose !
also the quality of the supplements can vary because it degrades easily
unless it has a preservative in !
also I mix in strong sun and my uvb lamp because the uvb (either from the sun or my homebuilt lamp) seems to give something that vitamin D alone doesn't !
i probably do best on about 600 iu, but take 1000 iu daily or sorta daily because a bit on the high side helps with joints and sleep and the capsule is 1000 iu tho you can take less ! :o()
btw strontium needs high doses of vitamin D to work as a soporific, I think it's because vitamin D mobilizes strontium into the blood and brain, it looking chemically like calcium, but not quite the same as it seems to interfere with the stimulatory effect of calcium !
biofilm/microbiome problems in the gut can also lead to the need for very high doses of vitamin D as both the absorption villi may be damaged and the microbiome may be able to consume the vitamin D ?!
type 2 diabetes which is a combination of insufficient insulin production and insulin resistance is, like alzheimers, a protein
clumping disease, no wonder they are co-morbid !
adequate
zinc is important !
you know the writings better when
people
want
to
kill
you
:
o
(
you know the writings better when
people
want
to
kill
you
you know the writings better when
people
want
to
kill
why do you have to apologise
something has gone wrong, an offence has been committed !
wake up david, you are looking dated defending bullshit/voynich !
when you excite a woman
the
womb
spasms
when you excite a woman
the
womb
something
remarkable happened here 1,940 years ago !
lol, this
video argues that the gospels are in fact black satire in part cribbed
from the writings of
josephus
the notion of the gospels as black satire is interesting and hard to argue against !
:
o
)
lol, this
video argues that the gospels are in fact black satire in part cribbed
from the writings of
josephus
the notion of the gospels as black satire is interesting and hard to argue against !
lol, this
video argues that the gospels are in fact black satire in part cribbed
from the writings of
josephus
actually one thing to understand about zen in the west and japan is it is a militarist/nationalist construct created in the meiji era, so that's why you get all the behavior issues, it's implicit in the militarism !
sasaki's behavior in japan was not criticized for sexual misdemeanors (in the main) , but something more close to the human heart, embezzlement !
the military paradigm is fathering children one then abandons and looting, so he was running true to type !
actually one thing to understand about zen in the west and japan is it is a militarist/nationalist construct created in the meiji era, so that's why you get all the behavior issues, it's implicit in the militarism ! sasaki's behavior in japan was not criticized for sexual misdemeanors (in the main) , but something more close to the human heart, embezzlement ! the military paradigm is fathering children one then abandons and looting, so he was running true to type !
Buddha abandoned his wife and her newborn child, jesus was homosexual and muhammad was a murderous cuckolded polygamist !
what does that tell you about sexuality and religion ?
Buddha abandoned his wife and her newborn child, jesus was homosexual and muhammad was a murderous cuckolded polygamist ! what does that tell you about sexuality and religion ?
Buddha abandoned his wife and her newborn child, jesus was homosexual and muhammad was a murderous polygamist ! what does that tell you about sexuality and religion ?
my reply to a correspondent in the uk (13th november 2013)
they are expensive, but i really find that i can't do without them, in fact i am certain you will need to use them at least for a while !
the compendium recommends afp pep (HN004/SCD), zyme prime and no fenol
also some yogurts are much better than others, depends on the bacteria combination, bifidobacterium is out and lactobacillus gg is in !
i actually pasturize yogurt to about 68C before eating it !
the problem with raw milk is parasites like toxoplasmosis !
foods/vegetables on the scd and bcd diets are pretty much only excluded on the basis of their starches being too accessible to biofilm/microbiome and not able to easily broken down by the bodies own enzymes, the exculsion of “high thiol” foods is quite invalid imo !
you need to bring those foods that are NOT scd/bcd illegal back into your diet !
high blood pressure is an artifact of all the other problems, as you get the other problems ameliorated, so the blood pressure will drop !
what brand of magnesium taurate are you taking, i have only found the douglas labs suitable to date, the others have too much unreacted magnesium in !
cod liver oil is not a good idea, you want to read my write up on fish oil !
vitamin d really has to be taken as a supplement, i also take vitamin A as a supplement occasionally tho i seem to need it much less now !
when you get things right you will improve quite rapidly, the combination of what you doing is NOT working !
basically what i say is what i do, like oats aren't as bad as wheat, but in fact i don't eat any grains, oats are still problematic !
way better to bring the so called “high thiol” foods that are “ bcd/scd legal ” back into the diet !
i do feel you are going to need the houston enzymes to get you into some sort of functioning space !
------------------
lactobacillus acidophilus is a good bacteria! the bifidobacterium lactis bb12 won't be !
"I will try adding back in vegetables that are high in thiols such as Brussels sprouts, cabbage, spring greens, broccoli which are my favourites. I wont be adding garlic and onions back in because I know that I am extremely sensitive to these (unless you recommend the smallest amounts which may provide some benefits?)"
Brussels sprouts, spring greens (cooked) and broccoli are good, cabbage can be problematic
garlic and onion lower blood pressure, however i don't eat garlic because it gives me rebound migraines and don't eat too much onion (but it does really lower blood pressure, i think the red onions are best !) , i think you are right to be cautious about them !
the australian brand "blackmores" makes a good vitamin D, maybe it's available in the uk? vitamin D is very perishable so i find it needs a preservative in to prevent it degrading. the sodium sulphite used in the blackmore's formulation seems to work and be ok !
i found the cardiovascular research magnesium taurate gave me gut problems, but the douglas labs didn't
yeah cyanocobalamin B-12 taken occasionally is an essential supplement !
I eat quite a bit of
fruit , but follow the
biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate diet which is quite a different approach !
a particularly toxic story :o)(
Once the abbot of a Tibetan monastery lectured his monks on the evils of smoking, both spiritual and physical. All the time he was speaking, he was smoking from a pipe. After his lecture, his attendant pulled him aside and said, it’s wrong for you to tell you students to do something and then do the opposite. The abbot did not reply at that time.
Then one day, the abbot was walking with his attendant. Both were smoking.
The abbot said, “Let’s have a contest to see who can blow the best smoke ring.”
His attendant agreed. He inhaled from his pipe and blew a large, perfect ring.
The abbot said, “That’s not how you blow a smoke ring.”
He inhaled on his pipe, stretched out his hands, and smoke rings came out of the tips of his fingers
He told his attendant. “When you get to this level in your practice, it doesn’t matter if you smoke or not.”
my reply
i thought the end went like this
the abbott lifted up his robes and underskirt, and blew out a smoke ring from his arse and the tip of his penis !
:
o
)
a particularly toxic story :o)(
Once the abbot of a Tibetan monastery lectured his monks on the evils of smoking, both spiritual and physical. All the time he was speaking, he was smoking from a pipe. After his lecture, his attendant pulled him aside and said, it’s wrong for you to tell you students to do something and then do the opposite. The abbot did not reply at that time.
Then one day, the abbot was walking with his attendant. Both were smoking.
The abbot said, “Let’s have a contest to see who can blow the best smoke ring.”
His attendant agreed. He inhaled from his pipe and blew a large, perfect ring.
The abbot said, “That’s not how you blow a smoke ring.”
He inhaled on his pipe, stretched out his hands, and smoke rings came out of the tips of his fingers
He told his attendant. “When you get to this level in your practice, it doesn’t matter if you smoke or not.”
my reply
i thought the end went like this :o)
the abbott lifted up his robes and underskirt, and blew out a smoke ring from his arse and the tip of his penis !
the russian revolution of 1918 created an interesting conundrum for writers and poets, either you left and lost the supremacy of writing in the tongue you were brought up with, or you stayed, kept that supremacy but risked being executed along with those close to you, or starving (marina
tsvetaeva) or being sent to a siberian labour camp (the gulag!)
when i look at it and the way some of the world's greatest poets were treated (anna akhmatova, osip mandelstam) i think you would have been better to have left, nabakov was a mediocre writer in english, but his was the right choice tho in fact being aristocracy he couldn't stay :o)(
the russian revolution of 1918 created an interesting conundrum for writers and poets, either you left and lost the supremacy of writing in the tongue you were brought up with, or you stayed, kept that supremacy but risked being executed along with those close to you, or starving (marina
tsvetaeva) or being sent to a siberian labour camp (the gulag!)
when i look at it and the way one of the world's greatest poets was treated (osip
mandelstam) i think you would have been better to have left, nabakov was a mediocre writer in english, but his was the right choice tho in fact being aristocracy he couldn't stay :o)(
i don't regret being an only english speaker :o)
zen is really self
taught , sasaki may have been a predator but those women were stupid ! the world eats the vulnerable and you just have to get a bit smarter, that's all there is to it ! :o)
you make a good point about miley cyrus and Justin beiber, miley cyrus is fairly steered by her father who seems to be only concerned with publicity at any cost which she needs of course as she is not much of a singer !!!!!!!!!
but if you are looking for coherence what do joshu sasaki, miley cyrus and Justin beiber
have in common ?
they are all charismatic individuals well on autistic spectrum with the usual issues.................... cyrus and beiber also have the fragile health of some autistic spectrum ( they would also be from today's vaccine damaged generations! ) , signs of which you can see revealed occasionally, I think sasaki has always been a bit schizophrenic as well ! not afool though, not called up to fight in WW2 !
it's a very good
shot , the central semantic's come across !
you can even argue that the reflections add !
Andrei tarkovsky is the greatest filmmaker imo, try looking at his film “mirror” you will see a natural synchronicity with him and this sort of shot could be in his films !
sometimes control goes and you just have to work serendipity in ! :o)
the notion of the reflection and trees and the branches contrasted with the interior scene of the monk eating and blind to what is outside is how you weave in the deeper themes in that separate the pedestrian from the surreal :o)(
zen
is
larger
than
zen
if
you
see
what
i
mean
tap
into
that
and
you
will
be
ok
:
o
)
it's a very good
shot , the central semantic's come across !
you can even argue that the reflections add !
Andrei tarkovsky is the greatest filmmaker imo, try looking at his film “mirror” you will see a natural synchronicity with him and this sort of shot could be in his films !
sometimes control goes and you just have to work serendipity in ! :o)
the notion of the reflection and trees and the branches contrasted with the interior scene of the monk eating and blind to what is outside is how you weave in the deeper themes in that separate the pedestrian from the surreal :o)(
zen
is
larger
than
zen
if
you
see
what
i
mean
tap
into
that
and
you
will
be
a good explanation of how the termite mounds and human lungs
work [14:25]
if you want to understand ants, look at these
I II !
upgraded to windows 8.1 from 8 last night, went well !
contrary to what you might hear it's the best windows to date, tho you need to be familiar with afew keyboard shortcuts to navigate your way around the clunky graphics interface !
my 128 gig samsung 840 pro ssd is ahoney :o)( !
it is one of the all time great films, though what gives it it's greatness i can't exactly say ! ?
it's full of his sadness i think !
it is one of the all time great films, though what gives it it's greatness i can't exactly say ! ?
i don't know wether doing this was stupid or
not ?
got
carried
away
i guess
:
o
(
i don't know wether doing this was stupid or
not ?
got
carried
away
streptococcus
pneumoniae which can cause a nasty range of
diseases likes manganese and dislikes zinc because zinc
blocks the action of its manganese transporter !
kogen writes
Eventually I felt that wall of “ trying harder is not called for ”
The week was so busy, my attempt unfruitful, and I promised to respond, so I did it.
The inherent patriarchy is hard to negotiate. In fact, I won't. I'm all for throwing it out!
my
reply
basically it requires to go the extra mile and then another ten, imo this is the huge advantage of celibacy and why there's nothing of substance from the married and in relationships in zen !
it's not black and white but one needs a background of a huge period of one's life as celibate just because the road is too crucifying to travel along with anyone else !
imo zen today is a toxic toad of inappropriately applying a celibate approach to what is obviously not celibate
the question of translations, veracity of the original text and plain missionizing to a certain point of view by the translator so the translations are some sort of political - religious document is a huge issue in zen (and any religion actually ! ?)
when I started zen, I took the translations at face value, but in fact one learns they are mostly voynich, that is, deliberately designed to be nonsensical but appear to be profound !
this unfortunately is the way the human mind works and why great masters like eihei dogen and matsuo bashō are so rare................
but you can read in plain English Emily Dickinson, a very zen mystical poet and actually translations of the sufi mystic
sa'di being prose are usually quite readable if you try and put yourself into the mindset of the medieval islamic culture a bit !
one thing people don't appreciate about dogen is he had quite a traumatic and adventurous life, not some bookworm, that's one thing I liked about john loori, an interesting and fullish life, but the generations that have followed are just babies in terms of life experience and unfortunately it shows !
I have been trying to tell kogen that he doesn't fit either at green gulch or the san Francisco zen center because his life experience is too broad, those who have blinkers on to buy into centers the way most people do, they don't like those without blinkers and remove them at the first opportunity ! :o(
or
their
posts
i don't think men quite understand the way women look at them, as beasts of burden, so that they can become beasts of burden themselves : o)(
of course the male ego is the stick they use to control them ! : o()
of course i can write this and even if you understand, it doesn't make much difference to the way you behave, it's in the brain's evolutionary substrate, not avoided at all, but only twisted and distorted :o())( ) :~~~o)(()
i don't think men quite understand the way women look at them, as beasts of burden, so that they can become beasts of burden themselves : o)(
of course the male ego is the stick they use to control them ! : o()
i don't think men quite understand the way women look at them, as beasts of burden, so that they can become beasts of burden themselves : o)(
i don't think men understand the way women look at them, as beasts of burden, so that they can become beasts of burden themselves : o)(
his brain was quite different, sleep was a vision to access quantum space like that !
“ while asleep, i had an unusual experience. there was a red screen formed by flowing blood, as it were. i was observing it. suddenly a hand began to write on the screen. i became all attention. that hand wrote a number of elliptic integrals. they stuck to my mind. as soon as i woke up, i committed them to writing ”
lou reed is a tragedy, an extreme musical
talent , but only a shadow of what he could have been if not for the ECT treatment given at age 14 to
cure his bisexuality ! : o ((()
lou reed is a tragedy, an extreme musical
talent , but only a shadow of what he could have been if not for the ECT treatment given at age 14 to
cure his bisexuality ! : o ((()
“ i am tired, i am weary i could sleep for a thousand years a thousand dreams that would awake me ‑ different colors made of tears ”
lou reed is a tragedy, an extreme musical
talent , but only a shadow of what he could have been if not for the ECT treatment given at age 14 to
cure his bisexuality ! : o ((()
actually i never met a woman who i felt didn't feel that men were dumb :o) ! ¡ !
there's obviously some intrinsic evolutionarily designed neural blinding going on !
on
both
sides
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:
o
)
actually i never met a woman who i felt didn't feel that men were dumb :o) ! ¡ !
there's obviously some intrinsic evolutionarily designed neural blinding going on !
on
both
actually i never met a woman who i felt didn't feel that men were dumb :o) ! ¡ !
actually i never met a woman who i felt didn't feel men were dumb :o) ! ¡ !
why do women think men are so dumb ? is it because they are dumb, or are they just dumb in a different way ?
why do women think men are so dumb ? is it because they are dumb, or are men and women (just?) dumb in different ways ?
why do women think men are so dumb ? is it because they are dumb, or are they just dumb in a different way ?
why do women think men are so dumb ?
is it because they are dumb, or are they just dumb in their different ways ?
why do women think men are so dumb ? is it because they are dumb, or are they just dumb in their different ways ?
ken ono says
“ it’s as though we no longer needed to see all the stars in the universe, because the pattern that keeps
repeating forever can be seen on a three-mile walk to tallulah falls ”
my
comment
i think zen and autistic/pervasive developmental disorder neurobiology also do that !
at
least
that
has
been
my
experience
todatefor many years now, no (real?) exceptions
a
bit
unexciting
but
ordered/disordered ? ?
:
o
)
ken ono says
“ it’s as though we no longer needed to see all the stars in the universe, because the pattern that keeps
repeating forever can be seen on a three-mile walk to tallulah falls ”
my
comment
i think zen and autistic/pervasive developmental disorder neurobiology also do that !
at
least
that
has
been
my
experience
todatefor many years now, no (real?) exceptions
a
bit
unexciting
but
ordered/disordered ? ?
i'll be fucked, i did it ! it
works ! hit it with a rubber mallet and the bottom of the empty/water filled olive oil bottle came clean off :o)
now
all
i
need
is
a
party
to
go
to
:
o
(
i'll be fucked, i did it ! it
works ! hit it with a rubber mallet and the bottom of the empty/water filled olive oil bottle came clean off :o)
now
all
i
need
is
a
party
to
go
to
:
o
)
now i eat quite abit of cooked fruit (heavily smothered in double cream :o) , i have noticed i don't seem to need much salt and was interested to
read that moderate amounts of fructose upregulate the kidney's response to angiotensin II which in turn increases salt reabsorption !
“ a diet rich in wheat flour and animal protein produces an acidic environment in the body that worsens with age as kidney function declines.
this acid load can be detrimental to a variety of tissues and processes.
research suggests that consuming more fruits and vegetables - - which are highly alkaline - - may help counteract these effects ”
brad warner writes (of lou reed and his death !)
“ But he isn’t really gone. Nothing is ever really gone. He’s just changed his shape so radically
we can’t find him anymore ”
my
reply
gone or not gone, brad's singing a song !
what
a
P
O
N
G
!
:
o
)
urinal splashback
video , has general applicability
to any fluid stream :o)(
master yunmen addressed the assembly, saying, “ i don’t want any words from our tradition. [now tell me in your own words:] what is ‘self’ in the teaching of our patriarchal school? ”
in their place he simply extended both hands.
my retranslation and reply
master yunmen addressed the assembly, saying, “ don't give me your usual bilge ! what are we ? ”
he extended his hands (hand?) splaying his fingers out !
my comment
the bald idiots these days can't talk without clichés :o)(, their own words are a bad and unpleasant dream to them :o)
“ at the moment of giving birth to a child, is the mother separate from the child? ”
the answer is no and that's actually very strongly what dogen's teacher (tiāntóng rújìng) taught, as per his poem
windbell/s
the whole body is a mouth
hanging in space
not caring which way the wind blows
east, west, south or north
all day long it speaks of Prajna Paramita for everyone
ting-ton, ting-ton, ting-tong
at the moment of birth you don't have to ask linda ruth, the answer is already there for you !
like Mount
Tamalpais or the fog over san Francisco bay !
yeah the sea of life
......................
it's work in the right places
that keeps the ship from sinking i am afraid :o()
yeah the sea of life...................... it's work in the right places
that keeps the ship from sinking i am afraid :o()
yeah the sea of life...................... it's work in the right places that keeps the ship from sinking i am afraid :o()
an excellent/interesting poem by philip
larkin
he guessed how soon these would be taught to weep
to value white-towered argos, to understand
battle is more than shooting from the hip –
patroclus frying in the bloodsoaked jeep
and crew-cut achilles two-timed on the sand
argos was a town notorious for staying out of the greco-persian wars and
patroculus was killed after
failing to turn back after their objective of saving the greek ships had succeeded
some thoughts on the compendium and type one diabetes !
zinc improves t reg function, uvb on the skin makes additional anti-inflammatory compounds to vit D (i built my own uvb lamp) and the biofilm carbohydrate diet i think targets quite well as a diabetic diet being basically anti-inflammatory
chromium is very effective for reducing insulin resistance, if you can reduce insulin resistance then that spares and rests the beta cells
folapro is anti-inflammatory
is that aging ? ? everything becomes like a distant dream
is that aging? ? everything becomes like a distant dream
is that aging everything becomes like a distant dream ? !
is that aging everything becomes like a distant dream ! ?
is that aging everything becomes like a distant dream ?
is that aging everything becomes like a distant dream
is that aging? everything becomes like a distant dream
is that aging ? everything becomes like a distant dream ?
i'm breaking under doing the workload of nothing :o( :o) :o) :o(
i'm breaking under doing the workload of nothing :o( :o) :o) :o(
i'm breaking under the workload of doing nothing
can you undo yesterday no !?
can you undo yesterday no !
can you undo yesterday no
can you undo yesterday ? no
hmm,
liquorice looks to have medicinal effects as well as having the unwanted side effect of dropping potassium levels !
jill writes (9th november 2013)
I’ve just finished using a siteripper to download the compendium.
I’m a web designer taking another 2 years in college currently.
I’ve wanted to find something like the
compendium for three years.
I had two of fourteen amalgams holistically removed at the end of October.
That leaves two left.
I have a long way to go yet,
But that’s not comparable at all to eternity.
You name is surely big in heaven.
PS, balancing supplementation as best I can on a low budget,
lithium orotate gave me a wibbly-wobbly time after the amalgam removal.
Info on
strontium was perfect.
my reply
well, the compendium is a product of necessity, i had to do those things to survive !
i don't think there's any hurry to remove those amalgams, even holistic removals still give a mercury dump, it's not the worse course for you to simply leave those amalgams in until they become loose enough to be prised out with a minimium of drilling !
i am glad strontium works for you, one really needs a few supplement successes to bring one up enough to par that one can do things to make further progress !
you have to come at any health problem from a number of different angles to be successful, there are alot of depends like i use vitamin D and not so much strontium now because i find strontium makes me a bit depressed, but that will vary person to person !
lol, yeah, taking the orotate form of lithium is like being hit with a sledgehammer :o)
keep in touch and don't forget the message board, there's a lot of fiddling and finesse required to make things work, it takes an active interest :o)
huh, I never realized I have been to findhorn, stayed at a bed and breakfast with a woman who was or had been part of the community there living quite close to the sea......., she had had all her composite (non mercury fillings) replaced by amalgam (mercury ) fillings recently, poor woman.............. you can see puffins at faraid head, i loved the northwest corner, almost got my eyes pecked out by a tern on the kyle of tongue, by the bridge.................. the woman at the tourist information bureau at durness was the most dissociated person I have ever met...........cawdor castle has a nice garden, not that I paid to enter :o)(, I liked inverness, when you look at the minnows in the river you know the loch ness monster is a fraud :o)(........... the west coast is really great and it's a lovely drive down the center from inverness to edinburgh, especially the last bit (pitlochry to perth?) Edinburgh to London by train is a scenic trip.........if awakening is anything it is simply being able to travel like that, wordsworth's proverbial “lonely as a cloud..............” :o)(
serenity only comes from seeing that everything has already fallen apart
serenity only comes from seeing everything has already fallen apart
ok, this is fresh from the horse's arse :o)
jeff foster writes
we allow ourselves to fall apart
embracing each other in broken perfection
as consciousness loses itself in form
to find itself in emptiness
over and over
my reply
serenity only comes with seeing everything has already fallen apart
my comment ,
jeff is creating a little story of tranquility or a serenity that doesn't exist and more to the point as i don't have a quibble with what doesn't exist, but it lacks synchronicity and is wrong minded
i haven't really found any serenity in life and there really is no serenity except in viewing the overall catastrophe, lol, maybe a momentary comfort in that :o)(
the last three lines of jeff's poem are just voynich, but there's something to the first two :o)(
the glass shatters
with
no
repair
the diamond glints on the benchtop
serenity only comes with seeing everything has already fallen apart
serenity only comes with seeing everything has already fallen apart !
serenity only comes with seeing everything has already fallen apart
i find this page quite interesting because something needs to have happened about the ages of say 4 to 8, generally then it's lost, but after that your life is always asynchronous, like nothing fits or you for that matter and how can it? life has been seen as an illusion for real :o), you can't walk past seeing it's real nature and the essential pointlessness and pretend “ oh like normative reality ” is where i will be at !
the self is never let go of, the deconstruction is native, it's just acquiring some (very incomplete!) smarts about the business over thirty, forty, fifty years, there are several awakenings and they can be lost somewhat, there's just a very long progression of work sorting out what they really say and working that into your life and living in a way/somehow ! :o)(
i prefer advaita/non duality to zen in a way because at least a lot/some of the awakening experiences are real/genuine, tho not worked through anything like adequately, but in zen no-one (very few anyway !) seems to have any sort of real awakening, they construct some false state of samadhi in the same way as neo-advaita/non duality constructs a false state of “ this ” the moment or whatever !
like jeff foster who i feel had some sort of real childhood awakening experience hasn't fully recovered it and shillies about in some toxic florid bloom of psuedo rumi or whatever !
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if anyone feels upset over my criticizing jeff foster then why not forward the post to him and suggest he reply rather than the usual impulse to delete my post or ask for it's removal !
jeff's a big boy, he can handle it and actually any real process involves a lot of dispute :o)(
john lumb replies
I don't think we need to go out of our way to roast jeff , he seems like a nice enough guy , why are you trying to cross examine his awakening , the guy has wavy hair , he's trying to educate people about spirituality , i'm a little bit joking , but for real , I think the big picture is that jeff is just doing his thing. I always thought jeff was cool but whatever , to each his own .
my
reply
john, why are you trying defend jeff's nonsense anyone can see it, he's not all nonsense by a long way, how helpful are you being to him trying to sweep this aspect of him under the carpet ?
it's not each to his own, people who teach claim competence and experience and if they are real then they will look at weak areas !
ok, well “ cool ” is what you want, if you feel you need to try and suppress criticisms to preserve that illusion you have :o)............
congratulations on replying btw, until we are prepared to speak what we think............. it's often not glamorous, but seeing it and looking at its and our insufficiencies starts to break the molds we are cast in :o)( ................
if i can offer a comment, it's the outside of our comfort zone that is most productive to us, not trying to keep the world in some shape we have predefined :o()
there is nothing more dangerous than groups which close themselves to different opinions, that's how cults develop !
i would welcome a chance to dialogue with jeff on this, however as he banned me from his facebook page for expressing similar sentiments, i don't expect that to happen !
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I think there's an illusion that an awakening experience is some sort of answer, but my observation and experience is while some essential element imprints and remains, in practical terms it can calcify very quickly, particularly with the sort of stresses and bus-i-ness that most teachers are exposed too...........
if you exempt a teacher from criticism then hubris gets them, and really, what does an awakening experience show us except our own fallibility, perhaps it is true awakening to aggressively seek the insufficiencies................... ramana was like that i think............. well targeted criticism was welcome to him : o ) and poorly targeted criticism was welcome in a different way as the usual cross to bear and render productive somehow : o () ............
the other thing is there is always a fundamental equality between people, whether they are a teacher, student, bystander ........... whatever : o ()
you should “grow out” of meditation within three years and preferably earlier !
that comment is beyond price ! :o)(
page 395 (tianyi yihuai?)
one, two, three, four, five, six, seven
alone atop the eighty-thousand-foot peak,
snatching the pearl from the jaws of the black dragon
a single word exposes vimalakiri
hmm, that's
some opera ! :o)(
Pagliacci, the crossover between fantasy and reality !
what annoys me about companies like coca cola is the way they make money
by
treating people like idiots !
that
is
the
more
they
treat people
like
idiots
the
more
money
they
make ! :
o
“truthier” writes
Shakyamuni Buddha taught that all sentient beings are Buddhas, remember?
my
reply
what is a Buddha, what is a sentient being ! ?
it's just really a statement of what is called solipsism, that is, each of us is a universe !
“truthier” replies
Aren't we?
my
reply
aren't we making more boundaries when dharma requires there be none !?
aren't we making more boundaries where dharma requires there be none !?
I am offering friendly advice, that is you are hubric about your understanding, (ed. of zen) of course being hubric, you won't see the validity of my advice :o)(
“lordlawnmower” replies
There's nothing hubric about it. All this pointing, it's pointing to something that's right here. Shortcut? What?
my
reply
this “right here” is in fact a european philosophic cliché that's been around in european philosophy since the greeks, it's not zen, happy hubris :o)
now this is zen
dayu shouzhui said
Mt. Sumeru suspended in the Big Dipper/ The tip of the staff upholds the sun and moon./ Forests and springs conversing,/ The waning summer cleaved by the autumn wind
my reply
mt. sumeru rests in the big dipper, it is the big dipper, woven through by the trees and streams, the needle inverts spewing beauty......... before spring was winter....summer waxed in the blink of an eye.............
I am offering friendly advice, that is you are hubric about your understanding, (ed. of zen) of course being hubric, you won't see the validity of my advice :o)(
it's hard to bend the brain into nothingness, but then, nothingness bends the brain into itself :o)(
“truthier” writes
Zen monks aren't Buddhist monks?
my
reply
in theory zen doesn't need a buddha who lived historically, ie if he was just a story (which of course he is :o), it doesn't matter, I think this differs from other branches of Buddhism !
Books and words help one develop an intellectual understanding of Zen, which is sort of like developing intellectual understanding of the taste of a fruit you've never had.
my
reply
that must be why dogen and ryōkan spent their lives writing and reading !
I think people say that sort of thing to justify their low reading age :o()
A monk asked, “ I know about sunlight and firelight. What is the divine light? ”
Joshu said “ Sunlight Firelight ”
my
reply
one consumes, the other gives
one consumes, the other gives !
Mt. Sumeru suspended in the Big Dipper/ The tip of the staff upholds the sun and moon/ Forests and springs conversing,/ The waning summer cleaved by the autumn wind
my
reply
mt. sumeru rests in the big dipper, it is the big dipper, woven through by trees and streams, the needle inverts spewing beauty......... before spring was winter....summer waxed in the blink of an eye.............
Mt. Sumeru suspended in the Big Dipper/ The tip of the staff upholds the sun and moon/ Forests and springs conversing,/ The waning summer cleaved by the autumn wind
my
reply
mt. sumeru rests in the big dipper, it is the big dipper, woven through by the trees and streams, the needle inverts spewing beauty......... before spring was winter....summer waxed in the blink of an eye.............
i've seen a few monks from some different traditions, including christian and the zen ones were the unhappiest and (most?) regretted their decision, they wanted to be married with families :o)(
i think one of the problems is zen doesn't value being monk at all !
really the only ones with status are the so called masters some of whom have greatly tarnished the “brand” so to speak by using the position to have affairs or just plain sexual predation :o()
the problem is the monks often have no job skills, or even relationship skills, once you are over thirty changes don't come at all easily ! I have travelled extensively in different zen and other religious centers btw! the other big issues are health and no money !
kogen writes
Dear Reddit Buddhists who live in Northern California,
I'm a zen student and farmer at Green Gulch Zen Center, and before I ordain, I'd like to black (ed. tattoo) out half of a sleeve that is culturally appropriated, misogynist, and affiliated. It's from my wrist to my elbow. I'm a resident on a small stipend, so if you could donate your time, I could donate mine in your backyard.
Deep bow, Kogen
my
reply
black is the worse colour for nanoparticles!
any of the inks can be carcinogenic and allergenic !
just leave it, they are a mistake you can't undo, even removing them can create nanoparticle problems !
kogen you deep bow to everyone except those who give you good advice !
you can call it zen, but I call it suicide :o)
john loori had tattoos and a missing front tooth, never bothered him at all !
when you play a computer game you are a consumer, it's a limiting perspective ! : o ()
lol, people with high iq's have asperger's syndrome :o)(
kogen writes
All we have is the fairy tale. That's where these words exist. Without them, you abide in clarity. What do you appreciate?
my reply
that's actually very strongly not what dogen says in “
painting of a rice cake” , which actually when I have read it through properly for the first time without the eyes glazing over (almost, dave st. germain is right about eihei dogen
that king of tautologies who lulls me to sleep), dogen translations seem to come with built in silicon dioxide !
do you see how the net is exploding the green gulch and san Francisco zen center cult dream ? you can envisage some dream of being a priest/roshi but the net is breaking down the cult barriers by permitting free expression and by the time you get up in the hierarchy it will have all vanished..................
the other big thing i notice with the research and communication advantages of the net that in terms of figuring all this out you are way better now being at home and eating decently and not being screwed up by mental twits than having all the negatives of living at some sort of center ! :o()
in the old stories it's obvious that the monks travelled a lot, you had a very good network of monasteries you could stay at but modern zen doesn't work that way, a lot of little closed cults that don't really talk to each other, not to mention the teacher sex addiction problems :o() ( ))()
kogen , you are talented but have a huge arrogance or inability to see you are not doing the real work of understanding that seems to go side by side with a natural savancy of understanding you somehow compartmentalize away from all this fake buddhist stuff, very interesting but i suspect it must be highly crucifying to be you ! :o)
well it's highly crucifying
to
be
me...........
