this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items
that don’t warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
alma deutscher is
dialogical to an extraordinary degree with the prevailing classical “ tableaux ”
, i don’t know what the implications of this are, but it could be a warning flag of some sort
multilingualism will be spreading her too thin and i don’t think the “ meta ” is entirely helpful either
these people on the web who just bash at the person and haven’t learnt to take an argument apart
tattoo inks are unregulated and contain nanoparticles, toxins and carcinogens
also they mess the immune system since they persist through a relay of being consumed by successive macrophages
women shop for men, but men are the eyeless product and don’t look too much
i must admit, i was never keen on geoffery chaucer’s writings, but with more experience of life i am
more appreciative
with history you can say things happen a certain way, with the future you can’t say with certainty what will happen
i think this is really what time is, this movement from certainy to uncertainty and vice versa
there is a sort of paradox between the ease with which you can represent something in say, art or writing and its mismatch with any sort of depth, consistency or utility
when some-one agrees with what you are saying, they are not actually saying what you are saying
you have to be careful with that
brad warner, i have had quite a bit of experience of real life buddhism and zen and feel you are making “ bradhism ”
, its too idiosyncratic to you, a sign of schizophrenia btw
the really different thing about zen is its literary nature and in fact owed its support and development in china to patronage from the chinese administrative class which was very literary, almost unique in history
you are trying to graft it into buddhism, but in reality it was a deconstruction of buddhism
since i am deconstructing you, what i am doing is zen and not you who are trying to construct what is in effect a new version of a zen religion, shades of ron hubbard ?
i was thinking about this this morning (ed. to a relative)
, so i just thought i’d throw my thoughts down on electrons and send them
history is fiction
i think you need writing to give some sense of
self-worth and also working things out because society is so devaluing
of childlessness
in the end i think one is really alone, there is just oneself and one’s writing and that will continue until one stops
one is an autumn leaf floating downstream
one
can
be
red
or
brown
chaucer, in his prologue to the summoner’s tale, certainly
roasts friars and it occurred to me that things haven’t changed, how ratbag the people in the religious and spiritual scene are, modern “ friars ” so to speak
one action swallows a thousand opinions
why do we bother with them ?
one action swallows a thousand opinions
why do we bother ?
rather sobering, aboriginal
massacre sites in australia
its interesting to compare chaucer to the supposed writer of the plays and poetry, chaucer has
493 contemporary references to him, shakeapeare only a few
sir henry neville of course has heaps of references and like chaucer had travelled widely
geoffrey chaucer was unbelievably involved in court life and its
personal connections
you may plan for the future, build something up, but everything unseats anyway
on the other hand there’s no point in lying across the railway lines
any relationship is a form of injury
to those in relationship or marriage
break-ups, you never have to worry about the personal side because they always take themselves into the new relationship
just sit back and watch
good writing of necessity has recursion, ambiguity and repetition
good writing necessarily has ambiguity
there’s a billion zillion million fictions of this world, a few of which are truer than this world
there’s a million billion zillion fictions of this world, a few of which are truer than this world
empty roads
winding unwinding
what’s the difference ?
more
evidence for the benefits of “ intermittent fasting ”
i don’t really use the word “ belief ” except in the sense of “ i believe so ”
, to me, its a mark of a certain uncertainty about a state of affairs
the sense of establishing a probably false or voynich state of affairs as a base doesn’t make sense to me, why would you do it?
“ i believe in the father, son and holy ghost ”
, when i was a child at a church boarding school we had to say that as part of “ the grace ” before meals
really medieval actually
one sees so many middle aged people with substantial “ belly fat ” ” look out, it diagnoses
metabolic failure
yes, belly fat is a disease condition
i notice brad warner who worked marketing “ ultraman ” for years has as many “ entertainment ” links on his facebook page as content relevant to zen or his books
so i think i might include more in the way of entertainment than i have been doing
marketing imo is more difficult than it appears and i don’t think it can be done successfully by the originator of the content, he/she has to rely on others to do that
r|zen is so bad
because they delete anything of quality
so in terms of posting on zen_mystical, if what you post fits on r|zen, then its not suitable
zen_mystical asks for that extra mile
writing is the selective reinforcement of some memories
these are pivots to dance across the universe
dialogic is the
inter-textual relationship with other writers — i do this a lot and it seems obvious, but i had never thought about it that way before
you have to have a conclusion
but there’s no conclusion
by the garage door
a beam of moonlight
in the shadow
it looked like a pole on the ground
i trod on it
it wasn’t
disaster is intrinsic to the fabric of reality
we are born with a desire to continue forever
look what happens
aging
why is this ?
a million lives flash past
a trillion histories stuck in the stasis of slow time
reaching outwards
forever
what is the meaning
in
this ?
some-one replied
just one meaning : existence
my reply
zen_mystical is a writing board, a higher standard of explanation and working out is expected than for the usual subreddit
have a think about this, i am sure you will see what i mean, its not conversational
meaningless sound bites are r|zen territory, that prince of the insane subreddits
just one meaning
is
existance
no meaning is existance
outside
of
comprehension
fran lebowitz
talks well with insight
its interesting to consider the effect of the loss of so many quality artists to aids had on the current retarded level of art, a literal downsizing of intelligence
hmm, some or a fair portion of my writing is quite
dialogical
pomplamoose et al
les yeux noirs
a good poem to upgrade your reading age on
emily dickinson’s
for death
i thought i would pass on my opinion about getting cataract operations since i am developing them, the advice i got from a very experienced surgeon who has done a lot of overseas volunteer work is to delay for as long as possible which basically means until you need the operation for driving
the other big thing is there is a new generation of lens coming out considerably improved over the previous, but its going to take a couple of years
if you already have an iol in, imo you want to wear sunglasses in bright sunlight to help protect the macula as with the artifical lens you are at a bit higher risk of
AMD
the
BBC is full of crap, learning two languages
fucks with your brain
the net is
80% crazies and idiots, but that still leaves a useful
20%
one thing that seems to be working for me is the exact same time for turning off all lights and the computer and going onto my red led headlamp two hours before bed
people die in their sleep, and when you
read this , you can see why
its a dangerous process, in the context of a failing body and brain you may not return from an excursion past criticality
not a bad way to go actually
evolution’s unintentional euthanasia
better than lions or wild dogs eating you alive for sure
what the rain drops in
the wind taketh away
what the rain drops in
, the wind taketh away
what the rain drops in, the wind taketh away
what the rain drops in the wind taketh away
the problem with atheism is its like religion, its not a coherent position
“ i am an atheist ”
what does it mean ?
absolutely nothing
a sugar binge can cause an
IBS flare
hardly news to anyone familiar with elaine gottschall’s work, but
the research is now coming in
the
suzanne of leonard cohen’s song was a real person
“ when you’re right, you’re right ”
i think all you have to do is spin it out a bit and everything becomes
open-ended which is the way it actually is, but they close things off and fight to preserve the closed condition
people would rather die than do any thinking themselves with
IBS conditions
this is going to seem a bit weird, but complete immersion in another culture can be a disabling experience
its rather fascinating to see you “ revert ”
, yet you
are changed by your time in france, you’re a cultural “ chimera ” now
i have noticed that women absorb more of a different culture than men
i actually think it will take you a while to find a new balance, don’t let the worst aspects of nz culture pull you down
another commenter (female) accuses me of sexism and making “ an extreme assumption ”
my reply
i would have thought it was a positive feature “ being able to absorb more of a different culture ” ? what i’m saying is there is a degree of damage in aligning to a new culture and language, she has gone through that alignment and come back, but she’s not the same person, new zealand itself has changed for her
this is not a “ good versus bad ” but a quizzy look at undercurrents in life usually not well perceived by us
what i judge music by is not whether i think its good or bad, but whether i am compelled to listen uninterrupted to the end
ederlezi sung by lily jung meets this criteria
you can get to
100, but to get to
110 you have to be
a mutant , the clonal expansion of
CD4-positive cells that have acquired a cytotoxic ability
you can protect yourself to some extent from indoctrination in retreats by reading widely, but the bullshit from the theology is very counterproductive
however without solitary time you are just going to meander in verbiage forever, r|zen for instance
i would put in one and a half hours of “ retreat time ” a day
it can be a simple as a walk or “ not doing anything ” an hour or so before bed
estrella morente por las grecas fiesta
flamenca
with spring dawn comes earlier
i overslept
blossom blown from the tree
useless to ponder
my reworking of
this poem by meng haoran
digestive problems narrow people’s personalities and make them very resistant to change
the brain after all, is starving
jason says he was talking to this guy on discord who has been seriously ill for four months
he can’t eat anything, he’s fasted with water and gatorade — he says everything he eats passes right through him — said he puked 10 times yesterday ?
his doctor said it might be gastroenteritis but they’re not sure, they haven’t done an endoscopy and they haven’t really discussed
IBS (irritable bowle syndrome) or crohn’s — he says
IBS has been a thought with the doctors
what i’m surprised is they told him to start taking probiotics, he hasn’t noticed any improvement with them so he hasn’t really been taking them
sounds like
IBS though right ? not a stomach virus since it’s been going for so long
my reply
yeah, bad
IBS, gatorade is just a disaster area, it will be making the bowel problems much worse
he should cut out grains and potatoes entirely and read up on
the specific carbohydrate diet and the
the biofilm carbohydrate diet
eggs boiled to just touching on hard are a good recovery food, shredded coconut can help with the microbiome, most probiotics have the wrong bacteria mixes and don’t work, pasturised fruit is a good source of carbs, etc, he has to do some reading and thinking
the net is full of “ book zen ” where they think you can develop some sort of understanding without going to/on retreats
what are you doing that you are trying to browbeat me into your opinion ?
just ask yourself
ufo’s are just a projection by crazies
what more do you need to know about it ?
men have fragile ego’s
that makes them manipulable by women
so they are always going to be in a state of trauma
the endless mire of scriptural discussion
its just infinity
to not much purpose
i’m dying
a brief glimpse of marvels
and then its over
i’m dying
a brief glimpse of marvels
and its over
a very
moving account of the death of diana athill’s mother
another
recounting
the
midnight sun , you can see everything
but how long
can you go
without sleep ?
the advantage vladimir nabakov had over his russian contemporaries like akhmatova and mandelstam is he was brought up
speaking english and therefore linguisicially at home in england and america as a writer, whereas their facility ‘ in russian only ’ kept the other great russian writers in the murderous stewpot of stalinism
brad warner won’t go the extra step
he was pricked
by this
and why ? well you can see buddha is just another story, but he just won’t go there
why are you treating a translator’s opinion as what eihei actually said ? dogen translations are characterised by a complete lack of philological work, without which you might as well be making it up, which of course they do
by contrast yoshida kenkō's
tsurezuregusa translation by donald keene has much more philological depth and you can pick it by reading and how much more alien (as you would expect from a medieval culture) it sounds, this was written by a buddhist priest from kyoto only eighty years after dogen’s death and is one of the world’s most famous writings, on a par with war and peace, yet zennists never have heard of it, par for the course i’d say with their wilful ignorance
people just play the “ infallible scripture ” game with dogen translations, like what the fuck are you doing pretentious morons ?
i am the synchronous child
synchronous with infinity
it doesn’t mean i find life pleasant
or i am hand in hand with god
all the same i am synchronous
its a gift
i am the synchronous child
synchronous with infinity
it doesn’t mean life is pleasant
or i am hand in hand with god
all the same i am synchronous
its a gift
one of the reasons olivia colman is such a great actress is she doesn’t remember the unecessary which gives her an intense focus on the relevant
effective memory is as much selective forgetting as well as remembering
there are a clutch of problems like the
asinine-ness of liberal arts education in the universities and exorbitant prices being paid for modern art that is rubbish at best that must reflect a common root, but i don’t know what it is
its hard to believe
the bullshit these two “ experts ” have put together
in all the millions of hours of videos or endless pages of nonsense on the web, one hardly ever sees any criticsm of the psychiatric system
the norm is women on ten meds wondering why they have all these systemic health problems and they get really nasty when you throw a bit of information about side effects to them
anita
D. with
her poem “ and the psych ward says ”
ideas about mediums and ghosts are a lot more blurry than people think
because and its easy to see
memory is
a ghost
eihei blending historicity with fiction
created a conundrum
and trap
for future
generations
i was
never
caught
but
you
maybe
cats recognise the ownership of food by other cats and
the growling is signalling that boris “ owns ” that bread
alec guinness on
predicting james dean’s death
the fatal trip
jean rhys doesn’t think you can be happy and write
that’s true, it requires a certain lack of insight to be happy
a generation lost
to war, genocide or famine
and these days drugs
the generations after the next
carry on
as though
nothing happened
i don’t think any contact use should be unsupervised in the sense of not having
check-ups
they are very invasive and more in the nature of a drug than glasses
neither rujing nor dogen advocated “ just sitting ”
its a meiji fascist imperailist construct designed to creat pliant vessels for ultra nationalist dogma
moving the eyes to the extremes, left right, up down and diagonals seems to help with dry eyes, maybe because exercise helps reduce inflammation
other things to look at is the circadian rhythm being out of wack and excessive screen time
i feel like a three year old
at times
why grow up ?
why can’t i sit down and write a nice poem ?
something with cherry blossom
and candyfloss
sweet
and love
keep up the fiction
of life being pleasant fiction
how unreal
“ i’d be some sort of dream or illusion ”
where that came from i don’t know
the brain turns over
and dumps stuff
louise bourgeios (
in quotes )
its about the torment of being an artist
“ the torment, but its absurd, its not a torment to be an artist, the premise is idiotic, is idiotic ”
its not a torment to be an artist its a privilege
my reply
i’m not anything in particular, my torment is always my own
what to do for twelve billion years ?
the
life and times of a galaxy
“ the calculation itself required
16,000 cores on the hazel hen supercomputer in stuttgart, working together,
24/7, for more than a year — the equivalent of fifteen thousand years on a single processor, making it one of the most demanding astrophysical computations to date ”
eihei dogen was certainly ambitious
the buddhism that is not buddism
he is trying without much success to fictionalise the nonsense of buddhism into something that makes sense in a similiar manner to milton, only milton is much more successful
the actual poem lists “ only ” and “ merely ” i think emily means both words and you actually have two poems
In this short
Life
that only lasts an hour
How much —
how little —
is within our power
In this short
Life
that merely lasts an hour
How much —
how little —
is within our power
hoodwinked with fictions
the fictions hoodwink
priests gain a living and life crawls its deluded way
“ the unsurpassed aspiration for enlightenment ”
dogen spews his delusions
on a high cliff he tosses sincerity over
and makes a religion
“ what is life about ? ”
you have the question, why don’t you have the answer ?
“ i don’t have the answer ”
maybe you didn’t have the question either ?
my reply to emily dickinson’s
famous poem
you can tell the truth
but catch an ouroboros by the tail
its roughened skin will lacerate
and blood obscure the bail
look forward not behind
look behind, not forward
look
act
look and act
“ my father also said something about his digestive tract being raised up more towards his chest, because of these stomach problems, and that is also why he gets such bad acid reflux
it seems like heartburn, acid reflux, is so common — is that mostly a bad microbiome ? ”
my reply
in large part, but he will also be screwing up the stomach and esophageal physiology with the drinking, quite possibly permanently
not to mention the cancer risk
to me complete abstinence from alcohol requires
chromium supplementation, but this is well beyond most people
even i (who am a teetotaller) doesn’t have an absolute zero consumption, sometimes i add significant amounts of alcohol to cooking
an absolute limit of half a glass of red wine a day is a useful guide for those with a drinking problem, red wine (cabernet sauvignon) is the healthiest form of alcohol, absolutely no spirits and beer can be a problem with its yeast spores
the only real routine i have is lights out absolutely rigidly by
11.30 and going onto red led light and then muck around
, do chores or “ unpack ” my head for about two hours, i sleep late, but really i could move the whole thing forward to “ lights out ” at say ten pm
jason writes
supplements i’ve also lagged behind in, haven’t been able to afford the enzymes — but this past week i have gotten back into krill oil, vitamin D3, vitamin K2, taurine, folapro, and i took germanium once
my reply
the only enzyme i am using now is the
afp-pep , i tip and mix one capsule in milk heated to about
68C then let cool to
60C before adding the enzymes
maybe two or three capsules used a week so the cost is not significant
just remember that krill oil, folapro and to a lesser extent vitamin D3 can be quite immune suppressing
yeah germanium can only be taken very occasionally, so again the cost is not significant
taurine has been a life saver for me and migraine
if you are not getting much exercise, lymph movement exercises are easy to do and helpful, i must do a video to show what i mean by this sometime
supplements diet, health, this must be the primary focus and requires ongoing finesse
yeah just focus on job skills, i’d forget the guru thing for quite a while
you can’t control things completely
, all you can do is put things in place and see how it might slowly come together
everyone perceives you a bit differently, but it
averages out accurately and actually your own perception of yourself at the neurological level is surprisingly consonant with this average
two of the most commercially successful books ever written
, “ catch 22 ” (catch 18 originally) and “ to kill a mocking bird ” were just as much the products of a very interactive development with their editors as works by their writers
i don’t think either are what you might call “ great literature ”
, they are too accomodative to the rather bland thinking of “ the masses ” being in effect communal products and it shows
i always find “ editing ” interesting because i have to provide my own though very limited feedback from what i
self-publish and taking part in message boards
i do think it works, but i don’t expect to ever be commercially successful
cape town where murderers and worse walk free, while a woman who
raised a child in a happy environment gets ten years
brain blood flow decreasing with age is the dreadful
lowering of the ceiling
the most dangerous and rather distressing thing about aging is how one falls into repeating patterns
the world moves on, but you don’t
the sea looks calm
why is it that one dodges
from one whirlpool
to the next ?
“ its my baby ”
well its his baby too
“ yes, but its my baby ”
who the hell are you ?
“ some-one else ”
who else ?
“ nobody ”
fat lot of use you are
“ that’s just the way it goes i am afraid ”
gamers
aggressive wimps
one touch in real life and they die
unlike the screen
zen had been reshaped during the meiji era to become a propaganda organ for the extreme nationalists and we know where that went
you can’t understand or have a real feeling for what zen is without going on retreats
the pretenders read rubbish and game and this supposedly is “ zen ”
stick to gaming, it keeps you intellectually downsized
believe what you see and not much else
life is a strange place
it doesn’t work like we think it does
and we want to be aware of what is around us
what is the emptiness that is infinity ?
opo
that slippery fish
frolicking on the shores of the unknown
and killed by the known
time stopped twice for me today
driving up the forth hill amongst all the leafy green
eating at the ‘ charcoal chicken ’ with a rainstorm dropping bucketloads outside
i don’t look for more
why is it so hard to see ?
women appear empty to themselves without occupation
hence the arising of the world’s troubles
alzhiemer’s disease can be driven by
the induction of neuroinflammation by gut microbiome dysbiosis
you go through one
on-line suicide attempt and you will never want any contact with the suicidal again
what is
this woman thinking ?
absolutely the weirdest thing on the net is these people who follow me around, violently opposed to anything i say, yet copying me
it is so so disturbing, i really feel life is utterly fucked that this can happen, but history shows this happening all the time
“ i can’t say anything ”
i didn’t say that
what did i say ?
humans work like this
any hint that the way we look at the world is flawed
results in the annihilation of that hint
it used to be, if you scratched a poet you would find tragedy
nowadays you don’t find anything
except
babbled nonsense floating over a serene lanscape
of
vacant
rubble
he can talk
and
talk
and
talk
wisdom dropped
out
of
the bucket
eihei dogen never actually got transmission from rujing, we know this because he tells us
the transmission document was forged and rujing actually was very
anti-transmission, dogen’s version of “ face to face transmission ” is his fictionalisation of what in those times in china was very closely tied to becoming an abbot and having to get the transmission credentials to become abbot
i say underlying
i say overlying
i say infused
i
say
the mediocrites crawl over each other to suppress you
nothing gives them more joy than to have their hands around your throat and choke you
what is the real purpose of the net ?
a proselytizing platform for drug users ?
sometimes i wonder
the past has occurred
the future has yet to occur
i wouldn’t separate the present from either of these
if you win the game, don’t keep playing it
when you win the game, don’t keep playing it
my thinking on retreats
they push some doctrine on you that the plasticity induced by the retreat makes you susceptible to, it takes twenty to thirty years to get rid of this shit, most never do
it is basically cult behaviour with their hierarchies and behind the scenes promiscuity or worse
it takes a lot of preparation to make the most of a retreat and minimise the indoctrination aspect
i think the thing about a good writer is he doesn’t take life personally, that is so hard for the “ norms ” to understand
there seems to be an expectation that poetry should be easily understandable
however most of the great poets really bend one’s brain, edward lear is a good example of crossover
when you read interviews with good or great writers or their own writings, you see how open minded they can be, they are not trying to impose their view of the world on it
so i got a three day ban on r|poetry for some trumped up idiocy, i notice this with the message boards, you post for a while, the mods are asleep, then you make an impact and they start to curtail you simply because you write effectively
seen it happen so many times
one needs one’s own publishing outlet even though the readers are few
the stupid bastards
the pot calls the kettle black
the kettle calls the pot black
one boils water
the other boils things
even shades of black vary
a retreat is going to be no better than the preparation for it
you need a genuine spirit of inquiry
this can’t be manufactured
or faked
if you do this
wait until the next lifetime
the problem with retreats
is if you read and think junk
you are going to retreat junk
i’m not saying it doesn’t happen anyway
but it needs not to happen completely
the insolent young
in their prime or
pre-prime
everything to look forward to
except getting old
kyrie eleison
i’m not such a hypocrite as to ask for mercy
actually i think
isobel waller-bridge has it right, its a
war chant
artistic talent doesn’t confine itself to
one dimension
“ deep and meaningful ” is an illusion
shallow puddles are fun to splash in, the deep drowns so most don’t go there
the morons only praise what they understand
the beauty
beyond
is
doubly
beyond
them
got tired of the usual vapid r|poetry comment
“ beautiful ”
my reply
ugly
beautiful ugly
ugly beautiful
ugly beautiful ugly
ugly ugly beautiful beautiful ugly
beautiful ugly beautiful ugly beautiful ugly ugly
and so on
women don’t change, though the dresses do
colorized victorian/edwardian
the usual no reply, zennists are such cowards, the moment they don’t look so good, you can’t see them for dust
repairing a stove is like building a pc, you cover
80% of the ground of hardware knowledge needed for a general expertise
i think meister eckhart suffers from the usual problem of the religious
he attempts to create a philosophy of mysticsm outside the use of poetic language
it doesn’t work
the necessary bilingualism imposed by latin wouldn’t have helped
you didn’t quote me in full giving a misleading impression, its dishonest, what sort of person has zen made you, a stupid liar ?
there was a very inbred half grown feral kitten hanging around, not thrifty and susceptible to eye infections and being a real pest outside the front door
i finally and reluctantly decided to kill it, hitting it hard on the head with a short piece of
25mm diameter hardwood dowel
unfortunately it was only momentarily stunned and ran away, i probably would have intially shot it rather than hit it, but i didn’t want to disturb the men across the road in the yards
i found it again later in the day, clearly injured and shot it
in its way, it was a person, it wasn’t its fault and it didn’t understand, not even running away when i found it again
i’ve been shooting feral game for years, never bothered me, this bothered me
i have traumatised myself
these not too bright borderline personality types on net messageboards seem to think
sophist-style declamations substitute effectively for their failure to address content
what has zen done for them that they come across as not too bright borderline personality types ?
when i bail them and others
, they all run away, what is that about ?
brad, why not stop treating eihei dogen in the manner of the catholics, that is
, as a doctor of the church, ie an infallible promoter of the soto doctrine ? allow him to be wrong, off target or underdeveloped, i’m sure he will rest easier and so will you
then speak from your own experience and not be straight jacketed into nonsense
you can’t even be sure what dogen said because the translators are too lazy to any philological work
genuine transmission only occurs once a kalpa, the endless pretenders simply pretend, you bailed out early in the process, i don’t know why
women are stuck with a bit of a hormonal illusion
with the approach of menopause
, the blinkers come off
the garden of time
out of time
translucent rhododendrons
glistening shrubs
towering gums
the grass
the sea
the mist of cataract
and finally me
in a way i don't think poetry is that interesting, its the experience that gives rise to it that is interesting
alcohol, such a hidden factor in so many drownings
i think almond milk is just a failed milk substitute
creates more problems than it solves, though as these things go, its not too bad
creating explanations
they avoid understanding
the insane
boring work has its advantages, complex work takes too much of your brain
a rounded teaspoon of taurine a day boosts the immune system in a way that is helpful with shingles
also putting
40% hydrogen peroxide on the first signs of an outbreak works
there’s so much random shit going on in my mind it makes
me wonder
randomly
about
random shit
the fallacy of soto zen
is that eihei dogen’s words represent an objective philosophy
that can be learnt
and that’s the end of the matter
but all that is the case is some views fit reality better
than others
its up to us to come up with our own philosophy
and observations that fit us
eihei was creating a religion
a failed religion
why should we do that ?
when some-one else is dying
there is always an element of
i’m not dying, you are
ha ha
ein sof
a kabbalist rinzai zen master
he runs away when i corner him
but he comes out with a big stick when i say something new
hits himself with it
then dies
if you’re locked into dealing with some-one you don’t trust, its important not to slip by familiarity into trusting them
the problem with writing better is you realise a lot of your earlier stuff was just preparatory to “ writing better ”
it can be hard lesson, but there’s a disproportionate number of “ not mentally right ” people on the net nothing like what you would ever meet in real life, just don’t engage them, my god they are bruising
eihei dogen was actually very much a philosopher, people brush that aspect under the carpet
zazen will not make you think straight, what it shows you are your “ theory of minds ”
you have to engage the philosophical aspect which means being a philosopher yourself and not simply a regurgitant of the usual pap
drug use seems to inevitably create (for those round them to put up with) a very wearing narcissism
old thoughts circle around and around
and
never come to ground
old thoughts circle round
and
never come to ground
the information on the web these days is so good its reasonable for a doctor to expect patients to research whatever medications or aliment they have
yet
99.9% of people on a prescription would never haved looked up its side effects
god said “ let there be reality ”
reality said “ let there be god ”
fair enough said god
reality blithely went on its way
poor males, their orgasms so meagre compared to the female one has to wonder why
all their lives as slaves in service to this
the principle problem we have as biological beings is not that of getting enough food or being killed or reproducing, but that of not misinterpreting the world
the world is unstable and generates its own misinterpretation constantly
women more than men are always chasing something
they scarcely stop, even on their last breath
how dangerous are bored women ?
can you get more dangerous ?
a poem should be a distillation of meaning and expressing something that can’t be said any other way
divorce or breakups, all you have to do is sit back and watch her go through the “ boyfriends ” and you realise it was nothing personal
old thoughts
circling around
and never landing
free verse
no verse
obverse
lewis said
take care of the sense
and the sounds will take care of themselves
the world is a mentalist construction
an illusory explanation imposed on a different working substrate
all the same there is no bottom turtle and the impostion may reflect the substrate better than the substrate
if you can’t win in real life, you can win in fantasy
the essene
fantasy epic
we live our lives on this gilded path
only if we look closely
its not so gilded
how much poetry matches the usual spruik ?
very little
“ you should give a talk ”
i’m not very good at guarding my tongue
“ perhaps you better not then ”
all the fakes
promote rumi
bad poetry
by and for the crazy
immaturity i think is more adventurous than maturity
life is the other side of suicide
the wrong side
why should i talk to you lot ?
you’ll just give me grief
you’ll discover what i really think and hate me for it
if the nature of conciousness is high entropy, then its inherently
self-limiting and dissolutive
my objection to being
multi-lingual is its a huge tax and
energy cost with high entropy on the brain
there is nothing special about a language, ideas can be expressed in any langauge, that is all there is to it
the largest cultural influence today is the spread of english and its “ universalization ”
what amazes me about the middle east is how many closed sectarian worlds form that last a huge number of generations
the religious straight jacket medieval art was constrained by creates a perverted view of reality
fuck you, cimabue, giotto
most people who write poetry are not cut out for it
even some of the famous
the public love junk
worst ad “ for love ” i have ever seen
when you are ill
things slow down
you can’t do much
in that space
things open up
re-evaluate
there’s a sort of objectivity that springs from bitterness
there’s a sort of even mindedness that springs from bitterness
what will
ten years do ?
they will pass quick enough
i think “ supercompetence ” is when you get to be able to take anything said in the subject of interest and extemporise on it or correct it
when i climbed uluru/ayeres rock there was
no-one else on it, winds were very high and i jumped the fence, but actually its not that great, i preferred the olgas which had that mystical aura, ayres rock didn’t do anything for me
re : the banning on climbing it
the whole circus will play out
poeple getting guided on it for vast sums
young men doing it for the thrill
the local businesses losing considerable income and resenting it
just here
sitting
feeling like i am cacking out
what can i do
nothing
but wait it out
just here
sitting
feeling like i am cacking out
what can i do
nothing
doctors with a good bedside manner are not necessarily competent and doctors with a poor beside manner can be extremely competent
women seem to be somewhat blind to this dichotomy and strongly favour a good bedside manner to their detriment
bob dylan was such an outside choice for the nobel prize for literature you have to wonder why
well it turns out that at least two of the committee members had been betting indirectly through others on the winner for many years, knowing of course the outcome beforehand
bob dylan was such an outlier with poor odds that they made a real killing
funny how that never came through the media isn’t it
low probability winners explains most of the winners in the recent decade
well, giving such a big kitty away you’d want a share in it wouldn’t you ?
people don’t get the fundamental fact of web publishing
that there is no cost to more content
of course, what that “ more ” is
, requires skill and measure
blythe baird reading
her poem “ the kindest thing she almost did ”
the point about “ singularities ” in phsyics is that the
non-singular systems really at the heart of the matter haven’t been discovered or elucidated yet
the most interesting problem of the “ universe ” is how such a functional set of laws and epistemology of matter was arrived at
we know from biology that really the only explanation is evolution acting on many possibilities and since there is tautologically no “ god ” at this level of semantic pragmatic
co-herence, this theory of
reheating may provide an explanation
that in this period you had possibilities for laws and simultaneous selection
“ reheating ” allows for an existant universe
you know you have a bad virus when you don’t get out of your pajamas
the universal nature of viruses is astounding
posted
eleven days ago and i have the same thing, its no doubt come down finally here from the very bad mainland flu season
sounds like i still have some days to go
fuck it
i fixed an overwide stove contact yesterday by clamping it closed while annealing it with a gas torch, one can still make progress apparently while ill
life is a mess
we are profligate with our prime
then
its
over
we are well designed for short and even long periods of starvation, an exceptional evolutionarily designed ability
if i feel ill or have a migraine, i just fast
whales have huge brains, why were they so vulnerable to whalers ?
all they had to do was swim horizontally underwater away from the whalers, yet for the lack of this several species were driven almost to extinction
writing creates a world
what
is
that
world ?
writing creates a world
what is
that
world ?
writing creates a world
what is
that world ?
writing creates a world
what is that world ?
“ bitching behind people’s backs ” the no.
1 new zealand trait, first thing you notice is the knife between your ribs, for a small country the power politics are quite russian
sadly konrad marchaj/ ryushin has not got any less crazy since being expelled as a heretic from the zen monastery at mt. tremper
asyschusa showed him that zen was all bullshit, but he just seems to have fallen into another form of bullshit
depressing
you’d think life has enough mental illness, but no, the web has more
i twigged to
the problems of titanium dioxide as food additive years ago
go fuck your gut all the creepy “ all approved additives are ok ” idiots
“ TiO2 significantly impacts gut homeostasis
These changes were associated with colonic inflammation, as shown by decreased crypt length, infiltration of CD8+ T cells, increased macrophages as well as increased expression of inflammatory cytokines.
These findings collectively show that TiO2 is not inert, but rather impairs gut homeostasis which may in turn prime the host for disease development ”
a gamer
on the net
doyen of digital constructs
emperor of whatever world
when they come to using english
they are muddled
can't think straight
reason beyond attitude
step out of their hubristic selves
emperor of what world ?
scientology has a belief system, sacred texts, a prophet, a hierarchy, a methodology, gatherings
i can’t see how you can’t say its a religion
scientology has a belief system, sacred texts, a prophet, a hierarchy, a methodology, gatherings
i really can’t see how you can say its not a religion
an interesting
insight on the anime industry with real japanese people
if you are not careful, you can develop a general content problem on the web, seeing too much crazy bullshit, there’s a sane world out there if you can recognise it
the net disguises crazy people, its difficult to tell in writing
you really have to be careful of getting involved with r|zen, the effect of the censorship is insidious, you start to narrow your horizons because that's what the censorship is doing, like i notice now i am getting back much more into poetry which is healthy and i am thinking straighter in a
life-sense because of not posting there anymore
the plus side of r|zen is it keeps really toxic arseholes out of one’s hair, i have banned most of them from
zen_mystical otherwise the place would be overrun with those turds
r|zen is useful in learning about dealing with the insane, but the other side is you get too bruised and constricted by them, its damaging
one day you realise
not everybody looks at reality the same way
in fact
the difference
is unfathomable
if i let the whole world go
where am i
going ?
if i let the whole world go
where am i
meandering ?
the special effects are in
inverse proportion to the hackneyed clichéd plot only retards could be happy with
today’s audience i am afraid
religion is the attempt to make literature real
this it effectively does by excommuncation, execution, torture, estrangement, insanity, ostracism, gaslighting — it gets very real
“ a hallmark of
intergroup biases is the tendency to individuate members of one’s own group but process members of other groups categorically ”
stone don’t lie
you can see the grey layer of the
asteroid created cretaceous-palaeogene boundary towards the top of the photo
repair is actually the highest benefit form of recycling
brad warner is obsessed with wanting to counter some trends in western buddhism
my reply to him
some of the commenters
here occasionally act like they own this blog and want to control it in a way that would be appropriate to their owning the blog, only its yours and not theirs
you don’t think you are trying to do the same thing to buddhism ?
how many versions of christianity are there and have there been ?
thousands i would guess, interestingly some of the modern variants owe quite a bit to the rewriting of christianity by john milton and actually islam is a rewriting of nestorian christianity
because religions are just the pretence of random nonsense being meaningful, then they are always going to schism in their search for deeper meaning
if western buddhism is looking for deeper meaning in modern academic and populist political paradigms now sexual abuse is no longer permissible how can an individual try to control that ?
why would they want to ?
buddhism
as empty
as the air
buddhism, as empty as the air
buddhism
as empty
as air
buddhism, as empty as air
what is this describing ?
“ the increased risk ranged from a
five-fold increase in alzheimer’s disease, through an approximately
four-fold increase in motor neurone disease, to a
two-fold parkinson’s disease in former professional xyzers compared to population controls ”
hard to believe but
its soccer
of course the senior management are already demented so there will be no rule changes until the sport has significantly lost new enrollments
unlike american football which is an unabashed gladiator sport so the players are disposable
blue light has a neurological and systemic
aging effect
are vegans more likely to get cancer ?
they could be
T-cells need a lot of energy to defeat fast growing cancers and in fact are in competition with the tumor cells for “ metabolic fuel such as glucose, amino acids, and lipids, which can be limiting ”
“
creatine is a critical molecule buffering ATP levels in cancer-targeting CD8
T-cells through maintaining a readily available
high-energy phosphate reservoir ”
religion can never go anywhere because its foundations are insane
religion can never go anywhere because its foundations are insanity
its interesting that jesus is mythical and
pontius pilate is not
however the bible take on him may have some justice though he seems a thoughtless man, but the romans in some degree appeased the temple cult
jason writes
i was going to message ice poseidon on twitter
ice is struggling now with
500 viewers — yeah he was getting about
30,000 last year
ice is a big fan of lil uzi vert — i was going to message him on twitter pointing out that lil uzi vert doesn’t make music anymore, that the drugs and the girls caught up to him
well i didn’t message him because i’m taking my own advice not giving unsolicited advice
i’ve done some drugs too, not hard drugs like ice and lil uzi have — but what i think has let me survive is not having a girlfriend, which they both had
even worse for them their girlfriends were toxic
technology has meant there is an unparalleled
reconstruction of the past occurring, way more coherent and accurate than was ever previously possible so in a sense we have an
over-developed notion of the certainty of time
lana del ray
i think i’d be happy doing anything at this point
cort johnson
ever dug a ditch ?
lana
that’s the whole point of being a woman,
some-one else digs the ditch and she pushes him in and another man covers the first with dirt
twenty percent of people prescribed opiates become addicted
hmm, according to
this study , its better to be single in than in anything less than a high quality relationship
bella depaulo
the most amazing thing about the japanese effort in
WW2, was that such a small country was so
well prepared to fight the
russo-japanese war again
that’s a lot of hardware and lives at the bottom of the ocean
viggo mortensen
gets roasted for using the “ n-word ”
let me use the
n-word
nigger, nigger, nigger
no-one is going to give me the slightest attention, not a tweet or net comment
i feel inadequate
the oddest thing about being the
7th patriarch is i keep coming across things that fit, otherwise i would ditch it, its not that important to me
i was working through the implications of shakyamuni buddha being a synthetic myth and not a real historical figure and i realised that in fact since he is not historical and buddhism does depend on him being historical whatever they say, then zen which is essentially a deconstruction of buddhism no longer has a purpose, for it to be meaningful it must move to a broader contemporary deconstruction which in fact i do and always have done, therefore i am the patriarch of this new zen which fits with a jump from the 6th patriarch to me
in previous generations it was just entertainment
now its the faux-spiritual plus entertainment
disgusting
“ my girlfriend has a reoccurring dream where she is in a hotel floating around, she feels bewildered and confused, she will try and find her room but she doesn’t know why she is looking for her room or where it even is, she just knows she needs to find it, something she had yet to do
every now and again she will be looking for the toilet in the hotel instead but just like the room, she is yet to find it
the hotel doesn’t always look the same ”
you’re the wrong room, wrong hotel even
“ there was one bit in chapter fourteen of the martyrdom of polycarp that i just had to sit there and ask “ why does this sound like the christians are wanting to eat polycarp after he was killed ? ”
chapter twelve said that when polycarp was burning alive, he smelled like bread being baked in an oven
it then spoke in chapter fouteen of christians coming to partake, or share in, or commune with, the corpse of polycarp, following his death by being stabbed after not dying from burning alive ”
its not unknown in some religions for a revered person to be eaten when they die
the story sounds like some mythic amalgam and not historical , but the eating of polycarp may well relate to some religion there
a downvote is way more successful than an upvote, you have offended the usual reddit creepy-crawley
poor sylvia
the poppies flare
the cornflowers blaze
but
no-one
was
prepared
to
help
her
don’t be fooled by other people’s stupidity
downvotes on reddit are like a bluffing bid in a card game, you call it by not paying it any attention and since they never show their hand by replying, you have shown their hands to be valueless
there’s a lot of videos on the web of interviews with performers of some sort or other, actors, actresses, various artists, writers, people may be intelligent but they usually lack real artistic insight, the few that have that insight stick out, like emma thompson picking up on effie grey who is a very interesting intersection of the pre-raphaelites or like tracey emin who can talk so well
there’s so many of the intelligent, but they are just too ordinary, kate beckinsdale and the like, faux abnormal but so shackled by the chains of convention and appearance
you wouldn’t believe it, a photo by lewis carroll of effie, john millais and their daughters
you can’t change that amount of skin without getting a disease of sorts
time will show
rumi
a dreamer
fake worlds
without substance
jason writes
i’m way more cautious giving unsolicited advice now
why empower my enemies ?
what stands out to me is the lack of useful help sylvia plath ever got, a needy woman with two young children and everyone just walked away
be careful about other people’s opinions on your weight, the fat want everybody else to be fat
overweight people complain about being socially ostracised, but what they don’t get it is it is a disease state
the one time in my life i effectively did an extended water fast was as a young adult with a persistent flu and it was for maybe a bit more than week from what i can remember
i was in bed all that time and the flu cleared up
i doubt i am ever going to do an extended fast again because that was an unusually bad flu and i don’t need to loose weight, the real value of an extended fast is the research shows that you need to do this to lose substantial amounts and keep it off, ie a drastic remedy for what the research (again) shows is a disease state
the other benefit of extended fasting is cellular rejuvination at the stem cell level, but i don't think i would ever be bothered to go to the trouble of fasting for that, though who knows
so for extended fasting i have very limited experience and i was ill as well, one does become weaker which is what you would expect
if you were fasting when you were basically well, i suspect you would try to keep doing as much as possible in terms of living “ the daily life ” , but i can’t really comment as i have never done that
gutting a wallaby
the feral cats
a sea of fur
gutting a wallaby
feral cats around
a sea of fur
i make a poem
one line
and
word
at
a
time
social learning has a bad obverse
a bunch of useless attitudes that come from quite an empty space
every second hubric idiot
writes poetry
i couldn’t say it was bad
you have
to
read
it
first
chris isaak feat and lana del rey sing wicked game
nothing fits
i am outside the world
madonna in the snow
christ in the desert
contradictions abound
time has passed before i began
i rock into the void
a quote from johann goethe i quite like
we do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe
what you can catch from cats
if you are a very big dinosaur, one of your problems is getting enough shade from the hot sun
the surest way to get an OP downvoted on reddit is make a criticism of marijuana use
the pestilence of drug users apart from the incompetence, thievery, lying and hassle they spread everywhere is their insatiable missionizing
because knowledge about the writer informs the reading and enriches the associations, the academic notion that reading a text is independent of knowledge about the author is the stupidest fallacy one could imagine and symptomatic of the very deep hole of incompetence that university studies of literature have fallen into
however there is a case for the writer himself not being completely informed, or even mistaken about his or her’s own work
so readers of a work, you are potentially up there with the author in making informed criticsm and interpretations of the work
in mice this research says that the genetic aspects of the innate and adaptive immune systems are the dominant “ controllers ” of the microbiome
“ when the researchers looked into how these different immune mechanisms shaped the microbiomes of the recipient mice, the researchers saw that while adaptive immunity had some effect on certain strains of bacteria, overall the effects were not dramatic
in some cases, bacteria even took advantage of the adaptive immune response to thrive
instead, the majority of the differences they saw could be attributed to innate polymorphic genes, or different variations of genes in the MHC ”
laser pointers are fatal to the retina
there’s a lot of art by “ the insane ” on the web, some of it is very good, well executed technically and highly involved, but i would have to say these works lack thematic depth, unlike anne sexton or sylvia plath
virginia woolf had relatively clear divisions between her periods of sanity and insanity, but she said that she got a lot of insight from her insane periods
this woman known for the strength of her swimming having to load a coat with stones so she would drown in the river ouse
i wonder if modern psychiatric medications have meant no more poets like anne sexton ?
anne and sylvia, that raw overt suicidality
or would they have passed their lives in a talentless marijuana haze ?
edit : since what i wrote is being misinterpreted let me say i’m implying the medication itself and reduced suicidiality lessens or annihilates the quality of the poetry
that a different and talentless trajectory is created
sylvia says
she can’t put a toothbrush in a poem
t
o
o
t
h
b
r
u
s
h
still not a poem
poor woman she sounds like she is breaking up
the best explanation of a cutting edge i have ever seen
“ everything is of preference and poetry is no exception ”
the problem is the limitation of our own preference
its like a wall we cannot see, but hides so much beyond it
i think a consumer might look at poetry in terms of like or dislike, but i look for new ideas and expression ability
so i never run out of reading since the above is infinite, what is short is the time in my life
an inexpensive short film , way better than the usual costly rubbish, written with sensitivity by greta nash
quality can have an inverse relation to the budget
so i’m gonna be weird again, or what some people might find weird
i went to bed early with a migraine almost cleared up, but not dropping off to sleep and had this vision
a woman partly? clothed in a pleated?/sere? /flowing/dali-esque robe with a naked baby or young child just sort of floating in front of her and she also floating above some sort of deck or platform high up in a mountain, possibly surrounded by snow laden firs
it looked down (from very high up) on an unfrozen lake and on further behind the lake, snow covered mountains extending forever
i wonder if this is something to do with the migraine, a flood of chemicals through the brain ?
this is what mysticism is, a momentary yet paradoxically timeless glimpse of a more intense, true world, without them you will never understand, but deny and make pathetic incoherent images in the dust which is what the pretenders do
they have no certainty, only visions provide certainty
i couldn’t make up this stuff if i tried, i can see where some of the imagery came from, mountain photos and videos, my own travels, renaissance ‘ madonna and child ’ art and dali’s ‘ the madonna of port ligat ’ , of which (dali’s) it can be seen somewhat as a correction of, more unitary
just when you think you will be migraine-free for the rest of your life
the thunder rolls in
not epilepsy
not dementia
just pain
to write good stuff
you have to escape the trajectory of the mediocre
which crowds down on you
for escaping
polymath is another name
for
getting spread too thin
the maoris
a sea people
traversing from the glistening tropics
to a rather cooler land
not quite at home
i’m never going to write another homily or poem
i have more important things to do
so i write another homily or poem
sad
emily sails on a breeze of thought
of summer’s highs and winter’s troughs
the empyreal and her garden
one wonders exactly where is she ?
ed. this came to mind on reading her poem “ as imperceptibly as grief ”
emily sails on a breeze of thought
of summer’s highs and winter’s troughs
the empyreal and her garden
where is she ?
poetry is simple
you are just knitting a bunch of associations together
now comes the hard part
unconciously
the world makes sense in terms of “ the prime ”
once you edge out of the prime
it
doesn’t
he asks for a poem about schizophrenia
show me one
without ?
it damaged me to read that poem
the writer of course
oblivious
the writer asked for more explanation so i followed with saying it had bad imagery
basically it doesn’t say anything, its a mess and its not really a poem
a good poem should attract under its own power even if you don’t fully understand it
there’s a difference between a mess and something that has power, but is not understandable
a poem should have a holistic entity
it really helps to read a lot of well known poets
i don’t think you ever reach a ceiling in writing because it is content driven and as we know, semantics just goes on and on, but you can’t step outside semantics
its the denial of the literary nature of religion that astounds me, people making life choices on the script of what is bad soap opera
bene navigavi cum naufragium feci
my life was wonderful except for the disasters
its interesting to compare heidegger with nietzsche
one a dull murderous and completely obscure pedant
the other gentle in his skepticisms and understandable
which one does the academic philosophy world prefer ?
no surprise is it ?
to argue about the interpretation of a translation is to argue about the interpretation of an interpetation
those who just do not or will not get the problem step into mental illness
what might be arguably the world’s most famous poem — “ i wandered lonely as a cloud ” by willam wordsworth owed an awful lot to his sister’s diarying of the walk by the lake in question
interestingly at the spot he is talking about (glencoyne bay, ullswater) , the daffodils are now of a variety that is coloured differently, who knows what happened there
ullswater from gowbarrow photochrome
is complaining about overthinking, over or under-replying ?
is complaining about overthinking over or under-replying ?
is complaining about overthinking, underthinking ?
is complaining about overthinking, overthinking ?
all the world is a vast , badly behaved stupidity
it doesn’t work the way we require it
i’m not sure that’s a stupidity
i think writing is the integration of a lifetime
it is not necessarily a forward progression in time
wolfgang goethe does not come across as that likeable as a person, but when he writes, there’s some magic that is difficult to explain
i always find tracy emin an education to listen to
donna summer “ i feel love ” , the start of trance
the way its mixed, the voice comes through better with headphones
giorgio moroder is interesting
the world turns in on itself and just generates more of itself
cocks love vaginas
vaginas love cocks
between the two
what will happen ?
servants of a deep drive
lives
are changed
or
not ?
ed. i wrote the first four lines and then went for my two hour afternoon sleep thinking i might just repeat those lines with the obvious inversion, but when i woke up the other lines came out making quite a different poem
you can think things
that to say them
would cause trouble
the madmen of r|zen
in their psychward subreddit
not quite a horde
they just behave like it
there is one beside me
outside of me
inside of me
i don’t know who that is
what i have noticed is that writers in any language all pretty much sound the same
its just that way of looking at things
reflective, discursive, questioning, skeptical, ironic
on the one hand you need to focus to get anything done
on the other if you don’t look around you will get eaten by what you are not paying attention to
you don’t think the roots of the “ opiate crisis ” are in people proxying their health entirely over to medications and not paying any attention to diet, exercise and learning to think for themselves
that this “ crisis ” has its roots in a deeper social failure, not the least of which is the education system ?
the full moon
the forests
the mists on the flats
the circle goes around again
but i no longer engage it
the full moon
the forests
the mists on the flats
the circle goes around again
but i don’t engage it
the first line of sylvia plath’s poem “ apprehensions ”
there is this white wall, above which the sky creates itself — infinite, green, utterly untouchable. angels swim in it, and the stars, in indifference also
my reply
were the angels that indifferent ?
they loved you, but a female mind bent on its imperatives placed you beyond them
a wider, more sceptical reading would have helped
last night, on going to bed i had a sorta hypnagogic vision
as clear as daylight i saw an asian/egyptian? face/head, male but somewhat androgynous, good looking maybe 25 or so with a mole or piercing on the left side of his face, i had the impression of a past time and religious context
where did it come from ?
its was strikingly original, a “ meta ” synthesis, not something i would have cooked up in a million years, yet obviously it had come from me
its was a startling synthesis but i can see its origins in watching a video that day of figuring out if a woman was asian or not and other experience garnered over much longer time, but there’s part of my brain that’s hidden to me that has far greater competence than i am aware of
later that night i had a dream involving me being threatened by crocodiles
its like digging up an overgrown garden
going back through the past
figuring out what was significant
or why
its like digging up an overgrown garden
going back through the past
figuring out what was significant
and what wasn’t
what amuses me about cardinal pell’s trial and appeals for paedophile offences is the way his very expensive defense team is convinced of his guilt and doesn’t hide their opinion
the vatican must have been crazy to send him back to australia and he had done them a big favour with his work on the vatican finances
cardinal john henry newman converted to catholicism about 1843, roman catholicism was by then on a surge of the wave of homosexuality leading to it becoming dominant in the church rather than the token celibacy and de facto marriages of the catholic clergy for most of its history
so he’s now a saint. a productive competent man, but only the homosexuality can explain the insanity of his life, which from that point of view is not insane at all
this is not to be taken as a diatribe against homosexuality, but an exposition of the substantial change in the character of the roman catholic church which is now in disarray, run by old men unable to adapt without any competent younger men like newman coming through because their doctrine is so out of sync with the modern world
the only type of thinking i am any good at is that which the world works to crush out in you any suspicion that it has any value
the only type of thinking i am any good at is that which the world works to crush out any suspicion in you that it has any value
i don’t think really good poems make sense
i noticed that with emily dickinson
you can pull the poem apart
but the bits don’t add up to what it means
“need HELP searching for a dark/creepy/haunting/sad short poem ”
he wants a creepy
haunting
dark
sad
poem
he just wrote it
as you get older, nostalgia
is
an
insidious
disease
if we look at the way reality really works compared
to how it paints itself as working
the disjunction therein
what does it mean ?
nothing satisfies or is without flaws that turn it inside out
the causes of autoimmune dry eye disease
as an inflammatory response neutrophils extrude strands of DNA to form webs on the surface of eyes affected by dry eye disease
in this new study , the researchers identified ACPAs (anti-citrullinated protein autoantibodies) as another cause of eye inflammation that also contributes to the development of these webs in a vicious cycle of inflammation
comas , unconciousness and near death experiences are meaningless states
the best that can be said of intelligence is he/she is quite smart about somethings and quite stupid about others
the schizophrenia of the world
everything re-made in its own image
typhoons, versus hurricanes versus cyclones
different names for almost the same thing in different regions
i really find tracey emin good value, she can talk , she has a good understanding, drawers like this fellow can’t understand the difference between her and them, their technical competence and not much else versus her intellectuality
the thing about history
is it extends your range of experience
not what happened just yesterday or last week or ten years ago
but a thousand years ago
you get a skepticism
borne of long experience
i cannot conceive
of a need
to go “ sit ” with people
edit : well, this is what i did when i started zen and it improved my social skills which were in need of it, but after a while the general “ wrong-mindedness ” of people becomes an impediment, unpleasant and a drag
you outgrow them and they don’t outgrow you
the moonlit landscape seems truer than in daylight
the colours and textures
all
gone
washed out
there’s nothing really
is this the way things are ?
this cup or that cup
long lists of names or teams
neatly printed on varnished wooden panels
in the school hall
back to 1925 and earlier
it meant something for a while
but not now
“ fans ” don’t seem to be bothered by the surrogate-ness of it all
what peter hanke said
in a good way, not only in a bad way i was astonished, it was very courageous of the swedish academy, this kind of decison
what he really meant
i’m surprised they gave the nobel prize to a genocidal slav fascist
well done nobel prize committee, from the frying pan into the fire
well at least this time they gave it to some-one interested in the prize, their usual pattern of choosing slightly better than mediocre writers of some public standing is the only continuity
once they warm up, this 2015 interview of peter and win wenders is better
the whole thing about “ the spiritual path ” is you are building something, but its also native
it has to match reality, but reality isn’t sufficient so it also has to be built in the imagination
this is where just about everybody goes wrong, they either import some communal fictional trash and so get beaten to death by those idiocies or they create their own schizophrenic structures completely untested in terms of internal consistency or fitting “ reality ”
when people are antagonistic towards you
all you can do is step away
and
let
them burn uselessly
IOL’s are prosthetics , there’s always problems with prosthetics, these opthamologists recommending lens replacement with minimal cataract to eliminate the inconvenience of glasses are misguided at best and mercenary at worst
the vast majority of people with digestive problems don’t want to get into the real complexity of resolving them
there are answers , but its a lifetime’s work to sort out, that’s the reality
the other road is malnutrition, cancer, nasty gut operations and bad med side effects, a road which by default most seem to want to take rather than think and experiment
the education system has created a mindset of oversimplified “ packaged ” solutions with no mental effort required, i remember elaine gottschall saying that she wouldn’t have framed the SCD the way she did, but a more complex approach wasn’t palatable
past life’s prime
don’t let me whine
i don’t have the energy
my voice sounds crackly
my smile lacks teeth
or should i say “ grimace ” rather
beauty is for the young
narcissism needs roots
to want to repeat itself
we the fading
only want to fade
one thing about the insane i have noticed is they never tire of each other’s company
where am i ?
nowhere
watching the sea
it rolls over me
being in the prime of life is one perspective
not being in the prime of life is another
which is truer ?
just goes to show that truth isn’t everything
or is it ?
if you read the whole bible including the apocrypha its obviously a literary work with interspersed and difficult to discern factuality that modern archeology is helping uncover
i don’t think you can read the whole bible and remain christian, which is of course, why they never do
umm, poetry is “ the dismal art ”
there’s nothing necessarily wrong with using clichés in poetry, but they should be “ embedded ” so to speak and contribute positively to the overall meaning
vanity publishing
the million speaking like the million
give me
the
solitary
longish retreats like the zen seven day “ sesshin ” will be too traumatic if jumped into without any prior experience
i had at least nine months of doing a weekly group “ sit ” of an hour and a half’s zazen before doing my first sesshin and that background made the retreat very productive
i’m not a believer in the soto line of doing endless retreats , rather they have something to teach you which you should be able to pick up on
the major problem with retreats is the way the organising groups use the opportunity to
“ imprint ” participants with whatever doctrine they are promoting, the only real protection against this is wide reading of quality literature
if something seems paradoxical or inconsistent to you, search for the underlying rationality, it will surprise you
writing to some extent is a remedy for the impaired short term memory of schizophrenia which explains why so much of the net and writing is outright crazy
impaired brains scribing the same useless circles over and over again
tell me oh moon what should i do ?
“ where i shine i shine ”
“ tell me oh moon what should i do ? ”
where i shine i shine
there’s some really good quality computer games around, but its laying waste generations intellectually
you see it all over the web, entitled idiots who can’t think their way out of what ever jejune immersive worlds they crib their life experience from
cutscene , you learn something new everyday
sometimes i feel a million miles away from any poetry writing space
then something comes along
not this time
i’m always impressed by how much competent expertise sits within the walls of the british museum
from crocodile mummies to cuneiform and babylonian history
he wakes to dream
and dreams to wake
men are less concious of gender than women
to their disadvantage
there is something that is all
and is not
how can that be ?
i don’t feel comfortable
taking charge
of anything
“ a good way to avoid getting into arguments is remember, you cannot argue with stupid
you cannot change peoples minds, and also ask yourself do you really want to be a broken record and keep repeating yourself ?
do you really want to argue with someone stupid ?
do you really want to argue with someone who can't be bothered to be listening and just keep twisting what you are saying and putting words in your mouth ?
this thinking has saved me from internet drama and kept me out of trouble ”
my re-translation of the poem ‘ during sleep ’ by michizō tachihara
the moon is shining through the window
and my room otherworldly still
(yes, that’s how it was)
in the moonlight a bird is flapping its wings
scattered pollen glistens.
then, pulling my black cap back over my brow,
i slowly looked
somehow i'd been dreaming
(i know)
my reply
he wakes a dream
a dream he wakes
reggie ray gets a roasting
why these people line up to give their lives away to frauds i do not know, the real work is unpalatable to them and they only validate the sort of crap reggie goes in for and then years later they complain, not of having being duped, but being discarded as oppositional or no longer useful
cults are dependent on their real organisational dynamics being concealed and the net with its easy publishing of grievances is breaking that concealment down
the most fundamental question is “ why ? ”
why is there a “ beyond ” from which perspective everything makes a sense that eludes us in our day to day lives
why is there a magical reality beyond of which we are some fragmented vision ?
why ?
one hundred million
about how many wrong ideas i accumuluate over a lifetime
one million
about how many i sort out
nanoparticle and toxic hell they pay to get !
ikkyū sōjun wasn’t a buddhist and in fact was celibate up until about thirty
he was an iconclast and artist/writer in the context of buddhism which is quite different from “ believer ”
he was rejecting zen in favour of art and life and again you have to be careful of western cultural biases in translations of his poetry
zen is mostly fakes and stupids, then as now
you can sorta see how jorge luis borges’ short story the book of sand influenced gabriel garcía márquez’s “ one hundred years of solitude ” and even possibly chris van allsburg’s “ jumanje ”
“ ell emm ” has a nice reading voice, the music could be more muted in relation to the voice
two very good lucille ball skits, several videos on from the start of the first video, two women in pink wrapping sweets on a production line, then the next video where lucille is the “ vitamin and vegamin girl ” slowly getting drunk on the alcoholic content of the elixir
the colourising really gives another visual dimension
we live a dream
a flickering film of past events
real and imagined
somehow
we
think
this
is life
writing is a form of thinking so even if nobody else reads it, it still provides value
upvotes and downvotes on reddit are not symmetrical
if you are upvoting you are saying its substantially right so further comments are to a certain extent superfluous
downvotes however are a bluff because you have not said what the problem is with the OP or comment you are downvoting
if the commenter or OP ignores you by not mentioning the downvotes then he’s called your hand and if you don’t comment then its a fair inference you have nothing to show
there’s a lot happening in supposedly quiet shadows
“ spandex ” is an anagram of the word “ expands ”
why i think “ enlightenment ” is only available to celibates
because essentially it is a massive insight, then you are faced with the problem of distinguishing it from “ ordinary ” insight
its that the enlightenment experience traverses you through an infinity of worlds and all time, so how would you get that ?
its the meshing of us being in a restricted form of infinite reality with life that is quite meaningless in conventional terms, ie childless
its particularly empty vacant lives tipped by the difference into infinity
that’s really what is a bit special about people like eihei dogen
i have to say its very rare, zen today is a transmission of fakes
migraine with aura rendition
the “ upset circuitry ” in the brain must be very spatially localised
it always amazes me with artists, musicians, writers and composers how they can have deep deep talents in some areas, preternatural almost and be so away with the fairies in others, especially the semantic intellectual
it amazes me with artists, musicians, writers and composers how they can have deep deep talents in some areas, preternatural almost and be so away with the fairies in others, especially the semantic intellectual
if you look at islam in terms of culture and society, ISIS is not islam at all, but a re-invention in the mould of the cultural revolution and stalinism
to watch artists like tracey emin talking about themselves and their work can be a massive shortcut to upgrading your social sophistication and skills
five minutes of watching this video = 100 years of gaming
its the nature of politics to go through extremes and if the system is functional, recover
so i was in town yesterday (saturday) for my fortnightly shopping trip and always the big problem is getting a decent lunch without additives or wheat flour
that rules out any pies, macdonalds, subway and just about everything else actually
however there was a coffee shop that i have never been to that also sells restaurant type meals so i waited till the crowds had left (the best places are always busy) and had a lunch of too much chicken, with deliberately burnt cauliflower and raw spinach leaves
the cauliflower was actually tender and the three or four spinach leaves i ate were palatable, though i wasn’t game to eat all of them
i left one piece of chicken uneaten as the serving was too large and would have to say that wasn’t a bad lunch and i feel better today for it, rather than ingesting who knows what modified food and additives
i may go again
people would have a lot less trouble with islam if they understood it was a form of nestorian christianity designed to solve some of the theological problems with trinitarian christianity
muhammad being only a prophet and not god himself does offer a theological route out of very thorny woods, unfortunately in practice he becomes the only avenue to god which brings back the usual problems
st. francis who had travelled in islamic culture had a very high opinion of islam
in my view the islam we see today is somewhat a twentieth century reinvention, and lacks the subtlety and cosmopolitan-ness of the islam that maintained the social fabric of great empires
i can see i am a bit schizophrenic because of the extraordinary effort i have to go to to untangle the mistakes in my thinking
if i didn’t do that i would be in some shoddily constructed la la land
one of the advantages of “ lifetime ” employment as a librarian for philip larkin was it enabled the poetic “ observational mode" outside working hours which he employed with his usual intensity
the downside is that he never really had the time or interest to explore the areas of life that would eventually kill him, his drinking and general diet and health and somewhat toxic social and sexual life
lana del ray is interesting, some-one that transits in and out of commercial competence, veers between train wrecks and the truely lyrical
this photo doesn’t work, whatever “ creative advice ” she uses is hopeless, she is all the talent that is around her, she should trust her own thinking more
of course the truth could be sadder, she is trusting her own thinking
i’m not sure jordan perterson is not insane
if i have to re-write something more than three times i throw it away as not being right in the first place
“ there’s something to say ”
what ?
“ the problem is its best not said to people ”
yes, that is a problem
what a man looked like , 10,000 years ago in jericho
apart from the skull which was bound at birth, he looks very modern levantine
r|zen squabbles over “ the real meaning “ of zen
basically its a schizophrenic activity to try and conscript a meaning of a word for yourself away from the public domain meaning
interestingly, my being the seventh patriarch is in accordance with public domain understanding of “ dharma inheritance ”
why it is so important to identify when you are dealing with schizophrenia is that you are spending your time involved with something irrational past the point of futility
the chinese have the right idea
limiting the family size
otherwise the rabbit genes
are
going
to
take
over
it looks and sounds like english
i should understand it
it speaks to me
but i can’t
so i get upset
love is a machine
that doesn’t let up
love is a machine
that
doesn’t
let
up
you don’t have to think about death
you only have to think about not being here
same thing
women don’t think about perpetuating the species
they think about what’s theirs and what is not
that perpetuates the species
russian does not translate well into english
michizō tachihara’s poem “ at the park ”
whenever i watch a fountain
someone beyond the spray
watches it, too
here, more than anywhere else in town
afternoon sun softly lights up someone’s back
as time cavorts calmly with the wind
my reply
the fountain sprays the loss of time
i drift in the sun’s glinting on the water
be careful of what the wind takes away
i wouldn’t say rumi was complete crap
“ thou gatherest up thy garment lest the water should wet it : needs must thou a plunge a thousand times in the sea. love’s way is all lowliness and drunkenness : for the torrent runs down: how should it run upward ? ”
but the eastern and islamic culture reallly doesn’t translate at all into the western associations and value systems so it just looks like what it generally is, spacey not quite nonsense
“ be helpless, dumbfounded, unable to say yes or no. then a stretcher will come from grace to gather us up ”
well the stretcher didn’t come for shams-i tabrizi who was murdered by rumi’s son and the body never found
his bones will still be where they were buried somewhere around konya
the vast landscape of inanity, supported by stupidity
supported by what ?
i can’t even guess
the “ spiritual ” world
either rumi was so clichéd original thoughts were alien to him or the translations are so bad, they give that impression
the last two stanzas of sappho’s fragment 31 is the world’s most famous description of female orgasm
obviously men aren’t in the running
the golden ratio is a simple increment that is easy to implement from a genetic point of view to maximise “ packing ” efficiency
it would make sense that the human skull had need of this
“ how is the world ? ”
i don’t know how the world is
“ surely you must know how the world is ”
no, i don’t
“ we are not going to have much of a conversation then are we ? ”
no we’re not
“ the air feels muggy when we get hot and sticky, that’s when
the air is warm enough to make us perspire
and the air contains sufficient water vapour to interfere with the evaporation of our perspiration and not allow us to cool down much from that
so mugginess depends on both heat and humidity ”
its interesting how you can flip flop back between views and the real view is a synthesis of them
you tube viewing recommendations are like some mix up of jorge luis borges’ stories
random and non random in the labyrinth of the library of babel
knowledge is the business of successive approximation, blowing out exponentially in both directions
knowledge is the work of successive approximation, blowing out exponentially in both directions
the chemicals in vaping directly injure the lungs
dr. larsen, a pathologist at the mayo clinic, explains
you can tell the insane a problem they have or point out some error in reasoning
what do they do next ?
nothing except go away
some try to shout you down
that’s what makes them non-functional
brad, your t-shirts are too “ safe ”
how about a battle between jesus and buddha ?
or jesus, muhammad, buddha and moses as passengers on the heaven’s gate spaceship driven by bentinho massaro ?
eihei dogen never uses the term “ forgiveness ” because its a bullshit term
why is that ?
because its an idea on the same level as self
the person you read in my writing doesn’t exist
its not quite me, its a double fold
there is an ambiguity in the “ sour grapes ” fable that the story doesn’t capture
that the grapes may in fact be sour
real life stalkers , safer and not magical i am afraid
shiey’s stamina is absolutely amazing
fictional worlds versus real worlds, both are constructs with different inputs
the essence of a “ holy ” religious figure is basically they have superpowers to distinguish them from the rest of us
jesus by comparison has broader “ superpowers ” than the castrated westernised buddha with whom he shares infallibility
interestingly western zen takes the castration even further by creating a sort of crimped omniscience for its “ masters ” , namely that they are privy to a secret no-one else is and they are necessarily right
religious superheroes have higher psychological “ superpowers ” but lower biological and physics “ violations ”
its interesting to compare the superpower mix for buddha, muhammad and christ
asian can be distguished from western buddhism by the much more aggressive superpower violations
study
there’s nothing more pathetic than buddhists grasping at the story line of that sanctimonous fart, the buddha
on the net, hostility seems to rise in direct proportion to ignorance
cataract lens replacement ops are really once in a lifetime operations, later operations are far more problematic
the yogachara idea that the only way we can know the world is our concious experience is , in fact, very greek and exactly what you expect from the origins of buddhism in the indo-greek kingdoms
david bohm’s view that there are endless further levels of physical reality below the quantum has the logical flaw of that view being in itself an end
interestingly russia was the same problem for hitler as napoleon and their “ solution ” ie invasion, worked for neither of them
the most glaring deficiency of the german airforce in WW2 was the lack of a four engined long ranged bomber capable of reaching the soviet union’s armaments manufacturing plants, yet the first flight of the american B-17 “ flying fortress ” was in 1935
the senior levels of the luftwaffe were startlingly incompetent
words
intricate
multilayer
dense
a poem
words, intricate, multilayer, dense, a poem
everybody has their prime, though the prime isn’t quite what you think it is
disclaimer :
this is a stupid piece of prose which can mean anything including what it doesn’t mean , a left turn or right turn , inside out or upside down, and particularly what it is, isn’t and might be , but the opposite and same !
winners write the history and myths, the losers are not only facing the consequences of having lost, but lose their version of events
god or gods are superheroes, what a crap species humanity is that they are its highest aspiration, stupid cornflakes figurines
god or gods are superheroes, what a crap species humanity is that they are its highest aspiration, stupid cornflakes figures
at my age i have been through that many nightmares to not want to go through it all again though i do know now how to avoid some of them
there are those who don’t have genuine questions, but waste your time
don’t be dismayed by downvotes, they are a poor quality bluff by idiots
some people will waste their time arguing but won’t research, verify their opinions or weigh in any real world experience but they are happy, nay prefer to argue forever wasting your time in a gluttonous joy of screwing your day up
for sheer tragedy its hard to beat the life of sylvia plath
she basically got fucked over by the incompetence of the world
i do think that period was anti-intellectual and anti-artistic and she was a fish out of water without real companionship or support
i’m not prepared to continue this , you are dissing me, my experience and what i am saying
you really have a “ bad attitude ” to others, treating their time as worthless
life is like a spreadsheet where unbeknownst to you the parameters are constantly being altered and nothing ever adds up
the basic tragedy of life is we are stuck in a cycle of growth and decay and we don’t really figure things out until we are in the decay portion
“ a jack of all trades and a master of none ”
a master of all trades and a jack of none
fashion shows are the archtype of the female condition, that constant posturing to convey status and suck the energy of males
paul-michel foucault has an interesting thesis about modern medical “ survellance ” norms actually being re-invented from christian “ pastoral power ”
surprisingly even quite old latex pillows can be an irritant problem for some
the word “ cunt ” seems to be gaining prominence and i wondered what the meaning is which i think is a woman oblivious to and lacking sympathy for, the problems of others
this woman is a cunt
@2:17 of 4:04
it is a mistake
to try
to make
sense of
this world
it is
sensical
and nonsensical
what is really happening on r|zen ?
its to elevate fictions to superhero status and then by commenting on the fiction, induct an illusion of one being a similar “ superhero ” oneself
a literal jorge luis borges story
john of the cross, catherine of sienna and teresa of avila are the prominent mystics in the catholic church
there’s also the desert fathers, not catholic, but very much of interest for celibates
you want to be able to reach into the catholic belief system for material
the catholic church is in disarray and there’s a vacuum there
almost complete fasts with care to keep a tiny amount of sugar in the stomach so as to keep the sugar loving microbiome alive and not displaced by the protein eating microbiome is a very useful skill, especially for the overweight
however skill is needed because it can go wrong , especially for those in less than “ robust ” health
my advice to some-one on being a “ teacher ”
brad warner is really i think a writer trying to make an living in retreats, his great weakness is he is not building an organisation with competent volunteer women who will do a lot of the organisational work
if you can stay celibate its a huge advantage in this area
he says he gets a lot of his income now from web donations so you should think about setting something up
in terms of this “ work ” both brad and lisa cairns are messed up by their sex lives, because you are celibate, even at this point you are well ahead of any other teacher
i really think dogen was right, married with kids is such a different world it doesn’t mix well with “ spiritual work ”
on the other hand you don’t need your audience to be celibate at all, only you need to be
i’d steer clear of bentinho massaro, he’s an intelligent schizophrenic, its actually a cult
childless people/women are your ideal “ zen ” audience, have money, limited family distraction and are looking for something
95% of actors and actresses are fruit loops
it is a mistake
to try
to make
sense of
this world
it is
nonsensical
and sensical
if you can swallow that
you are enlightened
it is a mistake
to try
to make
sense of
this world
it is
nonsensical
and sensical
physical knowledge is surprisingly quantum, it just seems to go on forever with high degrees of uncertainty
shades of lewis carroll, i read this poem by fujiwara no teika
with the autumn wind
turning back the flowing sleeves
of a traveler,
how lonely in evening light
is the bridge above the gorge
and re-worked it into this
in the quiet of the night
autumn foliage
shedding
a foot bridge hangs
suspended
across the gorge
i’m not a person who remembers the past well, it comes and goes
mainly goes
there are a finite number of books in the library of babel
youtube has some good videos on jorge’s short story
i would say the universe both has a shape and doesn’t
helicoids are a type of surface called a rolled surface, its made entirely out of straight lines hence their use in architecture
being robust to criticism in a netverse of shrinking violets
hard to fathom
the insanity of avoidance
zen in theory at least should be about being robust to criticism,
some of those old masters did nothing but talk
painful silence is not an answer
a poem by fujiwara no teika
your face
i cannot forget since
our parting
traces of you
remain resting on the moon
my reply
your face already fading in the landscape
lit
by
the
moon
more poems by him
i really feel a couple of hours a day “ do nothing time ” pretty well covers the ground for retreats
however, that is in the context of living by myself and not talking to anyone for days on end
when i have a virus i don’t feel like eating, its not too difficult to follow that feeling and fast or semi fast (say a teaspoon of jam in hot/warm water a day to keep some sugar coating the stomach)
writing from the point of view of existence is necessarily meaningless
writing from the point of view of existence is meaningless
i notice with my writing that if i use stuff that is a bit peripheral to me, it loses energy and i start to ask what i am doing
louise bourgeois in the last thirty years of her life produced more than twice what she had made prior to 1980
she died in 2010 at age 99
well, there’s hope isn’t there
the untalented with their sly putdowns, behind the scenes backstabbing, duplicity, dissembling
that’s their true talent
paul mccartney explaining how he wrote his songs, it makes sense, he was actually re-synthesizing a vast array of previous popular music, so he was, in that sense a prodigy and this previous sourcing was the root of his success
choral music, too sweet for my own good
some zombie on r|soto upbraids me
why r u on this sub then ? this is a place to discuss soto zen practice, why do you think your comments are appropriate here ?
my reply
its like jorge luis borges’ library of babel isn’t it
wasn’t eihei dogen attempting to make sense of the library ?
in actual fact i take dogen’s writings and the chinese tradition he is associated with to be primary, he changes his opinions as he gets older and you and i like other travellers in the labyrinth of the library forever look at at books we cannot understand the meaning of because we are not readers in nor from the time of medieval japan he wrote in
also it pays to bear in mind that modern soto zen is a political construct from the meiji period and dogen himself would have never given rise to the war criminality of the soto school during WW2
see you in whatever hexagon “ in the library ”
my mother mentioned my first birthday being celebrated under the plum tree at our farm at lake rotoma
yeah, i remember the flowering trees on the hillside at rotoma, the sadness of a lost world
one of the things about the net is the incredible amount of imitative writing and the pretense of an in depth understanding that shows plainly in the endless garbage spewed out
its just so millenial, expecting an effect without the necessary work and all their effort goes into trying to force out writers who show them up and promoting their bullshit
you bail them up and all they do is run off to do it somewhere else
my mother, recently in tokyo commented on the kittykat craze there
my reply
apparently the japanese will pick up anything and add it to their cultural lexicon without much thought
my further comment
she and her family were evacuated from auckland at the beginning of world war two because of the japanese threat of invasion, its strange how times can change so much
“ why am i here ”
well modern science gives the best answer, we are here because of our ability to create continuity for our genes
‘ what is life about ’ is an answerable question because it actually doesn’t mean anything whch is the only basis for having a consistently unanswerable question
famous people are removed from you by their busyness
its a self-limiting machine
they run the treadmill of their fame, few escape
an ad or science fiction ?
i think poetry, unlike prose is art
that’s because its a circumscribed object designed to have an effect
i’m amazed to see how much i relate to artists and the way they think about what they do
there’s going to be a lot of obsolete drawings of tyrannosaurus rex around, the latest evidence suggests a fur-like coat
apologists are people who bullshit to themselves
why ?
i’ve lived in various “ spiritual centers ” and seen people waste half their lives on nonsense
i think we have a talent in an area when we get things right unconciously
its easy to observe the areas this isn’t true for us
religion is a farce of stupidity, vocabulary, tragedy, viciousness and humourless comedy
zen is a farce of stupidity, vocabulary, tragedy, viciousness and humourless comedy
zen is a sort of mild psychward for the semi-insane to pass the time
i had a vision of a blake-like universe
green and strong
then i saw its other side
damaged and riven
so, when i listened to the first version i thought, well that’s too simple and lacks span so its created by artifical intelligence and when i heard the second i thought, well that’s obviously bach, has span, modulation and range, its too obvious so its the AI version and the other is some bad bach
its called “ overthinking ”
there is no end to beautiful women and ugly men
what does this tell you ?
there is no end to beautiful women and ugly men
what does this say ?
as i get older and possibly wiser
i see
a lot of things
that
i thought
mattered
don’t
and still
i puzzle
about
what does
matter
as i get older and possibly wiser
i see
a lot of things
that
i thought
mattered
don’t
i think ginger cats are like red headed people, the ginger toms seem to be constantly injured from fights
“ do you have any regrets in life ? ”
lost count
i think buddhism and zen in the west is much more teacher culty than in asia because there, they are cultural religions and broadly based in the population and here in the west, they are well, personality cults
the photo should be landscape, not portrait oriented, but it shows how psychotic people can be
look at the size of the long magazine, its a massacre kit
what a black hole really looks like
if you have any doubts about people’s ability to believe and implement total crap just look at marxism and communism
“ its such a mad crazy world these days that everybody i draw is a lunatic ”
george condo
the emperor hadrian lived in surprisingly tasteful if somewhat grandiose style
he was the middle of the five good emperors
the problem with the idea of having a changed past is usually there’s any number of unforseeable alternatives with far worse outcomes
if you are alive and in reasonable health today, that is a successful road
my god, this american (florida, where else?) who is building an AR-15 turned up on zen mystical of all places
they really don’t think straight, i am showing what he wrote below because in itself, its a sort of hubric insanity, quite schizophrenic really
“ Interesting comment about the AR15. That’s a shame they are illegal where you are. I have a pretty good understanding of how the media paints these firearms. It really is a misrepresentation
Your comment of only having one purpose is unusual. For example, a pencil can be used to write something or could can be put into someones eye. (X-men paraphrase)
But pencil’s only have one purpose, right ? Not exactly; the purpose of everything depends only on what the user does with an object. A semi-automatic rifle has many uses just like a pencil does
My line of interest is to protect people from others who intend to harm them. Putting myself in harm’s way and training to protect others is just the way I am. And strangely enough, I think hunting is immoral when our culture has farms for getting meat. I could agree with hunting completely if you are facing starvation. But that’s just me ”
my reply is below
well new zealand had a recent massacre in christchurch with an extended magazine AR-15 amongst other weapons
the perpetrator was actually an australian, who was unable to get that sort of gun in australia, it having been made illegal after the port arthur massacre and went to NZ where it was still legal
its even better than a machine gun on people in confined spaces because you don’t have to carry so much ammunition
the reality is that the homicidal insane will continue to take advantage of such an ideal weapon in the usa until they are banned
one of the advantages of hunting is you understand what a nasty business it all is and you can also place guns in a functional context
sepehr has made a very good compilation of alfred bestall’s “ rupert the bear ” art
this is what happens when you fall from 60ft [18.3 meters]
“ when she came down she landed feet first, thankfully, but more on her right side so her right heel was shattered, both ankles were broken, the right femur was snapped, multiple pelvis fractures, lowerjaw/mandible broken, missing teeth, both lungs were collapsed ”
news report
“ like cleaning a brown floor only to find out its actually a gold floor. the biggest difficulty is using a cleaner that actually wipes away the grime. i guess i’m trying to get the right cleaner before i get to scrubbing ”
ed. he also asks about zen related reading material
my comment
its so hard to know what will gel with a person in terms of reading
if i had some rules they might be
poetry trumps prose
when you read a translation, they will vary hugely in fidelity to the original author
zen , like all religions is actually a literary construct, this is really hard for people to get, that you think you are reading historical truth, but in fact you are reading something that is 90% a story
as to what zen is, going back to your example of scrubbing a dirty floor to reveal a “ gold floor ” , its more that you have to build “ the gold floor ” but the fact that its built doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist
a foundation of zen is the story about shenxiu writing a poem saying that what zen is about is like cleaning the dust off a mirror so it reflects perfectly and the 6th patriarch deconstructs that poem by essentially saying that the poem is meaningless
so in essence zen is this deconstructive and reconstructive process
is there a gold floor and if so what is it ?
how is it revealed ?
the most zen book i have ever come across is the dream of red mansions and that’s because it was written in a period of the flowering of a female zen culture that has been pretty well lost to time and you can see it right through the book
yeah, sailing up the west coast of the north island of new zealand nearly being run over by a big fishing boat at night because they didn’t have their radar on or had no-one on watch
they passed a couple of meters away, they never saw us at all and i was the only person who saw how close they were
maternity makes a woman much more risk adverse , its a physiological change (along with others) in the brain, the brain literally changes
analogies don’t prove anything
i think the point about narcissus is, if he is so sufficient, why would he need this image of himself ?
the trouble with sculpture is its too cumbersome to move quickly though abstract expression
the true zen is built around authentic enlightenment experiences, you will not understand without these
the pretending idiots lack the self honesty to admit that these haven’t occurred with them
today’s zen is just badly constructed rubbish so the suburbanites can bask in comfy feelings of superiority
i shot four wallabies very early this morning, a big feed for the cats
they showed their appreciation by vomiting outside the door
quoting criticism doesn't mean you escape the criticism
people quote something thinking they are on the “ right side ” of the quote
they are not on the right side of the quote
r|zen, where they quote criticisms, thinking they escape the criticism
they do not escape the criticism
the twenty-one card trick
how does anastasia make it appear that brady has chosen the right card ?
if you have a false belief and we all have false beliefs, its not something passive that can be ignored, to the contrary, its always searching out its truth or falseness, often in quite subtle and ruthless ways
its not ‘ them and us ’
we are all pretty much the same machine
analogies are usually wrong and actually beliefs
“ spiritual work is like cleaning a brown floor only to find out its actually a gold floor. the biggest difficulty is using a cleaner that actually wipes away the grime. guess i’m trying to get the right cleaner before i get to scrubbing ”
the analogy is wrong and actually a belief
its the energy behind the madness that always amazes me
no matter how fair the flower, it always fades in the same cycle as everything else
no matter how fair the flower, it fades in the same cycle as everything else
no matter how fair the flower, it fades in the same cycle as everyone else
a leo tolstoy quote
life is a dream and death an awakening
my reply
life is a word and the nonsense that follows real
the unreality that follows the real is unreal
where is death in all this ?
at the most fundamental level we have a drive to prove or disprove the validity of a belief
with false beliefs we can try to reshape the world to conform to the belief rather than alter our belief which is what religion and cultural memes like ufo’s/aliens do
the intensity of the drive, like medieval pilgrims going to the holy land or the attempt to storm “ area 51 ” is always surprising
the ambiguity of knowing something is false and representing it as true by building churches, cathedrals, statuary, making costumes, staging plays/mock realities, endless writing, penalising “ disbelievers ”
there is this relentless forward energy to grasp the untrue as real
people “ invest ” in a certain way of looking at the world
if you “ disrupt ” their investment with a more correct way of looking at things they will get quite hostile and avoidant
this, i figure is because the neurological costs of the change are impossibly high
this is actually what zen is about, circumventing these costs in a practical way to get the necessary change in understanding
what interests you ?
i have compiled a list of reading of what interests me which is essentially mystical, that there is some explanation of life and what it is beyond conventional understanding
i’ve had quite a bit of real life zen experience and its a bit culty and stupid
r|zen i used to post on a lot too, but it dawned on me it was a psychward
you can’t infinitely divide space and time, even at a distance you still get a probabilistic interaction between two objects
interestingly fractal zooms exist in the same world zeno’s paradox exists in
a way of defining quantum physics is that its what separates this real material world from ideal mathematical worlds
the price of existing versus the beauty of non-existing
john keat’s “ ode on a grecian urn ” is this sort of world, nothing ever touches, but exists there forever
zeno’s paradox holds true in the same world as fractal zooms exist, there’s an infinitely sharp divison between objects
in our world the boundary between two objects is fuzzy and at a certain point you start to get probablistic interactions between two objects
mathematics is for wannabe philosphers who can’t make the jump to abstract, imaginative and literary thinking
of course, just about all philosophers or those that aspire to it are wannabe anyway, so it certainly is a category
the basic problem with life is we don’t live long enough and everything passes too fast
the brain “ self therapizing ” from the dmt damage ?
its really creepy, the web is infested with these types
he also posts here, with an interesting comments section
alcohol doesn’t seem to make for the outright insanity that these modern recreational drugs do
what i have never seen mentioned about frank llyod wright is in august 1914 a servant went bonkers (after likely being fired and the subject of racial slurs) and killed llyod’s lover , her two visiting children and four others
tracey emin gives a good explanation of louise bourgeois’s work
louise is a very zen artist, practical, rough and most importantly, long lived to get the progression only a long life can
one of leo tolstoy’s problems
was
his wife was more autistic than him
unless you read history you will never understand politics
unless your read poetry and take an interest in art you will never understand the failure of religion
unless you get time by yourself you will never understand the error of the world
unless you read history you will never understand politics
unless your read poetry and take an interest in art you will never understand the failure of religion
unless you get time by yourself you will never understand the error of the conventional world
i have aways ‘ misspelt ’ debilitate as dehabiliate assuming the de- was some sort of inversion modifier, but as it turns out its debilis/debility versus habile/able, not exactly black and white but debilitate is the most common use so i will stick with that
zen is actually a doing thing
not a talking thing
you have to get the solitary time
you have to do the right sort of reading
you have to upgrade your social, life interaction and writing skills
you can be proud you are stupid, but where does that go ?
it beats me how the rinzai and soto both promote this “ grunt zen ” yet their founders where such literate artistic men
there’s nothing wrong with entertainment as quality entertainment will always teach, but trashy entertainment, lets call the simpsons and alan watts trashy, is debilitating
bourgeois is an adjective or name, e.g. louise bourgeois
bourgeoisie is a noun
it may not have puzzled you for more than half a lifetime, but it has puzzled me
there is a kitten buried by the path
that i loved
superb its long white fur
human-like in understanding
i killed it accidently
rolling the car back too quickly
it was sleeping on a wheel
internally injured, it half crawled
half ran away
until i ended it
i still think of it occasionally
and ponder the danger of having favourites
jordan peterson has got addicted to clonazepam and is in rehab
i think there’s an undercurrent of something wrong with a “ rules of life ” approach, too literal ?
he doesn’t have the dietary side even remotely sorted out
a rounded teaspoon of taurine dissolved in water taken later in the day, cut back on caffeine and step off the clonzepam over a fortnight
my rule of “ one ”
the scale of the royal palace of caserta is hard to grasp and is up there with the pyramids as a folly
of all the things that have left an impression with me
somewhere in the queensland outback
there’s a cave
with the mummified body of a mother kangaroo
and her joey beside her
inspiration for writing beats me
some days its as dry as a bone or outback creekbed
then others
it flows
without rhyme or reason
i presume there’s
been
rain in the catchement
inspiration for writing beats me
some days its as dry as a bone or outback creekbed
then others
it flows
without rhyme or reason
the mods of r|zen are subtle
they didn’t overtly ban me
but removed
my best OP’s
its a beautiful way of saying
we don’t want you
what i love
or hate
about migraine
is the way it unfolds forever
getting better or worse
but never
going
lynda hull
you can read what she writes
but all the same
is it worthwhile ?
lynda hull
you can read what she writes
but all the same
what is worthwhile ?
the social world of poets and poetry
awards, prizes, academic positions
teacher’s jobs
a meaningless mill
of the mediocre
a solved problem is a solved problem
the world seems to live on proxies for solved problems
if you want fame, write songs and lyrics, poetry is a lost cause
even big name authors have to supplement their royalty income
what does it mean to say i’m ‘such and such ’ ?
on a battlefield you must be rational or you will lose the war
i may look strange but i’m not
i’m very very normal
totally human
why this is so , i know
i may look normal but i’m not
i’m very very strange
scarcely human at all
why this is so , i don’t know
there are other worlds beyond the present
people have an inkling
there is another world beyond the present
people have an inkling
“ retreat time ” is avoided
the sort of consideration or subject matter of some of what i write about requires daily time spent alone, it can be a walk by yourself, or just being at home unmolested by others and not listening to music or doing anything on a computer or the internet
without that basic you might as well join the insane on r|zen
sometimes i will write a poem or essay as the results of reflections in this time
interestingly joan didion got some of this time in daily as essential to her writing
a sulky “ poet ” complaining of his lack of a richly deserved fame writes
“ the majority of people who have read my poems have literally cried because of the way i affected them ”
my reply
you can read that two ways, its rather amusing
zen, if they’re not quoting nonsense, they are making it up
the world of marketing is a fraud
the purpose of poetry is
to
explode
fraud
how
could
they
be
compatible ?
ed. a redditor OP'd
“ I teach marketing and hospitality but also business and finance
I’m looking for any way to tie in modern poetry to those subjects, or social media marketing or advertising or brands / branding — even (especially?) if they’re critical or negative about those industries ”
i wrote the poem in response and by way of further comment say
i think any poems in the areas the OP is asking about are bound to be unpalatably critical, especially to whatever administration he's working under
songs are already used hugely in marketing, but they are more in the nature of the mental candyfloss appropriate to “ selling ”
good poems have a “ hard edge ”
its like you can be too good at something and other areas of life drift into stagnation
there’s something insane about the way some entertainment personalities are built up and idolised
it has to come substantially from them and is narcissistic and manipulative and of course, totally unreal
they don’t all tolerate it, good for those that don’t !
the pretentious claims
i am pretentious
again
the pretentious claims
i
am
pretentious
again
a quote of xuefeng yicun
when the world is ten feet wide, the eternal mirror is ten feet wide
when the world is one foot wide, the eternal mirror is one foot wide
my reply
you are more vast than the universe, 10 foot equals one foot equals the width of the brane universes
none of the above is true
there is no “ eternal mirror ” , branes or even you
life
heironymus bosch’s demons sit underneath
women drain your energy and take all your attention
its why men line up for the stupidity of battle
women drain your energy and take all your attention
its why men line up in the stupidity of battle
“ we had tea, then went back to the “ sulima ” which sailed just at sunset
flame trees covered the freetown peninsulas, and the setting sun set them afire
we were sure we saw a small figure in white waving through the flames as we moved out into the golden sea ”
who lives that sort of life now, so heavy with the dreamlike
patricia janečková working hard
the commercial machine of the art world at work
meaningless talk about meaningless paintings
per kirkeby’s painting are worthless splodges hyped to significance
he’s driven by concepts and not aesthetics
edit : he’s partly rehabilitated, he likes the byzantine
he finds me vacant
wherein lies
the vacancy ?
the feeling good before the lecture was a migraine “ prodrome ” which is the start of the release of neurochemicals into the brain, which coupled with the heightened awareness and stress of the circumstances of the talk could have led to the seizure which is in essence a condition of hyper neural excitability, malign signal routing and confusion, so i guess “ hysteria ” is not too far from it
the existential aspect is interesting
women and alcohol were charles bukowski’s twin apocalypses
the poem “ petropolis ” (st. petersberg, leningrad) by osip mandelstam is curiously prophetic being written in 1918
last poem on this page
some of w.b. yeats best poems are embedded in the magnificent nostalgia of the byzantine
osip mandelstam also has some poems lit in that nostalgia
i have been posting a bit on r|poetry and i am a bit taken aback, the people understand or are at least interested in the meaning of what you say and are not hostile
on r|zen they don’t understand what you say and are meth grade hostile
a poem by michizō tachihara
walking endlessly on
i began to feel content
just then — a car overtakes me
my reply
by myself
on a long road
a car rushes by
this is not quite a re-translation, you have to read what the re-working is from to get the sense
leo tolstoy’s “ living for others ” ends up as the fascist “ living for the state, ideology and the personal power of the leader and party ” , a fundamentally depressive mode of being
susan sontage had a very incisive intellect and somewhat interesting life
dziga vertov. a soviet mythicist
long island looks more hazardous than syria with its tick and multiple infectious disease problem
the biggest promotion buddhism ever got was under a genocidal emperor
you would think life and history’s contradictions would give some pause in the usual spewing of philosophical and religious bullshit, but the vomited stream a never stops does it ?
a poem by michizō tachihara
hold the tumbler up to the light and you see a town
a small town redolent with the skies of a setting sun
homing pigeons soaring on wind
even a rainbow quivers in the breeze
my comment
imaginary world’s are better , yet lack energy somehow
there are imaginary worlds that cross the barrier and do not lack energy
i think i am getting an effective model on how “ downvoting ” works on reddit
basically, its a card game and you have played several cards when you comment or write an OP
your opponent can try to match what you have played by showing some cards of his in a reply to your comment or he can try to bluff with a downvote
now bluffing usually (but not always) disguises a weak hand so all you have to do is not be ruffled by it and leave it alone and you have won because its your comment that stands alone unmolested by the usual vacuous criticism
sometimes the downvote will be valid and its important to think that through, the biggest win is this because you have to work through your views again to update them and you walk away more knowledgeable and experienced with whatever subject
it is just amazing how relatively minor injuries to your hand mess up what you can do over the next couple of days
the doomed jacqueline du pré
i wonder if the intensity comes from some premonition of her eventual fate, surely the brain must know ?
my page on multiple sclerosis
eyal massad’s paintings
you can push the envelope, but sometimes the envelope tears
blasts from the past
the sheet music in “ the garden of earthly delights ”
we think of literacy as beginning with paper and papyrus, but the persians were using cuniform on clay tablets thousands of years earlier and even had a novel in the form of the gilgamesh legend written down
i really think notions of “ guide ” and “ waking up ” are nonsense
meaningless spiritual or new age jargon
honestly its hard to figure why leonard cohen spent so much time with that fraud, sasaki roshi
there’s plenty on the web about sasaki’s “ activites ” , the world’s most geriatric sex predator
but most zen is a fraud, the teachers are clueless, leonard had way more understanding than any of them, you can see it in his songs, its just very strange
divorce
people
are not necessarily sane
you married an insane person
it happens
divorce
people
are not necessarily sane
it happens
jason writes
when i meet intelligent, agreeable, and sane people the conversation flows much easier as there is less tension and fighting, which probably take a good amount of energy to deal with
my comment
not “ probably ”
when people want to “ spoil ” your efforts, but they lack the skills to argue the point, they try to wear you down by being obstructive
the stream
a turbulent ruffle
brown and green on the stones that disturb it
it has its beauty
the stream
a turbulent ruffle
brown and green seen through it
it has its beauty
the sentence that follows this is absolutely not generated by this sentence, no, no absolutely not
well, what was all that about ?
adam mcLean’s journey in the detailed examination of “ the garden of earthly delights ” is one of those rare cases where the method itself is the answer, absolutely eye opening
the trouble with any poem , no matter how good is there’s always a rubbish edge
sorta like hieronymus bosch , a bit of stupid insanity underneath all the brilliance
i before e except after c
with the rule : conceivable
against the rule : efficiency
today’s baleen feeders are only so big because of the energy efficiency of their “ trawls ” of large “ swarms ” of krill
the blue whale is the largest animal ever and its interesting that its efficiency of large amounts of quality nutrients being swallowed that dicates the size limit
no wonder the large dinosaurs went so quick
the only rule i have about criticizing a poem is i should do it by a poem in reply
i thank that keeps me grounded
anyhow anywhere anythings
cummings goings clink inkings
the only rule i have about criticizing a poem is i should do it by a poem in reply
i thank that keeps me grounded
anyhow anywhere anythings
cummings goings clink inklings
i’m certainly in some respects schizophrenic, but functionally i’m mostly not, i have learnt to come from several angles and research in depth
lol, or at least i can see the necessity of
subway has more additives than you can throw a stick at
macdonalds is just as bad
if you look at history you get a completely different sense of politics
the whole business becomes much more mechanistic and doctrine is so self-serving of certain interests and what’s more these beliefs mutate through time
there is quite a difference in strength of light between apogee and perigee moons and they rotate on a slightly longer than fortnightly basis
night vision in diurnal birds is not something we think about but the magpies here really are disturbed by full moons and the reason is likely an extremely efficient blue light receptor that reaches its peak in migratory birds
MSG mucks up
the serotonergic system
the rate at which everything in the universe is moving away from everything else, ie its expansion , is surprisingly handable
82 +/- 8 km/s/ Mpc
ed. Mpc is about three million light years
once you get over the three million light years, its quite conceivable, so for every further megaparsec you go out, the universe is expanding 82 km/sec faster
i have always wondered why people lose their hair with chemo
its because the chemo damages the hair follicles by making the cells unable to divide
when people pretend, plagiarise or mimic some skill or ability, rather than exposing the fraud you could praise them and say what a great talent they had and could they do or provide more
that’s a more subtle punishment because then they have to meet an expectation well beyond any actual ability they have to deliver
“ the night before amy winehouse died she bought €1400 of crack cocaine and heroin, according to a claim made by a drug dealer ”
speedballing can be fatal
william s. burroughs claimed opiate addiction didn’t affect his health, a plausible claim considering the age he lived to, but i have always found him intellectually blunted, just not very interesting despite a wide range of experiences
this study explains that and relapses as well
“ opiates fundamentally change how the brain communicates with itself ”
congrats to the study team, there’s so much pro drug bullhsit around now, like there’s no problem with these substances
i’ve just realised, bachelor and bachelorette are considered transient states by society
millions follow an illusory dream, why not you ?
the human is being told, her situation has changed
its interesting, she probably sees the human primarily as the hand
the answer is not in art, religion or philosophy
where is the answer ?
these “ spiritual ” idiots on the web are only interested in fooling themselves
and in real life i guess
jason writes
at the end of my showers i’ve switched the water over to cold, even with less than a week of doing this i’ve noticed my skin improving
i would like to quit sugar completely, minus fruits
my problem is that if its in the house then i can’t control myself, which is why when i was living by myself things were easier in that regard
meditation just makes the crazy more crazy if all they do is imbibe the usual pop culture reading shit and media
the whole buddhist and zen thing on the web is schizophrenic, the commenters are mentally ill because of the complete lack of reality testing in what they say, the web is just full of these people who project and get snarky if you interrupt the craziness
why the upset ?
because it exposes
the
fictonal
nature
of buddhism
religion becomes just another soap opera
unless its supposed
to be historically real
wipe so many years of medieval theologies
what are feelings ?
something felt
or not ?
why fame of any sort or public broadcast is so dangerous is people who are really offended by what you write or do at some sort of psychiatric extremity can develop ideas and potential actions against you
they were not willingly brought into your sphere and would not have been there otherwise except for the public profile
whereas if you are just known amongst a small group by word of mouth who are basically friendly to you, there is less of a problem
entertainment seems to have lost its satirical edge
for those who don’t know, its taking ‘ the mickey ’ out of something
this is not permissible in today’s age of protecting the gilded
the last two lines of w.b. yeats poem “ he wishes for the cloths of heaven ”
i have spread my dreams under your feet
tread softly because you tread on my dreams
my reply
well actually she hobnailed through them didn’t she ?
quite a listenable choral version
the full poem
had i the heavens’ embroidered cloths
enwrought with golden and silver light
the blue and the dim and the dark cloths
of night and light and the half light
i would spread the cloths under your feet
but i, being poor, have only my dreams
i have spread my dreams under your feet
tread softly because you tread on my dreams
alexandra tolstoy was leo and sonya’s daughter, but her life was more nabakovian than tolstoyan, that sense of a gilded life interrupted into great difficulty
the interview is not fair to her mother
leo’s ideas and implmentation of education
heidegger was crazy, you can’t pull the abstract into the particular the way he did
the experential experience of mathematics is what mathematics is, its not necessarily axiom systems or anything
making the world in your own image ?
not much of a image or world is it ?
making the world in your own image ?
not much of a world or image is it ?
the golden ratio is simple coding that gives maximal packing
wipe “ god ” as a waste of time concept
you get the “ saying something without meaning anything ” award
dishonesty is your middle name
does it bother you ?
to love that well which thou must leave ere long
the last line of sonnet 73 by sir henry neville
the famous don't have time for you
because
being famous
is a
construct
and
that
takes
a
lot
of work
there are limits to the success of being avoidant
perhaps not
there are limits to the success of being avoidant
the paranormal is a magnet for schizophrenics
art produces
philosophy argues
theology babbles
art produces, philosophy argues, theology babbles
simple complicated
complicated simple
simplicity going to complexity
complexity going to simplicity
simplicity simplicity
complexity complexity
simplicity complexity
complexity simplicity
its easy to read, but its hard to think
when an old person gives advice to a young one, its actually a litany of his own mistakes
the young of course have no idea such a thing is even possible
what’s different about being old i think is lacking the energy to start anew
this might be a revelation to you, but you don’t have to defend bullshit