that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
picture
of
a
mountain
is
not
amountain
snow panorama view from an ogden golf course
always
a
mess !
arrogance
or
something
else ?
late
afternoon
going
on
we
cease
everything
ceases
it's only the cost of paper that people never used to do it
in fact osip mandelshtam did that in his later poems, several versions
often good ones are recursive, they naturally flip about with word order and meaning
notice
with
myself
it's
always
a
mistake
to
get
into
something
than
get
into
thing
itself !
it's
zen
exactly !
surprisingly
easy
to
think
about
health
problems
in
a
rational
and
clear
manner
and
make
predictions
if
you
have
enough
carefully
worked
out
knowledge
it
just
falls
into
place !
it's
surprisingly
easy
to
think
about
health
in
a
rational
and
clear
manner
and
make
predictions
if
you
have
enough
carefully
worked
out
knowledge
it
just
falls
into
place !
had
a
vision
of
this
whole
zen
thing
being
stillborn
a
fallen
down
house
yellow
white
sandstone
block
walls
half
standing
or
clearly seen
white
yellow
in
the
sun
maybe
the
flinders
ranges
somewhere ! ?
i
had
a
vision
of
this
whole
zen
thing
being
stillborn
a
fallen
down
house
yellow
white
sandstone
block
walls
half
standing
or
clearly seen
white
yellow
in
the
sun
maybe
the
flinders
ranges
area
or
somewhere ! ?
i
think
you
have
to
watch
overwhelming
ability
you
can
be
too
brutal
or
not
brutal
enough
my
view
on
madness
is
it's
important
to
be
a
bit
mad
because
sane
people
don't
go
outside
the
boundaries
enough !
cease conforming what you read to what you think it means !
backwards
annihilates
yourself !
died when he was 53, i am older than him now so should be ahead !
his last/death poem is pretty hard to beat though
there are certain plateaus maybe one can't go past ?
he's actually quite a subtle man and he has always shown that he returns to permitting anonymous posting, not just because it gives some volume to the comments, but more importantly the “anonymouses” will mercilessly and endlessly rag anything of sense which actually makes him look quite good since he really just posts empty piffle !
so actually anything authentic is actually policed out by these people who are intent on “spoiling”
also brad removed any posts i made referring to myself as the seventh patriarch and i suspect he would remove any post that referred to me as being valid and actually the seventh patriarch because it undercuts his and all zen's phoney transmission claims, that is “the emperors have no clothes" (and not just because they are bedding their students ; o )
so the free run fully anonymous permission is an illusion, he just does the censorship more subtly than most and proof of the pudding is he won't risk posting here and be exposed to some real “dharma combat” will he ?
the 7th patriarch blog is different, just insists on identity and once that is established you can comment whatever you like, if you persist in schizophrenic rabble you will be warned and then removed unless you remedy !
brad, if you are reading this and i suspect you might, why not step up with a comment ? why be a vice grip on the nishijima transmission, it's all nonsense and you got conned into volunteering your life into something that just costs and kills you !
try a month without zazen, go for a walk in the countryside or on a beach instead, let loose this nonsense from you !
one day you might post on the hardcore zen blog that you are giving up zen and thank god the seventh patriarch helped me see what he was on about
lol a different imaginary universe for sure !
all you inauthentic zen teachers which is just about all of you, it's quite easy to hang up your credentials and depart from teaching zen because what you have is inauthentic and so is not real anyway
unfortunately since i was actually given transmisson directly by the sixth patriarch and effectively i accepted i don't have that freedom : o (
i think all i can do is minimise the work involved !
this fundamental inability to be objective about criticism means you can't have seen infinity/buddha properly by a long way
the only person i ever met who was able and encouraged this sort of thing was toni packer
i don't know of any zen teachers alive to day who can do this, george bowman i think was quite good but still had some boundaries
that's why i, since i am authentic zen personally appointed by the sixth partiarch and as such the only real lineage holder alive today have disapproved and deregistered all zen teachers, there are three not deregistered, bowman, rizzetto and tesuten, but they are not approved !
well i'm the boss and they know it, too scared to appear on here that's for sure, there is no comment moderation on this blog, just a long line of fakes and cowards reading it!
oh and plagiarists busy pinching my material !
haven't they read the blue cliff record or shinji shobogenzo? a whole generation of teachers not even worthy to to be castigised as pretending adepts !
yellow
bellies and wankers you are challenged ! if you are and good reduce me to a weeping ragbag ! : o )
you will be treated fairly here ! let's see you, but in actual fact you will do you best to keep things very quiet about me because i am so obviously your superior !
people like barry graham get publicized because his obvious flaws make him safe, but me, they just suppress publicity and plagiarize what their small minds are capable of !
which is not much !
anyone is , i won't say welcome, but certainly permitted to post/comment, in your shoes i would take advantage of it, but you are so scared of looking like the frauds you are you just look and don't participate in anything real which of course is why you are frauds in the first place like barry graham and just mouth platitudes and clichés endlessly!
was
jesus
illiterate ?
funny
how
that
question
never
arises
isn't
it?
was
jesus
illiterate
funny
how
that
question
never
arises
isn't
it?
does
time
go
forward
or
backwards
you
don't
know
much
of
what
is listened
to
these
days
music
radio
afternoon
going
on
dusk
it
all
looks
normal
sandy
beach
round
white
full
moon
calm
sea
a
youth
walking
up
the
beach
two dogs
playing
by
the
steps
but
it's
just
as
insane
as
hell
almost
evening
it
all
looks
normal
sandy
beach
round
white
full
moon
calm
sea
a
youth
walking
up
the
beach
two dogs
playing
by
the
steps
but
it's
just
as
insane
as
hell
late afternoon
almost
evening
it
all
looks
normal
sandy
beach
round
white
full
moon
calm
sea
a
woman
walking
up
the
beach
with
her
dog
but
it's
just
as
insane
as
hell
white
hair
white
face
green
sami
reindeerlander !
white
hair
white
face
green
reindeerlander !
insubstantial wisps
that
waft
through
our
life !
terminal
to
this
world
open
to
the
next !
terminal
to
this
world
a
beginning
of
the
next !
i think it owes a bit to francis bacon's pope innocent X paintings !
casanova, the giantess singing
casanova “ the dancing doll ”
that's a really thoughful one, if you think about
people don't realise that casanova was a real person and wrote these huge volumes of memoires which i have actually read and it's why of course he's known today
i liked “satyricon”, again it's important to realise it was a real story written in the first century ad
you really need to stretch across the centuries and fellini does this quite well !
la dolce vita finale
and
stupid !
cunning
and
stupid
a
s
rats
is
basically
content
with
themselves
i
know
i
am
and
i
don't
expect
anyone
else
to
be
any
different !
is
basically
content
with
themselves
i
know
i
am
and
i
don't
expect
anyone
to
be
any
different !
version 1
version 2
generally the thoughts don't change at all in my experience
yeah and if one gets it right at the time they don't change cause they are true
it can be disconcerting , some current problem to see you have been through it all and worked it out before !
are
not
listening
to
what
i
am
telling
you
you
are
not
normal
by
any
means
you
can
persue
the
illusion
but
it
will
cut
you
down !
trungpa
love
bomber
well
masked
insincerity !
do
think
there's
a
fundamental
equality
between
people
people
are
an
interesting
blend
of
skills
and
deficits !
i
think
that's
how
you
tell
you
are
getting
old
you
just
get
tired
worn
out
and
unable
to
do
things !
the
morons
don't
want
to
be
anything
else
except
morons
easy
to
succeed
if
you
keep
the
blinkers
on !
the
ones
i
don't
understand
are
those
on
whom
they
have
fallen
away
but
keep
scrabbling
to
put
them
back !
zoe
winters
she
doesn't
need
beta
readers
she
needs
zeta
readers !
a
phoney ”
well
i
am
and
i
aren't
a
phoney ”
well
i
am
and
i
aren't
doesn't
think
straight
at
all !
too
pretty
and
spoiled
as
child
i
think !
it
makes
me
cry
writing
i'm
like
an
alcoholic !
he won't let this be posted
“ fucking fraud like buddha, you have been specifically excluded from zen by the 7th patriarch. just a big wanking phoney who like the rest hasn't got to first base !
you have “an anti-transmission”
so
there
fuckwit !
permitting this post would go some way to redemption, but you have along way to go ! ”
he nixed my sir henry neville wrote shakespeare post in response to his blathering about how shakespeare really wrote shakespeare because he's working class !
the trouble with movies is they are usually a sorta toxic group think and one is polluted by them, fellini however is an exception !
i don't think you are a person whose art and life is improved by alcohol !
frog
kerplop
basho !
frog
kerplop
basho !
got
the
world
you
want
why
should
i
stop
you
getting
the
world
you
want ?
got
the
world
you
want
why
should
i
stop
you
getting
the
world
you
want !
got
the
world
you
want
why
should
i
stop
you
from
getting
it ?
got
the
world
you
want
why
should
i
stop
you
from
getting
it !
got
the
world
you
want
why
should
i
stop
you ?
of
course
religion
is
poisonous
it's
predicated
on
false
beliefs
where reason
stops
and
argument
can't
persuade
there
lies
the
balaclade !
in
moderating
me
off
or
effectively
banning
me
from
the
enzymes
and
autism
message
board
you
were
doing
me
a
favour
the
health
scene's
about
as
interesting
as
fried
toast
and
a
s
poisonous
as
cyanide !
is
far
more
interesting
than
kitsch
would
be
an
concept
to
most
americans !
um, my reply:
he's getting old he doesn't understand
language is
way
you
use
it
and
the
use
is
changing !
hey i’m the 7th zen patriarch !!!!!!!!!!!
your
dick
you !
if
you
can't
see
past
the
voynich
you
can
see
the
behavior
and
that
tells
you !
films
the
comfortable
world
of
having
everything
done
for
you
including
your
thinking !
really
insulting ”
just
trying
to
keep
the
twits
at
bay !
people
are
like
cattle
they
will
go
along
with
the
crowd
any
crowd
be
it
the
moonies
the
nazi's
scientology
communists
whatever
it
doesn't
matter
all
they
want
to
do
is
breed
it's
a
context
within
which
they
can
breed
people
are
like
cattle
they
will
go
along
with
the
crowd
any
crowd
they
just
want
to
breed
you
think
with
your
dick
women
are
different
ovaries
think
for
them !
voynich
is
the
human
condition
a
woman
so
formidable
all
the
genetic
strength
of
the
species
invested
in
those
breeding
years !
a
woman
so
formidable
all
the
genetic
strength
of
the
species
invested
in
those
breeding
years !
needs
eggs
bombing
the
presentation
of
an
image
in
a
period
of
softening
and
the
quiescence
of
self
standard
guru
i
am
afraid !
he's got an organisation that supports him is what it's all about
lives on an island in fiji
he's sorta going anyway in that video, three years later he died of a massive heart attack
i had some limited involvement with his group in auckland nz, nice people on the whole but thick as bricks about the homily side of life
da
a
not
very
good
photographer !
GOD
GOD
GOD
GOD
GOD
GOD
GOD
GOD
GOD
dog
infinities
gift
it's
so
tawdry
and
the
same !
matters?
what
doesn't
matter ?
a
woodpile
seen
in
the
distance ?
matters?
what
doesn't
matter ?
a
woodpile
in
the
distance ?
it's
really
odd
when
you
think
about
it
the
human
male
and
female
each
imperfectly
crafted
for
each
other !
fidelity
don't
expect
it
it's
the
nature
of
women
to
be
dissatisfied
and
men
to
roam !
sir henry neville is the leading candiate imo, i did spend at least a full week on researching it and it takes that sort of time!
it really gives the full dimensionality of his writing to know and do this !
compel
after
all
you
can
always
be
wrong !
it
all
about ? ”
is
there
even
any
sense
to
that
question?
there
is
no
bounded
condition
called
your
life
that
things
can
ever
be
done
satisfactorily
in
the
sea
always
crashes
in
through
the
buffeted
eroding
sea
wall !
there
is
no
audience
that
matters
this
hard
to
get !
gogh
a
superb
technical
skill
no-one
wanted
to
pay
for !
very
depressing,
no-
wonder
he
committed
suicide !
if
a
woman
has
children
to
men
she
doesn't
love
she's
always
looking
for
something
on
the
horizon
that
never
arrives !
if
a
woman
has
children
to
a
man
she
doesn't
love
she's
always
looking
for
something
on
the
horizon
that
never
arrives !
if
we
argue
to
impress
our
point
of
view
what
does
it
matter ?
if
we
argue
to
impress
a
point
of
view
what
does
it
matter ?
van
gogh's
last
paintings
that
black
there's
suicide
just
written
all
through
them !
what
i
like
about
the
nishijima ”
is
there
is
no
show
of
unity
am
death
i
am
dying
i'm
the
moon
i'm
crying
i'm
death
i'm
dying
i'm
the
moon
i'm
crying
i
think
too
much
about
other
people's
problems
i
meet
all
six
i
write,
i
finish
what
i
start
never rewrite at all !
publishing on the
net
takes
care
of
4
and
five
and
lastly
i
keep
writing !
i
was
surprised
heinlein
knew
a
thing
or
two !
oddly
i
meet
all
six
i
write,
i
finish
what
i
start
never rewrite at all !
publishing on the
net
takes
care
of
4
and
five
and
lastly
i
keep
writing !
i
was
surprised
obviously
heinlein
knew
a
thing
or
two !
it's funny how we ignore our natural abilities
sorry just couldn’t resist replying to this
“ after i broke down a few days ago and had a conversation about publishing on twitter, i got three emails practically back-to-back from three different people asking me to read their work, review their work, and help them market their work ”
why don’t you charge for it?
you are a reasonable but not great author (still here lol?) and maybe you will get tired of writing 10,000 words a day but you seem to occupy a spot that no-one else does, rational, a real author and have some sort of light of discernment about the writing process which i regret to say truly great authors don’t have !
the vanity press is your financial spouse !
it’s this “eye of discernment” i trust to look objectively at what i have said, that’s your real ability and actually the market you write for won’t fully appreciate it the way the vanity press will !
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well she got abit upset and this is my reply to her replies
i took the trouble because i think you are high functioning autistic which is what i am and i relate to the way you think which is not how most people think at all !
you can be rude, it doesn’t bother me and i don’t think it bothers you
everything crashes when you are on autistic spectrum and when i read about you trying to do 10,000 words a day i got a bad vibe !
what you write naturally is philosophy, that’s what your blog is, you are shoe horning your talent into what
doesn’t quite fit with paranormal romance, that is you have arrived or ended up in paranormal romance because you came to a good conceptual understanding of the drives behind the readers of that genre and can write to meet those !
it all seems a little odd, you don’t know me from a bar of soap and neither do i know you except there is a strong similarity which is why you replied
you ( and i) are much more the demons you write about, but they don’t live too well in the human world !
well it’s just a suggestion and really it’s asking is what are our real natural talents that we are not so aware of that people respond to and what can be done to use this to make life easier since we expect things to be so hard normally and don’t think its normal if otherwise !
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another reply:
the trouble with writers is they are very strongly autistically traited !
it makes them very penal to deal with, but they are also your fellows in this weird world of high functioning autism, there is a balance of avoidance and contact in my experience ! contact on the web way beats contact in real life !
i don’t know who you read, jane austen, emily dickinson, edgar allen poe? sir henry neville (the real writer of shakespeare), amanda hocking, stephen king, jk rowling hemingway, j. d. salinger, h. p. lovecraft are all high functioning autistics, you can go into music, kurt cobain, mozart, michael jackson, beethoven, mahler, freddie mercury, john lennon ..................
in art, dali, hieronymus bosh, leonardo da vinci, vincent van gogh, monet etc, it’s just endless !
women do generally trait a bit differently from men in high functioning autism retaining somewhat the social skills and can super connect, in fact too much so! ; o )
there’s a whole world out there of autism that’s nothing to do with the diagnosis
in my opinion it would be worth your while doing a bit of investigation into sir henry neville as the real author of shakespeare's works because i just have this vibe of a similarity between you and him in the way you think and it would be something to thread into a story that would i think give you very good publicity from upsetting the establishment
you won’t have the luxury of time i have, but i have spent full weeks on it and there’s two facts, one that shakespeare never wrote shakespeare and the second is that sir henry neville did
he’s really an exciting person, there’s codes and time in spent in the tower of london facing execution, his business selling cannon to norway, travels to italy and in general the fit is so good and he's quite spooky too!
one can just write, but its important to keep stretching yourself and it pays dividends in enhanced story telling and actually it's a weakness of people like amanda hocking that they don’t do this enough !
one can just write, but it’s important to keep stretching yourself and it pays dividends in enhanced story telling and actually it's a weakness of just about all contemporary writers that they don’t do this enough, especially with what’s available on the net !
so i think that’s what i am offering in the way of advice, that stretching and beware of buddhism it’s quite as poisonous as any other religion, and lower back injury with belly dancing..................
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“ I reread what I wrote and it just occurred to me that I was coming off judgmental and condescending in a way I didn't intend. ” ( zoe winters )
i can see who you are and your value and have no issue with that sort of thing, you are like me and flick back and forth between these different perceptions and that's the way we problem solve tho in my observation everyone else has trouble coping with it ; o )
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i have quite an association with buddhism including zen and tibetan, it’s all poison and i don’t care if people don’t like to hear that ! just an endless con i am afraid which can be quite difficult to penetrate !
hey i’m the 7th zen patriarch !!!!!!!!!!!
you are american and tho you think of yourself as a buddhist, you are in reality a “medical cultist” which is why you give the whole nonsensical pyschiatric scene the time of day !
re michael jackson, you can’t be a savant without being autistic, he’d have lasted longer if he ate better, you might complain about hormones, but wait till they leave, then it’s living death !
you can go in circles and you will i guess !
basically you don't have any respect for sense !
your “paranormality” is pure convention, amanda hockings is not so conventional, for instance she combines her work experience in group homes for the disabled and it's depersonalized treatement of the disbaled into her writing in a surprising way !
you are working hard to keep the lid on the box labelled normal that you have constructed to shield yourself in, side with the moron majority, but it’s not going to help you, they rip the flesh of vulnerable when they can and you are vulnerable !
be
a
much
better
writer
for
not
apologising
for
your existance
far from taking any advice she bailed !
“good luck with your life and I wish you the best in dealing with your autism.”
my reply !
good luck with being a phoney and bad writer !
karma
i guess
Andrew
is
exactly
voynich
something
nonsensical
done
for
monetary
gain !
religion
is
exactly
voynich
something
nonsensical
done
for
gain !
there's
something
about
this
sunset
over
the
rose
river
wrong
with
moment
and
non
moment !
but imo that's voynich because there's “non-moment”
yeah they strive for something futile!
wrong
with
phillips
very
but
doesn't
look
it
i
expect
you
to
be
deformed
or
something?
he's
sorta
got
the
male
model
looks
thing
a
bit
of
a
hunk
but
he's
quite
sensitive
and
intelligent !
lives
are
so
capricious
one
small
event
can
wreak/precipitate
so
many
changes !
i
think
in
the
end
there
is
no
local
identity
you
are
not
going
to
become
a
local !
the
female
orgasm
is
different
from
the
male
a
bit
more
sophisticated
and
more
intense
the reasons
for
this
are
stronger
bonding
and
to
overcome
the
reluctance
to
have
children !
7th
patriarch
approved !
The cave-bound dragon only needs to rest.”
there's
some
really
good
zen
stuff
on
the
web
beats
me why
all
the
zen nuts do nothing but regurgitate
dogen
and
nagarjuna
at
their
most
voy-
nich !
be
benign
accept
the
fact
that
people
are
arseholes
and
behave
like
that !
don't
be
benign
just
accept
that
people
are
arseholes
and
behave
like
that !
the
human
character
of
complexity
confidence
and
sort
of
dull
maliciousness !
human
character
of
complexity
confidence
and
dull
maliciousness !
'em
down
show
any
false
mercy !
you
must
think
i'm
a
fool
well
you'd
be
right
you
must
think
i'd
be
a
fool
well
you'd
be
right
i
don't
want
to
end
up
building
picchu
machu !
it's
not
a
nullist -
nihilist
viewpoint
except
in
the
ultimate !
i
am
not
claiming
am
approved
what
it
is !
what
it
is !
brad warner is a semi-talented gadfly who has latched onto something he thought was of value but is in fact penally empty and would be advised to look elsewhere but he won't of course !
to
be
out
of
that !
who
have
married
for
love
seem
to
be
happier
even
if
they
fall
out
of
love
you
can
tell
people
they
are
overconfident
but
the
nature
of
overconfidence
is
they
can't
see
their
skill
level
is
deficient !
you
can
tell
people
they
are
overconfident
but
the
nature
of
overconfidence
is
they
can't
see
their
skills
are
deficient !
always
a
woman
mad
enough
to
a
man
is
valuable !
always
a
woman
mad
enough
to
think
a
man
is
valuable !
there
is
no
other
way !
i felt that “loneliness” is better come across in the poem as surprise
that's generally why i think “untitled” is usually better
however in some instances it helps to prep with a neutral word or even a charged word depending
the title is more like the first word of the poem imo
was just thinking that poem sort of sums up the problem of being alive
stuck in an illusion of being part of a reality we are in fact a source of
we are the source of reality ourselves
so there's really only us, once we perceive that being alone is the truer state
eileen replies:
true
like ur homily about stars that cross paths but drift apart
you
look
at
an
iceberg
or
glacier
face
you
can
work
out
that
water
is
composed
of
atoms
with
different
bond
strengths
in
different
directions
because
of
the
way
ice
falls
off
in
shears !
is
recursion
literal
or
non
literal ?
both !
it's
interesting
i
have
a
silly
sentimentality
which
does
not
go
well
with
philosophical
inquiry
but
i
guess
that's
human
nature !
when
you
are
writing
you
are
always
dealing
with
that
edge
of
what
should
be
written
or
included
and
what
shouldn't
it's
that
edge
of
shouldn't
that
is
most
important
because
it
extends
you
and
i
find
a
lot
of
stuff
i
think
i
shouldn't
write
or
include
i
really
need
to
and
it
works
and
extends
me !
if
everything
is
sane
you
accept everything as
normal
and
don't
look
at
the
rough
edges
or
the
corners
that
don't
fit
opening
vast
holes
to
the
outer
universe !
everything
is
insane,
it
doesn't
matter
what
you
do
it's
insane !
he's
got
the
new
zealand
disease
power
before
profit
methodology
an
extension
of
just
in
time
so
successful
that
at
toyota
production
outpaced
research
and
development
leading
to
the
horrific
slew
of
design
problems
they
had !
