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From Our Babies

Lay down you head and rest Mom
Lay down your head my Dad
In your dreams I'll whisper
You should not be sad

I will e're be with you
Walking by your side
Deep with in your heart
My memories abide

The part you used to hold close
Now lives within your heart
As long as you remember me
We will never be apart

Know that when you're walking
Or, taking time to rest
I am there beside you
Because you are the best

With every breath you take
With every single sigh
Know you are with me
I am always right close by

Close your eyes and feel me
As my arms gives you a hug
No matter what has happened
It's you I'll always love
Shari
Donnie (drown /74), Kathryn-Mary (murdered /75) and Butch (Wm) (suicide /83)
Ya Ain't Gonna Win Unless you put up a good fight so don't give up hope any
day or night" -- John Henry"
If you think you can win, you can win. Faith is necessary to victory.
- William Hazlitt

http://www.justicewatch.com/kathryn/kathryn_mary.html
https://www.angelfire.com/ny5/childrenoftheheavens/heavensangelstheherbertchildren.html
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FAMILIESOFMURDERVICTIMS/

My Wish


If tears could build a stairway,
and memories were a lane,
I would walk right up to heaven
to bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken,
no time to say good-bye,
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness
And secret tears still flow,
What it means to lose you,
no one will ever know.


If I could have a lifetime wish,
a dream that would come true.
I would wish with all my heart,
for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back,
I know because I've tried.
Neither will a million tears,
I know because I've cried.
You left behind our broken hearts,
and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you!

A Beginning- By Susan Borrowman

One day you wake up and realize you must have survived it because you are still here, alive and breathing. But you don't remember the infinitely small steps and decisions you took to get there. Your only awarenessis that you have shed miles of tears on what seems to be an endless road of sorrow. One day, one glorious day, you wake up and feel your skin tingle again and you forget just for an instant that your heart is broken .. .and it is a beginning.

I know you're sad and are afraid
because I see your tears
I'll not be far, I promise that
And hope you'll always know
That my spirit will be close to you
Wherever you may go
Thank you much for loving me
You know I love you too
That why I could not say goodbye
As I end my life with you
So hold my heart just one more time
And let me hear you say
Because you care so much for me
You'll let me go today.

Your soul has flown to heaven above
Where you dwell in endless love,
But we are left down here, forlorn.

For we who loved you are now left
With arms and hearts so sore bereft
Of all the love you had to give.
We miss you every single day---
Your smile and all your loving ways---
We wanted you to always live.

Although your life was much too brief
And our hearts are filled with grief,
We're glad we had those precious years.
So we give thanks to God above
For sending you to us with love
And know someday He'll dry our tears.

For you still live, in heaven above,
And watch o'er us in constant love---
A love that never more will end.
And someday we will join you there
When heaven's joys we, too, will share
Forevermore with you, dear friend!

Saralyn McAfee Smith

Missing You


I surround myself with pictures
Some you made,
And some made of you
And I stretch across the wall of time
To touch you.
If I could speak some magic words,
Would you return?
My ears play tricks--
Is that your laughter that I hear?
Your smile, so bravely shining on my walls--
Could it not warm my countenance once more?
Your eyes, so bright,
Which always glowed with pleasure--
Could they not gaze upon my own again?
But no, your lovely eyes are forfeit;
They shine in others' faces now
And view a world
That is no longer yours.
And parts of you are scattered
Far and wide
And bring new life to other mothers' sons.
And though I grieve,
I cherish, too, the thought
That part of you lives on,
Though hidden far from me.


Saralyn McAfee Smith

 
 
 
 

Two Years Later

Am I different now?
Sometimes it seems that way--
That I have only one identity:
A mother who has lost a child.
Do others think of me that way, too?
The pain has seared my very soul
And left scars on my psyche.
Do they show?
Do strangers mark me as one who mourns?
I do sometimes laugh now,
But I never truly forget.
I remember HIS laughter
And wish I could hear it once more.
I feel guilty whenever I forget for even an instant
That he is gone and will never come back.
But my heart goes on beating
And my lungs go on breathing
And the days go on passing,
One by one.
I begin to take small pleasures,
Just baby steps at first--
Sights or sounds or colors or tastes.
But soon I am running again
And sometimes I even feel joy.
Then I remember
What joy HE always found in life,
Precious son, brother, friend----
Who ever thought your life would end
So suddenly one dreadful morn?
And then I don't feel guilty any more.
I can almost see him smile
As I finally learn this lesson.

Saralyn McAfee Smith