Rating: NC-17 Spoilers: Never Again, The Unnatural Summary: Equal parts verbose M/S banter,
parody, humor, angst, Mulder Torture, smut and, of course, da lurrrve. Part 1 of 4 "Scully,
do you believe in karma?" I squinted at the clock on my bedside table and groaned. 4:15 a.m. On a
Sunday, no less. But things could be worse. I stretched like a cat and slithered against my sheets. It felt good to
be lying in bed, knowing I didn't have to be anywhere all day. I took a nice long bath last night, slathered on lotion,
slipped into my silk pajamas and let my hair air-dry. It was a riot of red waves that made me feel like I was twelve
again - with braces and no worries beyond tomorrow's homework. I grinned unselfconsciously just thinking about what
I must look like. To be honest, I love these philosophical discussions of ours, no matter what time of the day.
"You know, Mulder, I may not subscribe to the doctrines of Buddhism or Hinduism, but I think the concept
that one's state in this life is a result of actions in past incarnations, and actions in this life can determine
one's destiny in future incarnations - it makes sense in a way. A lot more sense than some of my own religion's beliefs,
but..." I stifled a yawn "it's too early on a Sunday morning to start speaking heretically. Why do you ask?"
He ignored my question and pressed on. "Leaving aside the religious beliefs of other cultures, do you believe
that people get what they deserve? That one way or another, the universe corrects injustices, that eventually people
will reap what they sow?" "What you're talking about is not exactly karma. Do you mean 'what comes
around goes around'?" I asked. "I mean, 'live by the sword, die by the sword,'" he answered.
"Certainly incentive to 'do unto others as you would have done to you,'" I retorted. "Are
we hurling cliches again? Because if so, I prefer to 'stand idly by' in person, Scully. And bring some real ice cream
this time, ok? None of that non-fat Tofutti crap." I grinned at the memory of that perfect Saturday and
murmured, "I scream, you scream..." I heard his breath catch and his whispered "In my dreams..." but
I chose to ignore the comment and get back to safer territory. I cleared my throat and began, "Generally,
I do believe in that concept. I'd prefer not to wait until the next incarnation for justice, though, as real karma
suggests. I guess I subscribe to the concept of comeuppance in this lifetime." He chuckled softly at that. "But
Mulder, I believe that we create our own consequences. And sometimes it's not always in a form we would recognize as
chastisement, except in hindsight. It's like Dostoyevsky's Crime and Punishment - if we aren't penalized for the wrongs
we commit, we create our own penance." I heard his deep sigh through the phone. "You see, Scully, that
is so like you. I wake you up in the middle of the night to ask something totally out of left field, and you give
me an intelligent, respectful answer." I could hear his voice breaking now. "Not like me. I make a joke out of everything,
even things so serious that to joke about them would seem cruel. But the cruelty only occurs to me in retrospect.
I never meant to hurt you, Scully. Never." Okay. I sat up in bed. This was decidedly not going to be one
of our fun philosophical discussions. My sense of luxurious Sunday morning ease faded quickly. "Mulder,
what's going on? Are you all right?" He continued, definitely upset. "I am so sorry, Scully. I am
sorry I made light of your pain after Philadelphia. I made a joke about the tattoo... I made a joke..." he said in an
anguished voice. I pursed my lips and tried to calm my rising alarm. The last time Mulder was
in such a state...I don't even want to think about that time. "Are you at home, Mulder? I'll come over right now."
"No, Scully. No." He went on to say, "I'm okay. I just want you to know I am truly sorry for the callous
way I treated you." "Oh, Mulder..." I sighed and rubbed my forehead with the heel of my palm.
"You don't need to apologize. I know you use humor as a defense mechanism. And for every time your jokes were insensitive
to my distress, there were ten times your humor lifted me, saved me." I heard him groan. "Sc..." he
started to say something, then stopped. "I don't deserve your kindness, or your forgiveness." "Nonsense.
That was a difficult time for both of us. And it's all in the past. Let it go, Mulder," I urged him. "I
can't let it go. I tried, but I can't," he said. "You could have died and I made light of it." I could hear him sniffling
and it broke my heart. "That does it, Mulder. Stay where you are. I'm coming over." I leapt out of
bed and started pulling panties and a camisole out of my dresser. "Scully, before you do that, I have
a confession to make. I don't know how to explain this, but something happened to me. I...I'm injured." I
stopped dead in my tracks and my heart started pounding in my chest upon hearing these words. "Mulder,
how are you hurt?" "I don't know. I don't remember. I woke up yesterday morning in pain all the way
down my left torso and thigh. Nothing seems to help it." "You have been in pain for nearly 24 hours
and didn't call sooner?" I tried to keep the anger and frustration out of my voice. I could not focus on that right
now. "Describe the pain. And what have you tried to alleviate it?" "It burns and throbs. At first
it itched, but now it just feels like I am on fire. I showered and I put an ice pack on it. Scully, there's something
more I have to tell you..." "Save it for now, Mulder. I'm on my way." I was already dressed in khakis
and a white button-down shirt. "I'll be there as soon as I can." "Scully...wait." "What
is it, Mulder?" His voice broke again as he whispered, "Thank you for always being there for me when
I need you." "I'll be right over." "Not Exactly Karma" Part 2 of 4
"Okay if I turn on the lights, Mulder?" I squinted into his pitch-black apartment, eyes adjusting to the
darkness. I heard a grunt in the affirmative from the direction of the couch. We gasped at the
same time when the lamplight came on. I can only imagine he was surprised to see me without make-up and with curly
hair. I did not have time to put on anything but lipstick. I was shocked to see his eyelids swollen, his nose red,
and his face pale as a ghost. He was laying face down on the couch in gray sweatpants and a navy blue
t-shirt. The cordless phone lay on the floor near his left hand, which was hanging limp. I knelt down on the floor
by his head and looked into his eyes. I felt his forehead and ran my fingers through his hair. He was clammy, but
not feverish. No blood on him, as far as I could tell. "What happened to you?" I whispered. He didn't
reply. His eyes just watered, then he turned his head and buried his face in the pillow. I moved
my hands over his left shoulder, down his left ribs, but the moment I touched his waist he sucked in a breath. I could
tell the pain was intense. "I think we need to get you to a hospital, Mulder. Let me call the paramedics." He
stilled my hand reaching for the phone. "I'm okay, Scully." His words were slurred, his voice sounded weak. "I just
need a minute to regroup. The pain comes in waves about every 20 minutes." "Where does it hurt the
most?" I asked. "Your hip?" He nodded weakly. I carefully lifted his t-shirt and gently palpated his waist. "It looks
red and feels inflamed. I can see some bruising below your waistline, too. I need to move you in order to lower these
pants so I can examine you more fully. Can you lift up for me a bit?" He turned his head to look at
me and pleaded with his eyes, "Wait, Scully. Just give me a minute." I looked down at my lap, unable to bear seeing
his pain so raw and exposed. I cupped his cheek with my hand and wiped his tears away with my thumb.
"Let me give you a shot of Morphine, Mulder. I carry a syringe..." "No," he replied. "It is already
beginning to fade. I can feel it receding." His features slackened with the slowly increasing relief from his pain.
"Do you know how you got hurt?" I asked. He shook his head and whispered, "Not exactly." All
of a sudden, I realized that there was more than physical pain emanating from in his eyes. "Mulder, you aren't telling
me everything. What aren't you telling me?" He paused for a moment, as if trying to decide where to start.
"Scully, I don't remember everything. I know that I went to that little pub around the corner to meet an
informant on Friday night, after work. The informant turned out to be a young woman. She invited me back to her place
for a birthday party and I went." I tried to keep my face impassive, but I felt a stab of jealousy
in my heart. He continued, "We had a few drinks. She was hilarious. We were talking about extraterrestrials. That's
all I remember. The next morning, I woke up here, on my couch, in severe pain." I raised one eyebrow,
and motioned for him to elaborate. His voice seemed to be getting stronger. He managed to lift up on one elbow and
turn to speak with me. "As soon as the pain subsided a bit, I got up and took a shower. I was rancid
with alcohol, vomit and sweat." He winced when he noticed my lips twitch. "Sorry, Scully." I smirked
as I realized he was getting back to his usual self. "Don't spare me the gory details. I want to hear
everything. Were you fully dressed when you woke up?" I asked as nonchalantly as I could. "Of
course! It wasn't like that." At my doubtful look, he insisted, "Come on! I would know if I had been sexually active,
consensual or not. And I would tell you." I looked away, my silence meaningful. "Anyway, it was so
painful that I could barely stand in the shower, and the drops of water rolling down my back - they felt like icebergs
eroding the bottom of the sea, deepening fjords." Leave it to Mulder to be so poetic in his manner
of describing pain. "When I got out of the shower, I saw it for the first time." He dropped his
head back to the pillow then and sighed. "What? You saw what, Mulder?" "The tattoo."
"What tattoo?" I asked, not quite following. "The one of an alien head. On my left asscheek."
I stared at him dumbly for a full five seconds. Finally, I closed my eyes and looked down at my lap. My
lips were pursed very tightly. "Please tell me you're not laughing at my misfortune, Scully."
I opened my mouth and stretched my jaw to hide a smile. "To make matters worse, it says 'The Truth
Is Out Their' - spelled t-h-e-i-r. A typo!" he exclaimed. At this, the first crack in the dam emerged.
I discreetly brought a hand up to cover my mouth. "And the worst part is the alien is green. Green,
Scully! Any genuine abductee would know that aliens are grey," he wailed. That did it. The dam
burst and I started to giggle. "That woman, Sybil...I should have known she was up to no good when
she couldn't take her eyes and her hands off my butt all night," he muttered. I sat back on my heels and held onto
my stomach. "I tried going back there yesterday, to ask her what the hell she did to me, but the place
was all boarded up. A sign on the front door said 'Moved to new digs. In the meantime, check out the Haven Retreat.'
I think it's some kind of code. She mentioned that she hangs out with a little-known, but well-funded, quasi-militant
cult called the Duckies." After a second or two of silence, he said, "All right Scully, you can
stop laughing now. This is a serious matter. A federal officer has been attacked with a misspelled, incorrectly colored,
alien head tattoo!" "On his left butt cheek," I added. We both dissolved in laughter.
"Not Exactly Karma" Part 3 of 4 Our mirth lasted only a minute before his pain
returned in agonizing waves. I heard his gasp and saw him break out in a cold sweat again. "Mulder,
I need to get a look at this tattoo. I'll take a small sample of your skin if it's already peeling and some blood
for analysis. We'll go from there." He agreed with a grim nod. As I reached into my bag to get a specimen
case and a swab, I continued, "Frankly, I have never heard of spontaneously developing symptoms like this, but it
is conceivable that you are having an allergic reaction to the tattoo ink, or that there is some rare ingredient adulterating
the dye." My thoughts drifted to Ed Jerse. I felt a shudder of fear and regret. "I remember reading
reports of people with tattoos or permanent makeup who experienced swelling and burning in the affected areas when
they underwent magnetic resonance imaging. There also have been reports of tattoo pigments interfering with the quality
of the MRI image. The theory is that it has something to do with the metallic dyes used to create vibrant hues in
tattoo ink interacting with the magnetic force fields. Green dyes usually contain chromium oxide, chromium sesquioxide,
or copper salt derivatives," I commented. Before touching him, I attempted to assess his pain level.
Normally, my partner had a very high threshold of pain tolerance. Today was different. I swallowed, trying to tamp
down my fear. Stick to the science, I told myself. I had to focus. He needs me to be strong. "You
haven't been exposed to any high powered magnets since you got this tattoo, have you?" "Not unless
I was abducted by actual aliens after the tattooing, which wouldn't surprise me in the least. Nothing could surprise
me anymore, at this point," he muttered. I paused for a moment while deciding how to go about divesting
Mulder of his pants. I chose to lift his torso by sliding my left hand under his stomach while using my right hand
to pull down his waistband. His abs tightened under my palm and he groaned with something akin to pain. Then I repeated
the procedure to get his pants all the way down to his thighs. I repressed an audible sigh as I realized
that he wasn't wearing anything under his sweats. His bare bottom lay exposed to me in all its tight, muscular glory
as he lay prone on the couch. His skin was smooth and taut over the rounded globes of his butt, which I could just
picture my hands grasping as I urged him to pump into me deeper, harder and faster until he screamed, I screamed,
we all screamed for... What the hell? I snapped myself out of this shameful, lustful reverie.
My poor partner lay before me in massive pain and here I was fantasizing about his ass. My God. His
skin was marred by an angry red swollen area the size of an outstretched palm. In the left upper outer quadrant of
his buttock, there was a three-inch long green alien head sporting a big toothy grin. The words "The Truth Is Out
Their" were written below it in black typewriter font. I had to smile despite myself. Poor Mulder. "I
can see what appears to be a little peeling in the upper right corner of the tattoo, Mulder." I leaned in to get a closer
look. I pulled at his buttock gently with my hand as I lifted the corner of peeling skin with a swab. I could see
my breath disturbing the tiny hairs on his skin and goosebumps forming on his backside. His skin was a mere inch from
my lips. "I'm surprised it hasn't started peeling more. Are you sure this is already day two?" I asked.
He didn't answer. His eyes looked glazed. "Mulder?" I shook him. He looked startled, then gritted his teeth and said,
"I'm okay. Just get this over with, Scully." I grabbed some surgical forceps and pulled gently at
the corner of his tattoo. This time more skin pulled off. I lifted the loosened piece of skin for closer inspection.
Odd. It looked synthetic. I carefully placed it in the specimen container and looked at the area
from which it came. There was no pigment left. "Wait. Mulder, why is there no pigment left when I peel
off the top layer of skin?" "What do you mean there is no pigment left?" he asked in a groggy
voice. "I mean there is nothing but your clear skin underneath this tattoo. It is peeling clean off,"
I said. "In fact," I continued as I dropped the forceps and swabbed a little more vigorously at the spot, "it almost
looks like a fake tattoo. The kind you get free inside a cereal box." He didn't react with pain, so
I picked at the tattoo with my nail and sure enough - it came off in little flakes. The reddish color of his skin
was rapidly receding before my eyes and the swelling seemed to have disappeared miraculously. Mulder
lifted up on one elbow and twisted around to have a look. His gaze shifted repeatedly from his ass to my eyes and
back again. "It's fake?" he squeaked out in a disbelieving voice. "My medical opinion?
Yes." I looked at him with a raised eyebrow, waiting for his next move. "Then how do you explain...?"
he asked, still looking perplexed. "I don't know, Mulder. Temporary tattoos containing p- phenylenediamine
have been known to cause contact dermatitis, but nothing of this nature. Regardless, I recommend we get this fake
tattoo off as soon as possible." He merely nodded in befuddled agreement. "Do you have any baby oil
and a loofah?" I asked next, when it became apparent that I could not just lift the whole tattoo off like a band-aid.
"I don't know what a loofah is, but I have scented massage oil, I think." At my quizzical look he stated
rather defensively, "What? It's left over from a date ten years ago. I'm sure it's still under the sink in my bathroom."
I rose to get the massage oil and a washcloth from his bathroom. I returned to find him in exactly the same
position I left him, head in hands, laying prone on the couch with his pants down around his thighs, like some perverted
schoolboy tableau of corporal punishment. "Scully," he started, "I don't know whether to be relieved or
dismayed, but I am definitely ashamed." "Shush, Mulder. Let me get the whole thing off and make sure
you are all right before you start analyzing your reaction. There very well may be a physiological component to your
symptoms." As the last sentence left my mouth, I realized it revealed to Mulder what I was really
thinking: that his extreme pain was probably a psychosomatic reaction to the temporary tattoo, the circumstances surrounding
it, and his overwhelming guilt over the way he handled the Ed Jerse incident. I did not want him to think that I was
invalidating his genuine emotional response, if that was indeed what it was, so I hastened to add, "The fact is we
know nothing yet. I want you to tell me the minute you start feeling any pain return." "It's gone,
Scully. You and I both know the crisis is over," he said into the pillow, his head still in hands. "In fact, you can
leave now if you want. Thank you for helping me, but there is no reason I can't get in the shower and scrub the tattoo
off myself." Somehow the thought of leaving him now seemed wrong to me. "I want to
make sure it is completely removed Mulder. Also, I may as well examine you for other possible etiologies of the pain.
Did you notice any needle punctures or other unusual marks on your body?" "No," he replied. "I showered
again last night and really looked. I found nothing of the sort." "Regardless," I commented as I opened
the bottle of massage oil and poured some in my hands, "I'd feel better if I examined you. I know what to look for
in a body." I began rubbing the oil into his left buttock, rubbing deeply into the area of the tattoo
with my thumbs. He felt wonderfully firm. Again, the image of my hands on his ass, urging him home as I begged him
to enter me, to fill me up...it almost took my breath away. I shifted my legs and felt a throbbing wetness between
my thighs. In a tight, gravelly voice, he said, "I'm not dead, Scully." "What?"
I asked absentmindedly, lost in intensely sexual musings. He turned his head towards me. "You're used
to looking for needle puncture marks and signs of foul play during autopsies. If you keep this up and insist on examining
me, it won't be anything like a post-mortem. I am very, very much alive," he said, his eyes burning into mine.
He looked down at my tongue as it peeked out to lick at my lower lip, which all of a sudden felt very dry.
When he looked back up to meet my gaze, I had to turn away from the stark hunger I saw "Not Exactly
Karma" Part 4 of 4 I said nothing as I continued to rub the oil into his buttocks. The temporary
tattoo was lifting in bits and pieces, falling away like my rational defenses. I wanted Mulder with a deep carnal
desire I can't remember ever feeling for any man before. The washcloth rubbed away the last of the
ink, leaving nothing but a warm, red mark where my hands had been pressing into his skin. I began pushing his pants
the rest of the way down his legs when I felt his hand grab my wrist firmly. "Stop, Scully" he pleaded with me through
gritted teeth. I wouldn't meet his eyes. "Be still. I need to look at the rest of your skin, just
for a moment, to ascertain there are no other marks, Mulder." I loosened my wrist from his hand and began to gently
palpate the skin on his thighs and behind his knees. I pushed his pants all the way off and dropped them to the floor
as I looked closely at his calves, and ankles. Then I carefully explored his feet, noting nothing out of the ordinary.
His skin tensed everywhere I touched him and he was so warm that I began to wonder if he was running a fever.
I scooted back up to his waist, still on my knees by the couch, and lifted his t-shirt to examine his back.
As I leaned over to inspect the small red spot I thought I saw to the right of his spine, my breasts rubbed against
his back. I could feel his body heat through both my white cotton shirt and my silky camisole. It felt exquisitely
sensual. I wondered if he could feel my nipples harden at that moment. He squirmed against the couch and said "Jesus,
this is torture" under his breath. I heard it, as well as his accompanying groan. I raised his
shirt further to examine his shoulders and neck. He lifted his arms, allowing me to pull it all the way off, without
being asked. So I did. I sat back on my heels for a moment, admiring Mulder's muscular naked form
lying face down on the black leather couch. He wasn't even lifting his head anymore. He just laid there, forehead
resting on his arms, trying hard to control his breathing. As I reached out to touch his lower back,
he bucked into the couch instinctively. I wasn't sure if the instinct in question was to avoid my touch or to bury
himself into the softness of the couch. Somehow I suspected it was the latter and smiled at the thought. A
flush of feminine pride and power filled me suddenly. Nothing was more arousing than knowing Mulder wants me so badly
that he can barely control his body, but his mind holds me in such esteem that he would never dream of making a move,
no matter what I do to provoke him. The man's willpower was amazing. He loves me and respects me, I thought to myself.
I was playing with fire, but I felt completely safe. I ran my hands over his strong shoulders
and sinewy biceps, feeling for bumps and ridges. When I drew my fingers up his nape, into his hair and over his scalp,
he sighed heavily. I could feel his pulse pounding in his carotid arteries when I palpated his neck and collarbones.
I brushed my fingertips over his earlobes as I examined the area behind his ears. He shivered and whispered, "I don't
know how much more of this I can take, Scully." "Turn over, Mulder," I murmured into his ear in a
husky voice. He twisted his head slowly to give me a look of pained disbelief. "No way, Scully.
I, uh..." he cleared his throat and said, "I really think I'm fine now." "I have to make sure there
aren't any other etiological factors present," I reasoned, trying to give him my most professional, detached facial
expression. I'm certain my dilated pupils, parted lips and flushed skin gave me away, though. "You
don't know what you're asking, Scully. I don't think you realize. I don't deserve..." his voice cut off with a grunt
as I leaned in and whispered in his left ear again. "Hush. Just turn over, Mulder." I touched his
hip and back as I tried to help him turn. Suddenly he snapped. He sat up on the couch, pulling me off the floor and
up against him. Eyes wide, I stared into his furious gaze as he crushed me to his chest. We were limb to limb in an
awkward position, so I spread my legs and scooted up to straddle him. All the fury melted out of him as I touched
my forehead to his and moaned almost directly into his mouth at the pleasure and heat of our first full body contact.
I tried to crush my mouth against his, but he was having none of that. He pulled back after touching my open lips
only briefly with his mouth. Then he brushed my tongue with his own in one quick, but intensely erotic motion. I felt
an electric charge go through me, igniting me like a brush fire through drought-ridden hills. I moaned
and squirmed in frustration, wanting more, a lock of red curls falling over one of my eyes. Still, he held me away
from him, studying me with a look of pure animal possessiveness and determined masculine desire through those slitted
hazel eyes. How the hell did he turn the tables on me so quickly? I wondered. This was supposed to
be my teasing seduction! How typical of our relationship on every level, this struggle for dominance between two equally
formidable sides of one coin. Even in sex, we bantered playfully, trying to bend the other to our will, but secretly
pleased when taken by surprise at the strength of the other's position. It was time for me to wrest back control of
this sybaritic battleground. His eyes widened as I leaned back to slip off my shoes and throw
them to the floor. I unbuttoned my shirt slowly, shrugged it off, and dropped it at his feet. Then I stood up, unzipped
and slid off my khakis, leaning forward suggestively and dropping my head low to brush his naked thighs with my hair
as I stepped out of the pants. Then I flipped my hair back up and climbed onto his lap wearing nothing but my matching
white camisole and panty set. I sat on his thighs, careful not to come into contact with his penis yet, and raised
my arms to brush my hair back. I licked my lips and looked at him, like he was an expensive chocolate truffle I wasn't
sure where to taste first. Poor Mulder. Mute with shock, I thought mischievously. He was huge and
hard as a rock, so turned on that a small drop of liquid was already glistening on the tip of his penis. Let's see
what else I can do to blow his mind. Ever so softly, I kissed him open-mouthed on his Adam's apple.
His head fell back against the couch in ecstasy. I reached for him with my hands and slowly spread his pre-cum all
over the tip of his penis as I rubbed my hot, aching center against his thigh. All my agendas of dominance fell by
the wayside, as I felt his hands grab hold of my hips and then slide under my camisole to cup my aching breasts. When
he flicked both thumbs over my nipples, I felt a tremor of pleasure run down from their nerve endings to my center,
in a V-formation as instinctive and natural as migratory bird patterns. I bit back an impassioned cry against his
neck and nearly nicked him with my teeth. I wish I had taken my panties off along with my pants. I wish
they would magically melt away so that I could fill myself up with his hardness. I was so ready for him. I wanted
to sink down over him and ride him like a wild stallion that needed to be broken. Then I wanted him to flip me around,
grab me by the hips and pound into me from behind while staring at the tattoo of the ouroboros that started this whole
madness. The tattoo that was more about him than I will ever admit. I told Ed Jerse it was about the repeating cyclic
patterns I perceived in my life, but in retrospect I think it was more about recognition that I had finally found
the one with whom I could break the cycle. Mulder was different. I knew it from the start. We were
equals. That was what scared me. As much as I wanted to cease the repeating pattern, it was familiar and comfortable.
The prospect of something real struck fear in my heart, as it was unfamiliar territory. I rebelled out of habit, not
stopping to ask what I was rebelling for. Now I want Mulder to own it. Own the meaning of that tattoo like you own
me, Mulder. This seduction was driving me slowly mad. As if sensing my rising desperation, he reached
behind my hips and ran his middle finger lightly over my soaking panties from back to front and back again. I gasped,
arched my back and ground my hips into his hand, straining for more contact, but he continued to tease me with his
light touch back and forth over my clitoris. With my arms braced against the back of the leather couch,
my mouth on his neck, and my hips writhing in the air as he tormented my aching center, I felt powerfully feminine
in an almost exhibitionistic sense. I reveled in the rising tension of pleasure like an animal in heat. The contrast
between our normally cool intellectual intercourse and this portrait of debauchery was stunning. As
my lips and tongue caressed the thyroid cartilage of his laryngeal prominence, it bobbed up and down. When he moaned my
name, I felt the vibration from his larynx directly on my lips. For some reason this sensation was incredibly arousing.
It pushed me over the edge. I felt the tremors of my first orgasm take me over and surrendered to it, unaware that
I was gasping his name and God's. Mulder leaned back and stared at me, quaking with pleasure in his
arms, absolute reverential adoration shining in his eyes. After a moment he said, "My God, Scully. You are so incredibly
beautiful. Is this really happening or am I dreaming again?" My hooded eyelids lifted and I raised
an eyebrow playfully. "You've dreamed of having sex with me on your couch, Mulder?" He glanced
down at my throat and held my cross pendant for a moment before looking back into my eyes. "You are
the embodiment of every good dream I have ever experienced, Scully. Every square inch of my being resonates with love
for you." He continued unabashed, "This couch, my bed, your bed, the office, some nameless government
per diem motel, yes. But I dream of so much more than making love to you. Museums, mountaintops, Bavarian castles,
Egyptian pyramids, Roman coliseums, and churches...always churches...always holding your hand. I dream of so much
more with you than I can ever express in words." Tears filled both of our eyes at the heartfelt sincerity
of his unexpected admission. For all the honorable, dutiful, and self-sacrificing things I have
ever done in my life, or in any past life, I still don't know how I could have possibly deserved this man's love.
In the final analysis, I guess some things do not need to be understood in order to be believed. Among them faith,
true love, and this thing we call "not exactly karma." * * *
Authors' notes: The information about adverse
reactions to tattoos is accurate to the best of our knowledge. For more information about the rare but interesting
reports of MRI interference, see U. S. Food and Drug Administration Center for Food Safety and Applied Nutrition,
Office of Cosmetics and Colors Fact Sheet, November 29, 2000. Thanks to dw876, Morning Angel, Push,
and Obfuscate for their assistance. Sacred Heart resisted valiantly, but eventually gave into a little bit of smut.
Pghfoxfan is very persuasive. <g> Sacred Heart's explanation for the above: "I was drugged."
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