this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items
that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
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from friedrich
schiller's die kunstler ( the artists )
only through beauty's morning-gate, dost thou penetrate the land of knowledge
eating roadkill
you should use disposable latex gloves in gutting just about any animal and you have to watch for brodifacoum in the livers of anything that might eat baits containing it and also allow if the animal may have been poisoned and somewhat woosey before being struck !
for diseases, the condition of the liver and lungs are a good indicator, but feral animals will always carry things like toxoplasmosis, so the disposable latex gloves are essential imo : o)
karen de felice died on the 1st of december 2012
just searching on the net and found an obituary !
she was a tireless
worker and probably worked too hard !
the days pass............ : o(
she was autistic and 51 which is when the
hormones have gone in a major way and the big silence about the cause of death could mean it was suicide
she was a depressive personality, always doing things for others with horrendous viral exposure from the audience for her book and web site !
oh well karen , you will be remembered !
the early days of the enzymes and autism message board were fun and had a huge energy :o)
it might have been cancer, she stopped doing book promotion after august
her mother is still alive, must be an odd feeling to outlive a child !
the guest book obituary
comments of her mother
“ your wife and mom was the best ever! she fought every batlle she was asked to face with more intelligence, sensitivity, energy and effort than was more than humanly possible. even as a kid, karen was always trying to do good for others. she saw problems and did her best to solve them in a logical way. she'd take on situations that she did not really want to have to handle and did them well, even when the effort physically wore her out.
i mentioned recently that as a little kid, while other children played in a lively fashion: banging on pans, pushing musical toys, and making noise as kids will do, karen tuned out the chaos around her and sat, stacking her blocks with the same careful thinking she would later use in making decisions and carrying them out. her goals were altruistic; her methods disciplined.
karen knew what she wanted. when she was two years old, her major interest was for everything in her bedroom to be purple - from sheets to bedspreads to curtains. i washed purple sheets for the longest time! ”
karen de felice died on the 1st of december 2012
just searching on the net and found an obituary !
she was a tireless
worker and probably worked too hard !
the days pass............ : o(
eileen writes
( ed. on an ex showing a surprising aptitude and inclination for expressing
himself in poetry ! )
oh well another missed boat i guess
my
reply
it takes quite abit to get the boat unfortunately
some of which is plain luck
a funnier stand-up
comic than usual :o)
eileen
writes
i liked ur homily about god being the absence of image
one of ur best
it really struck a cord with me
i read it as no self image
that's wot it meant to me
absence of self if i can say that without sounding advaita ish
it's one of those several fold poems
i think
did u mean it as an image of god or was it more abstract and meant self image too and any image of life?
anyway that's how it struck me
a good one
it's sorta stayed in my mind
my reply
i think it's multilayer
eileen's reply
yeah me too
it's the best short and to the point one u've written for awhile if i may say
on that subject
cuts the zen advaita crowd to ribbons
with few words
wot can they say to that
all the transmission stuff laid waste
my reply
yeah that's what i have been thinking lately, the only way to deal with them is to publish one's own writing !
a poem by ju-ching ( dōgen's “ teacher ” )
the bell looks like a mouth, gaping
indifferent to the wind blowing in the four directions
if you ask it about the meaning of wisdom
it only answers with a jingling, tinkling sound
my reply
the bell so much more than a mouth gaping outwards : o)
changing directions of the wind blowing is intrinsic to its soul
if you ask about the meaning of life
only discordant echoes return
poem by
ju - ching
the bell looks like a mouth, gaping
indifferent to the wind blowing in the four directions
if you ask it about the meaning of wisdom
it only answers with a jingling, tinkling sound
my
reply
the bell so much more than a mouth gaping outwards : o)
changing directions of the wind blowing is intrinsic to its soul
if you ask about the meaning of life
only discordant echoes return
it's the tv in the bedroom universe , that's what's wrong with the place : o(
it's the tv in the bedroom universe, that's what's wrong with the place : o(
LOL, shakespeare the grain
hoarder !
my email to dr. jayne archer
it's obvious that shakespeare wasn’t the type of personality that was a writer !
sir henry neville is the best candidate , actually the certain author !
why do phd’s get things so wrong ?
you are only looking a fool : o)
regards
Andrew Levin
ed. no reply, that universal closed mindedness and negative reactivity of second and third rate minds ! : o)
no wonder she still thinks that shakespeare and not sir henry neville wrote those works : 0 )
eileen comments
really wot could she say to that andrew
my reply
like she was aware of the controversy and was looking further into it
eileen replies
and who the fuck are u that she owes u a reply
my reply
some-one who has generously given of his time to point out that for a shakespeare scholar to think that shakespeare and not sir henry neville wrote those works is a catastrophic life mistake : o)
eileen replies
u r really regressing if u expect someone to reply that their looking into ur perspective
my reply
it's didactic
eileen replies
a stranger who insults cripes andrew a legend in ur own lunchbox indeed
so wot
who cares
my reply
i didn't expect a reply, it is an exemplification of a certain type of closedness that academics are susceptible to
LOL, shakespeare the grain
hoarder !
my email to dr. jayne archer
it's obvious that shakespeare wasn’t the type of personality that was a writer !
sir henry neville is the best candidate , actually the certain author !
why do phd’s get things so wrong ?
you are only looking a fool : o)
regards
Andrew Levin
ed. no reply, that universal closed mindedness and negative reactivity of second and third rate minds ! : o)
no wonder she still thinks that shakespeare and not
sir henry neville wrote those works
: 0 )
flash forward 12 years and aruna has
damaged hips and knees : o) !
flash forward 12 years and aruna has
damaged hips and knees : o) !
there's a very famous recollection by eihei dōgen, one of the most extreme
missed boats
i have seen, dōgen probably caught TB on this china trip and died of it about 28 years later, what he needed to know was that the vitamin D2 in these
sundried mushrooms could have saved his life, but no, he got hung up in ideas of
“spiritual betterment
” and spent his later life pontificating in a useless way when he should have been sun drying mushrooms and eating them :o)
he also missed that the cook , by not wearing a hat was getting skin vitamin D and also infrared and light into the brain via being light piped down the skull sutures for neural growth factors which would have been very important at age 80? !
the above link is very good, gives the more mystical side of dōgen :o)
“ when i was staying at tiantong-jingde-si (ed. 1225 -7 ? ), a monk named lu from qingyuan fu held the post of chief cook
once, following the noon meal i was walking along the eastern covered walkway towards a sub-temple called chaoran hut when i came upon him in front of the buddha hall drying mushrooms in the sun
he had a bamboo stick in his hand and no hat covering his head
the heat of the sun was blazing on the paving stones
it looked very painful
his back was bent like a bow and his eyebrows were as white as the feathers of a crane
i went up to the cook and asked, “ how long have you been a monk ”
“ sixty-eight years ” he said
“ why don't you have an assistant do this for you ”
“ other people are not me ”
“ venerable sir, i can see how you follow the way through your work. but still, why do this now when the sun is so hot ”
“ if not now, when ”
there was nothing else to say
as i continued on my way along the eastern corridor i was moved by how important the work of the cook is ”
if matsuo bashō can die, so can i
:o)(
:
o
)
to all you so called zen master flakes out there who are to scared to reply to any of my many
criticisms of your fakeness, you are obviously not familiar with the put down in the old zen stories
the monk had no reply
well you fornicating arseholes are not monks but you have no reply :o)
that includes you brad warner :o)
honestly, why piss your life away on nonsense ?
hmm.............. a new extreme insult ; o)
go suck your mothers dick : 0 )
hmm.............. a new extreme insult ; o)
go suck your mothers dick :o)
if matsuo
bashō can die, so can i
brad warner writes
The rock bottom for anything in Zen is reality
my
reply
the
rock bottom for zen is unreality !
the soft top for zen is reality
the rockbottom soft top for zen and non-zen is unreality !!!
brad, do you ever get the nasty feeling you are talking absolute utter bullshit : o)
i'm halfway successful......... actually i am abig failure : o) : o(
:
o
)
i'm halfway successful......... actually i am abig failure
:
o
)
i'm halfway successful......... actually i am abig failure : o) : o(
i'm halfway successful......... actually i am abig failure
if bashō can die, so can i : o( : o)
if bashō can die, so can i
if bashō can die
so
can
i !
:
o
(
if bashō can die
so
can
i !
:
o
some things i cry over and some things i don't
:
o
(
some things i cry over and some things i don't
:
o
)
some things i cry over and some things i don't
somethings i cry over and somethings
i
somethings i cry over and somethings i don't
shiitake mushrooms particularly i often
irridate for D2!
look, the heart sutra is just a load of bullshit, it's about as meaningful as a christian hymn : o )
: o(
look, the heart sutra is just a load of bullshit, it's about as meaningful as a christian hymn : o ) (
:
o
)
look, the heart sutra is just a load of bullshit, it's about as meaningful as a christian hymn : o ) (
“ there was always
conflict between the administration and artists, ” said irina alexandrovna. “ i know because i used to work for the ministry of culture for 10 years. but this settling of scores has taken matters to a whole new level. i'm glad to be out of culture. i sell arms now, hunting rifles to people with licences. it's a much nicer job ”
swimming goggles work well for stopping
the lachrymatory agent and sulfenic acid called syn-propanethial S-oxide from onions getting into the eyes :o)
boiled eggs are best
slow cooked
the booze and poor eating
habits are taking
you , but very slowly
some
things
make
you
cry
and
some
don't : o)
:
o
)
some things make you cry and some don't
:
o
)
evan shaw writes
within the embryo, is the desire to see. eager to digest, what floats across the screen, we shape identity. awareness, the fundamental, grows indeed!
my reply
too clichéd evan ! there is a font of orginality and creativity you have yet to discover :o)
sip where sir henry neville/shakespeare and goethe drank and you will start : o)
the blindness of embryo's continues :o(
i'll tell you what god is
the
absence
of
image
making
!
:
o
(
i'll tell you what god is
the
absence
of
image
making
!
:
o
)
i'll tell you what god is
the
absence
of
image
making
what i am saying is a lot of what passes for zen ( 99.99% !) is fact heretical, it's a heresy !
what i am saying is a lot of what passes for zen ( 99.99% !) is fact heretical, it's a heresy !
what i am saying is a lot of what passes for zen ( 99.99% !) is fact heretical, it's a heresy !
the heart sutra is heretical, it isn't simply nonsense or even voynich, but completely
upside down BULLSHIT !
stuff prajna paramita up your arse you gautamid moron :o)
normally with translation, there's some bedrock of meaning you can orient the translation around, like i remember reading a sanskrit poem where the female lover complains of being unable to reach orgasm at the end of a bout of lovemaking and would the man please stop ! : o)
so that's an understandable real life situation and you can sorta get the translation mostly right,
however with pure nonsense or anti-sense (if you will : o) like the heart sutra there's no bedrock, just bullshit/nonsense start to finish so what a word like prajnaparamita means isn't simply open, but like all bullshit, circulates in endless twirls of crapola for ever and inferior minds (which are the vast majority !) get stuck (in) there for ever :o)
the heart sutra is heretical, it isn't simply nonsense or even voynich, but completely upside down BULLSHIT !
stuff
prajna paramita up your arse you gautamid moron :o)
i find it fascinating that the main hazard of working at macdonalds, apart from the viral exposure with the constant customer contact, is the free and discounted food becoming a significant part of one's diet !
says
a
lot
doesn't
it
:
o
)
i find it fascinating that the main hazard of working at macdonalds, apart from the viral exposure with the constant customer contact, is the free and discounted food becoming a significant part of one's diet !
says
a
lot
doesn't
it
:
o
)
buddha is a schizophrenic fairy tale, an obnoxious holier than thou wanker
:
o
)
buddha is a schizophrenic fairy tale, an obnoxious holier than thou wanker
:
o
(
“ an accused may be convicted of involuntary manslaughter by an unlawful and dangerous act or by criminal negligence ”
being impressed by samuel johnson's
quotes , i read up his
life on wikipedia and was interested to see how he tried for most of his younger life to make a living as a teacher or in one case running a school, but because of his torettes syndrome, was always thwarted by people's reaction
then
i
thought
real talent
never teaches : o)
ed. what i mean is that because he was real talent, he was never going to be successful at it : o) !
nice to read some
sense and not the usual teenage angst
on
the
vitamin D improves insulin sensitivity in obese adolescents
interestingly vitamin D itself ( 4000iu daily in this study:
article,
abstract ) dramatically increases insulin sensitivity in obese teenagers, the argument being that because vitamin D is fat soluble, in obese people it ends up in the fat rather than metabolized, so large doses are needed !
“ obese individuals need to take in about twice as much vitamin D as their lean peers to maintain sufficient levels
”
actually one thing i have learnt, it's quite healthy to delay things ! : o )
:
o
(
actually one thing i have learnt, it's quite healthy to delay things !
cant
means
repititious nonsense ! : o )
:
o
cant
means
repititious nonsense ! : o ( )
that's the weirdest
song when you actually listen to the lyrics ! : o)
tammy
wynette is actually quite gender blurred, low hormones in part cause she was never very well, i thought she was a man when i first looked at the video and perhaps the song has a more subtle meaning like she got by/survived/succeeded by standing by the man in her :o )
i think the lyrics are highly elliptical which is actually true poetry
that is , it leaves stuff out that makes the sense larger ! : o)
if you give it time there's a deeper meaning
i think it helps to understand she had a very difficult life
5 marriages, severe health problems, a painkiller addiction
it's multilayered
i think i found it weird because she looked so male in the video
his head shot up when i said in conclusion that
it reminded me of dead souls. vera also turned around and stared directly at me. peering intently at me, he asked,
why do you think that
?
the reason is of course that the central character in each story faces the same problem, that of how to bring infinite potential into reality in a way that is beneficial to them, the authors dilemma actually, and of course it's somewhat impossible and backfired ! ;o)
two very autistic authors btw : o)
his head shot up when i said in conclusion that
it reminded me of dead souls. vera also turned around and stared directly at me. peering intently at me, he asked,
why do you think that ?
usually these homilies just pop into mind amongst other things i am thinking
and then i think, that sounds ok, and write it down
sometimes it's responding to other people and what they have written
usually these homilies just pop into mind amongst other things i am thinking
and then i think, that sounds ok, and write it down
interestingly, lyme disease bacteria
utilise manganese instead of iron, so supplementing
magnesium to displace manganese may have utility !
not taking any magnesium and supplementing
manganese and getting worse may be some sort of rough but effective diagnostic for the disease !
well, even at our age, life has bits of the 5 year old in it : o)
well even at our age life has bits of the 5 year old in it : o)
life is ugly and behavior is ugly : o ) (
life is ugly and behavior is ugly : o ) : o (
life is ugly and behavior is ugly : o (
life is ugly and behavior is ugly
why are humans such a talentless stupid bunch of self confident boors?
that's exactly what it takes to be motivated to breed, literary talent doesn't breed at all, it's the opposite ................
jumping
monkeys
any sort of quality thinking about life is an artifact, a unique combination of traits risen from the breeding process in an unusual combination
to
be
discarded
on the pile of life :/; o (/)
david foster
wallace was a second rate writer and thinker, only the brain damaged make a fuss of him !
he could have done better without the anti-depressants, drugs and alcohol but even so................. inferior is inferior and of course attractive to the inferior :o )
a sort of talentless charles bukowski i guess?
updated a late december 2011
roast
of lisa cairns ! : o)
oddly, except for the mad
chelating mums i have yet to see anyone roast me : o ), cat scratched their fingers :o) ? lol
what does
asperger's syndrome look like in
women ??? : o)
politics is endless ego's i think !
it's interesting how a woman leader throws them because women are used to handling male ego's
ed. re: julia gillard and the 21st march 2013 kevin rudd leadership spill fiasco !
eileen
replies
Lol
some do
it's really not unlike dealing with a boy child
men don't really grow up if i can say that
not saying women r not the same
all crazily autistic/aspergerian if you ask me :o)
it's actually quite strange
:
o
all crazily autistic/aspergerian if you ask me :o)
you can't say anything on facebook that's so stupid that you won't get applause and followers for
there's nothing you can say on facebook that's not so stupid that you won't get applause, followers and likes for, provided it conforms to the moronic ideals of the masses
there's nothing you can say on facebook that's not so stupid that you won't get applause, followers and likes for, provided it conforms to the moronic ideal of the masses
there's nothing you can say on facebook that's so stupid that you won't get applause and followers for
if someone's suicidal there's no bottom line
you can't constrain them by saying “well you are just making things harder for yourself ”
they are already half blurred with death and a more comfortable existance just prolongs the agony in their view ! : o(
a correspondent comments
yeah i know
i've been like that
words mean nothing
other people mean nothing
life means nothing
love is a burden at those times
it feels an obligation not wanted
whither thou be, when?
by evan shaw
a professor walks to lectern, “ sailing over ages, the oars of happiness have been tossed left and right. aristotle said virtue, epicurus said pleasure, and abraham maslow said to actualize your potential. but how can there be a recipe for this soup? sure ingredients will be different, but the general cooking process has steps to be followed. realize your way has its own, integrating it into something you can impart, that's the trick. ”
prof. made across stage and looked at student a couple rows back, “ dr. mlk raised a question to his congregation one morning, are you going to be an anvil or a hammer? who is going to mold? ” scanning the crowd, “ each day we are faced with options; what we wield….by intending energies, things begin to take shape. to pull the distant closer, use your lasso, foresight. when those glaring hints in your backyard dominion...do those still charge you? where did these come from? grasp patience. ”
pulls out blade and spins it on tip, “ to slay dragon, imagine what can happen ”
my
reply
don quixote slayed windmills : 0 )
you will get more cynical as you get older !
