1:01am

At the beginning of this weekend, the plans were: go bowling, go out with Steph, Carolyn and her man, and a couple other people, go to Carolyn's and watch movies, and then go home. Well, plans sort of changed...

To begin the weekend, I bowled good in my Friday Night Men's League (177, 169, 264 = 609), so I was happy about that. Gomer stayed at my place for the night, which was cool. Steph and I were on the phone all night again (like we have been for about a week now)

Morning rolls around, and mom asks me how I'm getting to Barrie. I, of course, have no idea, so she gives me money for the bus. BONUS! Weekend just keeps getting better and better. I know already I can't stay at Steve's or Boyko's place because the parents are all gone to a tournament. That's fine. So I go bowling Saturday in the YBC. Bowled good again. (218, 181, 202 = 601) Boyko kissed me! (I'm still wondering what the hell for...lol) Plans are working out well so far. Evan, Kelly, and I bowled 3 games afterwards. Then came time to find out what was going on for the night.

3 of us went out to Pharaoh's Pita and ate, and then I call Carolyn to find out she's in shit and can't come out. Plans have changed. Good weekend just went sour. BUT...Steph is still at McDonald's waiting for me. I got a lift over to McRonchie's, and met Steph there. After some discussin, we finally got our agenda: go to a friend's house and just watch a movie. Just the two of us.

I'm having a tough time putting into words how I feel about tonight. I mean...we just sat on the couch, watching Stir of Echoes, and snuggling together. We kissed, we cuddled, and enjoyed each other's company. Tonight was one of the most satisfying nights I've had in a long time. Just being with Steph made me glow. I was truly happy when I was in her arms.

So what happens now? Do Steph and Rug become a hot item? Do thet decide to part their separate ways? Well, let me answer that for you. Steph and I are going to be together for a long time. We care about each other so much, it's unreal. I mean, after tonight, we realized we cared for each other more than we both originally thought.

Now the fear of falling in love kicks in. I mean, everytime I fal for someone, they leave me. It hurts. It really does. So should I risk it all on this one? Well, whether or not anyone agrees with me, I'm going to. Steph is so worth it. She makes me feel like a king. When I'm around her, I'm on a high. I'm on the top of the world. Nothing can go wrong. There are no problems; nothing wrong with home, or school, or friends. It's just her and I, happily embracing.

April 1st seems like decades away, and I just wanna shout to the world that my girlfriend is one-of-a-kind, and I am truly blessed to be with her.

I now have a reason to live again...

Sincerely Yours,