Detailed Information on: CAUSES OF SUICIDE!

Suicide is very prominent within our society today. It has many faces, sometimes
deliberate with full consciousness, such as slicing ones throat or wrists, taking
overdoses or jumping off bridges.
Other means are overdosing on party substances, getting completely drunk then
driving a car and smashing into something or someone, becoming inebriated and
drowning in one's own vomit,along with many others.
Most look upon this sickness in total confusion as to why anyone would wish to do
such a thing to themselves.
We at LoveCry, have been studying and searching for these answers for many years
now. Many of our people are deeply inflicted with this illness. We have found the
main reasons people would make such a decision.
Below are a few of the reasons people decide to kill themselves. We are unable to
give all the reasons in detail within one article so we have outlined the most
important ones in this essay and will print more about this subject within the
next few months.

The Leading Reasons For Suicide Are:

"Head Games and Mind Control"

Psychological Emotional,and Sexual Seduction
"The Sex Game!"
The Sex Game is a sexual head game that seduces it's victim and wraps him or her
into a lustful headspace which alludes both perpetrator and victim into believing
they are in love. They are actually in lust energy which lasts approximately 72
hours after the visualization games.
Lust energy, in the first stage feels warm, safe loving and desirable. The second
stage of the game are feelings of anger, rejection, deep piercing pangs of pain,
depression, self disgust and self hatred.
"These feelings lead to SUICIDE".
This game was first introduced to the world by a renowned magician who was known
as Alistair Crowley. Alister's work was primarily focused on sexual seduction and
emotional or energy vampirism.
There are three main ways of playing this game. The most common used is simply
romantically day dreaming of another, the dreaming becomes sexual and before the
perpetrator knows it he or she is having a sexual visualization with the victim.
This dream, {unknown to the victim} is most defiantly effecting the victim's
emotional balance and the victim is being emotionally pulled towards the
perpetrator.
One example I may share with you is when I was twelve years old, one of the
popular boys in the town where I lived wanted to have sex with me. I wanted
nothing to do with him at all.
This boy had been reading up on Alistair Crowley's magic spells of seduction and
decided to see if they worked. Well he managed to have sex with at least 10 of the
younger girls in town within the matter of one month.
My sister was one of them. He had all of them fighting with each other and these
girls had been very good friends. Then he started on me.
I knew nothing about what he was up to and was sucked in. Two days after he had
his way with me, and the ecstatic energy was replaced with angry, depressed,
suicidal feelings, I tried to kill myself.
The emotional state I was left with was one of being raped, even though I had only
given into seduction. The other girls were in very depressed states as well.
Our perpetrator, began to take abusive amounts of street drugs, {L.S.D., Speed,
and P.C.P.}. A few months later he began to act like a total mental vegetable and
was admitted to the Whitby Psychiatric Hospital. No one has seen him since.
The second way the sex game or sexual seduction is done is when the seducer knows
what he or she wants and how to manipulate it to happen.
"TOTAL INTENT!" {in this game the perpetrator. wants to have sex with his victim,
or change the victim's sexual desires as in the case of my sister and many other
street kids.}
Have you ever been turned on by someone, you had absolutely no interest in, and no
idea why this person all of a sudden had your complete interest? Well the sex game
with total intent will do that to it's victims.
This game most times produces complete emotional mind control. The seducer focuses
on his or her victim, at the same time masturbating and visualizing the entire sex
act in complete detail. The energies and thoughts from the seducers masturbation
sends the seducers sexual energy and arousement to the victim and the victim feels
as though they are truly having sex. The more vulnerable the victim is the more
heightened these sexual feelings are. This causes the victim to be totally
entrenched in the lust energy and the seducer to maintain a large space within the
victim's mind. The victim becomes sickly obsessed.
This particular game can be played on anyone who is open and willing to get into a
sexual relationship. Some of the strongest and smartest people I know get caught
up in this one without knowing what truly hit them.
My sister {who had always been very straight and crazy about boys, since her very
early teens}, began to work with some women who were lesbian. Of course, having
the same up-bringing as myself, where as it was continually drilled into our heads
that all are equal and we should accept all walks of life without any judgments or
racism, my sister trusted these women, and may I say, my sister is no weak minded
woman. To say the least, she knew the score. She was seduced. For the next four
years my sister was torn between being lesbian and straight. Her emotions were all
over the place. High one minute and down to suicide the next. I worked on this
with her, and helped her to figure it all out, until finally she got a grip on
the situation.
Today she is a happily married woman to a male and there is no trace of the
Lesbianism she had been so deeply entrenched within.
The third way the Sex Game is played is also with
"TOTAL INTENT TO CONTROL or DOMINATE!"
the situation and the parties involved to create a scenario that completely
satisfies the seducer.
In one of my group therapies I met a woman who had the sex game played on her from
the age of seven by her father. This young lady wanted to acquire a complete
family using me as her mother. She would masturbate visualizing me with the father
of her choice, {almost like she was watching a porn flick in her mind,} and seduce
us both to each other
then to her.
We, {both victims} at first truly believed the other was interested in a
relationship. We actually fell for it and got extremely messed up. We found
ourselves in one of the strongest love/hate relationship going I have ever
witnessed. It was hell. I was in physical pain and emotional torment the entire
time. One minute I wanted to make love to this person and the next I wanted to
kill him or myself. He was in love one minute and wanted to kill the world and all
in it the next. In the end I figured it out and lambasted the young lady who was
playing the game. My co-victim ended his life. "SUICIDE."

"The Effects Of Gossip On The Emotions"
"The Second Leading Reason for Suicide!:

Gossip has been done since the beginning of time.
Essentially Gossip is talking about any person who is not in the presents of the
conversation, that is taking place. Most people seem to think that Gossip is
harmless. Not So. I personally have had many horrid experiences that started with
Gossip.
One of the memories I have will explain why and how Gossip causes suicide is as
follows:
About fifth-teen years ago I lived in Durham Region. The community was very close
minded. Everyone knew everyone. I was situated within the Musicians community of
the region. A friend of mine and I had a plan to record a song, (this song being
the same project we at LoveCry are still trying to get produced, Love's Not A
sin). My friend would provide the band and I would provide the funds.
We finally got all the arrangements made and started to pull in the people we
needed to get the job done. We were collecting support from everywhere.
One of the other musicians, who had had a crush on me since I was a child, became
very jealous of the situation my friend and I had created and he began to say some
very sick, disgusting things about myself and my friend.
People began to treat us like garbage and many walked out of the situation. The
project became so dirty that we had no choice but to abandon it.
Meanwhile the emotional pain from hearing the things that were said, and the fact
that our special project was destroyed by these untrue words, was devastating for
me but even worse for my friend. We had to watch our work being trashed due to
things that were said and were not true at all. Our lives were mocked, laughed at
and taunted by the person responsible for the gossip and his believers. My friend
and I were horrified and emotionally ripped.
My solution to this was to move to Vancouver, and I did. I left Toronto airport on
Saturday night.
My friend, who had been one of the most popular personalities in the area, had to
go on living in this small town that now looked down upon him as if he were the
dirt of the world. I felt my friend was hurting. He was on my mind non-stop, so I
called him as soon as my plain landed in Vancouver. I was reassured that things
were O.K. I tried to go on with my plans but I continuously received heavy sad
feelings coming from my friend. I called again and again. This time no one could
find him anywhere.
By Wednesday morning, when I woke up, the sadness was deadly. I called back home
to see if I could find my friend again. No answer. I decided to get on a plain
back home. When I arrived I went straight to the bar, (Rosie's), where my friend
had a house gig. He was not there. Everyone was worried. No one had seen him in
days. We all began to search for him.
The time at this point was 10 PM. My friend was found in a motel room at 9 AM the
next morning. He had shot himself in the chest, right next to his heart and died
shortly after he reached the hospital. The doctors reported that my friend had
committed suicide.
This friend I speak of is very well known in the music community of this country
and the shock to all was horrid and devastating. I doubt very highly that Durham
Region will ever truly get over this memory. He was one of the best keyboard
players in the area and made many people happy throughout his career. A major loss
to all. "SUICIDE due to GOSSIP." Gossip destroys people's lives and this leads to
suicide. Gossip is abuse.

"Covert Messages or Double Messaging!"
"The Third Leading Reason For Suicide!"
Covert messages are double messages. By that I am saying, the person giving the
message is saying one thing, example: "you look very nice today," when at the same
time the message giver is really thinking, "you look like hell."
The person giving the message is lying about the way they see the person they are
talking to. This confuses the listener and helps them to believe that the message
sender is caring about the listener when in fact the message giver is hating the
listener.
Another example is when a person tells you to call them, they are not home to
answer the call, you call back, they get angry because you are calling so much.
You get more and more confused as you have no idea why this person is so angry as
they told you to call. The confusion allows your mind to be controlled .
During the confusion the message giver has an open, vulnerable mind to climb into
and begin to control. The more the listener believes the message givers lies and
double messages, the more control the listener is handing over to the message
giver. After a while the listener becomes so confused that his/her emotions become
unbalanced, example: easy to offend, bursts of anger, crying spurts, and
depression. This all can and does in many cases lead to suicide.
One of the best examples I have of this is when I was still a part of the
entertainment business. I was single and I met a guitar player who had noticed
that I was very good at what I did. This person seduced me right into marriage. He
told me how much he loved me and that he would be there for me and care for me
forever. Of course I was taken right in and began to plan our life.
He was lying about his undying love. His love for me only went as far as my
talents and looks. When he realized that I took marriage very seriously and was
not about to involve myself with a heavy music career until our marriage was on
track, he made it more then clear that he was only married to me in order to
become a rock star and that I was his way to get there.
I was devastated and very suicidal for quite a long time. Thanks again to my
friends and therapists I made it through.
"Double or Covert messages lead directly to Suicide!"

PART THREE OF LEADILNG CAUSES OF SUICIDE!
"Intimidation"

"The Effects Of Threatening On The Emotions"

Intimidation is when the thoughts, actions or words place heavy fear from one person to another person. For example, when a mother say's: "daddy will hit you for that when he gets home," to a child, the child then becomes fearfull of daddy. The child is then intimidated into behaving the way mom wants him/her to. This is mind control.

A few years ago I met a young man. This man was strong, decent and had every reason to live. One thing in his life was terrifying him constantly. He began to tell me that there was another man who was constantly threatening his life in various ways. My friend tried all he could to stay out of this persons path and not to offend him in any way.

The threats persisted. Last spring my friend hung himself in his washroom. No aparant reason. His family had no idea that my friend was feeling suicidal at all. He hadn't mentioned that he wanted to die to me, but then fear causes us to do strange things at times. Then I remembered the man threatening my friend and put the situation together. My friend could not take any more of the man's intimidation. Waste of a good life.

Then we come to the school yard bullying. Kids' learn intimidation from home, movies, music, society and authorities. These days everyone is using this around them and on them. Then they go to school and do the same on their classmates.

Ask yourself how many kids' you have heard of or know personally that have either been killed by school yard bullies, shot or knifed down or have been living in fear of this, run to the streets {which is a slow form of suicide,}and tried or suceeded to commit suicide, beaten, shot or stabbed to death.

Most don't realise that to intimidate a person is placing them in a deep fearfull state that does not end just because they left the room. The intimidated person carries that fear where ever they go. This many times leaads to suicide and more.

"Brainwashing"

"The Effects Of Brainwashing On The Emotions "

Brainwashing is when one tries to implant their way of thinking, beliefs, thought or logic into another persons mind. Commercials, on tv, radio, bill boards, posters, ect. are all forms of brainwashing. Anyone who does not have strong faith, beliefs or convictions within their own life can be brainwashed very easily. No matter how strong your mind is, there is always a vulnerable spot to link into. Any fear, anger, jealousy ect., are what I call trigger points, the perpatrator can use.

One situation I remember of heavy duty brainwashing was when I first started to build LoveCry. Some of the people downtown Toronto, feared me. I have a large scar on my face from radiation poisoning. The radiation poisoned my blood and entire system. Half my face was covered with boils that spread and scared me.

Also I have a very strong pressants and do not back down form the truth. This was not appreciataed as many who feel have so much to hide in this society. Especially those whom are abusive towards others most of all children. I see abuse and I call it! This kind of strength fears people.

People made up all kinds of imaginative stories of how my scar happened to appear on my face, that LoveCry was nothing but a hoax, and that I was an imposter out to manipulate everyone. The rumors grew, with more and more fear until it became hate.

Their fear of me, started many scary stories and many people became brainwashed, believing these lies. I was hurrassed, my phone was tapped, my home and myself was watched for a very long time, constantly put down, rejected by friends, and treated like trash by the very people I was helping. When they finally asked me what truly happened these same people were very ashamed, as the rumors ended in myself being beaten, stabbed and pepper-sprayed in a park and left for dead.

During all of this I felt suicidal every time I heard another of these stories, or recieved another threatening phone call or letter. Of course thanks to my friends and therapists I am very much ok today.

Another example of brainwashing is, when I was a child my father and mother repeatedly told me how stupid, ugly, crazy, retarded, rotten, and unlovable I was, {along with many other degrading put downs}. As I grew and heard these things every day I began to believe them completely. I had no confidence, self-esteem or self worth. I was brainwashed to believe that I was the worst monster imaginable. I was in horrid pain and hatred of myself, in every way. I tried twenty-nine times, during those years to kill myself. It was a nightmare.
Thanks to my friends, sister Chris and therapists I never feel that way today and have not for many years.

Brainwashing is another lead into suicide.

"Humiliation"

"The Effects Of Humiliation On The Emotions"

Humiliation is when one or more people, openly put down another in order to make them feel weak, therefore rendering them easy to manipulate and ultimately control. Humiliation is commonly used in mind control.

We have all been victims to, and witnessed someone being humiliated in our everyday life. Most of us, if not all, have humiliated someone, somewhere.

A few good examples of humiliation are:

As a child I thought and acted very differently then the other kids I grew up with. I was constantly being teased, put down and taunted everywhere I went, by family and friends. I found myself in tears, emotionally distrot, a great deal of the time. They humiliated me until I became almost silent out of the embarasment, and as I grew to puberty I became suicidel. This continued until I was twenty-nine years old and I repeatedly tried to commit suicide during this period of time.

I knew a boy when I was in my first year of high school. His father was constantly humiliating him. He was very timid and scared to speak due to this. He wanted to date a particular girl to prove to his father that he was not a looser. This girl was the daughter of a friend of the boy's father. This girl turned him down. He was devastated. He went home very upset. His is father found him on his bedroom floor the following morning. He had shot himself in the head. He was barly sixteen.

Humiliation causes mind control. If someone humiliates someone enough the victim will stop whatever they are doing so they will not be humiliated again. I have seen this a great deal in what was serposedly loving relationships such a marriage. The wife or husband will constantly put down the other down, in front of their friends or other family members. He or she then ceases to do whatever they were doing. Humiliation is therefore a form of mind control. The control lasts as long as the victim fears this embarasment, and wishes to look good in the perpetrators eyes. It ends when the victim realizes and chooses to face that fear and learns to not take seriously what others think of them. Never the less, as long as embarasment is being used it is mind control. Servere humiliation, and the mind control it creates, can and has lead to many suicides.

With myself and many other suicide survivors, ended up at a point of totally believing the negative picture that others had been painting of us and tried to kill ourselves. Some made it and others of us are still alive to tell the story. Humiliation Kills!

"Psysic Abuse"

"The Effects Of Psysic Abuse On The Emotions

Psychic abuse is a tough one to realise, because it cannot be seen with the naked eye. I was searching for answers when I ran into some books by Doctor Joseph Murphy. He set me straight right in the very first chapter entitled: The Power of Your
Subconscious Mind. Doctor Joseph Murphy explains how each thought we think produces a reaction, in our bodies, and in the bodies of those whom are closest to us. Wether this thinking is possitive or negative.

I had learned from prior relationships that things like judging, lying, cheating, manipulating, destroyed the closeness of the relationship and produces anger and sometimes hate. My husband had not learned these lessons. He judged me serverly. As well he was continually thinking negatively towards himself, myself, others and everything. My husband was totally possessing and isolating me. I however was trusting him not to do these things, {found I was trusting him more then I trusted myself}, I began to hate myself as it continued and I found myself hiding in our home and seeing no one but him. I began to isolate myself, even from him and became very suicidel. As time passed I grew to be very tired, lathargic, sickly, depressed and eventually developed breast cancer.

Upon reading one of Dr. Murphy's books I began to realize that my relationship with my husband and not facing the truth about it was highly contributing to the growth of this disease. This relationship produced a toxic atmosphere. I began to believe the feelings I was receiving from him as apposed to the words he was speaking and saw that he did not truly care for me but rather was going through the motions and speaking total lies. He was consumed with resentment and self hatred.

My cancer sergeon, Dr. MacKenzie figured out what the problem was after a time. He always felt uncomfortable when my husband was around, but when my husband was not pressant at my appointments the atmosphere was less strained. He could feel my husbands negativity towards me. He urged me, very suttily to protect myself from this hatred, and to defend myself if need be.

I was choisless but to have several operations to remove the cancer. Every time we were sure it was all gone. It seemed very strange that each time I found a new lump, it was after a long period and exhausting series of battles with my husband.

Doctor MacKenzie suggested marriage councelling. We did this but, my husband was not truly interested and I ended up going to private councelling. During this I began to grow stronger and could clearly see what Dr. MacKenzie was trying to tell me.

I also decided to go back to school to get my grade twelve. My husband became very jealous and things only worsened.

Finally after another operation and radiation Doctor MacKenzie suggested I leave the marriage. After thinking long and hard I finally made the decision to leave the strained situation. No more cancer has grown from that day.

This also helped me to become even more determined to keep working with the information I found in Dr. Murphy books. He was right and what had been happening in my life due to the negative energy produced by my husbands thoughts were actually killing me, in a very slow ugly way. Staying within the marriage and not facing the truth about the toxicidity, causesd by negative thinking, is a form of suicide caused by self hatred due to psychic abuse.