When I was a child I was so full of dreams this was before any abuse to me did start and shattered all of my dreams for me. I was only very young but dreams I did have them all. Dreams are what childhood should be full of as far as I am concerned children should always be full of dreams and sunshine that is what being a child is all about.

When I was a child and oh so full of pain I would take my dreams out to look at them over and over  again to try and bring me comfort for my pain. My dreams I did have I learned pretty fast not to share or divulge to anyone any hopes or dreams I did have. Why was this so? because if I ever did show my dreams or hopes they were always shattered with yet another blow deep in my heart. So I learned when I was very very young to keep my dreams and hopes all hidden away and never to let them show for anyone to see. When I remember my childhood with those brutal nuns it truly does break my heart especially all of the abuse I did have. I would often think during my many days of dark despair if only my dreams could just become reality for me and then my dreams would be fulfilled. My dreams and my hopes were nearly always shattered when I was only just so small all because of those evil sadistic nuns. 

After I was battered again and again when I was left all alone I would take out my dreams and hopes that I had hidden in like a little box just for me to try and bring me some comfort from my pain. I would look at all of my dreams and hopes very carefully and then I would choose one. When I looked at the one I had chosen it would help me with my torment and pain and would bring to me some comfort just to think about my dreams and hopes it would take my mind away from the sore pain and the abuse I had. It was so hurtful and very cruel to have all of my dreams hidden away from view that is just not what childhood dreams are supposed to be...