What are these feelings I have deep inside of me? They make me feel all upside down I wish I knew how to handle them to lift my sad frown.I find it so difficult to do they just leave me feeling so confused so what can I do to help me? feel better about myself?, I only wish I knew.

My feelings that run amok deep inside of me when I try and work through my childhood make me feel so torn apart I find it so difficult to know where to start. All because of my past all the old feelings keep coming back to haunt me of my vile past. I wish it would become easier with time but it still cuts me up deep inside. I don't want to remember how cruel my life was when I was a child but I know I have to work it through even though I find it really a difficult thing to do.

I just keep thinking perhaps it may make me feel differently if I perservere and keep working on them. I do wish my childhood was not so full of doom and gloom and such a miserable time I spent at Nazareth House with those blasted NUNS.

I just wonder what on earth have you nun's have done to me because every time I think of you I feel so blue WHY is this? it just leaves me totally full of emotion's that are very raw running riot throughout me.

I just don't know what I should do to make it feel better for me I find it all so very hard for me it just leaves me with total confusion and anxiety, I wish I could just talk with someone who knows the answers to help me through to understand the deep emotions, scars that are in me I really just don't know what I should do and it leaves me so sad because what I really want is just to begin to feel happy and live my life without all of so many childhood bitter memories I have of you.

I just don't know who to turn to for help I only wish I knew what to do that would help me feel right, I just want to feel free and move on with my life but the feelings inside of me just will not leave me be just leaving me feeling OH! so torn

WHY?

So confused am I what do I do? just to make me feel free and right for me so that I can be happy for me and enrich my life instead of this dreadful blight...