Thank you Felice my special internet friend for your help with this one an idea by you and I thank you...

The nuns they were all in Black.
You never ever saw them in the dark. But through my fear I just knew when they were near. I prayed they would pass me by and not stop by my bed but my prayers were never ever heard. I prayed PLEASE do not stop at me I am only me.

I prayed PLEASE do not pick on me again I don't think I can stand it again and again. How many nights was I their victim too many that I remember again and again. OH!! how I wish I did not remember it all it brings me such anguish and oh so much pain. It only leaves me feeling so very small again and the feeling of being so helpless and all again all those memories are so painful for me and the feelings of being oh so sore.

The many nights I had to stand out side their room all alone and so very scared in the dark and the big grandfather clock booming boom boom I was so full of fright in the night. I felt so very frightened and all alone. Oh! how I wished I could be sent home to have love and comfort shown with love and someone holding me tight. My life in their "care" was such a misery and so full of torment and pain for me.

Oh! how I often felt so very scared Oh! how I hoped some one would see and hear my screams and tears pouring out of me again and again constantly streaming down my face how could no one see my tears and pain I was in such agony. Someone just to care to speak up for me but no one ever did and just to take me away from there but no one ever noticed my tears or my anguish, pain and fear I thought just please get me out of here.

WHY was all this abuse allowed to carry on in there? in Nazareth House Homes JUST WHY?

Where were social services who should have been checking on our welfare why? did they not pick this up all the abuse that was happening in there?. Oh! if only they knew what went on behind those dreaded closed doors I wonder would they have even cared about me in there. Perhaps if they had cared I may have been rescued out of there, shown love and affection instead of humiliation and OH! such rejection that left me feeling endlessly dejected and so very torn...