When I was growing up WHY? was life so bad and always so sad?.
When I was growing up WHY? was I always beaten with sticks and I would always feel so sick with the fear dreading if the nuns ever came near?.

When I was growing up WHY? was I always screaming begging to be left alone?. When I was growing up WHO would have believed me? or who showed me they even cared about me?.

When I was growing up WHY? was life such a shame filling me with humiliation again and again?. When I was growing up WHY? was I always to blame trying time and time again to hide my shame?.

When I was growing up WHY? was I wishing PLEASE NEVER AGAIN  just wishing I could curl up and die?. When I was growing up WHY? was I always humiliated made to feel embarrassed and so scared?.

When I was growing up WHY? was I full of such fear never wanting the nuns to come anywhere near?. When I was growing up WHY? was there no cheer only all of my endless tears? with pain.

When I was growing up WHY? did I always feel torn and oh so very worn?. When I was growing up WHY? did I wish I had never been born because I was told I was always so wrong?.

When I was growing up WHY? was I hit with those awful big sticks leaving me in such awful pain?. When I was growing up WHY? was I hit with fists and even kicked?.

When I was growing up WHY? was I always crying and feeling like I was dying? all alone. When I was growing up WHY? was life so trying and I wishing I was dying?.

When I was growing up WHY? was I always sighing feeling oh so  sad?.

WHEN I WAS GROWING UP WHY OH! WHY WAS NO ONE THERE WHO EVEN CARED.

JUST WHY????????????