When I was beaten with your big sticks and canes you certainly knew
where to place your
aim.
You never aimed where the marks would show Oh but how my tears just constantly
flowed and
flowed.
I lost count of the many beatings I did endure at your cruel hands but they really hurt me
of that you can be absolutely sure.
What had I ever done to deserve your wrath only to answer you back you
left my world so cold lonely and stark also just so very black and dark.
I was an innocent child who was put into
your "care" now there is a joke what is that "care" by God I was constantly wishing I was not there.
And it certainly
wasn't through any fault of my own Why? was no love ever shown? so much it left me all cold and so forlorn.
Why? did you feel the
need you had to abuse me? that I just constantly HURT!
All
I ever needed was a loving touch a gentle guiding hand
and a caring touch I just
constantly hurt and hurt so
much.
My humiliation constantly caused me great pain & hurt I just felt so bare
and so alone and very scared.
I kept wishing for a brighter place for me to bring the sunshine
to me where I didn't feel all of this bloody humility you did to ME where none of this sadistic
abuse would keep on happening
to me.
Oh how my many dreams were shattered to smithereans and my bubble just burst but of course
none of it did seem to matter to you WHY?.
My
thoughts during my days spent with you were so full of
living and longing for a normal family where love would always be shown and NOT ABUSE through no fault of my own...
JUST WHY? DID YOU HURT
ME SO MUCH?
JUST TELL ME WHY?...