When I was molested it cut me deep inside When I was told it is a secret not to be told when I was molested it filled me with great shame and the abuser told me it was just a game.

I was hurting deep inside I could not tell my secret that was forever haunting my mind it was just  tearing me apart wondering who  can I trust to tell what has happened to me.

I felt so degraded and full of the utmost shame and I knew that what he said was a game was not right. 

I felt embarrassed and full of all the shame and guilt I wondered why people put me through all of this pain just to gratify and satisfy them they had stolen my innocence and trust that left me feeling who can I confide in with this big secret I have been told never to tell.

The things that went on in my mind was what was wrong with me? why do you feel you want to misuse me? I hurt real deep inside but yet I cannot reveal what has happened to me because it would hurt my daddy to reveal what had gone on so silence is what I followed as I was told it was a secret not to be told to anyone.

This so called "Uncle" so vile made me do things that I did not want to do and that I found so repulsive and vile to me but I was full of fear not wanting to tell because I knew it would bring me hell and did not want my dad to know because I knew he loved us so, so suffered on my own because I could not tell what was a continuing living hell.

 So what did I do I rebelled and went wild consequently I was put in yet another home.

The things I was asked to do were repulsive to me and I knew that it was wrong but no one could I trust to confide in to what was being done to ME...

So what did the authorities do they slammed me in yet another home where I was totally forgotten and nobody cared because I rebelled against what was happening to me and to add to my pain and misery the abuse carried on again and again...