To explore my feelings may hurt me and I may feel it is safer not to I have hidden behind this great big wall and not wanted to reveal all cause I may find it too scary for me to explore my feelings for ME.

But confront my feelings I need to do to try to stop it being such big issue.

It may work and it may not but it is something I need to feel safe when I do for when I confront them for me not a very easy thing for me to do. 

I have spent years hiding my feelings to all when what I really want to do is to let them all out that are buried deep within me.

Feelings are a scary thing to confront and all sorts of emotions run throughout me and can leave me just feeling isolated with them all and wondering what I can do to combat these many issues within me.

I think why they may be scary is because I feel if I do reveal my inner feelings to anyone they may end up hurting me like when I was small so I would rather not reveal any of them at all.

Because I have buried all of these pent up feelings over many years they felt safe to me and then I think I won't get hurt anymore because no one knows about any of my feelings or sorrow at all and it keeps me safe behind my barricaded wall. 

I need I think let them out and maybe I may feel better by far because I won't need to hide them anymore and perhaps it may begin to help me heal my soul just a little bit at a time at my own pace and I can stop whenever I feel the need if I feel unsafe to carry on and then start again when I feel stronger to examine them once more.
It will take some time I suppose as I have hidden them so well for a very long time and yes it's true I may get hurt but isn't it better they are out rather than inside of me constantly eating away at me...