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| Feb7,2002 Im back, doing well with the meds except for some crazy dreams sometimes, not too upsetting but weird. I think if you are taking meds that screw around with your brain chemistry, that is bound to happen. Work is stressing me but its a paycheck, and maybe somewhere down the road I will find a job that I like to go to....other then that I just keep counting the days til I get the kids here for a week and how much I look forward to it. |
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| Feb11,2002 Im still in this "just existing" rut of mine and I want out....I want to feel good again, and live again and I dont know how anymore. I feel ok with these meds except for weird vivid dreams all the time, but the heavy depression still seems to linger....and I am so sick of it, living this way...... |
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| Feb18,2002 I am not doing that well with updating, does it mean that I have a life? no....just fried all the time and not much to say. I am so looking forward to the kids visit and that is coming up soon....and I will be shopping for a new car soon...which will really make life easier and a tad more exciting. I have also met someone....yes someone from the opposite sex, he is a homeowner, great job, grandchild on the way, and hey he likes me...Do I like him? I dont know, I dont know if I am even ready to like someone....and until I am I am standing firm. Men, U know..... |
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| Feb20,2002 I long to be no longer carless in Cleveland, and I hope that this time next month I can say that...though the whole ordeal is stressing me, but it has been a goal and one that I soon will achieve. As far as my new friend, he is being very cool about my comfort level with this whole situation and like I was telling a good friend of mine...I have finally been able to stand on my feet, and I am so afraid to leave that little nest I have made. I know if I dont, eventually I will be a prisoner to it but its safe and I suppose that is what I need the most...and also what I have learned, men are supposed to enhance our lives not make it the pivoting point for happiness....that has to come from within, and still I am trying to reach it. |
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